fresh drops spring flowered dress
Rolling ankles
Below sun drenched light what a marvel
What a spin of love
Mystical wizardry floats upon the magic field
I love her
Maybe

Sometimes I forget to tie one shoelace
Never tripped up
Forget it’s even untied
Out of sight out of mind
Walking freely
I broke my ankle the other day
The one with the shoe tied
I now leave both shoelaces untied
Untangled
Out of sight out of mind
No filters,
Smiles abound
Shoelaces blowing in the wind
Freedom

Purple
Pink
Turquoise
Blue
Light green
Black
White
And the glorious yellow
The Sun
Penetrating throughout your nerves
I think I will wear yellow socks today
Floating into bliss,
Yellow is the way

Brick after brick keep coming on my shoulders
Nailed to my bed
Beyond tears of sadness
Just empty
Alone
Stagnant
Pull yourself up by your bootstraps
I would but I can’t find the boot straps
The lights are turned off
My only comfort is shutting me eyes
I sleep one eye open as I see my boots vanish
Please do not say pull yourself up from your bootstraps
You’ve not walked in my shoes
Severe depression

Unleash my tendons from my spine
Opioids death from my addiction issues
Green smoke billows into my core
Mother Nature grows it it naturally
Green smoke I can feel the release
Calm waves , magic liquid gold
Green smoke, chronic pain
Addiction free
Go green as science overwhelmingly
Implode the sickened FDA,
As money is not controlled
by natures way,
Go green

A hand to hold
Smiles on the shadows
Hold on
Tides change so quickly
Smiles on the shadows
A hand to hold
Comfort

Sand in between the toes
Mystical moon
Trails of stars
Moonbeams glistening with a soft glow
A collision of one
A grounded pure connection
A pure breath to your core, your center
You found yourself,
The sand in betweeen your toes

Luscious unfiltered water,
Sunshine snow, perfect in the moment
Magic from the sky
How do we all miss the moment
Frantic mind scatter,
Where do I have to be
What time
Can I make it
Who goes where
Insanity of the scattered schedules,
The hurried pace,
We can never see the sunshine snow,
Unless we all take a moment
and breathe

I see you
Not in your fancy red dress
Manners in tact for the elite
I see you as I look into your white eyes
Playing the part
You would give your life for one true smile
One genuine smile
Beyond the belle of the ball
Fake glimmers imagination for all
One genuine smile
I go back in time with my kin,
***** jeans
The mountains lovely marks
The wolves white eyes
A genuine smile as a walk the trail as I tried to keep up
My family laughing
My genuine white eyes smile
I return as I play the part
I see you
Your white eyes as I serve you immaculate food in your fancy red dress

Just sitting looking at a pine tree
no thoughts, judgements about it good or bad
Just mindfully looking at it all of it’s graceful beauty
No thoughts just impeccable focus.
We all judge, it is simply in our nature.
Guy in a black hoodie ,sweatpants are worn,
Business man in his fully equipped business attire
Thoughts , judgements,
STOP

Who what why when where and how.
I find myself between them all
Shackled skies torment me
I lift the stacks of who what where why and how
I find in the end it pays no worthy chap to bother
For to lift the shackled skies bestowed upon you
A wise man in the seedy alley told me to step outside of the box
So be it, I finally found myself again

It happened
Can’t go back
Dark alleys seem oh so nice
A quick shot of sweet liquid pain relief
A night of sure fire relief is all I seek
A guarantee death of my soul will follow
It happened
Can’t go back
Dark alleys seem oh so nice
My demons are right up on me
I have not welcomed them this close in oh such along time
Teetering on the edge of  any moons of sobriety

Oh springtime lover,
To dance the immaculate funk
White Sunny dress, toes bare.
In the white crystal colored sand,
to dance the immaculate funk
To be free as the unfiltered child,
molding their imagination with colored squishy playdoh

Laughter, the best medicine
Poking fun at the mirror
My reflections
Laugh at yourself
The clowns come hither
The circus of life begins

Chronic Pain,
Listen to it,
What is it saying
As it burns and tingles
Emotions trapped
Deep, entrenched
Digging through layers
Pain,
Emotions trapped
Can’t see through my inflamed body,
My inflamed emotions
Spread throughout

Into the chasm of my old dark friend
It comes again as I have been expecting
Hard to describe a deep depression in some sort of exact verbiage
So many times it has entered my realm without a knock at the door
Into the chasm of my old dark friend
My roller coaster thrills are vanished ,
As the bipolar swing ride has come to a screeching hault
I fall once again into the chasm of my old dark friend

My bodies numb,
Tingling, burning , electric zaps
Chronic pain.
Caged emotions not properly tamed
Engulfing my body,
Bandaids can’t soothe
Medicine can only cover up the wounds momentarily
Emotional discord
Physical pain
Numb

Intricate bodies,
One misfire in the complexity,
Devastating change, never physically the same
Atlas one must go back to the saying
Seize the moment
The black shadows can engulf you rapidly

Inside my brain
My lower skull
Base of blood barrier
There dwells black toxic putty
Nerves frazzled
Isolation with my bed buddy
I return to the revolving door
of western medicine
I believe a shaman,
A medicine man
Is the only way to **** out
the toxic putty

To the point
A sharp pen free form to the paper
No thinking pure soul
Need not elaborate
Simple freedom
Direct interpretation

Butterscotch kisses
Under the tree
Forgot our past
Years under the tree
Butterscotch kisses
No more
I didint forget
Butterscotch kisses

Black holes swell on logic,
but collect on fantasy.
Intercept the middle of the the fat lady,
the belt still squeezes.
Life still kicks,
Black holes squeeze on logic,
but always collect on fantasy.
Imagination wins evertime

Sinking couch
Warm blanket
Still mind
Neck melting
Body healing
Chill

I lost my wife in Vegas,
Pink dress with white shoes
My socks are *****
I’ve walked for miles
Gazing in window shops
I see my reflection in the window
I must return to Vegas
My wife in a pink dress
My gambling addiction

I miss life,
Beat myself down
into the ground
No shovel needed
No direct shock
Piercing my temple
Mental vs physical
It must be just a state of mind

Sparkling hot love,
Fresh water,
Warm bones,
Weary travels
Broken down
A hot bath,
My little rubber ducky
Floats,
My soul smiles

Mother Earth
Weary
Dismantled
Umbilical cord severed
Mother Earth
Weary
Dismantled
We cut our lifeforce
One last breath
The dust rains down

Deers and elves,
Snowflakes,
Mistletoe,
Family,
Santa,
Neatly wrapped packages
Not a penny in my pocket
I’m alone
I am the Grinch
Jim Beam and the fireplace
Just another day
Yay

Grounded smile
Toes in the sand
Colored love
Blissful sensations
Crystallized in time
Nature’s perfection
Toes in the sand

Satin
Smooth
Succulent
Wisdom beyond kisses
Lustful journey
Swayed by the silhouette
Rythmic
Palpable
Freshly covered fleece

Sad,
One single word
Encompassing far too many
emotions for me to put down
in a single pure sentence

Lost my memories
I am broken
Myself forgotten by me
No memories
No shadows chasing my light
Curled up shivering
I am broken
I can’t remeber who I am

Swirling magic
One moment
Red ruby
Pink ribbons
Deep purples pulsating
Colors dance
Healing begins
I can feel
Gold Sand
Smooth
Crystal clear
Smiles in my toes
As I stand firm
In this moment
Colors heal
Golden Sand
Embraces my
Weary bones
Time for your Meds
Mr Jenkins
Mr Jenkins
Time to wake up
Pain management awaits
Golden Sands

What happened
It did
Roll up
Chin up butter cup
That’s how the cookie crumbles
Are these words wise
What happened
It did
Roll up
Curl around the blue dog
Let him decide
Close your eyes
Listen mindfully
For my blue dog
Is my guide within
Blue dog
I thank you
I thougnt you ran away

Words are yours
Words are us
Forevermore our creation
Our unique blends
Your words
My words
Ours
Bottled words
found in time
Washed up onto the sand
Tiny hands open
Who’s words are these wrapped up tight
She respectfully seals the words back to the bottle
and let’s them go

The rush,
Andrenaline pumping,
Feel, listen, grasp
The energy
Under the roller coaster
I sit
A tear drop falls
I feel,
I listen,
I grasp
Underneath
Alone I sit under the roller coaster
Afraid to ride
Life

Sometimes I wonder what the river truly says,
It’s a wander of nature at its finest,
It is a pure interrupted flow of beauty
At its worst it is a stagnant pond that lost its way
I look back as I see the drops fall from my eyes
And hoping my heavy drops can help release
The toxic pond back home
To where the beauty of the untamed water
can  once again be free to its uninterrupted free flow
My heavy drops sink into the ground
Hopeful that one drop of water in the pond
Can find the hole left from my toxic soul
to see the narrow path of freedom
as the others may follow
seeping their way through
and all find all their way
back home
To join the beauty of nature at its finest
The pure river of of an uninterrupted free flow
Sometimes I wonder what the river truly says

Stuck in mud
Eating my spleen
How to run
Freedom
My mind
Stuck in mud
My reality
Mud

Time,
Circles of life
Swirling favors of conception
Drops of heavy tears for the end of lives
Time
Celebrate the circle of life
We are al intertwined
One mass organism
Birth and death
Circles of life
Smiles and frowns
Time

To follow the fluorescent pink light
The deepest of blues
Golden love wraps around my hypothalamus
I travel outside the aches of my insides
A whisp of magic
A float of my soul
My guide delivers me
Immaculate imagination
Message for this journey
NOW
NO MORE FEAR

Black bile,
Shamans magic
Into the darkness
See the light
Black bile
Evil creature
Inside ourselves it spreads
Toes to minds
The shamans way
Shall be our only way
Black bile
Hurts

Funky and free
You and I
Running through the night
Golden shadows
Finding each other
Beyond a simple kiss
Beyond it all
No words need to be spoken
We just know
Funky and free

Aces
Mental speed, too quick for a blink
Up all night smiles
Intense let it ride
Light blue sand on the beach

Deuces,
Mental fog
Slow motion
Covers over my head
Let me disappear

What’s the game Billy
Aces high deuces low
Got it
My reality
Bipolar

Underneath the squeeze
Panic attack in my belly
Physical
Mental
One in the same
I brushed my teeth
Everything went away

Good morning people,
Awaken
Close eyes
Good morning people,
Awaken
Close eyes repeat.
Change your world
Change your perspective
Change the shape of your box
Good morning
Your time has arrived

Smart,
Phones,
Empty life,
Sympathy lost
Overcrowded planet
Mother Earth
Lost her cell
She smiled
Advanced human technology
Lost
Green grass
Spring flowers
Wild animals dancing through the forest
Mother Earth
Vanished
She never got the text

As I sit,
I look upon the slow draw of the river
My soul is free for just a moment
As I recall past memories
of the place where I shall be put to rest
A teardrop runs slowly down my cheek
As the river continues to flow
Such as life
A moment to cherish

Dr Seuss
Kids eyes closed
Snuggled up just right
Awake
My own stories
Ruminations
Stuck needle on old school vinyl
Awake
I want dr Seuss
and snuggled up just right
My mind
Awake

Up and down,
Bipolar popcorn
Salt and pepper,
With a lovely twist
of an unorthodoxed path
Bipolar
I diagnosed mysel
I am simply me

People please give me space,
We are being collapsed on top of each other
Open 24/7
Pick up, order through, clicked out,
Checked out
No more space far too many people,
Running each other into distress.
Can’t quite take a big enough
step to another planet

Please give me some space