Circus carnies
Real words
Focused mind
Remote camping
Soul friends
Love
Life
When possible

Chronic pain
A trip to the clouds
Mind over matter
A brave journey
Hello pain
what are you really trying to tell me
Listen closely
A trip to the clouds

Who what where when and when
Corporate fog
Buzzing
Tingling
Body numb
Engine has seized
Computer overload
Sail away,
My ship has no destination
Only sunshine
Managers
None
Sally good riddance
Sealed mouth
Clear blue skies
Ship onward
Hungry but happy

I like to unleash
a smile on occasion
Feels good
Sunrise, sweet nectar,
I like to unleash
a smile on occasion
Feels a good
I’m smiling at you
As I write
Hope it generates a smile
and as dominoes fall
The world can just for a short lived moment
Unleash its own smile

Moment accept,
Listen
Breathe
Mindful wonders
Cartwheels on the grass

Spine sticky
Residue of past emotions
Linger trapped,
Bone sore,
Skull crushing pain
Black sticky scraps
My food never truly cleaned
From the plate of my life
Sticky plate

Mind shattered,
Spirit crushed,
Body crawling
I have been cursed
The hole dug deep
Echoes I fear
Alone
Afraid
Cursed

I love her so much
It came clear from the most scientific data
From the heart
Feelings deep seated
soul filled feelings are the strings of fate
I love her so much
I know,
I believe in the strings of fate

Hickory dickory dock
Fill me in with the most desperately asked question
What the **** are we doing here

Paper made of jello,
Snowmen dancing in the wind
Free yourself,
As your imagination
Soars into a peaceful state.

My only solace is cereal,
It’s crunchy goodness,
Makes me smile in my time of need
Comfort is comfort
Solace is solace

Done with me
Done with you
Pretzels crunch
Barefoot freedom
I wait for the sun again
I wait for the moon again
Shallow waves in an empty pool
Where did you go
I miss you
Where did I go

I looked into the silver streak breath of life
stared into the mirror
I licked aromatic flesh
Pressed heads against the biggest of eyes
I sit upon Mother Earths own waterfall
And
I
C
R
Y

I go forward,
I sometimes choose backwards,
The flow of movement,
The decorated change of thought
Mixing colors with words,
I choose my own way
My own smile comes about

A single breathe,
A hot bath
And a bowl of chicken noodle soup
What else,
Oh
A ******* full of soul

Jumpin green
In between outta sight
Can’t see me but I see you
Perched on my Lilly, my voice distinct
Jumpin green
And not to far in between
My jump precise ,
My vision clear
I am jumpin green and not far between

Roof overhead, coffee brews.
Bed is comfy and
the yard is big
No job, a criminal record is a wall
No car , walking alone
Mind rumination
No contacts accept non palpable cyberspace
Mental illness a life long critter of mine.
In the midst of fear and anger

I feel alone and alone I have created

A smile cracked,
The sunshine simmered a grin on me
Long long days it’s been,
Med switch
What am I bipolar unipolar
A unicycle a motorcycle
Sam I am how bout  
I am a mere human with many shifts in
Energy
I think I want to just go to a hospital
And rid all these meds out of my body
And start anew before springtime hits
Peace all
Let’s rock and write

Lips gleam
Buses scream through the dirt roads
Sirens
Long legs
Tight skirts
And all the glory in between
The clocked turned 6 and my night shift had ended
Lunch is for dinner
And the streets continue their roundabout rush
As survival is the same from the house or from the night protection of a solar eclipse

A month ago
Fluid inspirational being,
Med switch mental darkness again clamps in
agitation, adrenaline pumps through veins
Med switch, soul switch
In the blink of an eye a plea for help
A switch in he alchemists bad
The almighty psychiatrist wrong
Yet again with the med dart board throwing
Foiled yet again as stability held me up strong
In one month
In one month
I seemed to have lost my soul
Yet again
The dull shovel
Of mine after many a deep dig out of this
Empty shell of acute depression
Begins its arduous work of bring me light
Manic depression as Jimi Hendrix  guitar strung it
Soulfully on the head
Is indeed a frustrating mess

In the funk,
Melancholy drips its hollow shell
I dig deep inside my mattress
I stay fearful yet only comfortable within
My best friend the heavy blanket
Wet from my tears,
Hankering down been here gone through without a scratch
Just the continuing fear of the scratch in my mind

A notch on the belt a stir of the
wicked soup
Trouble in paradise as the highs hit the lows and
The diagnosis is indeed correct
Doctor can you help now
For I truly know you are correct
There’s no keel of evenness
My wings have been melted by my own imbalance
And the hole is too deep for me to wiggle out of

I sit
Empty walls and the birds flap outside
I sit
And watch the rabbits mate
I sit
And I see the brick path leading outside
I sit
Living in the past

Soul
My soul has been cheerfut since the magic pill
A month later I visited the renound  psychiatrist
He drearily informed me what I had been taking
Was indeed a sugar pill
I walked out completely outraged
My soul returned
Back to the black hole
I am dreadfully disappointed there is no pill to relieve
Me except for that magic sugar pill

Pitter Patter
and a thump in the night
Alone I crumble
Alone I fight with the mirror
Pitter Patter
I desire your silk
I desire your comfort
I pour your evil but charming ways
I am sick again

Life *****,
**** rots,
That's the way the cookie crumbles
Bake a ****** cake
You get what you get don't throw s fit
Crumbling life
Rocks in my soul
As I crush another muy bueno
Pseudo smile
Onto the shiny thoroughly cleaned mirror

Return to sender,
Smile it's not yours anymore,
Blackened past
Disruptive pause in life,
Return to sender
I will return ,
I will pick myself up once again
Disruptive pause in life,
I am the sender and I am the receiver
Let myself turn the button back to play
For the pause has been stuck for way to long
Pause play pause play,
Return to sender
Play pause play pause and play once again
Thank you life thank you me

Empty treasures,
Two,paths unveiling each other at the same time,
Doors and curtains smoke and mirrors
What am I really seeing
What am I missing
This key doesn't unlock this door
And this door doesn't lock this key
My journey in life
Opening and locking the same door
With the same keyhole at the same time
By the way dude I love your sister
And the keyhole to her lock is in my pocket
The door swings side and open and shut at the same time
While the keyhole never needs to be locked
Cheers buddy

Where am I,
Where,did the food come,from
Why am I clean
Don't li,emthis place
Outside is my home

Embossed
On the return
Lipstick washed
Step through the door
Where you been
Outside
Yea outside
Inside it's cold
Outside feels better
Time to find another place

We all got somethin
Parallel tranquility
Within us all must be
a nod of respect
With the upmost humanitarian
and good will
With a knowing certainty that each one of
us
is enduring our own suffering through this
life we all live
Health and happiness to all of you good people
Please spread this simple message to another and so on and
So forth as it must be spread throughout the world
Be kind to  one another
For we all have some kind of
unique **** we are facing
We are all in this together

On top of the world
A day old biscuit , A fat sliced piece of bacon
On top of the world
Smiling as I walk down the black and blue alley
On top of the world
Not a penny in my pocket
On top of the world
A smile
I am free

Smooth lips
Stockings tight
Lustful nummies in the women's restroom
Lights
Chocolate pudding kisses
Cream
Upside down Pineapple Express
Wax
Melting
Hard
Hard
Sinful lust
Let it out

Meds, cabinet heavy
Reflections in the ever changing mirror
I don't know
Answers are done
I've let go
I've smiled I've cried in the same breath
One lasting impression before I go
I'm a human being of value
Caring for each and every one of you

Divorce,
Mommy gets it all,
Dads stuck.
Mommy gets it all,
Regardless of the new movement,
Women to be treated equal to men in the workforce
Dads stuck
Mommy gets it all
Court system skewed
Dads lose job
Dads wheels just spinning in the mud
Mommy gets it all
Women have the baby
Men watch the children the majority of time
Mommy gets it all
Women have the baby
Mommy gets it all

In the box,wrapped up tight
Gasping for pure air knees to my chest
Labeled to be shipped out
Paperwork filed, we know what he is
I am the label they gave ,e
That's all I am supposed to be
A nicely wrapped box with a label on it
Return to sender please
I know more
I am more
Than a quick observation
I am more than a  black and white label

I stumbled onto my demons yesterday
I told them to *******
I am now living my life freely
My secrets are yours
My fear
Gone
******* demons
I have no more time
I want to leave this institution
No more meds or labels
I am uniquely me
As you are,uniquely you
Hi demons
*******
Hi world it's me

Alone, pacing
Wandering mimd spinning the same tracks on a continuous groove
Stuck in the middle of nowhere land
I've visited here many times before in my trails
Medications meditations misguided and maladjusted
Been up down and over and out
Bipolar a rude disorder
White knuckling despair
Craving breath and the laughter of others
alone ,
Thoughts
Darkness with the sun shining on my skin
Wrinkles forming as the bumps of life
Stick firmly to my face
Alone pacing
I'm stuck

Peace,
Angered by the little things that spin about through my head
Peace
plump lips caress my skin
abrupt seduction flies in the moonlight
peace and anger live together
accept both

Can't help it ,
Can I , confusion saddles my mind,
Lovers ,soul friends , family can only do so much
Stuck in sloppy mud,
Tires spinning,
Over and over,
Can't help it,
Can I?
Thoughts spinning in the mud .
Tired tires,
Please come to me love,
It's been quite a journey

Embrace
Emotionally let it flow
Sexually your wildest desires must be satisfied
Friendship is life
Freedom for all
Let it go let it flow
Embrace life

Understood,
Physical, Mental illness soul piercing Malicious pain
Consistent worry for my welfare Buzzes my ruminating mind
Pathetic worry about my welfare
The respect I deserve
Strong as wounded soldier I stand upright and proud
Your worry of my well being
An ill disrespect of what I have been through
Survivor and one strong human being of value
Plagued by illness physical, mental I always make it through it

Don't down play my strength, it won't do
No Pity

My bones ache my soul is crushedi
All alone my thoughts my eyes red
All slone I  sit
All alone I try to find the blackened light
Can anyday jere me
The razors edge
The mystique of  a Lost wondered
I ponder
All alone
What would it be like to be with another
I sit here alone sith my my ruminating thoughts
The slick sharp razors edge
What would it be like
As I  sit here a broken man
A glimmering Ray of  my
Of my blackened self
Just is trying to find a light switch
My bones ache and my soul is cdussjdd
All alone
And justI sit
Sitting and wating
As the snail moves,slowly across the razors edge
Im just TIRED

Hot wax eating into your skin
Pain pleasure as we run through the mystical grass
Lips moist I run my finger across slowly
Legs hot
Thoughts of *******
Thoughts of sweet caress
I want more
I want more
Ropes unbound
Your freedom is felt
The candle dances as the wax slowly drips
You  glide savagely
I am yours as you are mine
As we melt umder the all knowing bliss under the watchful eye of the full moon

My granny is dying,
Wow plasmatic  skies ignite,
Anger into revolt as my tears melt into hers
What a grand woman
Poor imdeed, heart of gold
Determined eyes of steel purpose unleashed as a brothel of bubbly love
Where and who are,you
Step off  the dirt my Granny will soon be in the small plot is only a memory for all who loved
Step off my grann's plot for I will punish thee with a fury not witnessed by you and that im sure
Step of mother ******* my tears are for me and my granny

Insipid spiders
Maddening geometric traps
My love for you is simple
A new geometric fire built with logs I created
Under the stars we sleep
Free from the insipid spiders and geometric traps
Pure natureis free breathing love
Skin warm,fire dwindling
Under the stars we create our own star plate
Freedom in fresh wilderness
Far away from societal traps
My tongue slowly drips from the soft forbidden spot
We breathe together as nature intended it to be
Insipid Spiders go rest for now
I get my fly rod ready for the sweet Riverflow on days next adventure .

Lost in space,is it day or night
Insipid meds driving me into a moon filled submission
I saw the owl today during daylight
He comes to me menacing but guiding still not done with my spiritual quest
Now not about love misery process misery of unbridled destiny
Now about meltimg walks undescribable realizations about me
No one else is alloed at this festival of mental instability .
I need help
I am ill do what
I accept and that's it
The end
Will the owl ever present me with my true answers to positive health
And my now lost funny contented grin

Done with tiny masquerade parties
Accepting sweet passionatecandlesbeimg briskly blown away
Unacceptable timetables of perfection predictability
Immense knowledge must be withered away in the ******* like forest
We all must understand each other to begin to give pure unadulterated ever quenching water back to our MOTHER EARTH
Trumps a fkr

What and Whocame around that one day

Don't remember
Exact memories what and who said that
Whatever happened to the real me
**** I don't know
Memories lost and episodes of massive im er shift quaked me
What and who did happen
Reality did strike
Lightning did happen
What and who hid for along time
Im finding out
That's,my own heroes journey
Find what and who in your own life
**** matters I matter
What and who said thatt
Matters
Mimd shakes and quakes
Lightning  did happen
What and who
**** matters
Im gonna find out

Blue womderful pain cuddles me
I made it so
I returned the magic beans to the stalk
I figured it out
The blue womderful pain cuddles me
I want it all
I want sensual bodies meltimg within me
We all feel pain
How do you deal with it
The blue womderful pain cuddles me
And I cuddle it back
I figured it out
Just for this moment
The sensual bodies melt within me
Just for this moment
Caress it and live it
Remember it all
And the door opens and the nurse visits me with a smile and asks hermso familiar questions
Just for this moment
LIVE