I hope you never meet anyone as messed up as me.
Good luck in life, I hope yours is sweeter than mine.
I'll just stay here, with my friends:
Anxiety, Depression and Mr. Pity Party.
I'll talk to you later

To tell the truth
If I'm being honest
I see nothing in myself.
But lies

it takes a life time to reach the shores of the isle of the blest

She is quiet
In all but her thoughts
Still in part it seems a curse
Do have a lame mouth
Paired with a mind that runs
A mile every minute

This still is why
She is so weary at heart
Though she dare not move
Or even rise in the morning
Though in her solitary mind
She has already encompassed
Every hardship in the world

like a goodmorning kiss
you embrace the horizon
your golden fingers reach out
ready to dive-in

you wash the fields
in your golden essence
and all who awaken
embrace your presence

slowly you rise up
to fill these empty skies
and I lift my slumberer's head
to look you in the eyes

so many times before
have we begun this dance
each time, again I stay
so not to miss a chance

the melody of your rays
slowly claim their place
you are much to bright
for me to see your face

a bright and blinding beauty
I could never  dare to atain
it is enough to sense your presence
I beg that you remain

bound to the sky
by an immortal chain
my Light, I know your dance
will never be in vain

I could never wish to tame
the passion beneath your skin
for I would only be burned
if you ever let me in

to touch, would mean an end
so I would never dare
I resign to my humble hope
that you could even care

you leave me alone
with the promise of a dream
but I have been told
things are not as they seem

until the next moring
my soul and heart shall yearn
only one deity can rule the sky
each must take their turn

I shall retain my nights
for my nights are mine alone
yet as a gift, I give you my days
for my days are yours to own

if I asked you sweetly
would you dare to let me run
the skies you've always owned
the skies of the morning sun

I stand so breathlessly
at the sight of you
veiled in this moring
and shrouded in the dew

I want to walk beside you
tracing every single step
following each and everyone
until none of them are left

none could compare
to your sweet light
but still you hide it
in the coolness of the night

you blush bright at dawn
like a gentle  maiden's cheek
my friend, on your endless journey
I hope you find what you seek

you never look back
to the places you have been
you will always dance
to the heavens - and back again

I put my world on your shoulders
And you could handle the weight
I put my heart in your hands
And you held it like glass
You warmed my soul
From head to toe
And just like you promised
You never let me go

Birthed into a world
Of sin and of pain
Given a mark
Given a name

My life began
Made in a womb
I shall live my life
Then be hid in a tomb

My life goes on
I sing a lonely song
I walk on earth
And watch the sky
I seek the answers
But deny what I find

My starts at the beginning of a road
Not knowing where it goes
Just following where the wind blows
I walk this street this is the path I choose

Where it goes only God knows
I don't see the signs
And the stars in a straight line
Only seeing details much to fine
And the sun when it shines

My life begins
I know now when it ends
I will reach the top
And then there I will stop
Seeking yearning to know my purpose
Wanting to know if its all worth it

You
Are all
That she is
Every dream
Felt

I can't tell you now**

I was planning on it
Really I was
but
Something got in the way
Either the stove was left on
The door wasn't shut
Your breathing wasn't even

As little as it was
It made all the difference
And so quietly
I will bleed

Glide to the center
In your ghostly form
I could walk right through you
Like a wraith

It was a deeper shade
Than all the purples, all the purples before
They snuck in the edges
Of my vision

Like the sun
Setting into dark
They filled the abyss
With their chaos and color

If I was the lightning
Reflected in your eyes
I would be content
For I would always be with you

You crackle with electricity
But everywhere on this earth I touch
Turns to fire and ash
I dare not make you shine

For if I did
The world would burn
Into ashes and memories
And the tallest trees would crumble

You don't have a clue
How storms are made
Like your temper
They rise and fall

And like your dreams
They fade
Into a distant memory
A cold past

Every time I hear it
My spine shudders in recognition
My shoulders tighten like a rope
And I spark

Down the wires
I dance so merrily
Into your home, and heart
Through the walls I course

Nothing, but trouble and beauty
Like ice and salt I burn
When crushed in your hand.
A challenge.

You provoked me
Into the night and its darkness
I will return
In tenfold of clouds

And rain down
Until I reign!
You pull the reigns
And my tears rain

Like a bit in my mouth
These words are so sharp
I spit them out
And they foam

Like a rabid monster
I bit your heart
I wormed inside
And found my own way out

The small of my back
Damp with the sweat of my fear
The whole world
Thinking I am a star

I shine brighter
But not for you
Like a diamond on your hand
That you can't hold

But I found my courage at the bottom:
The bottom of the glass
The bottoms of the chasm
The bottom of your heart

I walked many halls
And the keys of your piano-forte
And then I fell
Like a crescendo

Black and white
I saw stars
Blue and purple
Around my eyes

They serve as a reminder
On my wrist
In your letters.
And every day

We don't forget
We just don't remember
Less and less
Until it's gone

When it's wrong its allowed
But we wouldn't say it out loud
So loud I couldn't hear
Until I got it out

We try to make it right
Wouldn't take what's left
Scared of what's behind
And the future much to near

So comfortable with the chaos
We hate it, until it's lost
I wanted so hard to find it
When that time came, you had changed

Your tentacles reach
And sting my skin
The lightning bites back
But it's to cold

Cold in my head
I can't shake out
Like a snow globe
With a pounding melody

I'm the wild one
With the blue eyes
With the knife
And the disguise

A mask of emotions
Ripped away
And the anger crackles forth
And wraps the earth in fingers of light

Go to sleep
With a solid belief
That love doesn't exist.
Awakened to a reality,

Where it was here
But it is destroyed
I know I had it
Now it's gone

It left it's mark
Like a hammer in my heart
And it got stuck
It wouldn't get out

I bite into the truth
And the regret trickles down my throat
The taste to bitter
To swallow

I checked
Every three minutes
For a new way to survive
But my patience wore thin

If you had a heart attack
I could jump you back to life
Rub my hands together
And dissipate the fates

But I do not think the fates
Would meddle with something as black as your heart
Like chalk on a white wall
You drew me in

And spit me out
Like you had swallowed fire
But I was already in your veins
Racing for your heart

I really need to stop telling myself that the things that affect me in a  negative way are dumb

it's okay I'll shut up now

*sorry

Body
Of a broken soul

Soul
Of a broken body

Untold
Puzzles in my head

Heads
And untold puzzlement