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219 · Mar 2018
Gentle
Lexie Mar 2018
As gentle as I go into the night
It is not good
And whence I return from such a depth
Cast off and abandoned from all I foolishly hold dear
Everything next to my heart is ripped away
Leaving me to be bound in agony
For all that is good is tangible
Still I cannot touch it
And all that has worth is so quickly spent out on fools and folly alike

She is a dream
And a fool all at once
Bound to the same stars as many souls before her
Like rockets set into space her mind wanders
And such as the sun shines so is she light
But there is more inside her than has been felt in the whole world
Compact and thoughtful
Overflowing and lacking all at once

He is a nightmare and a dragon
Breathing fire and flame to the wick of a candle soul
He is bitter and salty, a handful of the bottom of the ocean
You could drink and drink and your thirst never be quenched,
but you savor the taste in your mouth and you dare not spit it out
Just a kiss, to save the world
Just a hand, to lift up the sky
Just a heart to beat again, if you can find it bound within your chest
A mystery is this; if such a thing still remains
To long it has been left cold
To long, to long

Still the night calls
The twinkle of the stars enticing Though who can touch the celestials
Gentle she calls and gentle she is
Though strength has not abandoned her
219 · Jun 2018
Understood
Lexie Jun 2018
I do not understand
my own words
even in their simplicity

I do not understand
your actions
or a single choice you have made

I am vexed
beyond belief of both
illusion and that which is concrete

So fool me now
just as I am
tomorrow is a new day

One can only hope
in vain or futility
that I will be wiser as the sun rises
219 · May 2014
Shadows
Lexie May 2014
If my heart were lighter then my wings wouldn't have to work so heard
My broken arms are bent in exhausted unnatural formations
The lines on my face are deep etched scars
And the heaviness in my steps leave a sodden trail
The tears from my eyes are heavy drops of lead
My shoulders slumped in defeat of this life
A tired neck arched to a delicate broken brow
An accursed face with no joy only sorrow
Just another moonbeam waiting for tomorrow
219 · Aug 2019
Toxic
Lexie Aug 2019
Red flags are the asterisk next to your name, footnotes I am to careless to read.
218 · Apr 2018
Ocean Arms
Lexie Apr 2018
I pull away
Like the sand from the shore
Only to throw myself against you again
The moon is full
She lights my way
I rush to you
And break upon your arms
218 · Mar 2016
My spot.
Lexie Mar 2016
I am wedged in, between the crack in reality
218 · Jan 2018
Change
Lexie Jan 2018
Things are going to change again
and I don't think I'll ever be ready
218 · Jun 2014
The Past
Lexie Jun 2014
I am choking on the air that is to thick to breathe
Crying through the fears trying just to see
The light at the end of the hall
I try to walk but stumble and fall
Just another trip down memory lane
Reliving all the pain

"Pain demands to be felt"

"Okay?"
218 · Feb 2016
The Music Affect
Lexie Feb 2016
Life is great, until I take my earbuds out
218 · Oct 2014
The Birth of a Nation
Lexie Oct 2014
Swept out of the womb
Towards a shore of freedom
Eyes hungrily seeking
A brave new world
Pilgrims and pirates set sail
For a land of untold riches
Finding shores of desolate sand
And fields of maize

Mother calls you home
"Come back to me" she cries
The gentle ears of a new country
Ignore the ringing call

Rebuke comes
Followed by armies of red coats
Thirteen fingers reaching
For the freedom within its grasp
Thirteen toes digging
Into soil it wishes so keep

Pain in the chest
And love in the heart
Don't tear this new country apart
England, fair well
Do drop in for tea
But not in Boston
Because the tax isn't free
218 · Sep 2014
Ruins
Lexie Sep 2014
It is dark without the light
Something not so obvious

It is cold without your heat
The warmth of your broken skin

It is barren without your love
The tender touch so warm

I am lost without a guide
I cannot run, cannot hide

So lost in the thought
The answer escapes my lips

Bring me back to light
With your evening kiss

The stars guide all the dreamers
To better, peaceful shores

The isle of the blessed
Is reserved for the wishers of something
more

A dream hatched before it was done
Is a day spent in wonder of a life so young

A shot in the dark
A cry from the pain

A ghost with fingers
Who can mark the bane

Reading words on temple stone
Never leaving well enough alone
217 · Dec 2021
Bondage
Lexie Dec 2021
I can breathe
I can breathe
The air that's pushing out from my diaphragm
Is humid and labored
I can breathe
The blood circulating to my hands
Stops at the leather around my wrist
Animal skin is not the only contact on mine

I can breathe
I used to tie cherry stems with my tongue
Now I bite it as ropes tighten
A second ribcage around my chest
A necklace around my throat
The carcass kiss of summer dripping
Warm wax on my thighs

I can breathe
Breathe into me
Your love, devotion, possession
Fill my senses
Tighter

I can breathe
217 · Jan 2014
Emotions I Can't Explain
Lexie Jan 2014
No words can express
What I feel right now

I cant understand the pain of today
I don't know how to figure out what to say

Cut the bonds
Slice the skin
Walls so paper thin

Listening ears
and
Aching hearts

Stop hold out your hand
I don't think I can understand
217 · Jan 2014
Words
Lexie Jan 2014
I use them over and over again
Some mean nothing
Some have depth

I yell some
I shout others

I whisper them in the dark

The comforting sounds

The peaceful noises

They fill my head

Some alive some dead

Some filled with horror

Some filled with dread

Some people I wish would just use actions instead
217 · Oct 2018
Breathing
Lexie Oct 2018
I wanted to breathe with my heart, whispering...

I hope you find your happiness
I hope to God you make your healing
If love was tangible
It would be a blanket to keep you warm on the nights so cold and soulless
It would be the way home on the night of the weakest moon
It would be my hand winding through yours like a vine

A dreamer kisses a canves, because even if there is no beauty to be seen in something, it can be made
A vessel, no less, no greater than the intentions
Just as the hands who work it are folded in prayer

I wanted to breathe with my heart
Wanted to kiss with my hands
I'm learning to love though
As only a fool can
216 · Feb 2014
Written In the Stars
Lexie Feb 2014
Your destiny may not be written in the stars
But your dreams are
Your troubles may count more than the grains of sand alone the beach
But your hope fills the oceans
Your beauty may sink to the bottom of the depths
But beauty comes from the inside
Your tears may be heavier than rain
But they shine more than the diamonds in the mines

Your world may not make sense
But it should or there would be no purpose for you
You may owe many debt
But remember the war isn't over yet
Your longing may have run dry
But your love expands past galaxies

Your destiny may not be written in the stars
But your dreams surpass all knowledge
Your story may not be written in the sky
But the days spell out your legacy
Your life may now know this world
But your heart beats in time with the tide
Your passion may be held captive by lies
But only you can set it free

Your destiny may not be written in the stars
But your dreams are. Believe.
216 · Oct 2015
Escape
Lexie Oct 2015
You trapped me in your soul


And I writhed to get free


Now their are scars on your chest


From where your heart used to be





I bled beneath your fingers


You trapped me in your skin


And I fought my way out


You felt me from within





So feirce my rage


As I escaped my prison


It was like a new day


Like a sun I had risen





The blinding light


To sear your eyes


For you need to feel


The extent of your demise
216 · Feb 2014
One True Thing
Lexie Feb 2014
My quiet you say speaks the loudest
The dark you say spreads so much light
The ocean you say is the driest of all
The dessert you say quenches your thirst

Sleep you say only makes you tired
The food you eat only makes you hungry
The silent beating of my heart you say echoes like thunder
The air you say chokes you like being ducked under

The cold you say has never felt so warm
The sun you say chills you to the bone
But my love is the only thing that is real
Its the only thing that feels right
216 · Jul 2019
Accident
Lexie Jul 2019
I almost became
The cross
On the side of the road
216 · Mar 2022
Paralytic
Lexie Mar 2022
Have you heard the sound
The mouth makes
When the heart breaks
So loud it looks like screaming
But it couldn't be more silent
215 · May 2014
Broken Tones
Lexie May 2014
If my voice was as loud as my heart would you hear it?
215 · Oct 2018
Strength in the Suffering
Lexie Oct 2018
These tears have built more towers
Than your hands ever could
215 · Jan 2016
Walls
Lexie Jan 2016
Will these walls ever come down?
I freak out every time they crack!
The windows are nice
A little light is okay.

But please I need them up
Surrounding me, to feel safe.
I could never have a guard
To take the walls out of place
215 · Nov 2023
Just a girl.
Lexie Nov 2023
I’m just a girl
I love her
I love moving my body
I love music
No one
Can care for me
Like myself
215 · Nov 2014
how to know
Lexie Nov 2014
keep breathing in poetry
and exhaling unwound emotions
dusting off dreams a gift to the star
praying to the dictionary god
and the rhyming wizard
dreaming for a clearer tomorrow
and a brighter future
215 · Dec 2018
Waiting
Lexie Dec 2018
everything is temporary
215 · Mar 2016
Tuned Out
Lexie Mar 2016
I just realized that
I have started lying to you
Not with words
But with my voice
And how my heart sings
A little less vibrantly
I will not apologize
Because
You have already
Tuned me out
Along with
The rest of the world.
215 · Dec 2018
Mémoire
Lexie Dec 2018
Oublie moi, mais n'oublie pas mon amour.
Translation from French; forget me, but do not forget my love.
215 · Feb 2019
Fifteenth
Lexie Feb 2019
Will you be my valentine?
The one who warms the hands of the broken hearted.
Now accepting.
215 · Jan 2014
Stop
Lexie Jan 2014
Stop the train
Cut the engine
Let the coal fall from the shovel
I need to go back
In order to fix my future
I need to turn around

I'll tell you how I feel
I don't care if I never heal
I'll stop every arrow
I'll block every blow
I just need to tell you
So that you can know

I loved you. I love you. And I always will.
214 · Mar 2016
The Scale
Lexie Mar 2016
8.2
I will be okay
8.3
It is harder to breathe
8.6
My skin itches
8.9
My head hurts
9.2
I just...
9.5
Life.
9.6
Maybe
9.7
This is pretty bad
9.8
I'm done
9.9
Wait! Wait. Its okay

6.4
Tomorrow is coming
Tomorrow is almost here
5.4
Hey, think of the people who love you
4.9
I will see myself in the mirror tomorrow
214 · Jun 2019
Red Lights
Lexie Jun 2019
Red lights know nothing of the lines below
When it rains again
Maybe they will touch them
Your reflection is beautiful too
213 · Dec 2018
6 String Heart
Lexie Dec 2018
If you ever needed love
I would play you until my fingers bled
Your strings biting into my skin
What is a taste of pain to a beautiful melody
213 · May 2018
Amante
Lexie May 2018
If I could articulate as well as I think
If I could speak as much as I care
I think you would truly understand me
But if you just tired to love me
I wouldn't have to work so hard to heard
213 · Jul 2017
Crazy
Lexie Jul 2017
It felt good
The way you kissed my neck
It would feel better
To run my car over your face

Psychopathic tendency's
Uncontrollable liars

It was sweet
The way you hugged me
It tasted better
The poison on your tongue

Acid and arrows
Cupid's fate
213 · Nov 2014
tumbles
Lexie Nov 2014
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213 · Feb 2016
The Truth
Lexie Feb 2016
I begged for it
But once we were face to face
I couldn't handle it
Didn't want to realize
Give me the lies
Of the sweetest taste
Evict the truth
And fill its place
I submitted for a while
I bought it
Even like the taste
But all to soon
It was bitter
And reality was foul
Like smoke in my eyes
Left alone, in solitude
We were okay
But in a world
Filled with opposites
And attractions
You were not so appetizing
I followed you
Because you promised
To lead me home
But the place
That I was taken to
Was much to bright
For my darkened
perspective
212 · Aug 2015
Brown Eyes
Lexie Aug 2015
Like Fall's best shades
Your eyes shine
If they were steps
I would climb

Cool and dark
And mixed with ice
To look in them
Is to pay a price

Brown as the leaves
With a shimmer
Deep as the earth
Tears much thinner

Gentle gazes
But yet you see my soul
Looking inside
To see what's whole

Sweet like chocolate
I dare not take a bite
I could never able to handle
The feelings at that height

For I would never wish to harm
That gentle part of your soul
I'd rather just watch
And let you stay whole

But yet I bit into your poison
A choice I chose to choose
And I shall regret nothing
For it was mine to lose

Trap me inside your eyes
I am lost in them already
Don't rock me like a boat
Keep your gaze steady
#BrownEyes #Poem #Life #Lost #Emotions
212 · Dec 2017
Untitled
Lexie Dec 2017
We are not all bulletproof in our intentions.
Lexie Sep 2014
I was stupid; like a blind girl waiting to see the sun
I was hopeful; like a blind girl waiting to see the sun
I was in the dark; like a blind girl waiting to see the sun
I tilted my face to the sky; like a blind girl waiting to see the sun
212 · Jun 2015
In a Silent Place:
Lexie Jun 2015
In between sheets thinner than paper
As the candle end their height
All we ever made
Will be born into light

Scars on bodies
And a tempered will
This night is for us
And it won't sit still

Colder than glass mixed with ice
Better than nights
Of darkened souls
And days of lights

Between the collection of
Legs and arms intertwined
If you looked
Is it me you would find

A darker heart a lighter soul
A deeper ******
And a better incision
Memories fade to dust

As ashes rises from your lips
The cigarettes die
And a lung of death
Is brought alive

Thirty five lives
Follow by thirty four deaths
But if you count again
You find none are left

It doesn't add up
I won't back down
Because demons rage
And raise a crown
212 · Dec 2020
Diminished
Lexie Dec 2020
I have learned
Let the pain take me
So that it may go
212 · Jul 2014
The Void
Lexie Jul 2014
I am found
Yet
Feel a void
Like a lost breeze
With no
Direction
212 · May 2019
tá tú ar iarraidh, uaim
Lexie May 2019
A departure no matter how sweet, never as much as the return
An old tongue roots himself again in my mouth
Reigns my words as they rise up behind my teeth
My lack of you is devout, and your return a worship may be
The knots we tie are ancient
I hear the cairns at the door to the nine realms whisper the words in my heart
You are missing, from me
Stones cry out when you hold your tongue
Do I know all things now
Or only those of little consequence to Odin
Title translation:

You are missing, from me.
211 · May 2018
what you bring
Lexie May 2018
you brought warmth
to the trembling of my unsteady hands
and the shake in my voice

you brought joy
to the cracks in my eyes
and the laugh in my throat

you brought light
to the shadows in my heart
and the abyss of scars in my skin

you brought hope
to the smiles hidden in the lines of my cheeks
and the treading of my feet

you brought love
to the air rushing through my lungs
and the words falling out of my mouth
please don't leave me
211 · Feb 2019
Angels
Lexie Feb 2019
I forgot how sweet your voice is
When even in my trembling
You speak to me with kindness
Even angels, long to look into these things
And yet in our humanity
It seems these days are just for us
210 · Jun 2018
Eye Light
Lexie Jun 2018
i hope to God
that your eyes are filled with the light of at least a few of the watts you give to brighten up mine
210 · Mar 2016
Last Breath
Lexie Mar 2016
Hold me so tight
I cannot even breathe
So when I pass out
I'll know you didn't leave
210 · Feb 2016
Breathing Red
Lexie Feb 2016
I know
You can't
Here these words right now
I wish
You could
Know my touch
It was
An off day
And I am sorry
But let's
Get back
On the right track
If you had
Someone else
I would die
On the inside
Where my heart is
Inside my ribcage
If you leave
I will do
Many
Many.
Many...
Stupid things
And that is not
A threat
It is a warning
Because I know
Myself
Better than you do
Right now
So learn me
Please.
So you can
Save me!
I hate
To put you
In this
Situation
But
I
But I
Can't
Couldn't
Handle it alone
I'm sorry
So.
Sorry.
But this is part of me
I don't like it
I would evict it
But then it would be
Homeless
And I know that feeling
All
To
Well
I wish
I had you
To myself
Not
That I can't share
But I would be better off
If I had
Your undivided
Attention
Thank you
You have the right words
And the best intentions
How much longer?
Every breath
Could be the last
That I breathe
Until I breathe
Alone
And then
As much
As I regret
To say it
Out loud
I would breathe red
And then I would stop
For a time.
My lungs would fill up
And spill over
And then the ending
Would begin
The day that I
Breathe red.
210 · Nov 2018
Less
Lexie Nov 2018
I have become less of late
And my words have become such
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