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Sep 2017 Tabitha

Despite

Sep 2017 Tabitha

Devan McLain

Despite

I wish I knew how to feel ten times bigger than myself
but I get so lost in the swarm that is me, that is inside of me
this being and entity that I am sometimes too out of touch with
and sometimes I can't separate myself from
I need to feel you, I need to feel that you feel me and I need to know that you see me
but I can't even see myself
can't even fix myself

I get so lost in the sadness that comes from constant failure and I lose touch with all the love that surrounds me
animals who loves me, the man who loves me

I want a man who tells me he needs his girl
you always need your girl
I love you so much
I love you so much for wanting me
I feel like you love me despite of who I am, how I am, who I am, how I am....
what separates my actions from who I am as a person, as a partner?

I may forget everything else, but I will never forget my love for you
I will never forget the pain that comes from just the thought of losing you
I want this to work, I want to work, I want to make this work
I can't' lose myself, but I myself am lost
I can't lose this, I can't lose you
what am I to do?
Where will we be in ten years time, will we love each other still or will our frustrations stopped our hearts from feeling the love despite what we are together?
I want you to love me for who I am, I need you to love me for who I am
not despite who I am...
I need to love me for who I am
not despite who I am

despite myself I love you. I love you I live you

#love #you #despite #me #myself #add #adhd #i #cant #live

Sep 2017 Tabitha

I knew better

Sep 2017 Tabitha

Crystal

I knew better

I knew better than to fall for you.
Yet here I am, at 1 AM.
Thinking about you, while you're thinking about her.
I knew you would hurt me.
I knew you would leave.
I knew you didn't plan on staying.
I knew a lot better than to love and care about you.
I always knew, we would be great together.
That the world would no longer be a place to hate, but a place I wanted to explore and enjoy with you.
I was perfectly fine before you showed up. Depressed and lonely, just how I liked to be.
I knew you would build me all the way up, make me feel like I was walking on air, only to push me down, and make me want nothing more than to be six feet under ground. Away from you and the rest of the ugly hearts in this cruel world.
I knew you would go back to her.
I knew she would make you fall all over again.
You said you wouldn't . Yet here you are, on my mind and I am once again writing endlessly about you.
I knew it would hurt.
I wish I knew enough, to not have done any of it.
I knew better.

she will be the end of you. As you were for me.

#him #love #sad #hurt #iknew #her #broken #saveme

Sep 2017 Tabitha

Out Of Reach

Sep 2017 Tabitha

Sigyn

Out Of Reach

Gone, but always in sight
Here, but unable to touch
Eyes are open, but you can not see
Silver tongue, but speaks nothing
Forever out of reach

Whispers and tears fall for you
But you can not see them
For you are not within reach
For you are not mine to have
You are forever out of reach

A cold heart, I wish I could warm
Stone eyes, I wish I could soften
Evil intentions, I wish I could make good
Lie filled mind, I wish I could unravel
Forever out of my reach

Blood pools, your eyes fade
Skin turns cold, your hand falls limp
Heart dies, my own shatters
Mind empties, my tears fall
In my arms too late

#lovepoem #death #hope #sadness #happiness

Sep 2017 Tabitha

why can't i forget you???

Sep 2017 Tabitha

Abby Mendoza

why can't i forget you???

too lost in you
to actually know
what love
should really feel like.

#love #broken #toxic #poetry #sad

Sep 2017 Tabitha

It was nice to dream.

Sep 2017 Tabitha

Nick Blanchard

It was nice to dream.

Words. Words on paper.
Drawing it out.
What is it to be happy?
What is it to lose?
Why do we fight?
All I have ever wanted was to be close
To someone
To anything
Each time I get a little closer
It gets so much harder. I once dreamt of life.
Endless possibilities, like shards of a broken mirror, they stare at me.
Asking the same questions, giving different answers
I know this is the way it was supposed to end.
It was nice to dream, for a while.
It was nice to pretend, no more.
I loved her with everything, it wasn't enough.
I let her go, hoping she would find herself.
But I cant stand it, I can't take the lottery.
A pale image of what we once were.
It was nice to dream.
I held on as long as I could, through the fire and blames, the best and worst.
I'm going to have to start living.
For myself, by myself.
Years of searching gone to waste.
I thought it all lead here.
Maybe it did, the story isn't over.
All I ever wanted was to be close.
To someone, to anything.
Have I ever deserved it? Earned it?
It was nice to dream.
Sometimes its easier to find something new than fix something broken.
But I was never looking for easy.
Or was I?

#dream #love #loss #inspiration #heartache #easy

Sep 2017 Tabitha

d e j a - y o u

Sep 2017 Tabitha

Abby Jo

d e j a - y o u

My heart got excited
Then got let down
Decided not again
Until you came around.

My heart got excited
Then got let down
Never again, not this time around.

#heartbreak #heart #sadness #letgo #dejavu #no