I think the reason we fall into cycles
Is because we need one another
Like the sun and the moon
It just seems like we keep missing though
Maybe one day
We might get lucky enough
That we might just eclipse

I just got back and had my beats on
Jogging up the stairs
So, steep for an apartment complex
You were coming down
Crossing paths
Locking eyes
With the lyrics screaming in my ears

“I don’t want no temporary
Give me all or nothin
Imma keep it real with you
And give you all my lovin
Girl to tell the truth
It’s been a year and I’m still crushin
Girl let’s take a ride and keep it quiet
No discussin, we can take it slow
Nowhere to go no need to rush it
And if you need me I’ll be around to keep you buzzin”

I use to think
I belonged down in hell
Going to church
Where the addicts go to meet
Seeking shelter from their demons
Trading shame for amnesty
Till reprieves fell on hurting shoulders
While my thoughts eat me alive
From the inside
And my body feels like a prison
Where my soul resides
Till I wake up
And there you lay

She was vibrant with a dash of darkness
Cascading into the summer sunset
She caught me staring a few times
Watching her bare back
Watching the sinew of the muscle fibers
As she hugged herself tight
She cared more of how I felt though
Asking how my night was going
Tired and sore my dear
“Anything I can do to make it better?”
She said with a devilish tone
In a second she transformed into something more
Removing the wristband
Pulling her hair into a ponytail
Grinning with delight
I never stood a chance

My confessions seem to always lie at the bottom of the deep end
These intricate caverns of guilt doused memories
With no true reason
For I have never truly felt loved
Forgotten and cast aside
By those unaware, yet cast like a skipping stone
Smooth and polished and so misshapen
As if my father not loving me was my own doing
Or unable to believe my past loves could love me
For I believed I was different and different couldn't be loved
Yet, I learned by you
That some may love the sunrise, while other's may love the sunset
And night feels just as home as day
While one can be attached to land
As the other soaks in the waves
Yet, there's sand in between
That's where our love seems to meet
Somewhere in between
And of that, all of which it is
I wouldn't trade for the world

Note if I die
It’s just a letter
Definitely have mixed feelings about it
Knowing I’ll forever be attached to you
Part of me feels bad for you
Hey, maybe I’ll be in God’s place
Hopefully behavin’ myself
The misconception is
I’ve only ever felt like the world’s better off without me
And I admit you make it a priority
To show me
The world won’t be the same without me
I guess I wonder if my soul will be missin?
I’m sure tomorrow we’ll do it different

She told me blood moons
Meant destruction
How funny as we seemed so inclined
I quit strumming
Just to comment on your legs
How they’d looked so good
But would look better over my shoulders
Eyes a flutter
Bitten lips
Back locked up
Frozen in time
With the moonlight
Razing our shadows
Just for the night

I use to find myself drifting
Feeling like I was lost at sea
Drowning and helpless
Till you threw me a buoy
And pulled me out of the water
Soaking wet and freezing to death
Yet, you sparked the life out of me
Saved my soul, from internal damnation
I was burning and didn't know it
And you burned your hands
To keep me breathing
When the sky rose red
They say a sailor died at sea
Yet, your beautiful light guides me home
Avoiding the depths of the sea
And the dangers of the land

I don’t really want this song to end
I’m sort of addicted to this endless waltz
That you and I have been locked in
It’s not everyday
You get to dance with the devil
Eloquently chained to one another
Flowing heavenly towards sin
I’m held hostage
By the desires you possess
With fire eyes
All the shades of past lovers
Found in one ball room
Up high, snuck past the gates of Heaven
Where we’ll dance
Till the world tears itself apart

And I feel this longing
Of past lives
Far off introspective
That seem to glisten like all of the stars in the night
The feeling that I've lived a thousand lives
That I've died in a thousand more
My fingertips hewn across sun scorched skin
Blackened ires and bleach topped irises
Delicately dance in the balance
In these wicked playful dreams
As waves crash and sunsets linger
Where missed keys and snapped strings lull me to melancholy dreams

And so, time will call again
The worlds just really heavy
Second guessing, falling under
The pull of the restless sea
Unable to stay, even being afloat
Sitting alone in the long night
The only company seems to be the firelight
For soon enough
Years from now
All the current perils
Will be glorified tales
In the eye gleams
For children to dance

Let’s go get lost, what do ya say?
Anywhere is better than here
Narnia isn’t too far
Hogwarts is just over the bridge
The Hundred Acre Woods is close
How about Westeros?
Maybe, your feelin’ Halloweentown?
Neverland is just a short walk
To be honest, we could stay right here
In this moment
Make our own fairytale
If you’re up for it...

Start to hyperventilate
No, I’m not seein’ straight
Knees begin to wobble
Cut my brakes, and lock the throttle
I couldn’t stop it if I wanted
Shadowy silhouettes
Make break into sweats
I’ve been dazed and confused
Since the day I met you
I’ve maybe lost my head
Yet, I’d do it all again
Perhaps I’m losing my my mind
There’s just something about you
That’s left me dazed and confused
Something about your eyes
Under certain influence
Unable to walk in straight lines
Build me up and leave me here in ruins
Either I’ve seen the light
Or I’m losing my mind
Just dazed and confused

I’m here in California
And the thousand miles away
Still my minds calling for ya
Running away from Hollywood and the valley
Cause’ there’s the winter snows and northern winds
So, give it a week and I’ll be saying goodbye to Cali
I just can’t seem to leave you alone
So, here soon I’ll be heading home

I suppose I just didn’t hear you
The waves were too loud
But, I definitely could read your lips

“Don’t get attached to me.”

But, the sun was setting low.

I have a lot to learn
Of your love
Still no matter where I go
At the end of every road
I just hope I'm led back to you
Where the warmth of the sun
Settles on my face
And when I open my eyes
You are what I see

I want to run with you
Through backyards
Filled with tripwires and clothes lines
Into war zones of innocent love
Where the night sky is alight
Fire stricken with dying stars heartbeats
Where your eyes scream my name
Visible by lightning bug flames
Where hand grenades
Are scribbled letters
Of future desires
Where were battling the summer’s thirst

A favorite memory
I keep locked away
Buried far in the depths
Afraid it might get lost
Eyes closed and slow breathing
Listening to the static rotate off the vinyl
As your fingers ran through my hair
Able to hear the gorgeous tunes of your breaths
Melodies dancing on the folds of my desires
I still hear those breaths every night
As I sleep next to you
I began to love you then
As I love you now
I hope you cherish the memory too
For I have not forgotten with my sins
And they are plenty
But, I promise my love resides
Cast upon notes of vinyl records

It’s going to be a ****** day
When she realizes
She shouldn’t have to bargain
And make deals
For your love