To my mother
And
My long lost lovers
May these words
Give you a glimpse
Of the reality
That such is my world
And to the souls
Who will bare witness
Have hope
For love is real
I know it is
I've seen it
I just couldn't grab it.

Thinkin' I might flip and fill my brain with lead
Wander through the dead
With you caught up in my head
You're a lot more pretty when you show your scars
A beauty that longs to be amongst the stars
Cause that piano sound
Brings some love that can't be found
And you know what I think about
Lyrical lies and beautiful eyes
Always fill me with doubt

It's about time we address the elephant in the room
It's standing in plain view
Everyone can see
That it looks just like me

Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity
So, tell me what's the remedy
There's things that they don't teach
Things so out of reach
That gods and devils envy us
For when our bones have turn to dust
And, love transcends all natural bounds
That's when true peace is found

A wise woman told me to let go of the poet
That life's ******, but it's not some tragedy line
In the fourth stanza of an endless summer
And her daughter showed me some love
Igniting winter's fires
Under cracked thrones of proverbial highs

Losing track to your master plan
Drowning again on oxygen
Take me back to when I was ten
Ask a younger me to describe what love feels like again
Cause fourteen years later and I swear it's just a life killing carcinogen
Love is just a bad acronym

Where do we go from here?
When it seems like we've lost one another
Let's step out in the dark
One foot in front of the other
Feel my bones getting older
Turning to dust and watching skyscrapers begin to rust
Let's just find a place and lose it for a day
Just lost looking for moments, wondering what we'll be
Sadly, the future is just something we can't see
Let's just hope that were finding hope
At the three a.m. callings
Lately, I've been constricted with despair
Wondering if you're still there
Just know I still care
If I asked you to stay
Would you still want to run away
Every other day?
Cause, I'd still choose you even when were far from home
And not sure where to go
Just know, that when you're ready, that I'm game to go with the flow

She asked why I'm addicted to solitude
Do I truly need it?
I beg to plead the fifth
Bargaining with lost lay of the lands
Wishing to be lost
Sunsets in streetlights
Certain beauties in midnights
In the late hours
You start to remember what we call ours
Learning it's okay to fall
Sometimes it's not for love,
For the mind craves heavy drugs
And some pursue trust, while after lust
I'm stuck with pride

For she is more than skin and bone
To the waves and shores of a mind
To the feelings of fire and flood
Better she can be, as can we all
As moments of torture
Nature and nurture
Caressing of a light on fire
For even in the dark
She is a torch
Body glows and heart throws

Pay attention to the curves of her body
Her motions scream
That you talk too much
And feel too little

Scribbling’s of mad men
And lost lovers souls
This is a letter to you
So, deep inside
I know you’re there
I feel you everytime
I lose my mind
It just so happens that, that is every night

Find myself writing the eulogy
For romance and chivalry
We live in a ****** hookup culture
Maybe I should embrace the torture
Cause' I can't seem to find my place
In a world that doesn't have love's taste

It's a drop dead lifestyle
Making a change here and there
Just too revert back to the same way
Lost in bad habits
For when love leaves you
The alcohol calls your name
And carefree feelings seem inviting
Can't fool yourself though
If there's one thing that you know
You're stuck in repetitions
Maybe it's just your nature
Regardless it's hard watching you do this to yourself

Marked for death
Through all of our pain
These violent history games
Kindergarten crushes to blame
For all the glory and fame
I can't remember my name
Decadent stain
What might have been lost?

Words unfolded into complexities
Simple loves turned to untangled knots
Divided late into the nights
By an invisible line
Of who's side is who's
Although if you knew
That I inch ever so close
To your side when you're not there
Just to catch the scent that still lingers
In the absence of greatness
For when the shores kiss the tides
It's gentle retreat is that
Of when I watch you leave in the morning

I'm struggling with mortality
Oh, Honey this world is mine
****, I just want to live forever
Feet don't fail me now, I just want to go
Sticks and stones, a couple broken bones
I've just been wanting to be scared
The beatings over now
Still I'll have my crown
Free to be free is pain
I'll incite the riot
I just don't know any better
I just want to ******* live forever

To the desolate
And the lost
You’re not alone on this holiday
For you are in my thoughts
Merry Christmas

Any day now
I've been waiting
Been a long time coming baby
Come closer, please
We don't have to rush
Holding the pieces, let's build it up
Back to the endless summer
Remember the first time I saw you
Most beautiful creature, I've ever saw
I'm not quite sure what will happen
Both our lives hectic chasing passion
Just know that flame I've had for you
Is still ignited, and it's burning up

This eclipse is proof
That the light will shine
Beneath the blackened skies
So, pretty girl
Shine bright
For the dark is only here, but for a moment

In the depths
Of the big beautiful sea
A creature does follow me
Beautiful terrors of the abyss
A love you'd surely miss
My demon in the dark
Forever bound to the blood I bleed
At the core still a love shark
As love isn't just black and white
For if we make it through the midnight hours tonight
We'll be alright
Don't forget the sailor born to a starry night
Only ever feeling safe in the salt water plights
Like two stars circling in desperate collision
There's a love tension
Between the sea of you and me
To the heavens here my pleas
Let the blue tides come and wash away apathy

After the endless battle
She threw one last spear
Etched along the shaft
"You deserve to be unhappy."
"For how else would you make pretty worded love stories?"

Their love was something of wonder
For he was an unmovable object
And she was an unstoppable force
Stuck in their paradox
Of endless struggle



That must be what love is.

One day we're young, then we're dead in the grave
We love and laugh, just to decay
Heads in the clouds cause it feels so safe
Hell's never closed, so we're leaving today
Chanting on the way down, "Oh, God made us this way."
Admit we're addicted to the reflection of who we think we are
But what we claim to be, it always seems so far away

Do you think years from now
This old town will still call us family?
Cause’ I remember what you said
Let’s not lose our heads
And I’m moving fast
You’re holding slow
Leading the way
Learning to swing and sway
Every move is so dramatic and erratic
The gleam in your eyes has me fanatic
Always there and never giving up on me
My own personal therapy
Dancing under her starlit canopy
It’s so hard to see
The future is blinding me
How will this end for me? I can only imagine quite tremendously
Could I convince you?
Let’s do all the things we’re were not suppose too
Let me see a different view of all the carnal sides of you
Meet me at the twenty-fourth floor somewhere on the roof
Whisper pretty fictitious truths
Let our first dance a top the world be for the world to see
It’s just you and me

When desolation comes upon your heart
Find your solace in remembering me
As you have problems with commitment
I have issues with imprisonment
Parting tides as feelings die
And honestly love is overrated in your mind
Although, if it was up to me
I might just be yours for one more night

When you finally find something
Good in life
You eat it all up regardless of taste
Like you haven't ate for days

And I wrote of her
As I had with many things
I had fallen in love with
Long before

I lost my soul
So ****** deep
Inside of you.