Your love like tendencies
Are no reassurance
For the damage is done
And when she learns
To never look bsck
You’ll truly know
Self hate

For I struggle with you
And therefore I have never known to call
Yet is it possible
I see you in small moments
Of glimpses in silence
When everything feels right
Even if temporary
In the snow flakes in january
Or the suns rays as they caress me
We’re all so unpredictable
Pulled by the currents of life away
Finding time for you seems impossible
To pray to something that could be a lie
Is this my breath in your lungs?
Maybe I am the ship
And you’re the rogue wave
Come to sink me
As you sit high on the upper circles
Locked away in the clouds
Behind golden gates
Chained shut to me

To the desolate
And the lost
You’re not alone on this holiday
For you are in my thoughts
Merry Christmas

Nothing is ever perfect
I suppose it's human curiousity
To tempt the fates
Just to grab the flames of a lover
When I lay me down
I pray, we keep each day
Just please stay with me

This eclipse is proof
That the light will shine
Beneath the blackened skies
So, pretty girl
Shine bright
For the dark is only here, but for a moment

In an unrelenting fashion
My mind just craves what it can't seem to have
Thrones built on pretty lies
For you are insanity
To save my sanity
The conclusion is to fall in love with insanity
For there is the idea of falling
And I just want to rise
Except across the room
You have the high ground and line of sight
A divide, a moment apart
With thin floors and tall ceilings
The corners of the earth are just memories
The night is late, just show me the fall
To your dark fantasies

It's about time we address the elephant in the room
It's standing in plain view
Everyone can see
That it looks just like me

Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity
So, tell me what's the remedy
There's things that they don't teach
Things so out of reach
That gods and devils envy us
For when our bones have turn to dust
And, love transcends all natural bounds
That's when true peace is found

A wise woman told me to let go of the poet
That life's ******, but it's not some tragedy line
In the fourth stanza of an endless summer
And her daughter showed me some love
Igniting winter's fires
Under cracked thrones of proverbial highs

She asked why I'm addicted to solitude
Do I truly need it?
I beg to plead the fifth
Bargaining with lost lay of the lands
Wishing to be lost
Sunsets in streetlights
Certain beauties in midnights
In the late hours
You start to remember what we call ours
Learning it's okay to fall
Sometimes it's not for love,
For the mind craves heavy drugs
And some pursue trust, while after lust
I'm stuck with pride

For the mind that just won't sleep
These violent ends, have violent delights
And right now, in the dark of the moon
I just can't seem to figure you out
Like a haunting call, begging for help
Always a prisoner
Just what exactly is salvation?
Locked in a cycle
For the beauty in every final moment
Is that we don't get to live it again
And the peace within a moment
Can never come again

Any day now
I've been waiting
Been a long time coming baby
Come closer, please
We don't have to rush
Holding the pieces, let's build it up
Back to the endless summer
Remember the first time I saw you
Most beautiful creature, I've ever saw
I'm not quite sure what will happen
Both our lives hectic chasing passion
Just know that flame I've had for you
Is still ignited, and it's burning up

How curious
The mind tries to plan all outcomes we shall face in life so, zealously
Except our hearts beg to run into love on such random occurrence
If we should end in fire, then we shall both burn together
Hope for binding resolutions from shattered skies and scorched earth
Let the tides wash away the hallowed souls
And, let us drown in the unpredictable struggles
Of what we hope our love is to be

For she is more than skin and bone
To the waves and shores of a mind
To the feelings of fire and flood
Better she can be, as can we all
As moments of torture
Nature and nurture
Caressing of a light on fire
For even in the dark
She is a torch
Body glows and heart throws

And as we start to sway
Heartbreaks on its way
In times so dire
Why were we born to be such liars
For the oceans do get rough
And I’m not sure this ship will be enough
I’d rather drown or wrap a bag around my face
Seems like we’re born to annihilate
All of the love we seem to waste

Where do we go from here?
When it seems like we've lost one another
Let's step out in the dark
One foot in front of the other
Feel my bones getting older
Turning to dust and watching skyscrapers begin to rust
Let's just find a place and lose it for a day
Just lost looking for moments, wondering what we'll be
Sadly, the future is just something we can't see
Let's just hope that were finding hope
At the three a.m. callings
Lately, I've been constricted with despair
Wondering if you're still there
Just know I still care
If I asked you to stay
Would you still want to run away
Every other day?
Cause, I'd still choose you even when were far from home
And not sure where to go
Just know, that when you're ready, that I'm game to go with the flow

Find myself writing the eulogy
For romance and chivalry
We live in a ****** hookup culture
Maybe I should embrace the torture
Cause' I can't seem to find my place
In a world that doesn't have love's taste

It's hard forgetting you
When you don't see the wrong you do
Moving on seems impossible to do
When the person you want moves faster than you

Saw you in the summer
Your face came to life
You could be my lover
Oh, baby we're falling so deep
Only took a couple lifetimes
Take our bodies higher
I saw you in my dreams
Middle of the night
You told me we're all we need
Together let's go
Your voice and sound set my soul on fire
The girl guys hope to meet by running into
Whoever you are
Just hope you take my body higher

To my mother
And
My long lost lovers
May these words
Give you a glimpse
Of the reality
That such is my world
And to the souls
Who will bare witness
Have hope
For love is real
I know it is
I've seen it
I just couldn't grab it.

Words unfolded into complexities
Simple loves turned to untangled knots
Divided late into the nights
By an invisible line
Of who's side is who's
Although if you knew
That I inch ever so close
To your side when you're not there
Just to catch the scent that still lingers
In the absence of greatness
For when the shores kiss the tides
It's gentle retreat is that
Of when I watch you leave in the morning

I'm struggling with mortality
Oh, Honey this world is mine
****, I just want to live forever
Feet don't fail me now, I just want to go
Sticks and stones, a couple broken bones
I've just been wanting to be scared
The beatings over now
Still I'll have my crown
Free to be free is pain
I'll incite the riot
I just don't know any better
I just want to ******* live forever

Losing track to your master plan
Drowning again on oxygen
Take me back to when I was ten
Ask a younger me to describe what love feels like again
Cause fourteen years later and I swear it's just a life killing carcinogen
Love is just a bad acronym

Marked for death
Through all of our pain
These violent history games
Kindergarten crushes to blame
For all the glory and fame
I can't remember my name
Decadent stain
What might have been lost?

I’ve never been good with religion
It’s a damning personal decision
Even then I find myself on my knees
Begging you please
This world has glimmers of hope
They’re all that allow me to cope
To be honest, I shouldn’t be here today
It’s a moment I’ve learned to replay
Every day, in my mind it’s the only way
For I am a sinner and you’re a saint
Lost for words and only images to paint
I wanted to dance in the chemical rains
But, they never came
You were dancing with the sun
I guess I’m just not that fun

I love the proverbial highs
And I crave the providential lows
As we wander through the city of Lost Angels
Not really lost all
Just sight seeing
The beautiful and the ******
Looking for our own little hell
Soft whispers from devils
I'll bite your soul and you'll like it
Got her curlin' toes
And her smile getting wider
I can feel it in my bones
I'm catchin' visions of her soul
Watch her eyes roll back
Throwing the rights and wrongs down a deep black hole
Bending backwards
Pretending to care about the factors
Putting one another to the test
Having *** for breakfast

In the depths
Of the big beautiful sea
A creature does follow me
Beautiful terrors of the abyss
A love you'd surely miss
My demon in the dark
Forever bound to the blood I bleed
At the core still a love shark
As love isn't just black and white
For if we make it through the midnight hours tonight
We'll be alright
Don't forget the sailor born to a starry night
Only ever feeling safe in the salt water plights
Like two stars circling in desperate collision
There's a love tension
Between the sea of you and me
To the heavens here my pleas
Let the blue tides come and wash away apathy

One day we're young, then we're dead in the grave
We love and laugh, just to decay
Heads in the clouds cause it feels so safe
Hell's never closed, so we're leaving today
Chanting on the way down, "Oh, God made us this way."
Admit we're addicted to the reflection of who we think we are
But what we claim to be, it always seems so far away

So, here we sit again
In the high council above the heavens
Entangled in yet another chess match
You are black and I am white
A lot like the topic at hand
For I refuse to believe love exist
And you claim it’s all there is
I raise arguments of war, the ninth circle of hell, and pain
Yet, you claim it is all of it, pain, misery, torment, kindness, generosity, and hope
It is all Love
With each word my pieces fall
Check, check, and check
Till I feel my own northern wind
Sending shivers down my spine
Check mate

Pay attention to the curves of her body
Her motions scream
That you talk too much
And feel too little

When desolation comes upon your heart
Find your solace in remembering me
As you have problems with commitment
I have issues with imprisonment
Parting tides as feelings die
And honestly love is overrated in your mind
Although, if it was up to me
I might just be yours for one more night

It's a drop dead lifestyle
Making a change here and there
Just too revert back to the same way
Lost in bad habits
For when love leaves you
The alcohol calls your name
And carefree feelings seem inviting
Can't fool yourself though
If there's one thing that you know
You're stuck in repetitions
Maybe it's just your nature
Regardless it's hard watching you do this to yourself

I lost my soul
So ****** deep
Inside of you.

She begged me to come home
So I gathered
the eighth wonder of the world
An army the likes of the world
has never seen
And let them hear my words
“For if you all get lost within the shadows, look to me, let me be the light that guides you, and set the night on fire.”
And I unleashed them
Upon the gates of heaven
And angels fell
In desperation they called to Lucifer
Who brought with him his high command
And we slew them too
Blood soaked and weary
Collapsed upon the throne
Of the high heavens
God kneeling in front of me
Pleaded for answers
“For her, she shall have the world. So, nature call all your forces, your plagues and pharaohs, bring on your storms rages. I am headed home.”