The moon and I have what you might call
A love hate relationship
As I find her overwhelmingly beautiful
And she likes to show me my loneliness

Even after all this time
I still choose to blindly believe
That love is real and all there is

I love when the lights die down low
When our lips and tongues find the words
We’ve been dying to say
Before our eyes scream
That we’re worlds away
And you know I hate this weather
I’m pretty sure we both know
We could easily do better
If only we let one another
And I never thought this could end
How do we expect to fall asleep again?
I suppose if I need you
I’ll see you
In my dreams

---Recounting footsteps
--For she told me pretty worded love stories
  -- "And you can love whoever you love."
--It just happens that I love you of all people
--"Always live in the moment, life is so much more full and vibrant that way."

I understand we broke up three weeks ago
Except today, you heard my friend died
I thought maybe you’d reach out to me
Alas to no avail, nothing but oblivion
How much must I lose?
I keep pondering the question
For maybe these are the payments of sins
I wasn’t aware I had committed

Babe, I’d like to get off of this rollercoaster
I can’t seem to handle this
These ups and these downs
Yet, something takes over me
I think I may have overdosed
Give me a chance to pick up these pieces
The pieces we left eachother in
Yet, it’s like something’s taken over us
And we can’t get off this rollercoaster
Cause’ I take you high
And you bring me down

Let me toss you a question, who are you?
Man, the difficulty is resounding
It almost hits like a brick wall
Why though?
I suppose I don't really know
And that's so detrimental within itself
Not, that I don't know why it hits like a brick wall
No, I don't know who I am
I'm ever changing every single second of every single day
When past lovers say a girl or a boy I use to know
And we aren't really in love with people but memories
Of who people use to be
And I'm like lemonade, but today it's too hot out to play
And you're like the sunshine, when it's been raining for days
To the ones we haven't met, take us for what we are
For we are changing and our identity isn't set in stone
We're human and mistakes are what we are
What we crave to be
It's okay, you're okay
The idealism that we have identity
Is that we're all constellations in someone else's eyes

What's your poison?
What makes you lust for it's divine taste when it hits your lips?
Whiskey, *****, beer, tequila even maybe?
Maybe it's the yearning for sobriety
Just to be dragged back to drunken loves
When romance and wine called for slow dances
And maybe when the shadow settles on the place the bottles left
Your wants and desires will come rushing back
For you are an addict, troubled by emptiness
Filling voids of fiery liquids and slurred thoughts
And our minds are troubled by the what ifs

There they are, the falling of stars
When devils and angels danced
Where the sacraments of our validations
Lie wasted upon ocean waves
Of seratonin highs
And dopamine lows

Let's write a confession
Nothing fancy, no rhyme scheme or pretty words
Truthful insights that a corroded mind calls home
What's home?
Down wishing wells
Lost in ocean swells
Cause' the truth is hell
Drowning minds
Overcome with grief, sadness, without an ounce of hope
Lost and bitter, feeling like you could die
It's like a dream that you can't wake up from
No matter how hard you scream
Like, darkness calling you home
To the deep unknown
Where light and time cease to exist
They say secrets make you sick and you should all know
The problem is you can't tell anyone for the fear that they'll go
Imagine you were a kid running and stumbled
Scraped elbows and knees
Just to find yourself years later still stuck with apathy
And you get a moment where life's just a bit different
It shined briefly and you hadn't eaten for weeks
So, you stuffed yourself to the extreme
Just to see that you'd go hungry again
And I like words, they give something I can't seem to find
Knowing that my health isn't good and I hate myself
Stoking the fire, complaining you're still cold as hell
Overwhelmed and empty knowing you aren't well
I just won't keep running in circles ending where I began

Why does it sting?
When I see a comment or two
Liked by you and for all to see
Does my mind feel compelled to suffer?
I guess I’ll hope to figure that out tomorrow.
Like I always said
“There’s a line in Sensible Heart, I get so distracted by some people’s reactions, I don’t see my own faults for what they are.”
Except at times so self destructive
I’m here and you’re there
And there’s not a thought in between or so my mind tells me so

And of all the nights
A windy Wednesday
I don’t think I’m escaping it
This time around
In the moonlit hours

It's about time we address the elephant in the room
It's standing in plain view
Everyone can see
That it looks just like me

Men are haunted by the vastness of eternity
So, tell me what's the remedy
There's things that they don't teach
Things so out of reach
That gods and devils envy us
For when our bones have turn to dust
And, love transcends all natural bounds
That's when true peace is found

A wise woman told me to let go of the poet
That life's ******, but it's not some tragedy line
In the fourth stanza of an endless summer
And her daughter showed me some love
Igniting winter's fires
Under cracked thrones of proverbial highs

Bring your heart
And I’ll bring my soul
Careful now
Let’s venture into the great unknown
Not that anyone would notice
For moonlit madness catches me
And tonight I don’t think
The light will come fast enough
To save me from myself

This trip was suppose to help
Get away from society
Feel the way of the land
Maybe get a breath of fresh air
Yet, here I lay
Realizing they caught up to me
Even hundreds of miles away
Heartbreak and torment

I fled the grasps of society
Gasping for the air of the open land
Maybe there I could finally breathe
Except I found that out in the open
You came crashing down like the ocean
Angry and seething as the sea
I wonder if the stars and moon
Look the same where you are
I wonder if your mind flutters and dashes
To thoughts of me
As mines covered in the star dust
In the ocean of stars
That you are
I want my heavens and my oceans too
I just want every single part of you

Where do we go from here?
When it seems like we've lost one another
Let's step out in the dark
One foot in front of the other
Feel my bones getting older
Turning to dust and watching skyscrapers begin to rust
Let's just find a place and lose it for a day
Just lost looking for moments, wondering what we'll be
Sadly, the future is just something we can't see
Let's just hope that were finding hope
At the three a.m. callings
Lately, I've been constricted with despair
Wondering if you're still there
Just know I still care
If I asked you to stay
Would you still want to run away
Every other day?
Cause, I'd still choose you even when were far from home
And not sure where to go
Just know, that when you're ready, that I'm game to go with the flow

Tonight, I’ve had my heart broken and so I’m just going to take a break from all forms of communication and such is this. I truly appreciate all of you who admire my work and you’re all fantastic writers, I purely just need some time to re-evaluate myself as an individual. I want to personally thank you all for your support and wish you nothing, but the best in your adventures with beautiful words and emotional delicacies.

With all my heart, I hope to find your words caressing my thoughts in a endless sea one of these days.

-V

Life’s filled with some really ugly things
Some of the worst moments
And life’s gonna throw them really hard
And you’re all at least once going to feel
As if the world and everything you know
Is simply falling apart

Except life didn’t know one thing
You are you
And every fight within your own mind
Every fiber of your being
Screams for happiness
And, you’re all beautiful
All works of art
Covered in your own tattoos
Colorless and full of scar tissue
So, don’t give me that ****
That you’re tired and can’t go on
Cause, life isn’t about these moments
That are pretty and beautiful
It’s about these moments
Where you feel like your shell is cracking
And you get to take a couple deep breaths
Just to take the next step in your day
That’s living
That’s life
Every single day
And it’s stupidly gorgeous

She begged me to come home
So I gathered
the eighth wonder of the world
An army the likes of the world
has never seen
And let them hear my words
“For if you all get lost within the shadows, look to me, let me be the light that guides you, and set the night on fire.”
And I unleashed them
Upon the gates of heaven
And angels fell
In desperation they called to Lucifer
Who brought with him his high command
And we slew them too
Blood soaked and weary
Collapsed upon the throne
Of the high heavens
God kneeling in front of me
Pleaded for answers
“For her, she shall have the world. So, nature call all your forces, your plagues and pharaohs, bring on your storms rages. I am headed home.”

I resonated within the currents of the sea
Whispering sweet melodies of waves
They told me to write a story with a word
Only one that’s the bargain let it be
I jump to the lands of Love
That’s where the story is they told me
I found at twenty-four that I was wrong
Unhappily thinking that I’d never finish
The Endless Summer was my legacy
It’s pretty exciting, knowing
That there’s going to be a part two
Simply called
Annie

Met a girl with some pretty blue eyes
Lost in the sky fire highs
Caught up in the blue white haze
Feel the heat of your words on my face
It’s so hot, we’ve been melting down hell
And only time will truly tell
You touched down in the base of my fears
Oh, Houston do you copy? Do you hear?
As she whispered “Stay Love, its warm right here.”
And, that’s when the beauty appears
Yes, you are my lantern
The more you speak
The more I see
The more your light grows upon me
The more it grows
The closer I think you got
The closer I hope you are
To sing me back home

How do you keep moving forward
When every fiber of your being
Is screaming to turn and run back
To the girl of your dreams?
Cause, I get it now
What they say home’s not always a place
For me, it’s a Wisconsin girl

What do you say
To the girl you love
When "I love you" just doesn't seem like enough?
Do you jump to the skies and the mountains above
To the welling waters and the oceans embrace
How the never ending sea kisses the sands in wavy embraces
Old myths of four armed and legged beasts
Powerful enough to tear the world asunder
Split into two's, for the gods feared their power?
I heard stories of them from long ago
Given a mighty name: Soulmates
Perhaps, you recite bible verses of love, forgiveness, and sins
What if we jump to the unconditional loves?
Oh, maybe you recite poetic lines of Romeo and Juliet
Imagine disabilities of Traynor and Clark
When the words Me Before You became the norm
Tell her you'll have infinities in moments
Like The Fault In Our Stars
Maybe, you tell her everyday without her
You're just another lost soul


There's always the possiblity
I have this all wrong
That the most I can say is in the silence between us
In fragile moments
When our lips interlock
And, the sun catches her eyes in a flavor of a minute
Or, the times she's smiling to herself lost in the line of a book
In the moment where she takes the first bite of icecream
After a day that left both of your feet sore
It's really hard and even a little soul tearing
That I cannot seem to find an accurate description in words
Of how I truly feel, because it all is not enough

So, I will just say this
I will be at my 10
Until the sun burns out
Or the Sea's tide overcomes us
When California becomes The Bay of Arizona
And Yellowstone has finally had it's time with us
For, I am in love
Maybe, it's just as simple as that

To the desolate
And the lost
You’re not alone on this holiday
For you are in my thoughts
Merry Christmas

No one knows me
like the girl with the paint covered hands back home
Yeah, you would show me I had something some people call a soul
The only person I'd choose to grow old
I'm lucky it only took me till I was twenty four years old
Whispered delicate loving affirmations and my mind was sold
You took a hold of me and never let me go
Never letting me forget just go with the flow
I can honestly say in the center of my chest
She's the absolute love and knows what's best
I look forward to the tomorrows
And returning to home
To the girl with the paint covered hands
Cause no one knows me like her
She's got my heart and my soul

I’ve always been a gambling man
Especially when it comes to love
So, I bet her that we’d end up together
She laughed that angelic tone
I so crave to hear
Asking how ever shall we know?
Ah, love we’ll flip a coin
She demanded heads
The weight is heavier
Tails it is my dear
What she didn’t know
I had a double sided coin

I’m alright
That’s just a lie
So, please stay for the night
Cause’ nothing’s right when you’re gone
Don’t want the world to know what makes me weak
Afraid the world might see that side of me
Cause the worlds so monochrome
Yet, let me tell you why
I wouldn’t mind to be wrong
Cause’ she brings all the coloring around
You either know or you don’t
I can’t even trace where this love line begins
Dancing hand in hand with me
Sometimes I forget to breathe
Somewhere along the line I got poisoned
My thoughts we’re cursed
Oh, lover how your words
Became my cure
For if this is the world I’m given
With your love I’m sure
I shall endure

Pay attention to the curves of her body
Her motions scream
That you talk too much
And feel too little

Someone asked me
How is it two souls meet?
Maybe us humans are truly nephalim
The children of Angels and Demons alike
Drawn to one another like good and evil
Perhaps one is born under the moon
And the other under the shining sun
There’s an unlimited amount of moments
In a fragile lock of the eyes
To say that our eyes are locks and keys
To the one true person who can see further
Maybe it’s just dumb chance
For in a world full of possibilities
How impossible does it sound
That the world has someone
Dreaming of you

We all start off with plans and heart hopes
And it’s all we can do
In the dazzle of the midnight moon
When the rains turn to snow
With the world covered in white blood
Without the summer drives
We lose some gravity
In the flurries and snowscapes
Technicolor landslides
When lovers find their body gold
And the world has its livewire
For just as we have Night and Day
Light and Dark
Black and White
You can’t have the Summer
Without a little Winter wonder

And I wrote of her
As I had with many things
I had fallen in love with
Long before

So, here we sit again
In the high council above the heavens
Entangled in yet another chess match
You are black and I am white
A lot like the topic at hand
For I refuse to believe love exist
And you claim it’s all there is
I raise arguments of war, the ninth circle of hell, and pain
Yet, you claim it is all of it, pain, misery, torment, kindness, generosity, and hope
It is all Love
With each word my pieces fall
Check, check, and check
Till I feel my own northern wind
Sending shivers down my spine
Check mate

Scribbling’s of mad men
And lost lovers souls
This is a letter to you
So, deep inside
I know you’re there
I feel you everytime
I lose my mind
It just so happens that, that is every night

For I struggle with you
And therefore I have never known to call
Yet is it possible
I see you in small moments
Of glimpses in silence
When everything feels right
Even if temporary
In the snow flakes in january
Or the suns rays as they caress me
We’re all so unpredictable
Pulled by the currents of life away
Finding time for you seems impossible
To pray to something that could be a lie
Is this my breath in your lungs?
Maybe I am the ship
And you’re the rogue wave
Come to sink me
As you sit high on the upper circles
Locked away in the clouds
Behind golden gates
Chained shut to me

You two reached an impasse
For just tonight
Except peace is always empheral
And tomorrow a heart shall be broken
But, who’s shall it be?