Don't let them drag you down as they die
It's hard to let them go, but you must
It's the way of life.

They're heavy on your shoulders
An unnecessary burden to bare
Free them as they grow colder.

Don't let them drag you down when they die, it'll only destroy you
Let them fall to the ground
This is what you must do
This is what is true.

Open your eyes
Look at me
Do you see what I see
Between you and I?

I can see the wavelengths
Pulling and pushing
Growing and shrinking
Like ocean waves.

I'm connected to you
Open your eyes to see it
Accept the webs
Tying us together.

Now take a deep breath
See it ripple
As I breathe with you
It rolls.

It's a compromise
Of our desires
Feel the waves, see them
Wash over your skin.

The color is vibrant
Iridescent, fluorescent
Warm, wet, comforting
In rainbow shades.

It's glittered with stars
Like our own galaxy
I love you, you love me
That's all that matters.

The center is our hearts
With our bodies making the waves
The connection is strong
And inevitable.

The difference between you and I
Is forgotten
And we are one
In this galaxy, this web of glowing technicolor.

You eyes are blue
With honey so sweet
Accenting the sad-sad shade
Like a silver lined cloud.

It's funny, strange even
How the color of your eyes
Match the rain
That haunts you.

A complicated and versatile color
That collects in many locations
In everyone's life
Your life, my life.

Tell me what you see
As I breathe with you
Cause I see it
Do you see it too?

Sinking
Sinking into a hole with vines to trap you
Thorns to stab you
To keep your heart from mending.

The darkness is welcomed
As much as you are afraid
But you're use to the fear
It haunts you often.

And looking up you see the sky
It explodes in cosmic colors
Nothing you can be a part of
You can only watch and yearn for it.

Your limbs you cannot move
And you realize you've stopped breathing
Or maybe you never did
You can't grasp the truth.

It all slips through your fingers
Like water through cracks
And everything is cold
And everything is lifeless.

In this hole you're confronted
With everything you need to face
You want to
But you want to hide.

You'll figure it out
Slash the vines
Destroy the thorns
Climb out of the hole.

Eventually
With time
You'll get to the sky
Up, up and away.

Because it's colors are so intimidating
But you want it so bad
It's right there
You can see it!

You cannot touch
You cannot have
But one day you will
You will, you will.

It's above you, you see
One day you'll leave this hole behind
To be with the other clouds in the sky
Cause really you're just a cloud, like all of them.

And you rain on yourself
All the time
And it's a continuous cycle
But all cycles break in the end.

Break your cycle
Be with the sky
And explode yourself
In cosmic colors.

The base of everything is black
And behind my eyelids.
Splashes of exotic colors
Explosions like firecrackers.
I know everything
I am everything
And everything knows me
And everything is me.
Whirring lines of transfiguration
Not tangible images
But the core of each thing
It's essence.
No bodies.
No thoughts.
No ideas.
Just knowing
And being.
Each depth I understand
And beyond that depth, I understand
And going down deeper, I still understand.
And it's endless
Like an abyss
Except less black
And more yes, yes, yes.
Sounds are accents to colors
But not necessary
For everything is connected
So everything knows
And to what are words?
Nothing but nothing
There are no words here...
When everything knows
And is, everything.
Lights, lots of lights
Coinciding with color
And creating sound
With it's slap of bright
And splatter of life.
There are more colors than I remember
When my body was mine.
There are sounds I think exist
But I could never hear them before.
Rumbling, rolling.
There are lights so bright I can see souls
Even though I all ready knew they were there.
Free-falling
And floating at the same time
While being rooted
To everything.
There's a buzzing over the flesh of the universe
Ripple-like effects of wavey buzzes
Touching each thing.
And I feel it all in my center
And it's on fire
But so wet.
And it spreads out in a beat like a heart; all over me
Because I am everything.
No shapes and sizes
No differentiating from each thing
The lines are blurred
The edges blending together
Everything is one
But still each thing individually connected.
I understand
And I take this understanding back with me
When I melt back into my fingers and toes
And join the worldy world
With a universe of understanding.

We're always halfway there
No matter where we are
And being halfway there
We don't have to go far.

It started on a hike
So familiar
Then to a shrine
Nothing in particular.

A small discussion
To later be pronounced
Sharing of stories
Figuring things out.

Just to that hill
There lies a bench
Tiny flower on the way
So many colors, all for you.

An urge to feel the Earth
On my skin
But I oppress it
And instead move on.

We don't walk far
But it's been an hour or so
We discover a rock
Where my brain would explode.

Take me on this rock
I want you to
You want to
We're halfway to the cave, why not?

It hits me like a semi truck
I can't see even though I see
So I close my eyes
No, no, the initial shock.

It brings on tears I've been meaning to cry
For so long
You tell me it's all right
And I try to breath, with you.

Undeniably a profound experience
I cannot explain
But it happened
Halfway to the cave, with you.

I wouldn't have gotten out alive
If you hadn't been there
But I wouldn't have been there
If you didn't bring on awkward moments.

Mind-blowing all in all
What I expected it to be
Though it never was
Never had been before.

I was so scared
But you were there
And I hated you briefly
Only briefly, and it was false.

You pried me from the rock
The only existence I understood
Since mind didn't make sense
And yours terrified me.

A long journey ahead
But I'm not afraid anymore
I think I can relax a little bit
You make it easy to be something I've never been but wanted to be so bad.

You said I'm brave
Or was
But who wouldn't be
When they have you as their guide.

But I don't trust easily
Especially guidance through
What I fear the most
Even if it's by you.

But now in darkness
I'm not afraid
A profound experience
One you made.

I would have had you on the bridge
Halfway to the cave
But I'm so unlucky
Good thing I waited.

Riddle me this
Riddle me that
Have you met your match?
She's halfway to the cave
Halfway to you
And where you are
And halfway home
And halfway to halfway
But lost
But everything is halfway to the cave
So you know where you are
And it's not far
Cause you're halfway
Halfway to the cave
And where you need to be.

But I'm glad I got lost
Halfway to the cave with you
Cause we kept going forward
And lead me through.

I grew so much
In just a day
A moment I'll savior
So life-changing, I must say.

So many realizations
From ripples of water
To plants that eat
And watch and grow

I lost myself
Halfway to the cave
But you found me
You always do.

Just let it out
I want you to
It hurts when you don't
At least it hurts to some people, most people.

Release the tension
From your muscles
Allow desired escapism
To capture your mind.

I'll rub out all the kinks
I promise
I'll help ease the circulation
Of your blood flow.

Breathe deeply
In time with my breaths
Do you feel the energy
Between us?

I can feel it
It bounces from me to you
In a complicated connection
Of webs like a spiders.

Between you and I
I know where I stand
A confidence built
Progression over time.

Do you see it through my eyes?
A shadow cast
Over the light I've spread
An intimidating stretch of black.

Do you feel it like I do?
Bubbling up, boiling over
Glowing like moonlight
Warm like the sun.

The rain that haunts you
It haunts me to
Without prediction it falls
And destroys every endeavor.

Back to the first page
Sometimes you have to read it more than once
A few times
To really understand.

And some don't ever stop reading the same page
The same book
Over and over
Over and over.

But there's always an umbrella
There's my umbrella
And there's always other books
To read.

So let it out
Release the tension
Breathe in time with me
Can you feel it?
I can.

I'd breathe for you
If you needed me to
And I'd let it out slowly
To give you a sense of inner peace.

I'd see for you
If you needed me to
And I'd describe my sights
To allow you to see what I see.

I'd speak for you
If you needed me to
Though it isn't my brightest idea
I'd hold my own, so you could be free.

I'd think for you
If you needed me to
I wouldn't recommend it
But I'd do it if need be.

I'd feel for you
If you needed me to
Touch everything to be touched
So that you could feel it too.

I'd walk for you
If you needed me to
And I'd go to the end of the world
To get you to where you need to be.

I'd smile for you
If you needed me to
Even if I was down
I'd abolish my frown, to be happy for you.

I'd cry for you
If you needed me to
And I'd let out all of my sorrows
On behalf of the pain you feel.

I'd fight for you
If you needed me to
Even at my worst
I'd challenge anyone, anything.

I'd stop for you
If you needed me to
Even when I think I can't quit
I'd drop everything.

I'd laugh for you
If you needed me to
And I do every day
Because you make it so easy.

I'd climb for you
If you needed me to
Even if I hated the idea
I'd go right to the top, without complaint, because I know how you are.

I'd give up everything
If you needed me to
Even when I try to say I would never
I would, for the love in my heart.

And most importantly: I'd die for you
As scary as that sounds
The intensity I feel for you
Is like below freezing water, or the center of the sun.

Don't be afraid
Of my feelings
As crazy as they sound
I can still be practical
I can still be logical
I can still watch out for myself, watch out for you.

I don't mean to be so dramatic
Or theatrical
But I feel this way
I really feel this way.