Hahaha.
Laugh at my pain,
These mixed signals make me feel vain.
But no one really cares,
And they don’t really want me.
They smile, then laugh,
But at me not with me.
I’m spiraling down,
Breaking myself,
Overthinking if it means something,
Or if I just need help.
I’ve lost my last bit of sanity,
And I can still see you
Just laughing loudly.
Watching me, waiting.
So I’ll laugh to,
Because it’s laugh or crack.
And im at school.

am
i
the
monster,
with
my
blurred
lines?
am
i
the
darkness,
with
my
red
thighs?
someone
revive
my
heart.
oh
god,
please
help
me,
my
heart
has
di&<.

I dream of other reality’s
Where I’m pretty and popular
Where everyone likes me
And I’m free
But still I’m trapped in these bland walls
All alone and still me
I wish for the day I wake up not here
Seeing different walls
Breathing like a real human being
Because in this life
I conform
I pretend
I lie
I’m not me
Ill never be free
Till I get to the gates of heaven
And till then I pretend
That I’m not me
I pray for that day
When god takes me home
And I can finally cry no more
Because I’m finally at peace
And I’ll no longer have to dream

I’m hiding in the bathroom.
Seeking shelter from my mistakes.
Guarding my innocence.
Waiting in vain.
These monsters they control me,
and all I do is wait.
Wait in the bathroom,
for the darkness to come in, and take.