I’m a liar,
trapped in her lies.
Drowning in false identities,
my life is not mine.
I never meant to lie,
but it’s the only way to get by.
Because people like false hope,
More than honest lies.
                                     Lies
                                          Lies
                                               Lies
                                                     I’m
                                                         Just
                                                               A
                                                                  Liar.

This dark sea
It consumes me.
It drowns my words,
And makes me freeze.
I’ve forgotten my thoughts.
I’ve become lost.
I’ve drowned to this sea,
My screams gone.
My words are muffled.
My heart has stopped.
My thoughts come to an end,
And I begin to wonder.
What’s happened to me.
Drowned inside this dark dark sea.

I’m alone,
I’m forgotten,
I’m standing behind.
I’m never in the middle,
Always lost on the side.
It’s like my friends don’t need me;
I’m their to fill space.
They use me then discard me,
And all my words go to waste.
I stay quiet now,
Becoming one with shadows.
They never wanted me,
So quietness is my only battle.
I’m forgotten, so i have also forgotten me.
I’ve lost myself to lonelinesses dark sea.
Now I’m alone surrounded by people
But they care so little for me,
So my thoughts have become bitter.
And I’ll stay quiet alone deep in this cold sea.

I’m scared
Of what others think
Of what will happen
When I think to deep
If I go down that rode
I’m scared I won’t be able to find home
I don’t want to know why
These emotions live with me
Because if I find the answer
Im scared I’ll drown there
Lost to my fears

Am I to quiet,
or am I to loud.
I can’t figure out,
whats going on all around.
I feel like I’ve been taken.
Surrounded in darkness.
Stuck and drowned.
I’m left in my mind,
and I can’t get out.

I hate talking,
and the public.
I’d prefer to be alone,
left in my room
to rot on my own.
People ask to go out,
and I say yes.
But instead wish to drown.
It’s not that I hate you,
I just hate social stuff.
I get nervous from a call,
and when I text
I always have to double check.
I can’t speak without wanting to leave,
and I always pray for a way out.
Please don’t speak to me.
It’s not that I hate you,
I just don’t like interacting.
I’m antisocial and fowl.

Every night,
I think back to the time.
When we were still friends,
and I miss our late nights,
but it got toxic.
And I got scared.
So I left,
and you screamed.
That was unfair.
I blamed you for a while,
but I realize it was me to.
I was so scared,
that I bailed,
and I wish
I could go back.
Because I miss you so much.
And every night I cry,
thinking of why,
I left you.
It all just happened,
in the blink of an eye.
I want to apologize.
And say I’m sorry.
I would ask you to forgive me,
but you wouldn’t anymore.
And I understand.
So instead ill just say I’m sorry,
for everything I’ve done.