I come lurking in the shadows. You may see me through the eyes of an abuser, thief, liar, murderer, you may even see me in your reflection. Most people run and hide from me, as if they are afraid . Yet I am nothing to be scared of. I will be your friend when your time comes. I will play for you a video tape. On that tape images your life will flash before your eyes. and you will see who the real monster is.

They said I'd never be enough
They said I'll only mess things up
Look who proved them wrong.

How many people will scroll past my poems and never stop to look at them?
How many times will I send someone messages and they never read them?
How many days will I give all I can and people still leave me unread?

"Hey it's me, and I know you probably don't want to hear from me right now. That's okay I'll keep this short, but I wanted to say sorry. I guess that you never really know what you have until it's gone. I miss you and I hope you're doing okay. Anyway call me when you get a chance."

They say home is where the heart is
that's why my heart belongs to you

Eventually everybody will know the name of Jesus
Either it be now or the day that he returns to take his people home
All will bow before the king.

Have we met like this before?
You and I
Side by side
It seems we've done this before
A time or two

I'm done trying to be kind to you, when you make me so angry

That one boy who pressured me into telling him I liked him
Now is mad when I finally decided I was done lying about this
I don't like him, In fact I kind of felt bad for him
I felt like the only way to be friends was to be more than friends
It made me uncomfortable lying to him
So I told him I won't be friends with him anymore
Then he tried manipulating me into a relationship
Using the Bible against me

Is it just me who goes through this??

I know you feel like giving up
hold on
You have people rooting for you!!

Sometimes we feel like we aren't worth anything
Yet we are
We are worth so, so much
I promise

You are a child of the king
The Lord has made you in his image
You are loved beyond measure
You are seen
You are forgiven
You are wanted
You are created with a purpose

You are so much more than this darkness
Keep going, you've got this!

You may think that you have reached the end
Trust me I've felt that way before too
But you are unfinished
You still have work to do here on this earth
You haven't reached the end in fact
You've just reached the beginning

Remember me when I was happy okay

She rises with wet hair as she turns around. The night sky full of bright stars is nothing compared to her beauty. The light in her eyes is all he notices, he can't look away. He needs her, and he needs her soon. She doesn't even try to wipe away the water dripping from her face. He slowly strides through the water right over to her. He places his hand on her lower back and he leans in. He whispers "I love you." As soon as she says it back the memory fades.
He opens his eyes and realizes he's back in his nursing home, without her.

Something you can never get back.

There is nobody for me
At least not for now
I'm honestly not ready
to Love someone again
After so much has happened
I want to be alone

I've learned to loose
I've learned pain
But I've also learned that I still have some
I still have some who love me
I still have a few who've stayed

If you ever should have to choose
choose what makes you happy

If ever you should have to leave
Leave with a purpose

If ever you should have to try
Do your best

If ever you should cry
Don't let anybody hear

If ever you're sad
Pray

The weather outside is scorching hot
So the water feels amazing
The grass has gotten greener
The wind blows cool air
The summer's heat is still way to hot though

Me: Why can't I give up and just let go?
God: I have a plan for you here.
Me: I just don't understand.
God: You will see in time what I have in store for you.
Me: when?
God: When the time is right

I'm so tired of this world
I'm so tired of trying
Why can't I give up

If it's meant to be
Maybe it will be
it's not
I'm glad it's not
You have to accept that

I've reached the end
I'm done

As we look up from the ground we lay
We see the sight of a bright gray
The clouds above us
They look so sad
They look like they
Have just gone mad

I don't know what I want
I don't know exactly how I feel
I don't know what to do

All I know is I want you to be happy
I don't want to hurt you

I'm scared

Sometimes it's easier to cry
Then to tell you how I feel

Sometimes it's easier to lie
than to tell the truth

sometimes it's hard to smile
When all I want to do is sob

I realize that "sometimes"
is all the time

Take me there
to my home
Down that old gravel road
Where the trees line the path
And the cows mow the grass
oh bring me back
to the place I use to live
To the home that made me, me
Take me down the gravel roads
And let me feel the breeze
let me hear the buzzing of the bees
let me go back home
please, please, please

I keep trying to express how I feel
But I fear I am doing a terrible job at it

I couldn't do it even if I wanted to
But if I could
If I had the nerve to
I would

I want to be far from here
I don't care where I go
As long as I am away from my problems
Yet I cannot leave without creating more issues
I am full of problems

I hate the way I am
I hate how I love to quickly
And leave so easy
I hate that I complain
I hate that I'm not enough for myself
I hate me, I hate me, I hate me
I hate me so so so much
Why do I have to be like this
I'm stuck

I'm terrified that one day I'll make a stupid choice
A choice that will change everything
I'm scared to the point I'm shaking
I feel trapped
I feel empty
I feel so much that I need to let go
Please help me
I'm begging you

Is there somebody out there who cares?
I feel so alone and I'm scared.
Please somebody help me.
I don't know what to do
I feel trapped.

People need to start using this word more lol

I'm scared of loving  
because of you

I'm not sure what I want
In someways I know for sure
In others I'm afraid
I know I have a choice
I just don't wanna make the wrong one
I feel so many things
But I don't know anymore
I'm just confused

I saw the sun rising
I also saw the sun set

Like every good day
It has to end

life is always gonna knock you down
You've got to stand tall
You've got to stand your ground
cause if you don't
who knows where you'll be

Today is a day full of gratefulness

So to my mother
I love you
thank you for being the light in my dark world

Yes I believe in God
Sorry If you don't
He has changed my life
In many ways
He has set me free

My rock
My salvation
My life

Yes I am a Christian
I will forever be a Christian

Your free little bird
Fly away
go far from here
why must you stay
for it's cold and drear
your cage has been opened
yet you wish to never leave

I feel the same way

I'm not saying sorry
For something you did
I wont ever take the blame of you again
You broke me one to many times
Left my heart in pieces
I hate you and I hate her
I hate your Mom and your whole family

I sound petty
But that is nothing compared to what you did

He's protective
He's honest
He's loyal
He's kind
He believes in God
He wants the best for his future
He knows boundaries
He's opinionated
He's responsible

He's everything
but
He's not mine

I'm sorry for being so sad all the time
But it hurts knowing I can't make everybody happy
Not even myself

I laugh when I want to cry
Maybe because deep inside
I'm alone

If only I wasn't afraid to try
Maybe I could've made it somewhere

At night the sun sets
and the moon comes
It's like a lullaby
at night the song is sung to the young
and they fall asleep under the light of the moon

Yesterday I went to your grave
I put flowers down
I hope that you like them
I tried to sing you happy birthday
But I couldn't stop crying
I miss you
I always wonder what you are doing right now
I hope you're happy

After we left your resting place
We went and saw your grandma
She was sitting on the front porch
We talked for a while

I hope that you celebrated your birthday up in heaven.

Remember all the things we said we'd do
Well now I will have to do it without you
That's okay though
I have accepted that
You're happy now up in heaven
I will continue to fulfill all the things that we said we were gonna do
Just to say we made it