She trusted him with everything,
He took it and destroyed it after a day.
She thought it was by mistake,
Gave him one more chance.
He did it once again.
Laughed at the look of her teary eyes.

I want to get better
but then I won’t have her in my life.
She is a mystery to my boring ways
Always telling me not to get caught.
One would say the devil to my shoulder
I would say the voice that wants to get heard.
I need her to feel something but she is the poison
To my mind.

All I can do is cry
My hope is done with us.
I wanted this to least
There is nothing to fix.
Your heart never let his arms
While mine waiting to be loved.
I wish I could be him.
I wish I could stop your pain.
Go back in time and fix the mistake
If it’s true love why didn’t it work?
All they can say is nothing
Even that is too much.
Go!
I’m not holding you back.

I won at last.
In a week, my past is gone.
I get to start over finally,
I will smile bigger than ever.
I will cry from happiness,
And smile until the sun goes down.
In a week, I will be me more than ever.

If I was a book,
My pages would be filled with empty words.
I would be placed on the highest shelves.
In the middle of all the sections,
Not fitting in perfectly anywhere.
If I was a book
I would confuse everyone that picks me up,
Until someone gives me a chance.
If I was a book,
I hope you would choose me every night,
Read me until you fall asleep.

We weren’t perfect; I knew that.
I loved as much as a broken person could.
Trying to change the stories to make me look bad.
I almost trusted those stories more,
Because he told them all the time.
I never will go back to that,
I know my worth, and one will take that.
No matter how pretty they seem to the outside world.

In-person they love me,
Over text, it’s like a desert.
I wish for rain but I only have my
tears.

The sky is giving me a warning sign.
A dark x which tells us to run,
Run and don't look back.
The world is playing games with our minds and nothing can save us if we stay.
Stars are getting darker instead of brighter.
The screams are getting louder,
Families are getting torn apart.
It's hard to tell what's going to happen if we leave with out everyone.
The x is getting bigger
Time is almost out.
What will we do?

Tell me this happiness is all fake.
Tell me the broken heart is a toy messing all of its pieces.
I won’t believe this truth.
If I told him my heart was made of money, then he would keep it right?
Instead, just emotions failing to be shown.
Did he just want me to be heartless so I can’t fall in love with him?
He just wanted a doll, but I’m not that.
Does this mean I'm seeing the real truth

The voice was sugar to my ears.
It taught me strength when he didn't want to.
It was there for me when she wouldn't be.
I learned hope from it,
When hopeless were all, I knew.

I wonder how everything is meant to be.
If I gave her five more minutes maybe she would still in my arms.
Maybe she would have been my last kiss and it could have lasted forever.
I thought she was the one for me.
Some days I even counted how long until we saw each other again.
The answer was it was always too long but I know she was the one.
I don't know if she agrees but my heart is broken into pieces waiting to be glued back together.
She is the only one with the right glue.
Maybe my heart will always be broken.
Maybe I lost the love of my life forever.

If I was lost, would you be there to help me find my way?
Some days will be tough,
There are days that you'll need a second to breathe.
If I finished early would you give me other things to do?
Some times will be louder than can imagine,
Take a second to help the class get back to a softer tone.
If I was falling behind, would you stay longer to help me catch up?
Some students won't want to learn,
Put on your thinking cap and try to take the stress away.
If I didn't believe in myself, would you teach me how?

Freeze.
I stand still, waiting for a single whisper.
If I move,
Will everything good disappear?
Holding onto the memories that help me stay quite
Wondering if this moment will ever pass.

Back again
Doing the same thing.
Nothing feels real anymore,
Are we in a book?
When will the happy ending come
Will there be one?
I fear there will be part two.
No one knowing how to act
All the things now disappear.
Toilet paper being used as weapons.
The poor suffer as the rich take it all.

I wish he could see himself through her younger eyes.
How broken his little girl was from the words he used as bullets.
Hoping to be invisible in his eyes,
Then he couldn't hurt her with his twistest phases.
All she wanted was her father's approval.
When she came out, the bond was broken.

Love
Love has no limits and not hate.
Don’t stand there and tell me you love it when you don’t even know her.
What’s her favorite color?
What makes her happy on a Cloudy day?
I watch her grow each day learning new things.
One day I hope she takes my last name.
I watched her cry over you.
She has only smiled because of me.
She laughed at my stories.
I cried to see you leave her again.
I may be her best friend, but one day I will be her whole life.
Love is making sure she is happy and cooking her favorite things.
I never once told her to change because she is fantastic just this way.

I want to look her in the eye and ask why we aren't together?
I have seen the way she looks at me when she thinks I'm not looking.
When the night gets cold and she asked me for my sweater without thinking.
How we are there for each other no matter what time is it.
Waking up in the middle of night to dream of the other.
I will ask her what she is afraid of.
To let her know that no matter what I will be here.

The sweet girl from her.
The words that couldn’t stop me smiling even if I try.
Wanting to stay up all night talking, Planning all the adventures.
Laughing and blushing from a single text message. Waiting to learn more about what makes her smile on the darkest day. Knowing it’s only been a few days but already having a crush on her.

A single rose means love,
The rest mean he ******* up again.
Every time he brought home flowers, I knew right away he had done something terrible.
The women would accept and forget it ever happened.
It was only the start of a downhill relationship.

I now know I will never be enough.
I wish I was his ex.
He must have been really in love.
Watch me spread my wings,
He will regret this soon.
No, he won’t
I’m not this high school sweet hurt,
Not the one that makes him smile.
He wanted a rebound and I was easy to get too.
Thinking we would get married only to watch him leave in a minute.
I hope his ex understands he never fell out of love.
He tried to move on but his heart stayed.

It’s not that I want to leave,
but how much it hurts to see her not in my arms.
Her smile starts to fade when I leave.
I wish she knew how hard I would fight for us to be
I may be 5,875 miles away,
I would walk that to see her once again.
It’s not that I want to leave.
It’s hard to miss someone who you ever had.

It always hurt seeing them leave.
I watch them grow without me.
Knowing we weren't meant to be.
Scared to admit that I miss them,
Knowing they won't feel the same way.
I watched them move on without me.
I'm glad they are happy but wish they were
Happy with me.
I know we were toxic, but can you please forgive me.

The wind blowing as the hair is flowing in the moment.
Wearing coats too big but keeps us just as warm.
Time to fall in love while drinking cocoa.
The bad memories are starting to fade like a rainy day.
The good is staying put like your conversions.
At the end of the night, we all stare at the same snow falling from the tress.
I wished on a shooting star to keep this day with us forever.

How much louder do her cries have to be to get heard?
Her mouth is getting tired of screaming for help.
Her tears are like the end of a sad movie.
If you looked up the warning signs of sucide
There will be a photo of her.
She try to wipe away the fears but then she would be gone.
She is too weak to fight forever
But too afraid to give up.

I let her in, in return
I got destroyed.
I showed my weakness, all I got
Was fake sorry. My house is filled with
Roses. I told her how that means nothing to me.
She tore my heart in two and watched me fall to the ground.
I trusted her, now all I can say is sorry. Even when I hear I love you,
I’m waiting for the end. It's hard to love someone when everything good is taken.
When I say I love you know I went through hell to get here. Please don’t hurt me again.
I can’t take it.

I’m sorry
It's the losing words,
I give up and don’t want to fight.
I can’t take seeing mad faces so I lay myself down to get walked over.
After a while, I got used to it.
I learned how to hide my emotions
Behind a locked door that will never open.
Try all you got and see that it will never move
Not even an inch.
If I hit the floor, I can't go lower.

Never have I ever said I loved someone when I didn’t.
Never have I ever said something I didn’t meant.
I put my life in these poems to get a few views.
I want to be noticed but I don’t want to lose my self.
I’m already slipping back into the old me.
I’m crying knowing the hospital is calling my name.
Even if im crying I know that I never told I lie to the people I love.

She didn't have to say a word,
Her eyes said it all.
The girl was in love, and no one could say differently.
He hated winter, learned to love it for her.
One night changed the girl's life forever.

Her voice was as soft as cotton candy on a summer day.
Her body was like a river Beauty that never stop comings.
Her hair was smooth as lather chair.
My love for her only grow stronger each day.
I thought I couldn’t find my princess but all it took was waiting for the right one.
She is my world,
My happiness.

I really like you.
I'm too afraid to give my heart up again.
Will you promise not to break me?
Will you let me know when the love is gone in your eyes?
I can't watch you fall out of love.
Just to turn around and feel that way with someone else more then you ever did with me.
It's ok to leave,
Don't go without a word please.

I hope one day I can smile when thinking of her.
I know that day was darker than a sky with no stars.
I didn't want break your heart in to a thousand pieces,
only wanted to smile again.
The way to that was to leave you behind.
I kept the memories but that's all I can take.
A little part of me still loves you but not enough to fight for something that was already lost.
I hope one day I can smile again when thinking of you.

I’m in a field of nothing
I look for the opening, its hard not to think.
I clear my mind and fill it up with drugs to
Stop the emotions.
The field is my mind, there is no going back.
The weather is my emotions changes every few minutes,
One second it is sunny and chill.
The next second is the storm of nasty words and
Sharp objects.
The worst is the last the snow of numbness
When it touches get I confused and lost.
The field will grow one day
One day I will see the pretty views over the icy rivers.

It feels like a dream maybe too good to last.
Maybe too good to be true.
I sit back and relax not sure what is going to happen next.
I roll down my window and I finally understand what being peaceful means.
I thought it meant when im sitting next to you and you give me that look.
That says nothing bad is ever going to happen to you.
But I'm alone and I feel better than ever.
I hope this isn't a dream.
If this has to be I hope I never wake up unless you're next to me.

Why does this always happen
Dreams turn into nightmares
Wishes turn into bargaining for life.
This all happen because of one little lie.
I didn’t mean for this to get this bad.

Please go away anxiety
I don't want to hear how terrible I am.
It's not like I even care; I already know those things.
He forced it down my throat like old soup waiting for
Me to shallow the words.
If I throw it up, he will say it all over again until I lye in defeat
He laughs while I cry on the bed getting everything wet.
Knowing I won't fight back to scared for conflict and fights.

Truth hurts
She gave him all she had
But got nothing in return.
She stayed up all night waiting
For a text.
He stayed up flirting with other girls.
She missed wanted him so badly
He only wanted one girl, she wasn’t it.
She is waiting for that to change.
He doesn’t even notice her.

Mexico
Today I was supposed to go there.
It was the thing that kept sane when I was insane.
Things don’t always go as planned, and I’m learning this the hard way.
I was in pain, but my mind used this as a reason to keep going.
this is gone what is next because my dreams are crashing likes fly in a window.
It’s a little buzz but doesn’t get louder even if I try to scream.
I was told to let it out, but it doesn’t work.
Nothing comes out, nothing but air.
I try to fight, but nothing is near me.
Today was a trip, but now I’m at home.

I woke up wondering what happened to us.
Sitting by the phone waiting for it to ring,
Hours pass, and no text messages are sent.
I remember when we stayed up all night chatting until the sun came up.
Picturing what our futures hold,
Now all I see is empty memories of what could have been.

I look at it with tears in my eyes.
What's there, you may ask?
Nothing just empty thoughts of pain waiting to happen.
I see the future of regret,
I’m wishing to take the last ten seconds back.
I look at my tattoo one more time to give me hope,
The snowman tattoo smiles, praying I let go of the past.
Nothing will change until I do.

He thought she wanted it to happen.
The smile hid the real feelings because she is too afraid of telling him no.
She would cry it out, believing one day he would care for her,
Instead, he went for someone else.
He said he would stay only to take the first exit out.
If she ever spoke her truth, he would make her think she was crazy.
Now, this girl thinks it's love to be treated this way.
Her first love broke her,
the second made her trust again.

I was his everything, or that’s what he said.
He liked other girls, but I didn’t want to believe it.
I held on too long, so he knew that I wouldn’t let go.
I wanted us to be the end game, but all he wanted it to was a fling.
This was a year ago. Why can’t I let go?
I hold wondering if he will come to me
He ever has, but I still wait in shallow and petty.

Even with all the medicine, she still won't leave me alone.
Reminding me one day how the person you like will go any second.
Stop smiling; he doesn't even notice you.
I sit on my floor, trying to think of all the stuff he ever said to me.
The voice gets louder, and it won't turn off.
I sent another text,
She tells me you are driving him away.
I deleted it,
Only to regret it a second later.

I'm not upset anymore.
This is good bye until we meet again,
I hope you remember me as the boy that stayed up late just to say hi.
I knew nothing last forever,
Was hoping this would be different.
The first time I sent you a text I didn't think we would be friends like this.
I hope one day we meet in person.
I wish this wasn't goodbye but happy for the times we had.

She was broken but hiding it.
Her smile was brighter than the sun,
But her thoughts were darker than the moon.
She was seconds away from going,
The thought of love made her stay.

A flower is similar to dating,
Looks super sweet and will last for a long time.
Until the pedals start to slowly disappear, leaving an empty stem.
Then you look for a newer and prettier one,
Hoping this time, it will last longer than the last
Never understanding why it keeps getting old but never giving it attention.

My little heart flutters with butterflies.
It's the way he smiles at me and makes me feel special.
This time it will be different, or that's what I tell myself.
I'm not worried about falling, only for the after the mess of it all.
My little heart flutters with butterflies while my mind worries about how to prepare for the last goodbye.

Leave
Stop coming back
I said goodbye and I meant it .
I can’t stand seeing you without crying.
All the memories are still with me.
I try to kick them out but it’s stuck on replay.
I listen to the text messages when I sleep,
I guess I just wanted you to stay
I close my eyes and hope it this was all a nightmare.
I wake up and he’s not next to me.

Hey
That's the last thing she said to me.
Next thing she is gone.
I wanted to tell her how much I wanted her.
I would never leave her side.
It’s too late now, thanks to people Like you.
Telling her, she won’t make it.
She was going to be my all.
I only have her photo and laughs in my mind.
I wish I could get those night backs.
I will never move on I promise

Stay where you are.
Don't move, or everything will go up in flames.
I wait another minute, hoping this nightmare will go away.
Nothing has changed besides the laughs that turned into wines.
No one knows if we will get out.
Stay where you are, or be ready to fight something you can't see.

I’m gone
The happiness left.
All that is left is saddens.
Here the birds singing,
Telling me to run.
I asked where they said anywhere your mind is coming.
Why i am running from my own mind?
I must be my worst friend.
Help me please! I need to run!
I heard a girl telling me to follow her, I do.
Oh no it was my Brain.
Please help me escape
I can’t stay here. It will **** me.
I will wait it’s been 3 years, I can wait another day.