Angels in a nightclub


There are angels in my heart and angels in sight;
There are angels everywhere I look tonight.
This is surely Heaven, for there is magic in the air.
The finest, most beautiful, angels are here.


There are not enough words, to express the way that I feel;
There are not enough ways to say you are beautiful.
There is not enough time for me to show you my feelings are real.
There is just enough time for me to change your world.


To catch your eye, to make you smile;
An automatic response, you cannot deny.
Admit you love me, or at least don’t hate me,
Then my heart can be set free.


One day angel tears may fall from our eyes,
But right now we could be something, so raise a smile.
You can’t be sad, when I look so silly,
When I am simply, being me.
Trying hard to make you laugh;
Exchanging vanity for looking daft.


Darkness lets you dance freely,
So you can let go and fall in love with me.
We are two people; we both know one is not enough.
Let us become Romeo and Juliet; let us each find love.


Kiss me goodnight and hold me tight.
My angel in the nightclub…
You changed my life.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I wrote this just for you


You alone will find meaning within my words.
My poetry is just for you.
Your interpretation is right and the only interpretation that matters…
To you.


What you think is so important;
I agree with you, it is.
Whatever you find within the rhymes of my poetry;
You are the seeker and you will find what you need.


Go find the truth, beneath the words;
Learn to read more poetry and you will find joy inside him or her.
Write your own words and they will not know you are a nerd;
Speak from the soul
And you will become anything, when your words are heard.


The fires are burning; you are the worm that is turning.
When you have left school, you shall continue learning
And in the end, we all become more;
This is not the end of forever…we are the beginning.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

English Cowboy


I see a Cowboy walking down the street…
He looks like he’s a stranger here, from a place I have never been.
He tips his hat at the ladies and they are all smiling back at him.
If I bought myself a cowboy hat, they still would never smile at me.
Because I’m an English man in England,
I cannot stand out from the crowd;
But the Cowboy walking down this London street,
He ain’t looking like no clown.


He owns his style and he walks so proud;
That is something I could never do.
In this place I am always lost, somehow.
Maybe if I went to his land, I could find myself in tune.


He’s heading for his hometown;
I’m walking out on mine.
I see him at the airport,
Waving all those smiling ladies goodbye.
When we land over in his land,
He just becomes the same as all the rest.
I walk into the nearest bar and order myself a drink…
Oh my God!  I love your accent!


I’m a stranger in a stranger town
And I feel as if I’m right at home.
I’m so glad I left those London streets;
Maybe I could have stayed, but sometimes you just have to go…


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He said “There is no love.”


I only get to see beautiful women as they walk on by.
I do not get to fall in love;
Nobody will ever be on my side.
Mine to adore, to love and much more,
My girlfriend, my lover, my never a chore;
My only ever, pleasure forever after.
I wait for a sign or reason to carry on,
But there is no hope…no love…no one.


My heart is empty of someone to love,
So I will give it up, it takes too much.
My heart and soul I would give to be loved,
But I cannot even see a way that is up.
That is what’s up.  Forever down, by my own depression,
I never learn any lessons.
I just fail, leave them guessing,
Never actually show a piece of me; there is nothing to see.


The music video ‘Just’ is in my head today,
Because if they all had my empathy, they would all stop
And lay down next to me.
I am unmoving, going nowhere fast; no sympathy, please.
No kiss or hug is heading my way,
Because I am an island covered in rain.
Who would want to go on a holiday there?
(Even temporarily)

…I do not care…


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Words Of Love.


There you stood, in front of me,
I sat and stared, with a distant grin.
My thoughts had gone up, to a better place,
You shine such an, amazing grace.


You must have thought, I’d lost my mind,
I must have looked, a little frightening.
You must have thought, I like that guy,
When our friends introduced you to me.


But now I know, the thoughts you think,
Are everything, I’ve ever wished for
And now I know, the words you the speak,
Are the loving words, of an unbroken trust


And now I know, the thoughts you think,
Are everything, a boy could wish for
And now I know, the words you speak,
Are the Heaven sent, words of love.


And if I ever, let you down,
I hope you’ll let me, make it up to you.
And if I ever, bring you down,
Just know I never, meant to hurt you.


For you my love, are everything,
My one and only, true love lady.
You my love are my favorite dream,
The one who can truly, be satisfied with me.


And now I know, the thoughts you think,
Are everything, I’ve ever wished for
And now I know, the words you the speak,
Are the loving words, of an unbroken trust


And now I know, the thoughts you think,
Are everything, a boy could wish for
And now I know, the words you speak,
Are the Heaven sent, words of love.


So hold me tight, don’t let me go,
I want to have your love forever.
So hold me tight and truly know,
With you my life could only be better.


I offer up my heart to you,
So please step down from your pedestal
And take all the love I have to give,
For you my love are truly incredible.


For now I know, the thoughts you think,
Are everything, I’ve ever wished for
And now I know, the words you the speak,
Are the loving words, of an unbroken trust.


And now I know, the thoughts you think,
Are everything, a boy could wish for
And now I know, the words you speak,
Are the Heaven sent, words of love.


Come and lay down, here with me,
Let me massage away, all your troubles.
For with you I can, become free,
I can truly look forward, to tomorrow.


For if I have you by my side,
Nothing can stop, this true believer
And if I have you in my life,
I know I can be truly complete, yeah.


For now I know, the thoughts you think,
Are everything, I’ve ever wished for
And now I know, the words you the speak,
Are the loving words, of an unbroken trust.


And now I know, the thoughts you think,
Oh my gosh!  I do truly love you
And now I share my thoughts with you,
My love I feel the same way you do.


And now I know, the thoughts you think,
Are everything, a boy could wish for
And now I know, the words you speak,
Are the Heaven sent, words of love.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Love Bullet


Neither love, nor death,
Nor weakness or strength,
Could stop these words of love,
From leaving with my breath.


These words I must speak,
For you have inspired me,
To speak of love and lust.
To once more argue the case for your trust.


Your love is the bullet I shoot into my veins.
I take your heart inside of me, to ease our pains.
You **** me slowly from within,
It feels like Heaven; let this never end.


My scandalous siren of mischief and naughtiness,
You crash into me and spin the world backwards;
Clockwise, Anti Christ, Upside Down;
My senses go sideways and my head stands on the ground.


You pick me up with a word like love,
So once more I can stand before you
And beg for your touch.
Love me and I am yours until the end;
All I ask, is you tell me when I am not enough.


Or kiss me and I shall rejoice in your presence;
From morning through to daybreak
And until we are each taken to Heaven.


I can only feel warmth,
When you are there to be seen,
Before I must perform.
Distracting them from my dark heart,
With your pure love, light hearted, shine of a star.
You allow me to do this;
For without your love,
This would have soon all just have been forgotten.


So I shall move the Earth for you
And bring the Sun a little closer to your view,
Because sometimes you look grumpy, without my love;
There is no need for you to be lonely or sad…
Come here and receive your free hug.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The River.


In waves it flows and rages full;
In moonlight it slows and trickles still.
In sunshine it roars a tumultuous call.
The river flows throughout the seasons and throughout the hills.


Down in the valley, the water still runs;
At first just a drip, then a tidal wave.  Its source is unknown.
It echoes throughout the mountains as if fired from a gun;
Its voice tells the same story as it did long ago.


Its people swim freely, never knowing they are entrapped;
Beneath its surface, a civilization is formed.
It gives birth to life and also takes it back;
The river is still flowing…the sunshine is still warm.


The river was eternal, long before the age of man;
Who are we to change nature and build a dam?
Let the ******’s ****** away and do as they must to be nourished.
Allow nature to do what is necessary and this world will flourish.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Choose Life


We choose our own teachers,
Just as we choose how to live.
We choose when to have faith,
Just as we choose what to see.


It’s just our personal choices that define us,
Including choices we chose not to make.
It may be our subconscious or conscious thoughts,
But it’s the same twenty four hours in this day.


The smallest of choices could change your life
And a choice we chose not to choose
Could have no effect at all.
But if we chose to succeed,
The chance of failure would shorten;
But would anything really change
If we chose nothing at all?


You see I could have chosen not to,
Write these words for you to read.
Just as you could have chosen
Not to use your brain and think,
About the underlying text;
Is it speaking the truth?
This is not my question to answer.
Its target is not you.


But still you choose to answer,
For you have read so you must speak.
I have no need for any opinion,
I just wrote this for me to read.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Phobophobia Collection – P is for Phobophobia


I’ve got 99 problems and my woman does not exist… so she ain’t one.
I’ve got 99 problems now my woman is gone.
I used to have one hundred problems
And only one that mattered;
But now the only thing I have got,
Is this feeling of feeling shattered.


I have dreamed of not having insomnia,
For what literally seems like forever.
I truly can’t be happy,
Rain or shine or any weather
And whatever the occasion I am down in the dumps;
Found this manic personality and man it *****!


Oh look; I have met a beautiful woman.
Oh my!  She must be my true love!
She said hello!
Oh she must be the one!

But now she is talking to somebody else,
On her stupid phone…


Thank you life; I really taught myself a lesson,
To never even try to be happy,
I will never have a family,
So I’ll fetch myself some rope
And a broken pen
And a rose for my rose,
To remember me when…


I woke up depressed again…
I did not go to sleep this way.
I had an amazing nightmare last night,
But all memory of it has gone away…


Half way through a conversation,
Or when I pass through a threshold,
I sneeze like I have a cold,
But I am not ill, or so I have been told.
Where are my keys?
What was I talking about?
What the Hell!?
Where was I going?
Did I put the food in the oven?
Or did I leave it out?
Did I lock the door?
I will check once more,
Then I will check it again and again
And again to be sure.


They say I mask my sadness,
With my pathetic attempt at what I call humour;
But I refuse to listen!
And laugh like a mad man,
As they spread their vicious rumours,
About…my precious!


If I had an imaginary friend,
I guess that she would have to be a Princess,
For she could only ever exist, inside my head
And she would eventually leave, because I am so very boring.
I have no desire to speak to men,
Because their conversations only leave me snoring.


Why do you look so les miserables?
I was born this way!
I have apathy to faking smiles;
Get out of my way!
I have to leave this planet,
There are far too many people.
There is a call for you…
I don’t want to speak, I can’t take the trouble.
I foresee a future and it will only be evil,
Asking “How the Devil are you today?”
I sarcastically reply, oh yeah…I am great!  
With no smile on my face
And my dark empty eyes…
How I hate human beings…
Donnie Darko had it right.


Send me a new broken engine,
So I don’t have to speak to them again…
But…I want to be your friend…
Well I want to get to the bitter end…
But I want to be your girlfriend…
Believe me you are all better off if I am dead;
Rather that, than have to deal with me and my lack of empathy.
So much empathy!  
It is killing me!
Hannibal Lector’s got nothing on me…


I guess I had better stop writing this truth,
For I don’t want you to see my ugly face or my mania.
My body’s dysmorphic disorder is no stranger than I am;
But there is one in the mirror.
Who is that arrogant, narcissistic man?
I will self-diagnose…but I will not type into Google ‘Thanks’.


The past is still the present
And I guess I am agnostic when it suits me,
But I want to go Heaven!
I don’t believe a thing
And I am sick to death of my repeated reincarnations.


My entire existence is flat-lining;
So worthless, like everything,
And I feel so tired, like, all of the time
And I can’t even rhyme,
So I repeat the same lies.
So tell me what is the point?
There clearly is no point…


Stop writing this garbage,
Nobody wants to read it.
I don’t even want to have to write it,
But I am enslaved and completely compelled…

I guess in a while,
I will reach the finish…

Oh my God…
What is this fresh Hell?


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Raindrop


From the sky I fall forever;
Warp speed, light years, I can fly!
Further down I plummet towards you,
Through the wings of a butterfly.
Forever falling, sweat is pouring;
Silence is golden to the eagle at my side.


Faster, faster I travel along;
The new born sun shows rainbow blood.
It’s cold up here; I am going for a free falling song!
But the words do not mention what I have become
And what I will become.


Inside a sunbeam I disappeared.  
They dropped me off a cloud
And now my destiny is beckoning me to come down here.
And then with a crash, I splish! I splash!
I change into a vast ocean mass.


Now I am surrounded by H2O;
I have a place I can feel at home.
Through endless currents, I float along.


I cannot swim, but I can adapt.
I am a raindrop no more; I have become an ocean.
I told you I would be back.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Poem number 1000 – Part Three : Deeper and deeper


Forever onward, into a future of possibilities;
Another line, from inside a mind, without sense, but with sensibility.
Throughout time I have learned to garner my abilities,
To become the man you hear; I have earned my dependability.


In partnership, I have discovered my heart
And I doomed it from the start, to starve inside a life of scars.
****** for eternity, to tear myself apart;
Without a guiding hand to guide me, I fell beneath the stars.


Blessed mornings are all slept right through
And aspirations are lost alongside the dripping dew.
The sunshine awakens my eyes, as I see through the blind;
But I shall still not arise, from this cocoon.


Into slumber I drift, indifference I change;
I have become a slave of my own disdain.
The words echo out of my mouth and around the room;
In tunes we marvel, in love we are eternally doomed.


Our hope is curtailed, so we have set sail;
The voyage of the ******, Poseidon at our tail.
A war of world’s, inside a shattered soul;
Our thoughts come and go, but we are deep inside this hole.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Poem number 1000 : Part Two – Could do better.


This is the thousandth poem I have written;
I have been looking forward to this day for a very long time.
Poetry took over my life and gave me a reason for my existence;
Now I have a reason to do what I must do.  I must write.


Many years have come and gone since I began to write.
I’ve spoken about my life and death; I’ve spoken about my future wife.
I’ve spoken about anything and everything; I have been honest and lied.
I have told you everything I feel inside
And I am left with nothing to hide.


If you want to know me completely,
Then you will have to read all of my poetry.
If you want a glimpse of the real me,
Then find one of my poems and you will find peace, love and empathy.


Sometimes you will find what you did not want to hear;
But I must show you every part of my soul, including the fear.
The dark side, the happiness, the love and the hate;
Everything has now been talked about,
But there is always more I will have to say…


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Poem number 1000 – Part One. – It has no name.


Wings of purest silver, halo of gold;
Stand and I will deliver, for a soul I require a soul.
Forever rolling fields of the green, green grass of home;
A clone never feels alone, in a world full of clones.


Follow the star in your brand new car;
All that we are is loved in the dark.
Sanctity exists, if we believe in it;
Without a God to blame or praise, we would remain gifted.


Youth has come and gone too fast for us all;
In the end we find a way, to walk through walls.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Create art.


Snap it apart; tear it apart; pull it apart…
Create art.

Anything can be used to ignite my fire;
Anything can be used to set fire to my mind.
Anything can be used to keep the fire burning.
Anything can be used, except the words I cannot find.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Thanx Maya


When the battlefields become only fields.
When the swords of hope, become only hope.
When money is worthless and only hearts do we steal.
When all is said and done…only then will we know.


When wishes become our only true reality
And needful things are happily given unto us, without question or end.
When gone is no longer a place we need to be;
Only then will all humans really become humanities friends.


When the fires have already rained down on us from the sky!
And their devastation has quickly been washed away by our love.
When thunder storms suddenly appear,
And then just as suddenly, they pass us on by;
Only then will we find our home is within us.


When the dark knights have passed and the dawn sun arisen;
When the blood boils only from a mutual need,
To make love with passion!
When all is true love!  
And when one is enough!
Only then will we see what we have had all along...
I already know the fire which we have trapped inside of us.


You can call it a sin or a mystery box.
You can say it is worthless; you can scorn, you can mock.
You can think as you please, but do not tell me I am wrong!
I have something deep down inside me that can conquer you all!
It does not end.  It does not give up.  It does not stop.
Love continues, to surprise.
Love is fire behind the eyes.
Love is a mountain top; from acorns do we rise!
Love is momentous!  Love can stop time!
Love is more powerful than you will ever become!
Love is all you need.  Everybody needs to be loved.


When the hate is removed like a hat
And the ‘e’ is placed onto mad to create.
When the greedy are sated and are left alone to sit down,
Be quiet and anxiously contemplate.
When they tell us love is not real, get with the times, ok!
I will remove my head and take my mind off them, thus remaining calm;
I have had my fill, so I can wait…  
I believe you had something to say…


When they tell me to not care and just simply move on!
I shall so simply reply…I will not.
When they laugh at me for believing in a thing called love.
When they beat me down with their nightstick words,
Time and time again,
Screaming love is gone!
I will continue to rise to my feet and go looking for the one.
When they say there is not only one!
Just sleep with everyone!
I will say you and I are very different.  
I appreciate you do not understand.
When they say I am an idiot for believing in my soulmate.
I will agree.   Stupidly in love with a happy day…
Every day is a happy day with my love holding my hand.


When they tell me there is no love!  And I am just a joke!
I will bid them adieu and simply say I am bored, I must go…
When they say I told you so!  You don’t even know!
You are just like us with our empty souls!

I will simply say my soul is red and it truly is heart-shaped,
And hearts are so full of love…

That is all that, which I know…


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Story teller


This life is going too fast.
Holding hands, hauling ***.
One day we were kissing,
Now in all the pictures with holes,
I am missing.


You cut me out of your life through spite,
Because I couldn’t love you like,
You needed to be loved;
By another man with a job.
I couldn’t be the one that you could plan a future with.
One of us wanted to raise kids.
One of us was left behind.
One of us was left to cry.


If only we could have cried together;
Tried even harder…
Maybe we wouldn’t have become fertilizer.
We would never have had to sever the bond we had.
Now I am loves survivor.


I carry on in human form,
Wandering this world alone,
Since the day that I was born.
Left again on church steps.
Begging for milk and a place to rest;
But the time has come where I am no longer undone.
I think that I am strong enough,
To stand.
Maybe at last I can become a man.


So forward I stride into the rest of my life.
I walk along the beaten path.
The smile on my face shows you my past,
Has been laid down to rest, because that is that.
A forgotten memory of the former me.
You see the actual soul I call myself is frozen in another Hell,
That feels like home; it’s somewhere to be.


On concrete roads I am sure of nothing.
That I know.
So forward I go, alone, no place to call my home.


I need a heart to love always,
But I am in pieces, because love only walks away
And at the end of the day I remain the same.
A ghost hanging onto a former glory.
These things they all change.
Time to write a better story.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Still burning


I want someone who sets my heart on fire.
An eternal flame that is not denied.
I need a new spark to burn an avalanche of liars.
I need a direct route through to wife.


I want a get well card for my love life.
A slice of that cake sure looks nice,
But inside it’s carrot cake.
Where is the chocolate?  
Vegetables!
Give me a break!


Catch my drift and lead me into temptation.
I need to find a new sensation.
A love I have never had before.
Been there, done that; so tired; so bored.
I want a never before seen, woman of my dreams,
Who is destined to become my Queen.


Not a lover who already has a lover,
Or a lover who finds a new lover,
When I am meant to be with her.
I want original; not the same old same.
Give me fireworks!  
Come on!  Entertain!


A notion of excellence.
I don’t want to be one of many men.
I want to be unique.
One reject; two rejections;
Already taken, makes three.


If all I can have is bad for me,
Give me bad at lying; give me empathy.
Give me something for me…
Please.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Sorry to my unknown lover


Sorry to my unknown lover.
I am so sad that you will be with another.
I am so scared of falling in love.
I am more scared of not being loved.


My head is so full up with ghosts.
You will be the one I miss the most.
I’m afraid that I have given up.
I think that I have said enough.


I must go to save you from me.
I must stay silent and set you free.
I cannot, put you through this.
I will not, put you through this.


I will stay alone and cry and die.
I will pray in another life, I am stood at your side.
I have crashed over a cliff,
Because I fell in love and it smashed me to bits.


I have already chosen why.
I have already been convinced by my own lies.
I couldn’t be there for you and stand up tall.
I can barely breathe or stand at all.


I couldn’t give you all you need.
I couldn’t stand to let you see,
The broken thoughts inside my head.
They are overflowing with regret
And every word I never said,
Sticks into me like pins and in the end,
I know I will have to walk away;
I have to go, there is no other way.


I cannot look into your eyes,
Without you seeing into mine.
I cannot hide and tell a lie;
I want to be with you, but I cannot, this time,
Or any other time in space,
Or any other way or place.
Impossible is all I know,
So I will fade and you will go
And all I will be left with is a memory,
The chance I never took and my misery.


I turn my back to protect you,
And when I turn back around, you have moved.
I see the door as it closes shut…
I’m sorry I couldn’t say…I love…


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

*** in the Marital Bed


Upon a fair and blowing wind, a sound is heard a singing.
A quiet voice with echoed choirs, the bells shall soon be ringing.
Come one, come all, to gaze upon the setting sun of one man’s heart.
For this day shall pass and no more will laugh,
For the spirit will be taken from Love.


Lovers lie,
Back to back.
No whispered I love you’s.
No apology forthcoming.
Something is wrong in Cupid’s kingdom.


The arrow struck gold and bound two souls,
But they are each forever alone with each other.
The winter is drawing in all around them.
They try to embrace and roll face to face,
But words are like daggers, cutting away.
Enough has been done and said in the marital bed,
To leave them to conclude that love is at its end.


A list of affairs, as long as your arm.
This heart has lost every one of its beautiful charms
And through no intention meant and on through regret,
They lay side by side in the marital bed.


An eerie sound of nothingness, sits between them.
Never been nearer to drifting apart.
The stone silence, at last compels them to speak their true feelings,
Once and for all.
And so they start…

And by the end,
The end has come.
Like the sound of a gun,
This love…
It is done.


All that remains of a once true love bonding,
Is scattered ashes, broken pictures and tarnished memories.
These wedding rings are a bargain!
And here once more, the zombie-mind crawls,
Unable to talk about love at all.


His last, is has been said;
He caught his death,
Like the coldness of steel.  The life; so quickly taken.  The pain so real.
The sacrificed good times when she was his wife,
But those days are lost to fire, she burns his picture,
Upon a pyre made from his clothes,
As she weeps her endless tears of ice,
And in the end all that remains is a stain.
Proof they are through.
Begotten unto you is a message of love,
As dust is to dust; marriage is no longer the way.


Lovers of love lose love so easily.

Lovers are lost to new lovers daily.

Lovers of love lose love so easily….

Lovers are lost to new lovers daily…


So sign your name in blood across my chest;
Bind you to me forever faithfully…

Or leave me for dead.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Legacy


It depends if you believe.  Do you believe?
Are you man or mouse?
Do you need machine, or cheese?  
Do you believe?


Part man, part machine;
Work hard to build dreams.
Do multiple things in all directions.
Self-taught introspection, lead to reflection
And change was sought and found beneath the wings.


Now flying high upon the light,
I cast into darkness all which would bind
And without thought I create lines,
To lead the way towards the light,
For under sunlight only darkness shines
And all are blind to what is and what it could be.


So stand in front of me, or stand aside,
For I am continuing and all in my way will be left to grieve,
The reprieve I offered without deceit.
As Queendoms crumble, knights are once more seen to ride,
Upon the backs of beasts.
Dragons fly and fire is breathed,
Upon the darkness to create light.


We are all blind to any light
And from the ashes they return.
Where fires burn,
Footsteps are heard.
No longer feared,
For sights have been seen of a thousand cheers.


In morning light at the castle keep,
The flag a-flying to ward off evil spirits,
For death is trying to cross the draw bridge,
With calls aplenty; but those without knowledge,
Can never get in and as the thunder howls
And lightning strikes,
Workers unite and go on strike,
Until such change has come to replace,
The cracking sound under sparkling lights.


Some are left without a trace,
While others leave a lasting legacy.
Some are remembered, some soon forgotten.
Which is it to be?
When you are gone, what will you leave?
And what is it you think you take,
When your name is engraved upon the grave?


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It began with you


It began with the words;
Never before seen or heard.
I spoke them to her
And now she is my reason for remaining on this Earth.


It began with her;
She helped me through.
It began as a friendship,
Now I love you.


It began with a conversation;
It led us into another station.
As I finally got off the runaway train,
I had found my salvation.


It began with you
And with you it continues.
I hope it will end with you,
My lover, my love, my wife…
The one love I truly knew.

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I drown in you.


Opposites attract.  I like that.
I wouldn’t want you to be just like me,
With my insecurities, my doubt, my thoughts,
My clouded apathy.


My heart is on fire and you the water soul,
Are consistently changing from young to old,
To fearlessly fearful, to wise beyond your years,
To insecure about who you are and who you could be,
From laughter, to tears.
I see it all in you and you don’t need to speak a word.
You soul speaks volumes; your eyes have been heard.


If I were to speak my mind, there would be no turning back,
But your secret smile gives me hope, there are words beneath.
I only want one of the single ladies, can I not have that?
Love, you are driving me crazy!  Let love kiss me, with teeth.
Do I want her?  Yes!  Does she want me?  I don’t know!
Do I love her?  I haven’t got a clue!  In a moment you will go,
But we do have this moment and I am at peace in your Zen garden.
Promise me your love, so I can try to be your Prince Charming,
And our fairytale story can begin,
Where all the other mysteries have reached their end.


She could say no and I would be devastated;
Or even worse she could say yes and I would be elated!
And then the fall would break every nerve in my body.
I want to be someone, to somebody.
I have so much work yet to do to clean up this mess.
The thousands of thoughts,
That run constantly through my labyrinth head.
Love is a bubble; love-life so much trouble.
Oh strife!  What will become of fair Juliet?
Will it be that I can only fondly look back through tears of regret,
When I am laying on my deathbed?
Or could it be, that she could be, the one I need to set me free?


It’s just three little words, how hard can it be?
“I like you.”  I wonder if she likes me.
You have no idea what I am putting myself through,
Jumping hoop after hoop, my one direction is you.
You are yet to break my heart,
And yet to laugh in my face,
So I will continue to dream,
Even though my head and heart are all over the place.


My words?
Well my words are just my Gods honest truth.
I will swear on a bible if you ask me to.
It will not burn; I am not yet your sin.
Allow me to become your angel,
And we can find our kink.


You are the warm ice I need to cool myself down.
A cold shower does not work, because at some point I have to get out.
She is the rain that falls down upon me from every silver-lined cloud.
She is the night that covers my eyes,
And engulfed in her ways…I drown.


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Highway


Now there was a man in Texas state,
I never knew his name.
He came along and may I just say,
This little town was never the same.


He rode on in, his leather skin,
So battle worn and weary;
But by the time he had told me his tale,
I saw this world, oh so much more clearly.


He spoke of times he’d ride at night,
Out into the wild blue yonder.
His final words as he tipped his hat,
We’re “The Devil’s looking at you kid…last a little longer.”


And with that, his day was done.
Never to be seen again in this life time.
My only memory of the man with the gun,
Was spinning out of time…


At six foot two and ten past three, he slowly walked along.
His boots they clinked, the smoke it plumed,
As he whistled his sad song.
The people tell me he was a ghost, I saw inside my head;
But I know the truth, so I’ll tell it to you,
Ain’t nothing quite like the knowledge you get at the end…


He said one day he would return,
When I have seen better days.
He never said when he was coming back,
But somehow I knew; I would see him again.


I have travelled this land and land beyond,
Trying to forget;
But still, I hear his whistle, I hear that song;
I hear the words I will never forget.


He said there are only two roads
And one is travelled more than most;
So one day I’ll ask you to decide,
Which way you want to go.


If you choose right, you’ll see the light,
But of course, most people don’t.
Think carefully before you say your goodbyes…
There ain’t no coming back from where we need to go…


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Guarded heart


My head is a galaxy of stars that are shaped like hearts,
But they cannot be seen in the dark because of their blinding lights.
There is a sky in my mind, a place I like to find, when I choose to fly,
And today is a day for wings, to sing and for me to say,
I love you.


With the records on and the music playing,
I am thinking of regrets and the words I should be saying.
It may be too late to change the course of history,
But if I ever did get the chance again for you to see,
I would show you that the love I keep deep inside of me is sweet,
And I would say I missed you and my chance of love…
Did you miss me?


For a long time now I have been thinking about you,
But I could never speak those words that only I knew.
I knew I had fallen for you when my parachute opened,
And it pulled me away from the one who would be my chosen.
Yes I would pick you up from the earth if I could,
And I would place you next to me for eternity.


I have been thinking about rings for a very long time,
So when I had the chance to give you my heart,
I was too coco-nuts! (Shy),
To ever say I would like to be with you today,
And all the words were lost upon the zeitgeist
And now that is just another day, when I could not say,
I need you to stay,
Because you make Tuesday the best day.


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Anti-this and Anti-that.


She’s got a smile like a nuclear bomb.
I’m blown away by a never-be blonde.
She likes the dark life and so do I.
I never, never, ever want to see her cry.


She needs to be loved,
Like I need an intravenous-nicotine-drip.
She doesn’t care, about any of this!
Nothing matters!  She doesn’t want to be loved
And all because…
LIFE *****!!


She’s anti-this!
And anti-that!
The love she needs, she has never had.
She’s got a family who love her so much,
But this anti-life girl needs somebody to love.


If you say “Hi.” She puts her headphones on.
If she has to buy you a present, then she will send you a bomb!
If she only knew, that she was oh so wrong;
She is not so far gone that she has to remain on her own.


She needs to be loved, like a fish needs water.
She needs someone, to kiss and to hold her.
She needs all the things that only love can bring.
She says she doesn’t need a God-**** thing!!


She’s anti-me and anti-you.
She’s anti-man and anti-hu.
She’s anti-love,
When she needs it the most.
She needs love…

(Love is all I that know…)


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Love…


Love; the possibilities.
Love; and all that could have been.
Love; it’s all you need it to be.
Love; it has a hold of me.


If love could become all I wish it had been,
Would love still have the same meaning?
If love is really all you need,
Then why will love not last for me?


Love; the thing dreams are made of.
Love; you must give it all you have got.
Love; a memory that can never be forgotten.
Love; the two of us have already been chosen.


This love is still the same to me;
Your love is my everything and you are my perfect melody.
This love will last for eternity.
This love for you has been born inside of me.


Love; the cherished beauty and the unforgiving beast.
Love; a starving hearts lifelong feast.
Love; alone no more in this place of peace.
Love; the greatest love stories are tragedies.


Love at first sight can last for a lifetime.
Our love can grow deep within our hearts and minds.
Love can be lost, but still love we are trying to find.
No-one truly gives up on love, so why would I?


Love; the Holy Grail and the saving grace.
Love; a beautiful mind and a beautiful face.
Love; the end of the search and the happiest day.
Love; it is all we require, so love me truly and I shall feel the same way.


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Let them see.


I’m holding on and you’re not letting go;
With you I will always see myself right at home.
You’re falling apart and your love is all I know.
What will become of you and I and us, if we are left alone?


In midnight dreams I still see you.
You are on my mind in the sunrise
And you make every morning feel brand new.
Another chance to prove my love.
Another day to discover your heart and that thing that it does.


You love me, so I will love you always.
I will be with you through fire and ice, from now until the grave.
My life began when I found a way into your mind.
We love today like we have every day
And I am so proud to say you are mine.


If all I had was taken from my hands,
As long as I could still have you, I would let it all go and understand.
If all I am is your other half and you are my wow and I am your man,
Then I could appreciate your love and I would simply give thanks.


I worship you, I work for you,
I live, I breathe and I truly exist to let me prove,
You are in my heart, you are on my mind; I am in your hands.
You are my life and this is my truth.


If beauty can only be seen through my eyes,
I would stare at you with all my time,
To let the world see your beauty shine.
Let all people see what you mean to me.
You are all I need, you are all I see and you are the love of my life.


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The lady in the flowers


The lady in the flowers with the white cotton dress;
It flows behind her and clings to her, as she gathers her bouquet.
With her crown made from picked daisies, she looks like a Princess;
Her smile shines like a sun beam on the fourth of May.


In this magical place, we are lost no more; we are in love!
Good Heaven’s above, are sending signals to us.
As she dances through the tulips,
She is soft to the touch and receptive to my advances;
Ladies in lavender do not give second chances.
But she is truly forgiving all my misdemeanors;
She is a vision in white and I want to be dancing with her.


As the path made from patches of grass,
Leads us into a beautiful future;
I am at ease in this place of peace.
She passes through reeds and then I lose her!


She vanishes beneath the water and all I see is her waving goodbye.
Oh my!  Where has she gone?  I am screaming on the inside;
But as I dive in search of her, I find myself…


...in a wonder land.
I had never imagined that this dream could really have happened.
Into the water and through to the other side;
I climb out into her arms and again off she glides.


So once again I give kiss chase;
In case this time she is gone for good.
But she is never really leaving me;
She is just leading me to a place where we can be in love.


The leaves are multi-coloured
And this place has forever been hidden from all before.
She has welcomed me into her fantasy;
I can be a part of her world.


She skips through clear puddles
And in each of them I see my double.
I am a stranger on the inside
And I am rather befuddled.


But she is the fairy light I follow morning until night
And with all my might I shall become a part of her life.
Out into the clear, there is so much to see and to hear
And whenever she is near, blue birds suddenly appear.


A blanket is waiting next to a hamper for two.
We can rest now we have found each other…
Love is in bloom.


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At Heaven’s gate.


Heaven is rumbling with a commotion;
The news is quickly spreading, prepare for war.
Heaven’s gates are locked to all intruders;
False soothsayers did not say this day would come.


Heaven’s people are in a state of fright,
As the angels take flight to guard the light.
Hell’s doors have begun to open once more
And from his throne he bellows orders to go and shed some blood.


Laughter, mocking, shouting, sobbing;
Sounds of death are drums of war.
Iron bars defend the gateway to Heaven;
From Satanic soldiers, marching on Heaven’s door.


Guard Heaven’s gates from inside;
With weapons created by smiths, in times of yore.
Generals lead your angels into flight;
For death is once more creeping, once more seeking,
So let no beast become your plight.


Armies march on Heaven’s gates and for God’s sake,
We shall stand as one; whilst their army stands alone.
In fear they shall march to their deaths and in God’s grace,
The darkness shall be repelled and laid to waste.


No fallen angel shall stand face to face with God;
The Devil was banished long ago to the netherworld.
Another attempt to claim Heaven for himself;
But the condemned shall never rise from their pit of Hell.


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Barefoot.


All my poems are written to express myself;
Talking in riddles is bad for your wealth.
I think I need to find new oxygen;
This land has no clean air and I am no help.


I live for laughter; I laugh at myself.
Beaten and broken, I have become someone else.
Is this a new age?  Or is it just the same face,
In search of a shave and a better day?


I live for now, I fade away.
When all is lost, who am I to say?
I need for nothing, but crave it all.
I can’t be brave in this brave new world.


She walks on egg shells, scared of a fall.
Pretty to picture; love is a calling.
My need is her, but she is a wall;
Stopped in my tracks, I keep on falling.


I walk alone through pitch black streets,
In search of light; I find my feet.
This is the place where I belong.
The darkness surrounds me as I wander on.


Day light arrives and brings hunger with it.
Who am I to ask you to give me anything?
But please, a gift, then I will be gone,
To vanish from your life…
Your charity work done.


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A sentinel


A sentinel stands motionless, staring out into the distance;
Surveying the horizon in case of a new threat.
He has been there all night and now dawn is breaking.
The light shines in his eyes and lights up the glen.


The flowers are in bloom and all the trees are a radiant green
And still he stands, watching; looking for any kind of enemy.
He can hear his fellow soldiers stirring behind him;
Their hangovers are seeking a remedy.


He wonders if this will be the day they are attacked;
Or will the peace last?
And will reinforcements arrive before the enemy?
Still he stands still, staring into the forest;
Waiting for someone to cross his path.


This war has lasted too long already and no end of war is in sight.
He is just thankful for the peace that lasted…last night.


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The days of our lives.


In life we are at home, in death we are gone.
In sorrow we mourn the death of a loved one.
Without consequence we would not know what is wrong.
Forever we are searching for a place to belong.


As we grow our wings, we venture off into the distance.
A life of memories behind us; a gift from the gifted.


In light we find ourselves surrounded by mystery;
What next on this journey?  What next in this story?
What next to see and who is looking inside?
The tale of our experiences…the days of our lives.


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My garden


Bright white lights, shine in the night;
Lighting up the blackened sky.
A single pool in the calmness of space;
Some stories say he has a face.
His moonlight shines upon us
And lights up all my man made grace.


The flowers I planted beneath the old oak tree,
Have no need of false light, to be seen.
For nature has no need to be nurtured;
It's a natural beauty that has already been created
And cannot be improved, for it has already been perfected.
Its genealogy has no need to be altered.


It's strange to see the pool in the sky,
Shining upon the pond I bought to life.
To see the fish swim in their world,
Not knowing of the land they will never walk upon.
The birds on the fence, the fish may never see;
May one day take their life and end their forgotten dreams.


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Tranquility


Tranquility is what I see before me.
A place of peace; a nice day dream.
A sun above; the grass is my seat.
There are smiles here and I have no phone to ring.


The beautiful people are lying under the sun’s rays.
The parents are watching their children play.
The couple brings a smile to the widow’s face
And as they all pass by each other,
Pleasantries are exchanged.


The dogs are barking and the people are laughing.
Friends are meeting,
To talk about when they are next going to go drinking.
It is a lovely day for all the people that I can see.
The jogger is walking, the cyclist is resting
And the artist is painting the scene.


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Two truths.


A perfect person cannot picture a perfect truth.
Perfect people want other perfect people,
To be a perfect picture of porcelain too.


I see a painting by many a Mane’s.
A copy of a copy of a copy of a man.
Upon this crystal-stair-lead-palace,
There lies a liar in his lies;
Living his ultra-ordinary life.
We all live under a glorious crown…sometimes.


If a fugitive of love is on the run
And scared of their web of lies ever coming undone,
Then what are you to ever become,
If you have never been thunder-struck?


A piece of ash slid across the glass;
No DNA left to draw a map.
A shadow of the former man that I was;
Upon this cross, I live through loss.
The end of all that which came before.
I only know what love is for.


I crawl into this world of make believe;
Believe this life I lead is moving me into the gulf of a frozen desert.
God bless kindness.
Thank you?…never said it.
Ignored for not being more; please be blessed.
Remember all I have taught you before I forget.
Have a nice day; No way?  Ok.
In the end we are all the same.
I am not your mess!


Just give up this ghost, my horse ain’t for beating;
My demons keep screaming at me from deep in the shadows.
Let it go!
Let go.
I need to go…
Back down deep into the shallow.


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Never let me go.


Do not bring me flowers.
Cry no tears for me.
I never want to see you wearing that black dress,
Because all that I want, is to live.


Do not have a wake; wake me up!
Do not let me go, when I am in need of a hug.
Do not forget me, when I become a ghost.
I want to be standing beside you, when you make your next toast.


Embrace me now, before I disappear.
I do not want to go away; I am happy here.
I like being near, so do not let me fade from your view.
Never let me go…
I still need you.


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Supernova


I need love.  That is all I want from you.
I don’t need money,
I don’t need things…
I do not care about Jimmy Choo’s.


Just give me love and I will give you more.
What’s mine is yours and what’s yours is yours,
As long as I can get fifty percent of your love;
The rest you can keep for yourself, for good.
Please never give away your shares in love,
Because I will not share your true love heart.
If you go with him, then he is yours
And I will vanish like an exploding star.


All that will remain inside of me, without you,
Is my black-hole heart.


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Home is where the start is.


I am planting seeds for us to grow our tree house.
I am retiring from The Rolling Stones to protect our castle keep.
I am trying to become a lion instead of a mouse.
All these things I do because I want my wife to find me at my best…
Wherever she (may be).


The two of us have not yet met,
But she is on my mind;
So I am laying foundations for a future life.
Brick by brick, with every footstep,
I am creating a home;
So when I do eventually meet her,
I can say…this is what we own.


A place to live, which has a fridge, to hang the pictures on.
A bed to sleep in and imagine the two of us with band’s on.
Inscribed on mine will be your name
And if you wish, my name will be yours.
You are already on my mind.
Am I the same?
Am I your love?
If this is true then we should become.
One and one make one.


I have waited for a century to see the perfect sun.
You will shine on my darkness and brighten up my face.
When I am done,
I hope I will be at your side when you are older
And I am even more grey.


I have tried my whole life through,
To find somebody as good as you;
Someone who really does love me.
Still I try…I am yet to see.
Other people will want different things,
But all I want is to exchange rings.


I am only interested in my true love.
What kind of feeling does our love evoke?
If I am yours as you are mine,
Then we should put the love letters with the wine
And later we will see what we wrote…


Wedding bells will ring aloud, so everybody can see,
That I am in love with you;
Together forever, I hope we will be.


Women may try to change my mind,
But they are wasting all our time.
Only one woman can have my love,
So if another wants to be with me, I will reply:
I am in love with her and I’m sorry,
You are beautiful, but you ain’t that fine,
When compared to her true beauty.


If you are my one love, then pop the cork on the champagne!
If you want to marry me, then I will celebrate the best day
And if we can extend our time by leaving a lasting legacy,
I will make our love last for a life time;
I promise you Babe, you bring out the best in me.
With you I will have found my way home at last.
This is my pledge to you; I swear there is no turning back.
From now into eternity, I want you, to be with me.
You could see me happy (Extraordinary!)


Home is where the heart is,
I need your style to decorate.
Home is where the kiss is,
I need your touch to improve this place.
Home is where you say I love you.
I need your words to unlock the door.
Home is where I hope you agree to I do;
I need your hand in my hand forever more.


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The equation of the hopes and dreams of a thing that does not exist.


In a galaxy of stars, I am less than nothing.
In a land of billions I am an infinite fraction.
Sat in a bar, I am not even worth mentioning.
No passing glance, no chance of romance,
Never even a pleasant distraction.


Surrounded by people, I am nobodies equal,
Less is more than I can be; I am divisible by zero.
In a strong man contest, I am worse than feeble.
Neither good enough, or evil.


I am a mirage waiting for the sun to shine.
I am buried beneath a zillion grains of sand.
Never to be discovered,
Never looked for.
Never needed;
Not a man.


I do not even register on the scales of time;
Nobody has realised.
I do not really exist…
Empty, worthless, empty, worthless, empty, worthless…


Just air without ingredients;
No oxygen, no chemical reaction.
I never made a dent in the system.
No crater left, nothing remains;
I never affected anybody’s brain.
Zero, zero, zero
Remains…


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Chevrolet


Imagine life is a journey in a car, without a map or a satnav.
You can only go forward, there is no turning back.
You only know where you are going to.
Your destination is ‘love’ and it has to be ‘true’.


You may burst your tired heart and sometimes run out of gas,
But time heals all the damage and you always find your way back,
To the free love freeway; my only way.
No shortcuts taken, I must experience all the bad days
And embrace all of the good, before I reach my final stop.
Because when my heart has been fixed
And I reach my journey’s end…
I will hopefully no longer have to worry,
About the radiator getting too hot.


She will cool me down and get my engine running.
Could this be love?  I constantly imagine,
But as yet I have not reached my place of peace,
But there are many beautiful signs I am yet to see.


Occasionally I find a place where I can rest.
A place to pull over, a place I have seen inside my head.
You see the signs, as you approach,
‘Natural beauty spot ahead’
(I thought you should know.)


So you decide to stop and take a look.
Maybe, there is a bench to sit on
And maybe there is a place to write your books,
As you watch the fading sun.


In front of you there is quite a view.
The lakes and the trees,
The woman sat on the dock fishing;
The one who reminds you of you.
So you go over to say hello.
Sometimes the two of you have a conversation.
Sometimes you can only remain a ghost;
Sometimes they never get to know.


As the sun turns to red in search of its bed,
You say your goodbyes and set off in your car.
Sometimes you stroll along…
Sometimes life flies by like a shooting star.


Sometimes you drive into a town and decide to stop for a while.
Sometimes you arrive at a pretty city,
Where all you do is constantly smile.
This place may even be called ‘love’.
You could live there for many a moon;
But eventually the time comes, to leave love behind,
But you always leave a piece of you too.


So you go and seek counsel from a mechanic.
She says travel the world!
Go on an adventure, speak Spanish…

But eventually you say that is enough touring for me.
I need to head over to true love,
I don’t want to be late for my marriage.


So your carriage takes you to the ball.
You pull up in front of two gigantic doors
And standing at the end of the hall,
Past rows of friends and family;
There she stands in white, your motorbike bride,
The one you have been searching for.


As you approach with nervous footsteps,
Your journey behind you, your future ahead,
You check your tie, slick back your hair with a comb
And try to look your best; you are heading home.


Your car and your heart have had their ups and downs;
It may be a little scratched and dented now;
But all she can see is a brand new Chevy.
So she climbs into your heart and the passenger seat.
The two of you set off along a new route together.
Homeward bound…

New dreams to follow…
Foot to the ground!

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Saved.


With moonlight behind us,
We are fearful no more.
With wind in our sails,
We journey onto the shore.


With life comes the baggage;
We are forever closing doors.
With love comes the damage;
We continue to fall.


With love we are saved;
We are whole at last.
With love we are made;
We are future, present and past.


With family comes all;
We are alone never more.
With children comes laughter;
We are joy, we are yours.


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