The remains of what could have been.


I’ve got a fragile heart that is scared of breaking.
I would give you my world gladly,
If I could believe you were not just faking.
I look so confident to those who do not know;
My titanium bones cannot stop from shaking.


I am cold to the thought of falling in love.
I want to be, but still I cannot;
I am unable to feel touched.


Keep them at a distance;
Real love takes patience.
I will wait for love to find me;
I still believe in a romance,
So bright it lights up my darkest of skies.
First chance to find love,
I let it pass on by.
The beauty was there, but so much more was still missing.
So still I remain alone;
No kissing.
Just wishing she could have been more than she was,
But that love is gone…
Angel to dust.


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Refresh your soul


It’s time for a change.
Things can’t remain the same.
The time is done,
Move on.


It’s time for a fresh page to write upon.
Throw old dreams into the chasm and write a new song.
All things they end and begin again.
It’s time for a change.


The cranes have come to build upon,
The nest that once stood here.
Summer is gone, the fading sun,
Will soon have disappeared.


Life continues.
The news is not new.
Start afresh,
Refresh your soul
And change,
Become anew.


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Falling


For a little bit of happiness,
I get a whole lot of depression.
Maybe if I accepted the sadness,
I could live a normal life, no question;
But the little bit of joy I get when I see her smile,
Leaves me to believe that life is, worthwhile.


It’s the tiniest bit of good,
And in return 3 days of bad;
But for just a little bit of time,
I truly am not sad.
For just a portion of a day,
I can smile again.
Just for a little bit of happiness…
The pain is just a shame.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Bunny


Rabbit ear’s pointing up towards the sky.
They are listening out for the bunnies that are calling out for love,
To begin their wail.
In search of a love, he is always hoping to find.
One he could love would be the one,
Who could make him wag his bright eyed bushy tail.


He knows that a wiggle of the nose is the way to go,
To find himself a mate.
Her silhouette is his reflection, a mirror version;
A recognizable shape and a friendly face.
He hops over to say hello to the mystery carrot eater.
“Hello, how are you today?  My name is Bouncer”
“Hi; I’m Leaper.”


And so the love story begins;
The bouncing, the leaping and carrot eating.
A sharing of a pleasant dream.
Only into each other’s arms are the lover’s a leaping.


On past the flowers and down into their burrow.
Bouncer and Leaper snuggle up next to each other, nice and close.
They stay down in their warren to keep each other warm,
Until spring is sprung and the kit baby is born…
And then Bouncer can hop off outside,
To fetch his Leaper a rose of thorns.

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Roses and Sunbeams


Her scent wafts alongside her and sinks into my heart;
For I have become fixated, by a desire for her touch.
She was glorious and overpowering, from the very start;
I am hooked and addicted to her love; she is my drug.


She leads me to distraction, for in her I eyes I am lost;
Hopelessly infatuated with her, I see only roses.
She brings me to Heaven and my trust is all it cost;
For she believes in my faithfulness and in her pocket are posies.


Her words are like sunbeams, bringing light to my darkness
And our candlelit romantic nights; shall never be soiled.
She can remember my love and forget any bitterness;
For I am here to cure her heart and our love can never be destroyed.


She is eternally locked, within a memory of happiness;
For she brings me warmth, when all else in the world is cold and black.
I am alive when our hands are together; embrace me my Goddess.
For I am enslaved by your beauty and I shall never fondness lack.


I have no need to speak to her of my lust for her body;
Because she can see clearly how much I love her; I glide.
In her arms I am forever gladdened, by her proximity;
But if she was ever taken from my eyes, I would surely die.


I need her presence beside me, to guide me along;
This story of a life, as of yet unseen by the world.
But inside her I find, I am locked forever, she is our song;
She is a poem, a poetess, a masterpiece…she is my girl.


She is the flick of the last paint stroke, on the Mona Lisa;
She is the full stop at the end of a play by Shakespeare.
She is the last chip off the shoulder, of the Adonis sculpture;
She is the seal to enclose the writings of a scripture of literature.


She is the last second of pregnancy; she is a new born baby.
She is the last, she is unique, she broke the mould; she is reverie.
She is the Gateway to Heaven; she is the perfect lady.
She is Gods day of rest after a week of creating humanity.


She is the last heartbeat of my life and she is love…
She makes me complete…she is the perfect finishing touch.


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Warmer than the last time


I need a warm blooded woman,
Not another snake in the grass.
I need a loving woman,
Not a pain in the ***.


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The heart I hide


All your feelings went away;
They are fading in and out again.
Tried to push them out of your brain,
But some thoughts are yours to keep always.


All you ever tried to say,
Is lost upon the wind.
Every word; taken away.
Defeated, broken; silence is king.
Break apart and start again at the end;
Making and breaking friends.


Never lost so much to love;
Can’t seem to find anyone to hug.
Tears tell the world your heart is healing, so stay away!
Fear keeps you from being all that you are;
The lover has never felt so old and so grey.


Youth is a distant memory;
The man you used to be,
Is only a shadow of his former self…
Oh my God!  What is this fresh Hell?


Your heart is surrounded by spikes.
Nothing looks wrong with me, you’re right,
But if you saw the feelings I hold inside,
I think that you would join me as I continually cry.


Water trickles down my face,
Never to be replaced or wiped away.
Every piece of me wants to leave,
Because without love; I can never be.


Helping hands covet my heart,
But I am too poor to pay their charge.
Healing minds haven’t taken the time,
To figure out my empty mind.


I am a story never told;
No new requests for me to disclose.
I am wrapped up tightly in bandages, inside my head.
Nothing to lose when you have nothing left.


A quiet voice speaks to me;
Reminding me of who I could have been.
My conscious thoughts are my gravity;
Love promises kept, no reward ever seen.


Pretty eyes just pass on by…
They cannot see the heart that I hide.


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Sending empathy to where it is needed.


Tears rolling down,
Words best left unsaid.
Lie to the world,
Let them just forget.
I’m just a poor boy,
Never had a hope to succeed,
Without my dignity.


Eyes filling up, smoke get in my eyes.
Spoken enough about all my hard times.
I have got to listen to what the people say.
I have got to hear those games those people play.
Never a truth spoken aloud;
I cry the tears of a clown.


Words left unsaid, they only get in my way.
Thoughts never heard, heart only ever betrays.
Why me?  Why Lord?
What did I never see?  
I already know what I did never say…


You are standing alone on the outside.
Let me be a friend, arm around you with pride.
Let me see you happy again.
I will absorb all of your pain, so you can smile today.


Let me take away all your anxiety.
Let me remove all of your apathy.
Sing love out loud and become free.
I am a sponge; wipe away those tears with me.


Take my coat, hands around your cup.
Oh so cold, let me bring you sunshine.
I am older now, so let me lift you up.
You are new, I am your friend, take my seat; it’s fine.


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An illusion of perfect.


Have you ever met someone so **** cool,
That she makes you feel like such a tool?
You can aim for her heart,
But she is flying through stars
And she would never notice you.


Still you dream of what might have been,
If you learned to speak her language and knew what she means,
When she says she likes you.
You know she is nothing like you,
But hot ****! If I ain’t one mixed up dude.
She is a dudess, maybe the best you have ever met
And if she only took a chance on you,
Your love you would confess.


You know there is none better suited,
So when you see her you are all suited and booted,
Because this is pure bliss, love exists,
Inside a dream of her kiss.


But those words she never says,
Because there is no way she could ever be into someone so lame.
So you mosey on to the next love rendezvous.
You find a woman that you love
And she truly loves you too.
All the while the ******* discovers more.


Then late one night she comes a knocking on your door,
But there is no answer to a one time dancer,
Because your heart has passed those wishes to romance her
And no matter what she may say,
You ain’t no two-time chancer.
So she never gets to be with the one who would always have loved her.


Beauty comes and beauty goes;
I fall in love with the big-**** yo-yo’s,
Whose idea of love goes up and down,
Just like the bed springs that are broken now.


When love is good, up it will stay,
But when love is up to no good, I am left broken down
And my name remains the same…
Hers was never truly going to change.


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Romance isn’t dead


Once upon a time in a galaxy far, far away,
There lived a young boy, smiling his way through all the pain.
He knew one day that love would shine upon him;
The people saw him suffer, but always with a grin.


Just one boy and just one girl;
An intimate, forgiving, unquestionable religion.
Love, life, death.
Romantic ‘til the end.
Happy being sad;
Confusing to his friends.


Faithless romantic, infamously sad;
Faithless romantic, infinitely sad.
Faithless romantic, the only thing I’ve ever had.
Infamously, infinitely, romantic ‘til the death.


She broke my heart; you won’t see me smile.
The tears you see me crying, were her tears for a while.


Complete devotion, will let you down,
Because love steals your senses
And you crash to the ground.


Faithless romantic, infamously sad;
Faithless romantic, infinitely sad.
Faithless romantic, the only thing I’ve ever had.
Infamously, infinitely, romantic ‘til the death.


Some day soon, she’ll walk back through that door,
But my heart will still beat for her
And someone else will have her love.


Just one day, is all I had,
To show her all I could be, we could be;
We could last right through our deaths.


Faithless romantic, infamously sad;
Faithless romantic, infinitely sad.
Faithless romantic, the only thing I’ve ever had;
Infamously, infinitely, romantic ‘til the death.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

I am an idiot.


Still we are searching for a light in the dark.
Forward we march and still we have no knowledge of who we are.
Higher we climb towards shooting stars;
We are lost without guidance
And evolution is one step for mankind too far.


Stuck in reverse; heading nowhere fast.
Take a step back, to take another look at what we had.
A thing that was never truly seen,
But imagined and so soon it was in the past.


So we keep on going in the wrong direction.
Blind to all future wisdom; lost without a kingdom.
No place to place my heart at your feet, for a home I lack
And I have no crown that is not broken, that I can use for a hat.


A false self-bestowed title of King I placed upon myself.
A lie about a man who lives in his own personal Hell.
A wish to be more; but impossible without your help.
A maze inside a garden is no place for the mind to dwell.


But stuck in a rut is my normality;
So tragic to see that you just can’t see me
And nobody can hear the words that I need to speak,
Because I am forever unknown to you
And that is the way it will always be.


Forget me not’s in your rose scented garden.
Remembering a voice; remember to share your wisdom.
For all are in need of your message of hope,
Because we lack any belief in anything and so,
We meander through your mind, splashing in every puddle.
A whispering wisp never before seen is showing you your double.
A reflection of your fate in the water; there is a presence.
We are now only a memory, for you are royalty
And I am simply a simple peasant.


No resentment on either side, but still no will to confide
And so inside a lie we hide the truth you wish you could find.
But we are not sharing, because you could never understand.
The words of a wanderer, who wonders;
Why are you not using the power within your hands?


Free me from my burden which I carry inside my head
And just let me forget you and the possibilities;
So I can just become oblivious.
I have a need to unload these words I have said,
But you refuse to listen; you will not take them,
Because you are a mystery to me
And we are the idiots.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

All that I can give


The sky is falling and my future is always calling;
A voice in the wind screaming at me like a banshee.
Everything is ugly.
No beauty to be found in anything.


As I fall to my knees in shattered pieces,
I need just one love to make me become happy;
But depression strikes, engulfs my life, woe is me
And it drags me down to where I never want to be.


Too old to start again; so full of apathy.
I have no wife and I am all out of time.
They say cheer up;
I want to say shut up.
I will not listen, to your words of sunshine.
I have given up; I have had to take too much.
I have no need for any more of your pretty lies.


I’m so bitter sweet; no symphony.
I write another verse; I guess I’m too greedy.
I have a total lack of self-sufficiency,
But this poetry is mine, so I build my fences high.
Must keep everybody out, letting nobody in;
My place of misery is the only way I know how to exist.


So kept apart from all your love;
I have no heart, so have a heart, because I’ve never had any fun.
I can’t recall happiness; I can no longer try my best,
Because this is it.
This is all that I can give
And this…
This is nothing.


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One, two, three.


It takes two people to find love.
One can’t find love alone and three is too many.
Two girlfriends would be nice, if they knew about and loved,
Me and each other;
But I can’t even find one lover,
So I cannot think about another
And as Bob Marley said,
There is only one love.
That is all I want.
I’m only looking for one.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Loveless


What can I say when sorry just doesn't cut it anymore?
What can I say to win back your love?
What do you do if you love too much?
What do you do, if you are not loved enough?


What is life without love?
Why carry on when you’ve had enough?
Why bother to write poems that just aren’t good?
Why bother to live, when I can’t have love?


(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Your Sweet Prince.


I've got the post ******* blues,
It's my leather bound secret.
My diary of shame, so I cannot forget.


A delayed reaction, gave me a stay of execution.
A moment of inspiration, without fear of rejection.
Free to write what I feel, here in my own private world;
Which I must hide away, from everyone.


That moment of perfection, as the light lit up her face.  
Left this vision branded into my memory;
Please don't take this image away.
Don't let me forget, what I saw today;
Because she left me speechless... What more can I say?


Love at first sight, is no longer a myth.
That thing other people get, I now have in bed with me.
She lays here sleeping, such a peaceful sight;
Yet I know this beautiful woman, will not become my wife.


So my love, I'm here, awaiting your awakening;
But sadly knowing, tomorrow you will be going.
I could try to keep you, but your spirit is free
And I know you could never, be content with just me.


This poem is an ode, to my latest conquest.
Another notch on the headboard;
Another one I've seen undressed.
So listen to me my love, as you lay there asleep;
My wish cannot come true, for this message is just like me.


It's just a tear drop in the ocean,
A grain of sand on the beach,
A pennies interest on your lottery win,
A pointless gesture from Your Sweet Prince.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Shoplifter


She is so selfish on the sea shore.
She steals for pleasure and nothing more.


She lives for adrenaline and cares for no-one but herself.
She says she cannot help it,
But she is a worthless human being swimming in her stolen wealth.


Dopamine protects her from any guilty feelings she may have.
She wants it, so she steals it and puts it in her bag.


I have no pity for her for she is just a thief.
She wants compassion and understanding,
But she cannot take these things from me.


She lives for the thrill of it.  She wants it so she takes it.
She is the dirt on society.  She is empty of feelings.
She has always stolen without thinking about the consequences;
Now she is sat in a jail cell with a new pair of bracelets,
And somebody has stolen her ear-rings.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

In your opinion


If I was your opinion, I would change on a daily basis
And sit myself next to anybody with the latest look.
If I was your opinion I would count for nothing at all;
You’re so alternatively a part of the in-crowd that I think you ****!


In your humble opinion, you are everything and more,
But in my humble opinion you are worth nothing at all.
The thoughts you think are right;
They are the thoughts you have been told.
The thoughts you think, are not your own.


They tell you what choice to make; be a fake.
Be what they want you to be; it is you I hate.
They are the norm, the ones you must follow,
But it is you I detest because you are so hollow.


You want to be them, because they have popularity;
This is why you must be hated, by all of society.
Cast out from the in-crowd for wanting to be in.
You are pitiful, you are a waste of a life and you are sin.


You have no opinion of your own and you care about your phone,
So I feel nothing for you at all, because you are a no-one.
You want a nice car and a beautiful home,
But you live behind a curtain that covers your soul.


You cannot let them see the real you,
Because it is black inside that heart of yours, so go be used.
Leave me here to have opinions of my own…
By the way you don’t have a good phone.


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Six feet under


Holes are forming where shadows used to lay.
Time is disappearing as life drifts away.
Falling down into the ground, searching for a new way to escape;
But there is no way to escape from a determined fate.


A date with destiny, the present is wrapped in a bow.
Feelings are fading, the light it is a changing and now the heat is low.
The daylight fades from the eyes as all hope is drained from inside
And all that remains is a body in a grave…
What a way to go.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Timeline


The sands of time, the consistent line;
The fervent cause, takes with it each life.
The deaf, the dumb and the blind;
The man, the woman and the child.


No rest for death or for birth on this Earth.
No end in sight, no end of time.
This is the beginning of a whole new life;
This is the constant ending of a piece of mankind.


Until death do us part, our life on the line;
Our destiny is out of sight.
The one, forever, changing, consistency;
The timeline of life; no hands on time.


No clock to keep us in control;
No deadline, no lifeline, just death, life and my time.
A speck of light that may never be seen;
A visionaries ideological dream.
A figment of your imagination…
Or a glimpse of a universe that is forever in creation.


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Flames of love.


Feeling naked stood here before you,
The first time I tell you how I feel about you.
Been alone so long I don’t know what to do,
But your beauty allows me to say I want you.


A crucifix kiss upon a vampires lips,
Brought the death of love with its tenderness;
But a lovers white light brings us peace of mind.
It lets us believe in the fight for a love so blind.


A blessed sight into the flames of the next life,
Changed the way I see life and why I shouldn’t die.
Live now forever or die alone?
I must stay alive to one day feel at home.


It’s our experiences that define us,
Our ties that bind us.
Love shall forever blind us,
So salvation can once more find us.


Razor fire shines alight,
In the darkest skies to light up the night.
Fire burns so hot throughout space,
That it becomes replaced with angel’s sight.


Morning sun shines on the light of my life,
As she says well done, you completed the song on time.
My love is grand; my love is soft.
My love is sensitivity at no cost.


Smile at me please, I need you to see,
The happiness you bring with every word that you sing.


Wash away your pain with flames;
Set fire to love or watch it burn and fade.
Bury yourself away inside a shallow grave,
Or hope you find a better way.


Swallow the pill to cure your nausea;
Think of things you’ve never thought of.
Taste the lips and enjoy the kiss;
Enjoy their love before you miss it.


Love me, love me, love me please!
Love me now, I need your kiss.
Love me, love me, love me please!
Love me now; I need your love to breathe.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Leave it all behind


Scars are formed in moonlit nights;
Out of sight, terror desires a sacrifice.
All I have to live is one life;
Who am I that I can justify,
My whole existence?
Did I embrace it or waste it?


Well I did spend the majority of it wasted,
But leave your hatred at the door;
The old me is no more.
Parts of me survived, but I have changed.
I must restrain my rage and turn over a new page,
In the story of my life;
It’s time for a change.
Leave the chaos behind me
And search for a common way.


Times they are a changing,
So I must too.
But I am still here to wish peace, love and empathy to you.


Let night become day,
Let the darkness fade.
Let bygones be bygones
And embrace me once again.


Spiritually empty, seeking advice,
Wishing for a better life
And walking away from all I left behind.
Eternally grateful at a second chance at a life,
Without the vice that entraps me inside my mind.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

In My Opinion


You’re the latest trend, in this one track mind;
You’re the thing, I hoped and prayed I'd find.
You’re my first, my last, my everything;
You're my latest wish and all my wet dreams.


In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.
In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.


Your beauty shines, from beneath your skin;
You’re a looking glass and I'm looking in.
You showed me things, I should never have seen;
You’re my first class bride, my beauty queen.


In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.
In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.


If I speak my mind, would you listen in?
To my deepest thoughts and fantasies;
To the truth I speak, which you don't believe.
The lyrics aren't hard, they’re just my feelings.


In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.
In my opinion, yeah, yeah,
In my opinion, yeah, yeah.


If I buy you a drink, could you fill me in?
To your thoughts of me, tell me what you think.
What image do you see, when you look at me?
Do you want my love, or can I go free?


(C)2005 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

A new low.


Depression is in session in the black hole of my head;
It drags the misery deep inside me and I wish I was dead.
I no longer want to live in a world so cold;
I shiver.
I never forget the emptiness within my heart
And the solitary of my soul.


Love no longer lives here, for I now live alone;
Oh my God how I do detest the silence of my phone.
No more calls of happiness are made;
A new low to be found.


Just sadness and hurt are all I can see,
In the mirror reflecting my face,
Because you are no longer around.


It’s a new kind of low I’m experiencing now,
But it’s a low I like living in, for it can no longer bring me down.
I have hit rock bottom and I live here alone;
But I am happy in the darkness, it has become my home.


A life without love is hard but it is manageable;
I no longer need the light of loves burning candle,
To keep me alive; I find solace in solitude.
My only desire is to see her ****.


But when you look up at every one, who you think you are below,
You find comfort in your misery, because you have hit a new low.
It’s a new low to cherish because it’s a new low I have
And this new low is mine to manage, so I will struggle on with the show.


Another human being stands in front of me smiling
And all I can think about is how I am still dying.
Their happiness makes me laugh because soon they will fall
And I shall have to feel absolutely nothing at all.


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Lost in holes.


Shattered memories; cast my life aside.
Living inside a hopeless hole I begin to die.
Lost in a moment of bliss inside a song;
What went wrong? What is going on?
What is the meaning of a life without meaning?
Nobody ever cared about me, before we did it.


In sin we discover our lover wrapped up tight;
In love we are never truly happy in this life.
In pain we protest and banish your kind words;
What kind of world would let me fall in love with her?


Tear me apart with every tear that drops;
Cut me off from any chance of reaching the top.
I drop.
Now here I kneel praying for more pity;
Discover me, empty.


Through slits in the atmosphere I find a new way to escape.
A place to hide; a place I can play.
Because of holes in my soul, I can no longer pray;
In places people live, I hide away.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Life is hard


Drown away the sorrow,
Looking forward to a brighter day.
Life may be quite hard now,
But you'll rise above the hurt and pain.
Never let life bring you down;
Don't get too high you'll fade away
And that's a shame for you and me
And that's a shame for you and me.


We die one day, it’s plain to see
And that’s a shame, for you and me.
We fade away, it’s clear to see
And that’s a shame, for you and me.


Fighting fate is fatal.
Some things were not meant to be changed.
Thinking causes headaches; ignore those thoughts,
Don't strain your brain.


Living life is hard sometimes,
But experiences light up the way.
Your path's already written down;
Your fate is sealed, Gods choice is made.
Did he choose right?  God can't be wrong.
Was it his choice to create this song?


We die one day, it’s plain to see
And that’s a shame, for you and me.
We fade away, it’s clear to see
And that’s a shame, for you and me.


So go make a movie, become a star;
Earn lots of cash, buy a new sports car.
Regret today the morning after;
Collect your reward, an Oscar, a Bafta.
A piece of iron, sculptured and shaped;
Become a monkey, in The Planet of the Apes.


Live for fame and hear the applause!
Don't regret your choices; the choices were all yours
And remember on your final resting day;
You chose to choose and that can't be changed.


We die one day, it’s plain to see
And that’s a shame, for you and me.
We fade away, it’s clear to see
And that’s a shame, for you and me
And that’s a shame, for you and me.


(C)2005 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Realm


Pleased to meet you; pleased to deceive you.
Please I need you to join the queue.
Break the silence, with needless violence.
Take from the taker or try to keep our secrets inside of us?


Whispers fly beyond the walls;
For all these days I have heard them call.
In a stranger land what are we waiting for?
Down on our knees we must please them all.  


If all we have has been taken away;
Then we must be the hopeless and the faithless.
The lost will never be saved.  


Digital and spiritual;
Everyone is guilty down here…we are all criminals.  
Liar’s burn, so take your turn;
We are all liars in a liar’s lair and this is all we deserve.  


Faces in the walls staring at us as we pass;
What chance do we have to make amends and pay them back?
Superstitions, a lack of religion;
We never believed until we were upon the rack.  


Needle nails pierce our skin;
The drug is within us, so deeper we sink.
Losing vision, losing my religion;
In this nightmare of an afterlife, I need some medication.


But there is no cure and no saving grace;
This is the end of us and the beginning of the eternal pain.  
Banished from Heaven and forever trapped in Hell.
If all we need is a key to our prison,
Then we must make a deal with a Devil.


But your soul is worthless now it has been ripped from your body;
So you will never be released and nobody is ever sorry.  
As fires light up the evil and the screams become deafening;
You will realise that there is no way out,
From this blood and skulls realm…
And the pain is never ending.


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If so.


Do you like poetry?  
If so, I will write something for you.
Do you need someone to love you?
If so, I will see what I can do.
Do you want to be wanted?
Do you need to be needed?
If so, I will be here for you and I will tell you my truth.


I could picture you being happy with me.
I could see us walking hand in hand.
I can still see your smile,
Each morning when I wake up from my dreams.
I think you are drop dead gorgeous!
I love your style.


I think you could be growing on me.
Only when you leave do I lose my leaves
And your summer dress is replaced with winter’s tears.
Is this the only way that it can be?
If so, you are still the only one.
The one I want to spend my time with.
You are my energy drink,
You give me wings.
You make me believe that this could really be love…


A love at long last that is bound to last
And if so and it truly is meant to last,
Then I will be forever happy,
Because I saved the best for last.


Let me be the first to compliment you on how beautiful you look today.
I took a second look,
Because a thousand horses couldn’t drag my eyes away.
I cannot just forget you;
That is something I am unable to do.
It is not every day, or any other day,
That I get to see a woman like you.
In fact it has never happened before;
You are unique.
You I could adore.
If only you would want me to.
If so, would you please tell me you want me too.


I will be over here waiting through another ice age;
Waiting for you to breathe new life into my veins.
My air; my water; my sun shine.
Say it ain’t so, or say you will always be mine.


If you want to be loved, then I will love you forever.
If you want me to go, if so, then I will be gone.
If you think you could one day fall for me like a feather,
Floating down from up above, you are sent from God,
Then here I will wait for you to land safely in my arms.


I will wait for you,
I will carry you,
I will lift you,
I will hold you,
Because you are the only one,
Who could make my chaotic mind become calm.


You could guide me to a place of peace in stormy seas.
I could love you, always, if that is what you need.
Do we share our empathy with each other?
Or am I just a loser?
I need you to tell me…please.

Here is my heart, it beats only for you.
All I say to you is true.


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Suit


All I can write about at the moment is love;
So I am going to ride the crest of a wave,
Until the time my surf board breaks.


When you see me crawling up onto the beach in my wet suit;
Only then will you see that I am done
And other poetry will appear again.
This is my truth.  Love is my pain.


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The future is unwritten.


Stop-go motion; let all the clocks be smashed.
Forwards or backwards, how do you feel about that?
Onwards and upwards; no turning back.
The future is unwritten, so here is a pen and a notepad.


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Nobody heard the clock strike…


I allow my mind to wander, to show myself a new story.
Self-portrait a picture of reality, or let my imagination draw me,
Into the darkness and beyond; into the never seen.
A leap into the unknown, every time I open my mind
And close my eyes to dream…


Every thought different; we are all of us, unique.
We see our dreams so clearly; they are our own stories.
Sometimes we love, what it is that we see,
But nightmares can come too, for the unlucky few.
So to glimpse into a deep well is to risk a view.


Do we peer into the dark?  
Do we follow our hearts?
Do we believe what we see?
Or do we take our minds off of who we really are?


We are dreamers of dreams, creators of stories;
Painters of pictures.  
Nobody can say your dreams are boring.
That is for you to decide for yourself.
Will you enjoy tonight’s sleep?
Will you have a pleasant dream?
Only time will tell…


And so you tell your favourite dreams,
To any being who is willing to listen.
As you feed your words into their machine mind,
Time is always ticking…


As you once more sleep inside your dreams,
You might wake up tomorrow
And have forgotten all that which you have seen.
Tomorrow’s dream is already there;
Patiently it is waiting.
It could be replaced with the news of today,
But the dreams of the future are already there…

I think it’s time I was sleeping…


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Zombie mind


In the middle of this night, zombie mind.
I struggle to complete a line that rhym…
Pegasus; horses for courses.
Run a pantomime race using daisies for shoelaces.


A world apart, after being thrown out of a bar.
Fields afar; I sleep under the stars.
Saturday through Sunday;
These…are…the…good times!
Monday to Friday,
I am oh so tired of this poetic production line.
This process must be worth it…


Country music?  I prefer to leave it
And find a better drum kit, with a louder hi-hat hit!
Prince became a symbol of our time.
Cinderella’s thimble, sewing needle;
Cotton on a reel…a dress made by mice.


Eyes are closing, no more movies showing.
Find your own way to see.  
Only you know where you are going…


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Such a loss, to me, not you.


In need of being loved; in need of a hug.
In need of somebody; somebody to love.
Alone now so long, I haven’t had to say goodbye in such a long time.
I can’t remember what real love feels like;
I have no memory space left for it inside.


You are all welcome to all the love,
But nobody can have mine,
Because I am so far removed, from any kind of love life.
I have already rolled those furry dice, one too many times
And now I just do not have the will, to keep on rolling snake eyes.


The risk is no longer worth the reward.
The chance is not in my favour.
I am at odds with the world and even if I was only ignored,
I could at least understand that kind of behaviour.


All the love in the world, I could have it inside my heart,
But it is worthless in my hands.
Love is useless to me and far too hard.
Too hard to find; too hard to keep.
So easy to lose, this stupid love thing.


So no longer will I try and no longer will I want.
No longer will I go in search of love; it is time to finally stop.
You can tell me anything…
I am no longer listening.


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Mr. Nobody


I am without a voice, in a world of decay,
Because I cannot say why things have turned out this way.
I am without a name, because today,
I am an unknown nobody without a face.


Nobody knows Mr. Nobody,
Because I am still nothing without your empathy.
I am without doubt the last on the list,
Of the kids who made it.
Success?  I gave it a miss.


Fade into obscurity to find a place of security.
A voiceless speaker; a muted T.V.
A picture of youth, a forgotten memory;
I never became all I wanted to be so I am still Mr. Nobody.


I have had an out of body experience.
I look down on myself with such contempt.
I wish myself away to a faraway place, so I can forget;
But nothing becomes of the hope’s I cannot hold inside my head.


The knives in my back are holding me back
And slowing me down, by bursting my bubble.
The wishes I had, only ever left me feeling bad,
Because love is too detached from the life that I lead
And it seems to be so unattainable.


Give me your love, so I can compare it to mine.
Your love is a sun beam and still I outshine,
Because I am a sign; the guide says I have a beautiful mind
And I am clearing all the broken heart land mines,
That will all explode given enough time.


Footsteps slip when we fail to kiss
And we are gone to become a nothing, when we should find our bliss.
Mr. Nobody cares, because it seems nobody cares,
About Mr. Nobody and why he stands there with that hopeless stare.


Searching for a real love, waiting on a friend.
Wishing to find a heart that will not deceive, or break; but bend.
A heart of steel to match his heart of stone;
I am a solid, truthful, oath writer,
Who vows to never become a broken bond…
This is why I remain alone.


Words are just lovely when we are feeling bubbly,
But lately I hate me, so the only word I like is misery.
We want to be happy, but only they can be;
We are destined to despair for eternity.


Scared of the world and scared of falling in love.
I will bury myself inside a room full of books.
No-one will come looking, because there is nobody left to care;
But in words I will be comforted by a dream of fresh air.


Stuffed into a book is a spell to free me from this prison,
So I chant the words aloud and I am transported to an island.
A fantasy land; a place to escape from the realism.
A place I can pretend to be visiting, but I will be staying until the end.


No wish to turn back and head towards what I had before;
This land of fiction is my only way out,
So put me back on the shelf, or leave me in a draw.
Let me stay inside this book, so I can hide from you all,
Because you are all so proud and mighty
And Mr. Nobody is so insignificant and his voice is so small.


An unknown voice whispers up from down below.
Hello?  Can you hear me?  I am without hope,
Down here in the dirt, hiding in these shadows;
But if you just pass me a glance and see the heart that I hold,
Maybe you could see me and take me into your heart.
Maybe you could love me…
Who knows?


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The end of this party that we call love.


Fire lighter’s and raise them high,
The time has come to reach the end.
The end of all those things we did.
The end of you, the end of me; we are at our end.  


From a pit, I whispered to you
And all you saw were lips that move.
In silhouettes I made my move
And I fell so deep into love with you.  


A thought of loss for you my dear;
My wish to start a life apart,
Has never brought you to feel so near…
Why are you still here?


Sorrowful but satisfied;
All the tears I cried, I wish I had never cried.
So sad to see you later with your beautiful smile,
When all I want to see is the end of all time.


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Discovery


As she walked through my life, she simply kissed me goodbye.
She was only with me for a moment; a moment in time.
But then she was gone from me and all I could do is cry.
I guess we never get the chance, to love for life.


As the years all rushed passed me and experiences made me grow;
I thought about her all my life and where she is, I just don’t know.
But each night I send a firework, flying high into the sky.
Maybe one day she will see my signal flare and she will send me a sign.


As my eyes begin to fade and all my hair has now turned grey;
I guess she just isn’t coming back to me; I guess alone I have to stay.
I sure did have a good life and I married my beautiful wife;
But she has passed away, three years now
And I still can’t get her off my mind.


I wish I could have been with her, for the rest of my life,
But some things they just ain’t meant to be;
I never said it would all turn out alright.
I lost you in my youth and now I’ve lost my second love too.
I know I should be grateful, but all my thoughts return to you.


So many years without you near, I would just like to understand.
I know you had to find yourself, but did you ever find your man?
Or was I the one you think about, the one you could come back too?
I hope you think of me from time to time;
I hope to see you soon.


You had to leave to find yourself;
Well, did you find your way?
Have you discovered what you needed to find?
I can only remember the day you walked away.
Have you completely lost yourself in love and did you raise a family?
Our time stopped, the day I watched you slowly walking out on me.


I guess you carry your own memories;
I wish they had been mine,
But fate decided we would part
And follow our own paths.  
Have your discovered, how to just, leave it all behind?
I never did;
I never did stop loving you,
But now I know…
You’re never coming back.


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Tree


The tree of the ancients has stood for millennia in this grove;
So vast is its foliage that no other can grow in its vicinity.
With its strong wooden branches and roots hard as steel, below;
Unseen, but vital, it has risen and it will stand for eternity.


The tree of ages has become eternal and spiritual.
The tree of knowledge has Druids kneeling at its feet.
They dance in the sunlight and contemplate at late night vigils.
The life of the forest entices them naturally.


Their way of life is ruled by the law of nature.
The wind in the air is their voice, through their veins runs clear water.
With words of wisdom they teach all those who are around.
The people who grow with them
And those who are going from town to town.


The noble tree is proudly served.
Its leaves kept as gifts;
From the air to the Earth.


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Vacant


Mental exhaustion, burn out, constant confusion.
Fix me; leave me to find a way to a solution.
Juggle many ***** in the air and watch them fall.
I crash to the floor, unseen by you all.


Lift me up by letting go.
This balloon needs a break from all the noise.
I used to have the coolness of snow,
Now I am at melting point and I am without choice.


Follow the line with pressure feet;
Crawl through the crowd of demands I must meet.
I accept all charity, but no help seems to be forthcoming.
So alone I fight with the demons inside;
I don’t think I will ever be winning.
I lose my way,
I lose the fight,
As I lose the will to try…


Hollow eyes tell my story;
Vacant space between the ears;
Ever closer to seeing the glory;
Always one step too far, so close, so near,
But so far away from ever succeeding;
I just do not have the understanding.


I just do not have the time
And I certainly do not have the energy.
A state of mind, no place to hide,
My head used to be my sanctuary,
In which I could confide,
But now I cannot…simplify.


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This is important…to you


With life comes expectation’s, we only disappoint.  
With love comes expectation’s.  I have to disappoint.  
They tell me I must celebrate getting closer to the end.  
I tell them I don't want to and I don't have to, without a girlfriend.


With love you are obligated.  Without I am free to choose.  
They tell me it is another opportunity wasted,
To find someone I do,
Want to fall in love with;
I could end the night with a kiss.  
I say there are three hundred and sixty four other days
And she would find me any other time, if she truly knew me.  


I do not wish celebrate this day,
So come back tomorrow and try again.  
If you are only willing to try to love me once,
Then we will never find a way, so I think you should bounce.
If love is not committed, then tell me, what is it?  
If love has rules that I must follow religiously,
Then where is the spontaneity?  


I want love at first sight and true insight,
Not being forced to be happy this night.  
If I must, then I will begrudgingly
And I will wear a plastic smile and empty eyes;
So tell me if they will still want me?
If you cannot understand my reasons,
Then there is no helping you.  
I will not be helped to help myself, no matter what the season.  
I will remain in oblivion,
Searching for the driven,
Waiting again for passion,
To call out my name.  


I carry my pain in a box of misfortune,
As I walk alone down memory lane.  
Your glass is half full, my soul is shattered.
Happy Birthday...doesn't matter.


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Bubble boy and his internal struggle


My heart is a bunch of knots;
So damaging to myself, my God!
Why can I not just catch a break?
And find someone, to ease this pain.


The drugs don’t work,
I need her.
Only she can cure this nausea.
So full of bile, I fake all smiles,
I think, I thought, I oughta.


Stay away because I am contagious;
No more self-dangerous, just so sick of it all!!!!
This is so much pain for one man to own.
I sit in silence to drown out the moans.
The noise cuts like a knife and I fall to the floor.


I have so much stress, so I detest,
This never rest.
This this.
Is this really the best I can do?
The most fun I can have without being ****.


I would remain sad, but as I exhale,
These words of fail,
I know all things, they end one day.
So if I have to suffer these nails,
That I keep within my body, frail,
Then surely I will one day be saved.
Saved from my eternal struggle,
Over quick double,
Triple the trouble.
Love can only burst my bubble.


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The person you are looking for does not exist anymore.


There once was a stalker who didn’t get the hint.
Everywhere he went she followed him;
She was so dim.
She couldn’t get the picture out of her head.
Love…is…dead.


She was fun for a day,
But time moves on, so walk away.
Don’t be some crazy who is still searching for the lost.
It is gone,
It is gone,
It is gone,
It is gone…


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Attention seeker


You gotta call me nothing, ‘cause you got nothing to say.
You gotta keep on speaking, ‘case they all just look away.
You need the attention; you are welcome to all of mine.
I don’t need their eyes a-watching me.
I just want to be left alone to write my lines.
Universally.


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Give it all you have got


Exist inside a vortex of emotions,
With ramification’s a plenty possibility.
Bargain at all times for love;
Show ability and humility.
Go and read a book on what can be done,
To change the way you see humanity.
If there is no need, then I offer you peace,
For you are on the inside.
There are many thoughtless thinkers without,
The understanding of the meaning of life.


Raise ******* to make a peace sign,
Shake hands or high five.
Fist, palm, caress;
The hand has many uses.
Use your heart to think of the mess,
You leave behind when you cheat love…only love loses.


The human mind is an expanse of wonder;
Find your existence before it is forever lost,
To the soul crushing reality of six feet under.
We only get one chance at true love…
Give it all that you have got.


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How to write a bad poem.


Use words that simply rhyme like time and dime,,,
And line after line after line repeat the same line
Repeat your sentences to repeat your point
Without a true interpreter then what is the point!!!


I put no thought into lines without care.
I do not care if tHisss is spelled correctly; I do not care.
I do not care if you even care;
Without love and despair, poets will go nowhere.


Annoy the reader, reader, reader, reader, send them to sleep;
Speak only about other people’s cliché’s and ideals…and sheep.
Say line after line without thinking to read,
Judge someone for their mistakes.  Never be truthful and never free.


Never let the words fall onto the page, without feeling;
Never bother to read other poetry and never bother to try reading.
Never speak from the soul, without any kind of meaning.
This is the poem I do not care about…it’s time I was leaving.


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Empty inside.


Pick at the words; pick at the holes.
Pick me apart; you are cruel and cold.
I know your kind, you have no soul;
Let go, let go!  Be gone and leave me alone!


The darkness you hide under is merely the sound of thunder;
My words will become like lightning and rip you apart.
Accuse me, abuse me, but do not try to dilute me;
I am here to feed the need of those, who you have left starved.


You offer no remedy, to any thought ailment they may have.
Give back what you have taken,
You are unworthy of love;
You are unworthy as you attack.


Blissfully unaware of the light you cannot hold.
Inside your mind, nothing shines; there is no love
And every second you decay as you are now growing old.


Soon they will leave you to rot inside your hole.
Behold!  All the love is gone!
And so is your soul.


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The Future Kids


Since the day I met her I could only write about love,
But the times they are a changing.
I have finished writing my ‘Marriage’ book.
Twenty six done.
Don’t know what I will name the next one;
But I know one thing,
I will find a new subject to dwell upon.


Poe wrote about death in his poem ‘The Raven’.
I don’t want to write that;
I want to write about changing.
Changing my mind on a daily basis.
I could make this up, but you would see through that, my Loris;
So the truth is what I will hope to say.
You can criticize this, but I can’t write about love,
So I will open my hat and use a wand to create a flower!
And watch all petals fly away.


A dandelion blooms and inspires an audio musician,
Every hour,
Is different.
Beauty,
Is,
Heaven,
Sent.
If poetry could pay my rent,
I would never have to work again;
But for now I do,
Because I want to improve.
Decided I can’t write a tune;
So I will tell you,
The feelings I have kept silent.
If you know a way to bring peace to my mind, I will try it,
Because I want to make the unhappy smile.
I have no money to give, so I will have to run a mile.


Charity starts at home,
So I will pick up a microphone,
Auction off all I own;
Remove that garden gnome.
I have no need for frivolity.
“I would wish for world peace.” Bite me!
Say something that matters.
Don’t deny the greenhouse effect.
With my last dying breath I will say you ain’t seen nothing yet!


Because we continue,
Humanity is an endless dream.
If I couldn’t see the sunshine,
I would still enjoy the rain and be happy to just be.
Some may say, you’ve changed;
We have never heard you being so positive.


Well these are the days we have to make a difference,
So we had better use them wisely and leave a future that exists,
For the future kids.

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Listen carefully.


Embrace the tree, for it has been a century in the making.
Use kindly words when you need to speak,
For their thoughts may well be illuminating.


Relax your shoulders and forget your jobs.
You are never too busy to find the time.
A hand shake is a form of smile.
A happy friend of mine.


Do not be an ice cave,
To their new age ways,
They could teach you a thing or two.
Take off your shoes,
Put on your sandals,
Wear a tie-dye t-shirt in place of your suit.


Connect with Earth
And find your inner peace.
If you are not willing to listen,
Then you will never hear your heart speak.


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