Idea


Dream a nation; take a vacation.
Autopilot does not need direction.
Claim a notion; works a vocation.
Words do not have to have perfect punctuation.


Message in a bottle; totally random.
Chaos Theory.  A hat may not fit.
Ring the chapel bells and then leap on a tandem.
Tyger eyes watch it go by without realizing it.


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Gold is your soul


The drive there will be boring.
The arrival so momentous!
The disappointing greeters;
The sights not quite as expected.
The smell at times will be rancid.
The art of it all will be lost.
They will say “Welcome to The City of Romance!”
As you sip your hot coffee, whilst you worry about the cost,
Or getting lost…


…as you take in the views you will realise you have been left behind.
Nobody said anything; you were forgotten, not for the first time.
So you rush off to find the tail at the back of the line
And as you return to the flock, unnoticed by all except one,
You will relax once more and at last notice the sunshine…


…the noise of it all will not be music to your ears.
The occasional cliché will ride by unknown to you,
As you are so deeply engrossed in your list of fears,
Of not being what they expect you to be;
Or not enjoying or appreciating what they did;
Or not feeling what they expect you to feel…
What exactly is it this place is meant to make you feel?


Your heart will sink, as you begrudgingly sip your cold coffee drink
And the clouds will arrive overhead.  Merci!
Others will continue to talk,
As you walk hand in hand with your silence,
Through all the streets
And all the halls
And all the endless corridors,
Until you have nothing left…


…as you pass through the musicians like the spirit of winter,
All the accordion’s and violins will call out “Come back!”
Your soul will only paint a black and white photo,
Of a woman alone, in the cold of the night, street lights shining black.
Smoke rising from her cigarette holder and aging her beauty,
Death is called The Taker.
She smiles as The Joker;
She has become The Wrinkler.
Now her make up is running,
Her lipstick has been smeared,
You are staring into the reflection of a puddle,
With frizzy hair all around you,
Wishing just one person,
Somebody!
Anybody!
Was near.


All you will hear are the tears in their voices,
As they whisper their stories; their stories of love,
From beneath the branches of the boulevard of broken dreams.
All you will hear are the peace breaking shouts and screams
And the sound of old cars as their tires screech.
Real people in a real place with their own busy lives to lead.
This is not the Disneyland you imagined;
This is no place you asked to be.
Lost is the face of the love you hoped to meet.
Where do you find your own Rene?


At long last you arrive at the galleries
And further still will ride the disappointment,
As the Mona does not affect you, as they say “It does!”
But it doesn’t.
You think it is nice.  They will say “It is magnifique!”
You don’t think it is…
And you will continue as they speak only ‘their mind’;
Still never speaking, you casually pass on by
And leave Mona to all the tourists.
You are the only purist.


You will not speak your truth because the truth is not heard.
All they hear are ‘their words’.
‘Their words’, without the feeling;
Just ‘their words’, without the hearing,
Which have all been said a thousand times or more before.
There is no more original…
Thought…


But then as you sit there alone eating a beget you brought for lunch,
You will at last find some peace and quiet.
Everyone else will have gone away to discover their own loves;
Their pictures within pictures,
Which they will all duplicate;
So trying.
Second rate, after second rate, after second rate,
But wait!…


…you put your food down, eyes glued to the image ahead.
You will rise to your feet, you will squint your eyes,
Just to be sure; just to be questionless.
But you will still be unable to truly see,
So forwards you will go.
Forwards into the unknown;
Carried along on feet of uncertainty.


Only video eyes watching you forget your phone.
It could have been stolen!
But it rests next to the broken bread.
All concerns have evaporated;
Shot away from your apple head,
For you have seen something nobody else has ever seen,
Within the lines of a Rene Magritte painting
And it is yours.


This moment,
This time,
This feeling has left you agog!
Unable to write anything without consequence in an artificial blog.
Unable to use the What’s-app-messenger-application,
For you have become lost in the spirit of the master craftsman
And the muses in your head are all a-dance!
And chants can be heard, so you pick up your chalk.
Go on take a chance!


So with metamorphosis and the possession of your artistic soul,
You create your own master piece…

…as the silent smiles cast their eyes over its beauty,
You simply say its name is,
‘Gold is your soul.’
It is the perfect reminder of that which you wished to know…

Aren’t you glad you went?
Tell me, what did you see?


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

If I had another life…


Food is but a cold reminder,
Life has been unfair to me.
Wish upon a starry star, to find a plate of empathy.
Understand I mean so much,
My voice it sounds so hollow!
Waking up in agony,
I only live in sorrow.


Picture books are full of drawings,
Abstract ruination.
Colour me in with vitamins and leave me to my ruin.
All I want is everything
And nothing at the same time.
All I want I cannot have,
Or take or even find.


Days like this serve to remind me,
I am but an egg shell.
Swiftly broken pieces swept away,
Nobody to tell.


If only I could start again,
I'd rip this up
And send another swimmer.
This life is broken!
I am not a happy, be-lucky, winner.
Things are not quite as they seem,
When I look in your mirror.
All I see is a reflection of me,
But I am looking thinner.


I don't know which way I chose to go,
Is it up or down?  
I just don't know!
I'm heading for the stars, I couldn't be happier,
I never even tried.
I want to live like I have already died.
Swim with the fishes,
All that I truly know is,
They never seem to cry,


Days are all numbered.
One to ten, and then repeat the process.
I cannot,
I will not,
Vote for a system that is causing distress.
Leave things just as they are
And starve or start a revolution.
All I state is there will be no peace,
Until we build a Freedom.


Creatures only crawl into my mind.
All I do is pass the time,
Selling broken watches,
To all my broken well-wishers, my peeps.
They cannot appreciate,
There is no early,
There is no late,
There is only a right time
And a place to send me,
But I will never tell them;
They couldn't agree.
One day I will find a way to live,
Or find a way to be free…

But today is not that day…

That is all I CAN say...


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Worthwhile


Your smile is a sonic boom, it blows me away.
I didn’t have a wow moment,
There is no word that can say,
How amazed I was,
I was lost,
I was gone.
I ceased to exist and I was reborn eternally,
In a picture book image of our first encounter;
The second I realised your beautiful smile.
You stopped me being a doubter.
I hope I have found my divinity.
You are an angel for sure,
Because no other could shine so bright;
Try as they might.


If you blew a kiss a thousand ships would be launched
And I would be found on each of them,
Pining beneath every sail
And waiting to return to your beauty,
As soon as possible,
Without fail.
For I would break as you faded away,
But my heart you would keep with you.
It would remain beating,
For hope,
For the truth,
For love,
For you,
For one more chance to see your beautiful smile.
Mona has got nothing on you.


And if I never return to the land on which you walk,
Then I will only ever pass through endless doors,
So empty of desire, so full of second choices,
Extravagance useless,
Gone will be the memories.
For if I cannot love one hundred percent,
Then I am surely dead.
Such love is never truly worthy,
Of roses that float like ghosts in the centre of a cemetery,
Never falling or fading, just staying afloat like a life jacket,
Washed away on the waves of goodbye.
You are the air I need to breathe, I am a discarded crisp packet
And I will float wherever your words send me.
Whether that be stuck in thorny branches or flying high.
Up or down,
You set me free.


Within your centre, am I welcome to venture?
May I be so bold before I am in need of dentures?
You must invite me in if I am ever to enter.
Inside your heart I would be sure to find only diamonds,
Built to protect and last, in your voice I hear violins
And so you must keep yourself safe until you can truly be seen,
As I see you now in my dreams.
Holding me,
Kissing me,
Loving me,
Missing me.


And if it never becomes,
Then tear away the sun!
Pull the mountains asunder like thunder and bury me six feet under!
For life without beauty is not worth living.
A life without love is no life at all.
Life without you would only be worth keeping,
If there was a speck, of a morsel, of a chance at revival.
All things fall…

But then they rise once more…

And if sight-seers and seers became transfixed in your eyes,
They would surely elide all the lies, for they are the never-truths,
That could never be spoken to you.
Only love is welcome inside my heart.
I am surreal; you are a work of art.


All onlookers would not want to miss,
Something they could never have seen before!
Such a smile!
So beautiful!
So enamored am I with the lines that you draw;
I am all yours…
I am…
So yours…


All dreamers,
Would use all their effort,
To try and become kings;
Just to be rich enough to see your smile.  
I hope you leave them dreaming.
For if they saw you, as I see now my Yen,
Then you would make all the broken hearts believe again.
You make life seem worthwhile.
The biggest secret you hide is your smile.


When the gone are once more at one with this place we call Earth,
They will find you, hopefully with me
And they will thank you,
For helping them to once more believe
And allowing them to find their own Her.


A pretender to the throne upon which you sit,
So they are welcome to take away all the fugazi,
For I would only sell my soul for an original print.
I’d rather be with you,
Than be lost to the empty vessels of those who just want me…


I think you need me, I know I need you.
I think we could be; I hope you do too.
I know if you could just speak, we could make it through.
I know, if you and I became happy,
We could be whatever you want us to be.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Toast


It’s so comfortable inside my bed.
I think I will stay here until I am dead.
I’m never going to move again.


The air is cold, my quilt so warm,
My feet are nice and toasty.
I have a day off, so I will remain lost,
In a world of imaginary.


I drift off to sleep until quarter to three.
They say that’s a whole day you have wasted!
All I reply is, I have had a bad day since I was a kid,
So a lie-in once in a while is just what I needed.


But now my stomach is starting to grumble.
Three meals a day is a must.
So I throw on some clothes and drag myself to where I need to go.
Boring, boring, boring toast!
But, oh well, it is something at least.
They tell me I have to eat.


It’s been twenty minutes and I am still not finished,
With this rubbery, so dry!  Food,
With absolutely zero taste at all...
Have a guess what I am…Bored!


My cup of tea is just (stupid!) flavoured water.
My biscuits are broken in barrel and cup.
I should stop eating this toast, I know I oughta,
But it’s nearly done now
And once it is done, it is done.


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Radi-oh-no


What happened to the radio stations?
Burn the playlist, music is in a depression.
The songs I heard today said nothing
And did nothing for me.
I pity you for having to hear it on repeat.


I know every song cannot be a hit,
But today all I heard was (Fill in the blank).
So much so that it made me think,
Twice about ever again listening.


Three songs played and they were all the same-lame,
So I changed the state of play and won’t be going back again.
Boring songs with boring choruses;
Tuning in to only misses.


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Oceans have been born from the tears I have cried.


Life is an endless suicide.
Every day is a razor blade.
Oceans have been born from the tears I have cried.
I have nothing worth saying.


Nobody is worthy of my worthless love.
All things are above me;
I am your bug.
Squash me underfoot without a second to thought.
A liar is sought to take me to the sword.


Life is an egg-timer-paper-canvas.
Paint my reality.
Use only black ink to capture the essence of me.
No colours of light to be seen in this dystopia.
Futureless backdrop of eternity.


I coulda, I woulda, I shudder told ya,
That reality *****,
Like an endless vacuum cleaner of the space in-between,
Dreams and meanings.
When speaking of dreaming,
Never forget to tell all,
For the elapses we leave sheathed are the truth.
Let it be seen.
Do not hide beneath leaves,
Awaiting the spring of hopeful youth,
To wake you from your disparity.
Positively never, nothing but negativity.


Daylight is past,
We are tomorrow.
A day to mourn the loss of sorrow.
A day so hollow it cannot be followed,
For it is not worth discussing;
Things do not need sussing,
Or to be succinct;
I am out of ink.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Nothing hurts like love


I have tried to always be there.
I have tried to help you with your stupid hair!
I have tried to care…
But I don’t.


I have tried to see our future, to see through.
I have tried to share with you all my truths.
I have tried to love you too…
But I don’t.


Down every river there flows a course.
I think I want a divorce.
We are not married, but we are us.
I think it’s time I took a better shot at love.


I just don’t see my life being with yours.
I just don’t think about the two of us.
I just don’t think I can carry on.
You have broken my heart and stolen my trust.


I no longer believe.
I can no longer be,
A part of your stupid story!
I should say sorry…

But I won’t.


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New line.


I don’t need drugs and alcohol to open up my mind.
I don’t need to tear holes in the sky,
To see what I have lost inside.
I don’t need to crash into the ground to know I need more time.
My poetry grabs hold of me and I exist,
With every new line.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Man flu


So exhausted; wide awake.
Every bone in my body aches.
Do not wake up late,
Or stay up late.
You have to work,
So do not be late.
No time for a date,
That hill needs climbing.
Do not forget the silver lining that needs finding.


What good is good if you are selfish?
You don’t have the option to give it a miss.
You cannot risk this golden chance.
Get up and stop sitting on your hands.
Build the plan.
Give thanks.
Be a man.


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+-


Reality ain’t as dreary as some say it is,
Or others say it will be.
Positivity is the best of me,
So I apologise for my negativity.


Do not just smile to make them happy,
Smile because you are really happy.
Tell them if you are feeling sad.
Things improve with time;
Stop living in the past.


Do not bother to swear,
Or make promises you cannot keep.
Get an early night,
It sounds like fun
And we all need a little sleep.


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The last words


I strike a match to strike a chord;
I would rather watch than to be adored.
The things I lack I hope to find,
Before they take it all back;
My love is forever yours.


Allow me to ignite your passion.
I never guarantee satisfaction,
But if you find you like my actions,
Then I will start a conversation.


And so the flame bursts into life,
The yellow, red and orange light,
Rises up to signify,
The meaning of the words that I write.


If you can see me in the dark,
Then you are a better woman than you think you are.
If you can understand my thoughts under these stars,
Then I hope you find the message I am sending from afar.
Over oceans and rocky mountains;
Everything written down, endless fountain’s.
Piles of books, so deep, I am endlessly counting;
The answer is only ever, “Shouldn’t you be writing?”


My head is full of do not forgets;
My life is filled with nothing but regrets.
My love for you is step by step;
Growing into happiness
And now our flame is burning bright
And now our love is more than nice
And now our hearts they are entwined;
We are bound, to be alike.


What’s mine is yours,
My thoughts I give;
Never live the way I lived.


The flames of love inflame through every page;
The words may blur into one being, but they are never the same.
I will continue to try again, to hopefully allow you to see my brain.
It runs like clockwork if the clock was broken.
No cuckoo alarm, no words unspoken.
No need for alarm, it’s just a drill I am holding
And everything I say is fixed…I am only joking.


So serious about being forthright;
Too truthful behind my sun glass eyes.
This life I truly despise,
But when I am loved I feel so alive!


The smoke stills; burn my cigarette.
The tray of ash, my resting bed.
The times I had I will never forget,
But every light goes out in the end.


So never do the things I did;
Never live the life I lived.
Never say it if you don’t mean it;
I loved you all…so close the lid.

Another flame will burn.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One


I’m just a poet in need; just another man.
Another one who wants to be;
Just another love wannabe.


We are united by words;
We have a need to let our soul’s speak
And as they do the two of us make a connection.
I am bound to be here for you and you are bound to me.


So keep on writing your love letters to Dear John’s;
I’m going to bury my head beneath the sand
And build myself a castle for a home.
So understated, this place that I live.
Some would say that it is just like all the others,
But I personally think it shows how I would like things to be
And it has a style of its own that makes it look like no other.


So let me tell you, if I may,
Because I know too soon I will be taken
And I won’t have the chance to speak these words to you,
If I am gone and my heart is left behind, broken.


I only wanted to be loved;
I guess it’s just a search in which we all partake.
The most addictive drug is love
And if I had it, I would be able to survive the loss.
I am so lost alone without a lover,
Because this journey seems so sad and so hard to take.
So hard to face,
So tough to take;
Too hard to find the one.


But one is all I ever wanted to find.
I don’t need many, just a single.
I am running out of chances at love, to take,
So won’t you come and save me tonight?  
I am so tired of falling and failing
And I have no desire to go and mingle.


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All that we are


These are my thoughts;
Your interpretation is your own.
What am I but naught?
We are not alone.


Love is in ashes,
Too broken to fix.
Multiple cures have been attempted;
This is all there is.


Beauty without,
Darkness inside.
I have no doubt,
You took my pride.


Burn it all away;
Tear it apart.
Today is not just another day
And this is not the start.


Now and forever,
Lost in the dark.
Thoughts sent to never;
All that we are.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Painful death


My heart, my heart, my burning soul;
I want to die in pain.
The end must come, I have no sun
And no phoenix shall rise from these flames.


Heaven ain’t here, Hell is all around.
The pain and hurt is raining down.
On everyone, everywhere I look;
I see the fear, I see the mistrust.


Love is a lie, it’s dead, it died;
In the middle of the night, it was sacrificed.
Love kept us alive, but now loves blinding light,
Has become a dwindling flame in the dead of the night.


So put me out of my misery,
I have no wish to live like this.
For love is dead inside my head.
So all I pray for is you that you please give me death.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The other side


A lady crossed the bridge to the other side;
She didn’t know exactly what she would find.
But this was her time, so on she went;
She has never been seen since and she will not be seen again.


Her make up ran as she walked fearful steps;
The wind beneath the willows blew across her dress.
She thought she would fly or be forgiven if she confessed;
But who can say what we will become, when there is nothing left.


The moon above, her only guide, as she walks through the shadows.
It’s cold up here above the world and life just seems so hollow.
Why is nobody with her when they all fell as one?
Her hand upon the coarse rope bridge,
The leads her away from all she has known.


Darkness is all around and the stars are endless;
All she ever did was try her best.
But now she is the ghost who passes through the night;
The lady on the bridge can at last see the other side.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Guitars in the Night


There is a place I have not been,
I go there each night in all of my dreams.
The fictional world of fantasy.
I think it’s a result of a life that has been lived
And a worldwide vision called the T.V.


I woke up this morning after another dream;
I was late for work in my mind and the panic awoke me.
I looked at the clock it said 45 minutes past three,
So I closed my eyes and went back to sleep.


I hum the tune inside my mind,
I can’t see the meaning; it doesn’t mean that I’m blind.
All I can hear are the words with meaning;
Something personal, just for me.


All we want is you by our side;
All we hear are guitars in the night.
All night long I’ve been singing this song;
I don’t know the words, but I sing along.


All I hear are the thoughts I am thinking;
I can pass the time in a blink of the eye.
Now I know what I must say,
To make you understand my mind.


I’ve got my feet firmly on the ground
And my head is in the clouds.
I’m a full time dreamer,
Who is full of self-doubt.


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Falling away


The same day again, I wish it away;
I found a new way to live with the pain.
Leave me alone I’m happy here,
Inside this maze of life and fear.


I found a new way to please myself;
Without your love, I can be something else.


I don’t want to stop myself from falling away from you.


Falling away,
Falling away,
Falling away,
Is my only way to be saved.


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Demons of the written word.


**** draws out my Demons

And gives them a physical form.

They take over my body,

So I can write some more.

But they leave a ***** residue,

Long after they have come and gone.

I think I would prefer it if I was permanently ******.



(C)2011 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

A poet’s heart.


A poet’s heart is unlike any other.
It is bigger, it is more;
It is waiting for you, to discover.
It is free to speak without disorder;
Because a poet’s heart is so clear
And we are simply the interpreter.


A poet’s heart is unique to the poet;
All who have a heart, would say the same,
But a poet’s heart is uniquely more used,
Than to simply push blood around the veins.


A poet’s heart must be huge for love to fill it;
It gives out what it takes in and is essential to the poet.
Their heart is their charm and their words their way of showing.
A poet’s heart is the creator of the poet
And our souls are forever aching.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The long road to nowhere.


My thoughts are like a box of frogs;
The top comes off and they are all gone.
I have no control over all of that which I have lost.
In separate directions my life I could lead,
But I am sat snoozing in the passenger seat,
Not caring about the final destination,
Because all that will cause is more depression.


A mind of wires, all connections are unknown.
I have an idea on speed dial, but I have no phone.
Save me from myself and my disease;
The apathy that steals my need for anything.
My lack of you is only hurting me,
But I am way past caring because it is a quarter past three
And all I can care about is the fact that I cannot sleep.


No mystery on the T.V. can keep my interest,
Because I have no money,
So I cannot eat at a restaurant.
Where is the morning sun?
All I can see are dark clouds up above,
As I look down on my dead garden.
I beg your pardon; you want a rose-tinted kingdom?
I do apologise, we are all out of those.


The clothes are old, the air is cold;
I am cold, beneath my throws.
Where did my life go?
Why must I alone, remain alone?


Three parent babies and I am still not needed.
I am not being selfish, by thinking only of me,
Because I lack any kind of understanding,
As to why you are not standing,
To give them an applause.


No dictionary diction for the Dictaphone tonight,
Because I am just typing the story of our lives.
The things on the news, the ‘truth’; their views.
A world like this is a magical place,
With your face.
But my Facebook?  It is a sorry state,
Of getting lost in their repeated affair’s.
The last person to care,
Was last seen saying “I do not care.”


So there you see, this humane being,
Is nothing without love; what else could I be?
A man without a woman; a fool without love.
I am all these things and still I see,
The emptiness of trust.


Stop the silence, speak the truth.
I am so tired of sounding so blue,
But I have no other mood to choose;
So I feel the blues, I sing a tune.
I sing to you from my endless dunes.
Sand pit memories washed away with all we see.
The all is lost moment…fading memories.


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Breathe you in to me.


Words belong to us all; my feelings are yours to take.
I no longer have the strength to put up a wall,
So you are free to ruin me in your own special way.
Put me down with the whispers; I am embarrassed to take the applause.
I accept no apologies from people who close doors.


Embrace me or lose me; who am I to say?
I will still be stood here singing in the rain, at the end of days.
This soul is mine; this day is yours to make an agonizing choice.
Do you dare to love?  Will you risk the fall?
All I need to hear is the truth which you hide beneath your voice.


If I am your decision, then let us be each other’s joy.
Love is androgynous; you are stupendous!
So close to stupidity; so far from being willing to destroy.
You have left a mark upon my mind that I will never forget.
Beautifully scarred, you have left your egg inside my fragile nest
And with every wasted breath that I must breathe in without you near,
I contemplate the waste; I dream about death.
I feel my spiritual entity disappear.


But then we reappear, after what seems like years,
To the sounds of our hearts cheers, as we remember the love we have
And the bond we will always share.
I hope you can see that I still care.


Time is too short in your presence, but every second is a gift.
As you turn away, I await your return;
Though inside I know that your love will never truly leave.
I feel such happiness whenever I am an integral piece of your kiss;
I can never get enough of your love,
Because only in your arms can I truly be at peace.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Beauty is fading from my eyes.


I have become empty of all those feelings for love;
If this is all there is in a land without feelings,
Then why should I keep searching,
For a thing I have never really touched?
The unattainable wish has begun to disappear.
Without a hope to hold onto, my future no longer seems so clear.


That image I held inside my head for so long,
Has vanished with every spilt drop of blood,
That has fallen from my eyes.
Those tears for love’s pain,
That I had always wished to so soon be gone,
Are my only memories of that thing we all want;
But I have lost my fire, I have lost my desire and all love I now despise.


Banish this wish from the hole they call my heart.
I have no name for it, or use for it,
Since it’s needs are now fading like a dying star.
Once so noble and so bright and so strong;
Love is now an unknown beauty,
No longer moving within the void that they call my heart.


I can take her into my mind, but too soon she burns away like a candle;
As my love ages, it is already dying, but once it was too hot to handle.
A thing I cannot grasp, without being burnt by deceit
And then I must become wrapped up inside their minds of lies.
My eyes seem to be changing from bright blue to grey,
To match my withering mind.


Time is taking my life, one day at a time;
My destiny is approaching so quickly,
That I cannot hold onto a dream of a better beloved Amy,
Because it has been removed from my memory
And all my needs are becoming more about who I can be,
Not who I want to be.
Now the lover I used to need is always seen walking away from me.


I used to want it all, but too many times I have tried to climb that wall
And when all I need is a new way to go through an open love door,
All I am left with are my lonesome, broken, thoughtless pieces!
My shattered heart is scattered across the floor.


There is no way out of this life that I have lived;
Once upon a dream so big.
I now hide beneath my nothing, because it is all I have to give
And it is all love deserves for the way it has treated me.


My black hole for a soul, has no *** of gold,
At the end of my never before seen rainbow.
For I am cursed, without a vision, to be alone;
In a heart that cannot live, without a daily step into the unknown.


I need an endless set of surprises,
But my love life remains the same…divided.
When all I am in need of is a simple kiss,
I am left to imagine my closed eyelids.


There is nothing between now and then,
But the motion’s that I must go through, without.
Because I can no longer see any chance of love;
I cannot see beauty,
So I can no longer believe.
If nobody can be true to me,
Then to love I can no longer remain devout.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

All I have to give.


If you need a reminder, I will donate my brain to you.
I will present my love all wrapped up nicely,
If you need to feel like you are loved.
If you need money, I will sell my soul for you;
Whatever fate brings down upon me, at least you will feel good.


I will reach through my rib cage to give you my heart.
If the sun gets in your eyes, I will blow it up to soothe your head.
If you need me to show you that I am passionate about you,
Then I will create a rocket ship and I will go fetch you a star.
The only thing I will not do is waste my last breath.
I will save it to give you the kiss of life,
Or use it to say “remember me”;
Because I will never forget you, even after I am deceased.


I will give you my mouth to bring a smile to your face;
I give you my life to lay in peace at your side.
I will become my own clone, when I am in need of being replaced.
I will let a vampire bite me, when I am just about to die.
I want to live forever, or until the day that you do not live.
I will sell my every possession,
Just to show I have nothing more to give.


You can win all the arguments,
Because I have already won your love.
You can always choose what we do,
If you can be bothered to
And you will decide when we have had enough.


We are going forward in time, beyond the end, hand in hand.
So let me hold you close to me, so I can take your pain away.
Let it become my pain, as I let you take all that which is not bad.
My devotion will never shake, or bend,
Because all I have to give,
I will allow you to have.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

A poem about football.


Poetry about football *****.
Poetry about love doesn’t.
Poetry about the things you read about in books,
Shows people what you have learned, like
‘The Boring Book of Boredom’.


A dozen couldn’t appease the woman,
Who wouldn’t listen to your wooden words without wisdom.
You King without a kingdom, you really shouldn’t be so stubborn,
But for true love we fall, all of a sudden.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Love you to death.


These are the dying days;
Nothing remains inside to hide.
These are the dying days;
Nothing remains of our lives.
So trying but worth it all the same.
These are the dying days;
These are the times that remain.


Nothing to stop us now;
Nothing to stop us hurting now.
Nothing to keep us down;
So free to feel and fool around.


I love you, yeah I do!
I love you because you love me too.
I love you, yeah I do!
I love you because you love me too.


I want to be somebody;
I want you to feel me.
I want to sing so freely;
I want to sing, sing, sing.


Sing to you, my sweet honey blue;
Sing to you my favourite tune.
Sing to you because I love you;
I love to sing, because I love you.


I love you, yeah I do;
I love you because you love me too.
I love you, yeah I do;
I love you because you love me too.


So please just sing and sing;
Sing with me because I love you.
Sing with me, sing, sing, sing;
Sing with me my love, I love you.


I love you to the grave;
I love you, please be safe.
I love you in all ways;
My last love of my dying days.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Lost in love.


I was king of the world and used to fly with the birds,
Because I had her love and I knew its worth.
It was my last taste of Heaven itself,
Because in her arms I found myself;
Lost for words and lost in her words,
I want to find myself lost in her.


She is beautiful and unique
And she was everything to me.
I love her so much;
Just the slightest touch,
Of her fingers on my body, sends shivers down my spine.
I feel so lucky to have said she is mine.


Something tells me I’m ok;
With her I had the nicest of days
And nights to remember forever together as one.
We float across oceans into whole new worlds,
As two lost in love and happy as one.


Now I have become the one;
Lost in love is now gone.
I am lost without her love;
Two were lost in love, but now one is truly gone.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Love you.


You are so beautiful so be seen,
So I needed to say you are inside of me.
Any tears I have lead you to weep,
I’ll collect them like diamonds and they I will keep.


Because I love you, yes I do!
I want to, be with you.
I love you, yes I do!
I want to be with you.


Because you are the one who brings me my true love
And I need you to breathe, because you are my drug
And I can’t get enough of your hugs or your touch.
When I’m without you I’m lost in the dark without love.


All the angels above don’t compare to you flower;
You are here in my arms because you fell from the clouds
And you landed inside me and I don’t know how,
I’ve lived so long without you; but I can’t live without you now.


Because I love you, yes I do!
I want to, be with you.
I love you, yes I do!
I want to be with you.


My darling, my sweetness, my fondest of memories;
You are all that I need to live a life of bliss.
With the softest of kisses, you are top of my list;
Number one, you are the most beautiful princess.


Because I love you, yes I do!
I want to, be with you.
I love you, yes I do!
I want to be with you.


My sunshine of love, you bring warmth to my life;
You are so beautiful, in my darkest of nights.
You shine brightest of all like a blinding white light;
I love you so much you bring tears to my eyes.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Without you


I want you to see me; I want you to know.
I want you to feel me when you are alone.
I want you to need me, now I am gone.
I want you to know what it is you have lost.


I should still be with you, but you are not here.
You will never have me with you.  Goodbye now my dear.
Your life will get better when I go away;
But if you still want me with you, I cannot stay.


We flew like two eagles, we flew so high;
We fell like a broken stone when we fell from the sky.
We crashed down on Earth like a flying meteor strike;
We fell like two angels and we lit up the night.


With you I was all I could have been;
That still wasn’t enough to keep your love.
With you I lived my life like a romantic movie scene;
Now you are gone, I realise I was enough.


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Time on my hands.


Ain’t got time to have no time on my hands,
Because I’ve got to learn to fly before I leave this land.
Time stands still and goes in the blink of an eye,
But I don’t believe I’ll ever find my paradise.


Scared of leaving with this weight on my mind;
All I have left to give you is my time.
Trying to face the world whilst wearing nothing but a smile;
But life is dragging me down and leaving me to die.


Time, time, time, time, time. It’s time to live or die.
Time, time, time, time, time.  It’s time to fly so high.
I’ve lost my mind and I don’t know why,
I still believe in my paradise.


Seasons come and seasons pass on by,
But I’m still here waiting for the end of time.
Sat here crying in front of the wailing wall;
I wish I could explain to you the way that I fall.


Time, time, time, time, time. It’s time to live or die.
Time, time, time, time, time.  It’s time to fly so high.
I’ve lost my mind and I don’t know why,
I still believe in my paradise.


I guess it’s time for me to say goodbye.
My only feelings are, I’m feeling alive.
I’m gonna fly so high, I’ll touch the sky,
The day I finally find my paradise.


(C)2012 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Sin


Release your thoughts, await the applause;
Of course I release you from all your chores.
What’s mine is yours and what’s yours is yours;
I need nothing from you, but I shall take all that which is yours.


Place your bookmark at the end of the chapter;
We both know what comes after,
You turn out the light.
But we shall hold our tongue,
Because of all those things that you have done.


We shall forgive you your sins,
If you sing this hymn
And beg for forgiveness,
From the one they call Him.


Don’t play dice with the Devil,
It’s snake eyes every time.
Don’t ever owe him,
After he takes your nickel and dime.
Old Nick will not miss a trick if you relax around him,
So jinx him and leave him to wallow in his beloved sin.


I banish you curse to an ungodly land,
Where man walks alone, because he is accused and condemned.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Songs of yesterday.


I sang those songs of love since I was a boy,
Way back before the world could ever bring me down.
Motown lead the way and music was my favourite toy,
Way before I ever knew video like I know it now.


Those songs of love that lit the way;
Those songs of love sang yesterday.
Those songs I will never forget or replace;
Those loving songs of yesterday.


Since I was a child of love,
I tried my best to turn out good.
But my life turned out to be a struggle
And I ended up in a little trouble, I guess.


I did some things I should never have done,
When I was only looking for a little fun.
But I crashed and burned like a dying sun
And landed down in the song for the forgotten.


Those songs of love that lit the way;
Those songs of love sang yesterday.
Those songs I will never forget or replace;
Those loving songs of yesterday.


Come with me and sing my songs;
I only came along to turn you on.
I only came to make you think;
So break out past your lungs and let me hear you sing.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Quite Interesting.


Why am I watching this show on T.V.?
Because it has Stephen Fry and he is so funny.
He is so intelligent, compared to me;
But QI is wonderfully informative.


I learn general knowledge and bits of nonsense;
But even the nonsensical starts to make sense.
Phil Jupitus and Bill Bailey say funny things,
Whilst Alan Davies just seems a bit dim.


This show is great, it’s so good to watch;
Thank Dave for playing QI so much.
They must be careful not to say the obvious answer,
Because the screen will buzz loud and bring much laughter.


They guessed you would say that,
When the real answer is stranger.
So stick your hands in a sharks gills,
To protect you from danger.


General Ignorance will catch them out
And make them say the wrong answer, no doubt.
So watch QI, it’s quite interesting;
It’s the comedy show that just keeps giving.


(C)2013 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Best Plan Ever


I’m never gonna leave you, I’m never gonna say goodbye,
Because today I had a thought and it changed my mind
And it changed my life
And it changed my mind
And it changed…my…liii-ife.


I’m going to be with you, for the rest of my life.
I just didn’t have the time to work it out before now;
But this new plan of mine is to make you my wife,
Because without your love in my life I will forever feel down.


I like this plan, of loving you forever;
It’s one I’m gonna cling to, it’s a tie I’ll never sever.
I love this plan, of loving you forever;
It’s the best plan ever, it’s the best plan everrrrr!!!.


And it feels like the best plan ever.
The best plan ever,
The best plan ever, this is a bond I’ll never sever.


And it feels like the best plan ever,
The best plan ever,
The best plan ever, this is a bond I’ll never sever.


I’m gonna love you more than you ever thought I could.
I want you to know that with me, anything you could become.
I have a master plan on how we can beat the traps set by love;
We’re gonna stay together longer than anyone ever said we would.


I love you, and I know you love me, my love bomb,
So let’s go show them exactly what our love is like.
It burns so bright that their jealousy can do us no harm.
I’m gonna love you forever, I’m gonna make you my life.


I like this plan of loving you forever.
It’s one I’m gonna cling to; it’s a tie I’ll never sever.
I love this plan of loving you forever;
It’s the best plan ever, it’s the best plan everrrrr!!!.


And it feels like the best plan ever.
The best plan ever,
The best plan ever, this is a bond I’ll never sever.


And it feels like the best plan ever.
The best plan ever,
The best plan ever, this is a bond I’ll never sever.


One last time I must tell you I love you,
Because I know you truly…love meee…tooooooo.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Morning is broken.


Electric blue; suffocate my words.
Drowning like a fish, gasping for air.
The hole I will lie in is golden on the outside.
I have no life, I have no time; I have no chance to care.


Underwater bubbles never float into the sky.
Pressure cooker, need a cuddle, beauty begins inside the eyes.


Rip my head apart, I have a cavity;
Unclear to see all three degrees.
I only eat rice from a chessboard.
Skinny love; I overfeed.
You are just a dream to me, I imagine.
Methinks no drink from a grail can remedy.
I am ok without;
I am ok within.
I am ok with you.
I think.


Lizard tongues whisper fables to all with ears.
I have no gun, I have no mouth; I have no choice to speak or to hear.
I suffer in silence as I lie amongst the Guns ‘n’ Roses;
Plant my corpse alongside the mourning plants.
I am done picking flowers and my arm is already full of POEsies.

(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

The Existence


In the eclipse of a memory, where dust is still falling,
There remains a voice, long since lost, that is still calling,
Like a blast from the past, never shaken into reality.
There is it again.  Who could this be?


From the wreckage of a life,
I walk as a tall, dark, gruesome stranger.
The ghosts of yesterday are at mirth with killing strangers.
Like three blinded mice, or three no evil monkeys,
A vision has appeared to blow a kiss and set the love inside me free.


Now the passions of love crash into my life like a tsunami.
A believer is reborn upon the sands of destiny
And from the great ocean of time, there crawls a beast of burden;
Work done, journey taken, snake ridden through the forsaken,
With their green eyes of loneliness forever spitting lies.
Alas, they shall miss, but continue they will for they are bitter chimes,
Of a grand-mother clock ticking the last tock of its life.


As its world crumbles into dust, into dust…
The gates are sealed shut.
Chains reaffirmed;
The sentence has been passed…
There will be no return.


Forever banished into a heart of stone;
Locked up, locked inside; locked away.
No key thrown,
To a life without truth;
Simply goodbyes.


My wings are an echo of misremembering’s and old wishes.
I am empathetic to your plight,
But stone cold silence is my only mistress.
All spoken words are heat seekers, sending love/hate into every soul;
Even those without light, who only crave gold,
Can be heard to softly whimper at what they could have had,
If they just took a chance.
If only you took a real shot at romance.


Love is no angel riding in on a horse called Silver.
All I see are phantoms of angels;
Truly serpents of slither.
Through all of our minds are the twines of their path;
We are connection, we are rejection,
They never looked back at the chaos they caused,
As they passed through our lives like we were The Doors
And now we are one of many;
One too many had to fall…


And so we are done.
So we are gone.
Ashes to quick dashes.
Priceless and none.
Upon this deathbed I sleep alone.
I was a king of fools…
You displaced me from my throne.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Aim for almost


Aim for almost being in love,
If you need me to love you in all ways.
Aim for love like a heat-seeker arrow from above
And maybe you and I will find a way.


Aim for almost and you may be happy.
Take a part of me; the first piece I have to fix.
Share my love, become my remedy.
Love me in all ways and I will love you always, if…


If you aim for almost you will find your happiness;
If you want perfection then go through the door.
I have searched my entire life,
For just the tiniest piece of consequence!
Find something that matters, or find nothing at all.


Aim for happiness, but aim for almost.
Never search for the holy grail of love;
It does not exist.
Aim for my heart, or leave me your ghost.
All I am asking for is your kiss.


Aim for almost and you may find love.
Aim for almost with me…
I am aiming for us.


(C)2018 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

7 pm wake up call


Today I had the strangest dream.
There was you and I, working side by side,
In a café down the street.
I guess we were on equal pay.
I started work and there you were,
Sat with me until it started to rain.


I think it might have been in France;
Maybe Paris, maybe right where we are.
We were just talking and having a laugh;
I hadn’t been there long, but lovers find their car.
You knew the café like the back of your hand;
I knew right then and there, that I was becoming your man.
One day I heard you singing a song;
Since then you and I were getting along.


Another round table served, on another day;
We had not yet fallen in love.
There was another room, an outdoor room, beyond the main café.
A place for him and her to sit and talk and find their way.
It had extra tables, with umbrellas
And stacked up chairs against the wall,
For when it was busier than it seemed today.


There was the boss who said “Allo, allo.”
His wife, the owner, I saw here around,
I guess that she would come and go.
Another waitress was cleaning up
And you and I were just talking and falling into love.


You were sitting on a bench
And as we talked, I kept you warm, by holding you next to me.
I think we had always been destined,
Because as I looked at you and we each knew,
You began to lean on in…


I think this could have been our first kiss;
I’m not quite sure I remember it all.
I’m painting pictures as I speak.
I am afraid they will all soon disappear,
So before they do, my one last view,
Of our café will be spoken of here.


You were dressed in black and white.
I was waiting on your words.
We were sober, but we were becoming us;
We were so happy in this moment, so drunk on love.
I was sat smoking a rolled cigarette,
In a wooden wheelbarrow that fitted two.
This wooden statue was our bed;
A feature of the outdoor room.
The wheelbarrow grew in time, as did our love;
By the end of that night, we were true.


It was the middle of the eve;
The moment was right, to say it right,
I think you were made for me.


Then later our boss and his wife they spoke.
He was annoyed at the young couple treating the café like a joke.
“When are they coming back in?
There is work that needs to be done!”
She said “Relax darling, they are having fun
And can’t you see that they are in love?”
And with that, the boss he simply rolled his eyes;
She rolled her eyes too and then they both smiled.
“Oh my love, it has been a while,
Since our old café had a new romance.”


You and I were sat becoming one and the same,
In our oversized wooden wheelbarrow,
Hand in hand in the rain.


(C)2017 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Maybe


I may be alone, but I am not lonely.
I may be at home, but I am happy.
I may not take drugs.
Maybe.


I love what I love;
I am love.
I loved the drugs once;
I have taken enough.


I stand here a man,
For that is all I am.
I need a helping hand,
To feel like a man.


Sun light in my eyes;
Day light.
Morning without warning;
My eyes!


Gone to never is yesterday;
What more can I say?
Memories are soon forgotten.
What was I saying?


Learn to advance,
Sounds like a plan.
Knowledge in our hands;
Take a tablet into the bath.


The future is bright.
The future is bleak.
The future is unknown,
So I cannot speak.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

One vision


One vision, writers block.
All I can see is love.
Tick-tock, tick-tock.
Glass half full.


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I have come undone.


I see the Devil sat beside me in the passenger seat,
As I’m speeding down the freeway.
He is egging me on to go past one hundred
And I am liking what he is saying.


The light on the freeway, I have become;
I never wanted to be much less than I could.
I fall apart now the sun is gone;
So set me free before I become undone.


Help me, to help me, to help myself.
I need you to change me and my thoughts, so I can feel safe.
I am scared this is the road to Hell;
So won’t you please help me?  I need to be saved.


The fires burn in front of me and I drive towards them at speed;
Give me all I want and I shall do as you please.
Heading into the future, a ball of flames;
The world comes crashing down upon me
And I am tomorrow and yesterday.


I am all things in an instant and timeless without a soul;
I am gone to forever with the Devil and so,
I am here and I am there; I am split in two.
I have left your world of pain behind me
And now I sink into the depths of sorrow.


I am sat inside this hole, looking up
And dreaming of once more feeling the sun’s rays upon my face.
Living in Hell all my life, I chose this life and the drugs,
Because that was the only way I could face this world
And face another day.


I am broken by any means and my existence in meaningless;
I am a mess, I am disintegrating and I am hopeless.
I am nothing and all things destroyed by a dark world;
I am gone to never be remembered
And now I am forgotten and nameless.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Hollow


I am hollow inside; I am a hollow toy.
I am hollow, I am hollow; I am a hollow boy.
My insides have been destroyed when my love life was broken.
I have no feelings left inside me; I showed them all to you
And you left my heart on a pyre quietly smoking.


I am haunted by your look;
I am lost inside your thoughts.
I am hollow, I am a ghost;
I am the memory of love turned to dust.


Hollow dreams of changing the future;
All we have left is a hope to lose.
All my life I have been surrounded by vultures;
Now I can’t have love, what do I have left to choose?


There is nothing left to lose,
When there is nothing left to love.
So give me something to make me feel better;
Any kind of drug.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.

Finger tips hold memories


Kiss my lips and feel sheer bliss my lover, my last fling;
I love you so much it is becoming embarrassing.
Hold my soul close to your chest,
Then our love can blossom and we can stay undressed.


Show me the real you because that is what I desire,
I want to remember your love for the rest of my life.
Your love allows me to become a high flier;
In search of God I fly over the world and disappear into the sky.


Light and dark and everything inside,
Love has never felt so hard to hide.
Questioned by an angel about my love;
She can see in my heart that our love is good.


The amalgamation of two souls,
Bound by love forever more.
Our love will last forever!
You are mine and I am yours.


A year later the room is empty…
She took it all when she walked out on me.
I am beginning to heal but love is a distant memory;
Finger tips cling onto memories.


I was cast aside to a distant place,
To suffer pain and never again show my face.
All I did was never enough;
Never enough to call your bluff.


Now I never hear her sing,
Now I never see her smile.
Now I never get to be happy,
Because now I know she is no longer mine.


(C)2016 Aa Harvey. All Rights Reserved.