How do I continue on when scars have not yet begun to form over open wounds
Wounds so deep that the river seems to flow and carry me on on endlessly never to find the sea
I have had hopes and dreams before, yet now I find myself unable to trust in hope once more
So many times I have been let down and have gotten lost on a stream that leads nowhere

Waiting for somebody to help me pick up the pieces, somebody please help me pick up the pieces
Knowing that I am the only one that can pick up the broken pieces and put the puzzle back together
Though some of the pieces are now missing, what will the final picture visualize
I have hoped for a long time that there will be other pieces to be found to finally find some peace

I almost followed you to the end of earth
Loving you was like being in love with an enemy
I endured the fire and ice from your hearth
Diagnosis:  internally charred and frozen from your remedy

And now I'm left with the weight of the world
That you laid upon my broken and worn wings
August was my last flight as our lives unfurled
Seemingly left adrift on treacherous raging seas

What a day today turned out to be
The near future I wish I could see
I feel so lost, so alone and betrayed
In your presence today I felt afraid

All your truths turned out to be lies
You did all the things that lovers despise
Was there ever a time, I plea
When you really truly loved me

Like the waves crashing upon the shore
Your betrayal has taken me to the floor

For years I had somehow buried all of your lies
Pretending made it easier than a surprise

Lies that washed up after you were gone
I find there are more and more with each dawn

The truth which hurts so deep
But to you I shall not utter a peep

The wind blows straight through me
Like a swirling whispery plea

Begging for more time, yet begging to move on
Realizing your love was false and gone

The kids are trying to be strong
To keep on striving since you're just so wrong

You'll never know how hard it was to walk out that door
You'll never know that your betrayal has taken me to the floor

Flowing away from me is the thought
The thought of you and I
You and I are now a thing of the past
Of the past I keep looking back upon

Looking back upon the good times
The good times and the bad times
The bad times that came at the end
At our end all there is are your lies

Are your lies and unfaithfulness
Lies, unfaithfulness, disloyalty that I was not aware of
I was not aware of how long this was going on
How long was this going on?

This was going on for quite some time
For quite some time I had my suspicions
I had my suspicions but could not prove
Could not prove it until the end.

The End

You made me what I am today
So I have you to thank
From childhood to adolescence
You shaped me, formed me; joviality shrank

Teaching that anyone can betray
You are the one that showed me the way
Always looking ahead and behind
Never knowing what I will find

I'm always running, hiding
Into a seclusion that is binding
Dearly departed from innocence so strong
****** into the world of hatred so long

All these years later
I am left wondering how long...
How much longer will it be until
I can emerge from the darkness that is wrong

I watch from a distance
As distance is a friend
Watching and waiting
For time to somehow bend

Watching as time
Steals her away
There is no more time
For keeping her at bay

She is the one
That mattered most
Brought me into this world
Raised me as she knew best

But time has it's way
It will steal her from me
Take her away
And she will no longer be

A mother
A wife
A grandmother
Full of life

Her memory is fading
No longer standing tall
I try not to show
The sadness I feel for it all