The years are going by swiftly
I wonder how many more I'll get
Stray white hairs gleaning in the sun
I notice them coming, one by one

Where has my youth gone?
Has time somehow done me wrong?
I watch my children growing older
The fire inside me has turned to smolder

Yet I find somewhere deep inside
I am still that same young girl
that I was so many years ago
I have much to accomplish before I go

Please, if there is a god
I ask that you set me on the correct path
I know I have so much to give
I want to know before I go that I did live

I read that every poem is beautiful in it's own way
This poem has no beauty to behold, dare I say
For in the dank clefts of my mind
All to be found is emptiness and I'm blind

Death, decay, and rotting away
Flesh peeled back revealing life's fray
Crows trampled their feet on my face
Frozen expressions here to stay

Color has been drained
Bleached away from all the strands
Blank white pages, illusions
Void is the color life demands

I stand lifeless and still
Broken is time's prudencial
Never accomplishing anything
Never fulfilling potential

I wanted to write a beautiful poem for a change
The whole idea of it seems so strange
To take something usually dark and ugly
And turn it into something lovely

Something unfamiliar from my usual thought
The glowing white light of a holiday tree is sought
Something reassuring and warm
Not my usual hidden hive with a deadly swarm

A lake gleaming in the summertime sun
Kids running around having fun
Otter pops, picnics, a kayak on that lake
A recent memory I have to thank

The restless breeze of late autumn
I'll let it take the old familiar ugliness to the bottom
Start fresh with a new perspective
A beautiful poem as my directive

You had such a vibrant smile
A smile that could reach a mile
I wonder where that smile has gone
Now that you were found in the wrong

Played me for a fool you did
Every whim I was at your bid
I tried and I tried    
until the light inside me died


Begged you to keep me
Begged you to love me
And love me, I'm sure you tried
Oh, how you contently lied!

You're now in the place you belong
A place you shall hear no happy song
I read about what you did
All you see now is grid

Good riddance to you
Stay locked up forever true
Behind bars you can't excape
Hope you enjoy your new landscape