Yesterday my sister joined the angels ...my mom and my dad and the mother of the love of my life ......no more pain and suffering and no more strife she is  happy and with the sweetest company she could ever be with......he took her too young but a good reason there must have been.....
With her wings she shall fly ......high above me in the sky
To watch us and guide us when ever we are in need.......that's what she is known best for just doing the good deed
She will be missed by those close and far and loved by all ......because if you needed to talk all you had to do is call
She will always be in my heart and in my soul.....And my promise to her is to live my life as it should be lived and to not lose control
Her love and kindness for all living souls ......that was my sister and that's how she rolls
When we all said our goodbyes....as she rose to the skies
I will love her forever and miss her so....she will watch over me this I know
I have grown a lot because of what I have seen.......and got a little wiser if you know what I mean
I will cherish every moment I have on this earth and pray everyday so god gives me strength.......to live a life without any pain is everyone's wish ......but without any no lessons are learned..now I have gone through so much in my life but the lessons I have learned gives me so much to gain.

As this holiday comes our bellies will be full of turkey and minds on football
Friends and family will gather round
In the corner alone I will be found
Sitting by myself with a heart of grief
And a mind full of disbelief
On Thanksgiving day I would be with my baby
Laughing and joking with a heart full of joy
With all her family and her baby boy
This holiday season must be the worst
All my feelings will come out first
I feel like crawling in the corner to cry
And stay there all day until I am ready to die
I do not know how she will feel
On this day  me I can't deal
On thursday I wish her the best
While I curl in bed and get some rest
Please baby the times that we had never forget
I know I will never I have no regret

How can I do it without you.....I don't think I can this much I know is true
How can I look at my face in the mirror when I was even thinking of giving up on us......I couldn't my love for you is like the sun fighting through the clouds .......at least 98% of the time the sun will win....so until I feel your warm body next to mine....I will never give up.....and so as it rises and it sets I will keep on fighting no matter how tough it gets....this love I have for you
To me is worth more than gold I think this yes I do......
Before the first snowflake shall touch the ground......the flame will be rekindled within our hearts...yes before the first storm starts.....for this is a romance which from books are written......I will make you purr like that little kitten
So I will sleep tonight with dreams of you........I know I will wake before it's through
With a smile on my face I will kneel and pray .......I will be coming home sweetheart and there I will stay
For in my dreams we are always together.....reality it will be .....and in my arms that's where you will be.......forever

I read my horoscope today and it said to connect with loved ones .....who made you feel like home......there was only one and she is gone.....the tears they fell like rain onto my pillow.and as it was soaked with tears......once again I layed my head upon my pillow and relived all my fears....
To love again ...I would never forget
The only woman that made me feel like home......and to have or have not this woman I would never regret.

If you have any problems or just need to talk .......my ears are wide open from you I would never turn away and walk
If you feel the need to cry......my shoulder will always be here and I will never question why
My love for you goes far beyond words so it doesn't matter it all comes in a flurry......I will never be far from you so there are no reason to worry
Until the day I die I will always be here.......just because my little princess I really care.
So late at night and you can't sleep and you need to shed some light or just need to say a little ........I am always here and will never get in the middle....just.....listen..
My shoulders broad and ears will be wide ......so is its anything there is no reason to hide.
From now till the day I breathe no more I will always be there so don't hesitate......because if it is in your head you must not keep it in so there is no reason to wait.

We are the perfect couple in everyway
The fourth of July was every day
Fireworks went off everyday we were together
It should have been forever
It still will be this I know
For my love for her I will show
Nothing in the days I was with you ever fake or staged
For just you thinking that I am outraged
I know you love me but you try to hide it by trying convince yourself I am a bad man because of my mistakes
Being without you on this day or any other is the worst feeling I have ever had
So to fix all my wrongs and show you I am not that bad
I will finally break this mold of what I created
And prove to you my love for you is not outdated

To say goodbye is the hardest thing
With sadness my heart sings
Did she find someone new
To take my place I have no clue
The tears will fall from my eyes
Like the rain from the skies
I will never love again
My heart has been shattered
For the first and only time
This was my only love
I know she came from the lord above
I say goodbye to you my sweet
Forever my heart will never beat
My beautiful princess you made me whole
Now I am left with no soul
Now I leave you with these words
You will find me soaring with the birds
If you want to find me look to the skies
For you will be looking in my eyes

Why did I fall in love with you
Because me with a girl like you it's to good to be true
You took my heart and ran away
When I knew everything would be ok
You said I was to blame
But did you ever feel the same
If you can't see my love for you
I guess then we are really through
If in time you want this love
Just look up at the sky above
My love was strong and true
I gave all my love to you
The last words I will say
My love for you is here to stay

As the struggles grip my life
And a woman which was to be my wife
  These inner demons will not win
        It's been too long living in sin
        It's not me and it's in my head
I had to fix it fast or I would be dead
My inner demons had this grip on me
With her love as a guide it shall set me free
    All the struggles that I have had
           A part of life and not all bad
       These are lessons I must learn
The power of love and my inner strength
             My baby's heart I will earn

I have all the pictures that we have ever taken
All the memories never mistaken
For our love will live forever and the times that we had are in there too
We must make more but first we
deal
We sit down and talk and then we start to heal
We must be strong
Together we belong
It is hard for both of us
So we need to hold on to each other
There are things we must discuss
It will not end on this day
Because we love each other in every way
I love you and you love me
After we talk together we'll be
I want you in my life
Being away from you cuts like a knife

It's so hard to deal with things
I can hardly wait to see what tomorrow brings
Doesn't matter how hard I try
i hope to smile but it makes me cry
My heart is big as big as they come
I think in my head where am I from
It hurts from my head to my toes
How to get over it nobody knows
I guess I will sit and wait
I just hope it's before they open the pearly gate.

As the first snow hits the ground and our winter does start
There is an overwhelming feeling in my heart
Christmas is here and my tears I try to hold back
This time of year when my love gets on track
When your eyes glisten off the sun drenched snow
There is only one thing I want you to know
There is no woman on the planet earth
That makes my body shiver
With that perfect smile and the love you deliver
I only ask Santa for just one gift
Is your spirits that I may lift
I will get down on one knee
Give you this ring  and tell you how I love thee

Here i stand a broken man
My heart ripped and torn from my chest
My mind will not stop why can't I rest
If it was and i am sure that it is one of life's greatest test
It's a four letter word that makes you feel great
But when it goes wrong it is the worst
It does not matter if you were the last
Or maybe the first
Whatever the case I must say this
There is nothing like that very first kiss
This word that I spoke of
Comes from my heart
That has been completely ripped in two.
Why this happens I have no clue.

As I sit and stare at the summer moon
And I know and I feel that I will see you again very soon
My life is at a standstill without you
Its not just because I need you but I love you very much this is true
To feel your warm body pressed against mine once again would be a dream come true
But there are some things I must prove
My mind and body are now in groove
Listen now my sweet princess
Only together can we reach life's true process
What our God has planned for our future I do not know
But you and I as one and our love will grow

I feel lost..lost in my head......alone in my room alone in my bed
I regain my strength and eat normal again ...............then it starts all over again........ just like on that  that night when
I know how I feel my legs grow weak and my mind it starts....it starts to wonder.....I think of the love ....the love for her  I have grown fonder
I am falling ......falling to pieces....people the ones who say they care .......like my family...do I even care...they say to forget ..there are more woman than the eye can see......but they don't even know ....none like her and just not for me
I stay up nights.....I can't even sleep
You see I am older and I have been around...I am a Gemini for I should walk away smiling with not even a sound
Cupid shot his arrow and boy did it hit me.....I am still So in love with her I can't even see
So to all of you haters and my family .....I will go for it all just wait and see....I will get her back......because she is the only woman.......the only one for me.

I miss your voice I miss your touch
I am missing you very much
I miss what we did
I miss when you bid
I miss all the notes
I miss those quotes
I miss your hair in my face
I miss when we really fixed the place
I miss the things that we would discuss
And one thing I really miss is us

Her smile so bright voice so sweet
So angelic when we meet
Body petite hair that glows
Small but mighty as we all know
This woman of mine
She will be this way till the end of time
When we first met my eyes were wide
I am not sure but I think we were outside
So many years we have known
My oh my how our love has grown
She is a princess this much I know
I just think of her
And my face glows.
She is so precious more than she knows
The more I think of her my love still grows.

I must say these words
If I am to get back the one I love
First I must love the one within
Shed my sadness for just a bit
So I can gain inner strength to begin
I must look inside myself
Before I end up on the shelf
I have been talking about life and death
I will always love her till my last breath
I hope she sees into my soul
Before this stress takes its toll
My life is in my hand
I will not let this make it my last Stand

The nights are getting colder.....and when I look in the mirror my face looking older
I realize that the piece of my heart that I have lost.....it cannot be replaced ..and I must get her back ...but at what cost
The tears they still fall night after night......it's this feeling inside I must make it right
It took my whole life and it comes down to just this.....only the lord knows what I will do just for that kiss

I sit and wait as she clears her mind
I don't think it's unkind
I am standing up but fading fast
Without her love to see me through
I don't know how long I will last
I know what I did was wrong
I heard it today in a song
I am hurting just as much
I am missing her magic touch
She touched my heart
With her smile
She reached my soul all the while
She does have a heart of gold
I want to be with her until I am old
What I tell you is all true
She has the heart of a chosen few
I tell her I love you a million times
I also told her I saw the signs
I will wait till the end of time
For once again she'll be all mine