my love for you i feel it deep inside......and this is so strange because since this pandemic started i am hardly ever outside
these words i say to you are very true....its been 30 yrs or more since i met you
to hear the words to that song it just tears at my heartstrings like nothing ever before
the sun it brightens my soul............. but your love keeps me from losing control
the love i hold is....and always will be in my hand.....and together forever we will stand
before my dying day this will all be made up to you.....because you forever hold my heart and this is true.... the time has come to open my heart and let the spirits fly like they do
i am sorry but this love that i hold deep inside.......means that our love and time together shall never die.
its always true
this love i  hold  let the truth be told ......these feelings i have for you can never grow old
my love for you has always been real....no one on earth can change the feelings for you that i feel...so let the truth be told
one more thing these words must come from my lips.....these three words they must be said....and they must be spoken before i am dead
I LOVE YOU.

As I sit here after work on a Friday
Its all I can do not to think of her what can I say
This woman was...and still is my everything ....I try to but I just can't give up or forget I know that we still love each other very much
I caught myself and made a decision
This love that we have and had is worth trying to save
I have been waiting a lifetime to find a woman like her and I will be ****** if I ever let her slip away again
My love for her I can never hide
Her trust again I must gain
I know I must try to let her go
But sometimes it's not that easy as we all know
So every night as i lay here alone
I will pray to the lord guide me through
Because there is no where on earth where I would rather be than there with you

As the flowers start to fall and the sky goes grey
We will be together this I pray
And then the trees get bare .....the wind gets cold
We feel the warmth of our bodies entwined with every movement.
The smile that has graced my soul.....
Our lives once again in total control
Then the snow begins to fall and the beauty of the landscape in her eyes
With each embrace I fall just a little more......for my love for her....it never died.....it never will not even if I tried
So as the winter months come upon us ....the feeling of love and burning in our heart.....So happiness is on the rise once more ...and the sun is shining By the oceans shore....as the birds they fly overhead ....and the sound of the waves crashing down.....and to think not two months back there was no sun ....and the birds no where to be found....and no noises not even a sound...for happiness does have a sound if you listen very close

Deep inside the fire it burns
It is for her love my heart it yearns
Words and such could not douse the flames
Even when she called me those names
I know deep down these things she said
they had no meaning they came of haste
Even as the time we waste
This fire it burns out of control
The love I have it heats my soul
I know we will be together again
Hopefully it's not at the end
My love for her will never die
This flame will always burn
Tears they flow every night I cry
Our love will grow till with the Angels we will fly

I can't take it ......
I turn on the music...bang the song reminds me of her
I pick up the paper.....bang I read something that reminds me of the times we had
I turn the tv on bang.......one of our favorite shows comes on
Its just so hard I have done it before with other woman no problem
With her it's different I really really love her so much and it hurts so much
Does she feel it .....well does she ?.....I wish I knew....I am not going to make it
I am so scared that it will never end
Its playing games with my head
I have to get through to her or I will soon be dead
I know it's my mind playing tricks on me Because the feelings I have are so strong for her
I never thought in a million years
I could love someone as much as I do you and I continue to drown in a sea of tears

Its been so long since I last felt your touch........sweet baby all this stuff it is just too much
I could be with a million women.....but none of them are you.........ill try another million but I would rather be with you yes ....yes it's true
I have a heart but it never beats any more........because pretty woman it would only beat....only beat for you that's for sure
Cuz nothing.....and I mean nothing can take the place of you
So it's empty and it has no beat........that's how it feels ...now this must I repeat
I really must tell you now ....and this is not a lie........I love this woman with my heart that no longer beats.......this is my biggest ....the biggest of all my feats......I have been down but I am strong.........and I know that loving you could never be wrong

Why did I listen.....to her words from those lips.....because the love I have for her had my heart doing backflips
Why did I get lost in her eyes......because her beauty had me mesmerized
My life was a poem I forgot to write.....the road got a little bumpy so I had to hold on tight
Was this love true or was it all a lie......but if it was why did we both cry
If what I heard is true this love it will return.....and when it does I will be ready to tell her all the lessons I have learned
Both of our hearts were broken .....but now they are on the mend......if this is our destiny .....our life and love together we must not make pretend.

Her love came to me like a message in a bottle........my heart boy did it throttle
Through time and space.....when I open or close my eyes I see her face
My love for her it will never cease......until that day I rest in peace
I wish I could save time in a bottle.....because every minute I spent with her was a perfect model
To her I will never say the word goodbye.....Not even when I die......for the words will be until we meet again......the time we spent together was so precious to me......that's why I will capture it in a bottle just wait and see.

With lobster and steak......and a smile and love with these feelings that you just can't fake
Music and margaritas are making the mood....try not to have a bad attitude
With gentle touch ......and the look in her eye....this feeling in my heart just went sky high
When the night is over and we lay down to sleep......just remember my heart was always yours to keep.

This love for her that I still hold.....it would fade away that's what I was told
But this woman and the love I still have for her is forever in my heart.....and it was always there from the start
It seems to fade but always returns.......like the midnight oil the flame still burns
Every night I cry from my dreams..........I know if you listen real close you will hear my screams
I guess why is this love we had it was the first time.....being without her it is a real crime
So I will hope and pray......together again someday...dreams are real and this one will come true.......forever and a day never to be blue.

My life was in a down ward spiral in could have went viral.....but since I am been in recovery I made a discovery...there is much more to life too see  when we are straight and free
With a little help from God and friends you also can break the trend.......I want you all to know there is always somewhere to go.....to throw in the towel is not the way to go

These demons that I fight
I erase them every night
I don't know why she thinks I am so bad
It makes me so sad
I will prove all my worth
Because my love for her is so strong going fourth
The things you say about me hurt me deep inside
And these feelings I have for you I just can't hide
The words I say I will prove are true
Over and over again I say I love you
The days we had together I will never try to hide
I will prove once and for all it was never just a joyride
I did have problems deep inside
My love for you is real and true
I will never forgive myself for what I put you through
But I will tell you here and now
To make up for all this I will do
And we will be together again before I am through
My love for you is stronger than the demons inside
Just so you know my time I will bide
I will be back for you when I am done
So please baby don't you turn and run

My love for you goes far beyond words..before you I never felt nowhere near the way I feel in my heart at this time.......there is no doubt about it you are still my whole world and I will not give up till again you are mine
For in my life there is but only you.....for yours is the only love that was ever true
For I only have one life to live.....and I only have one real love to give
The only reason i still hold on is because the only place that felt like home was by your side......I always promised you I would follow you.....this is something I would always do.....forever I shall because my love is true

For I said my last goodbye
I didn't want to but I had to try
She will always be a part of me
In my heart she will always be
To let her go was the hardest part
So the sun will rise and bring a brand new start
As I live day to day and pretend to be strong
For loving her was never wrong
I did some things that will not be told
For this I will not  be with her and grow old
I just wish for a new start
There is a emptiness in my heart
I don't see it ever going away
I want her to look deep into her soul
And tell me that loving me was wrong
I will never change a thing.....except maybe the part of letting her go...........

Without these eyes I could not see .....without this tongue I could not speak......for years and years for what wisdom did I seek
Without my hands I could not touch her skin........and without my mind I could feel her within.......
Without her I think of so many things....without my senses to be without her I could not feel how my heart it stings
For there was a lesson and I learned it well.....it was because her love had me trapped in a cell....and I could not believe how hard I fell.......and in time there will be a lot more of the story to tell.....

As I say goodbye to my love
I kneel and pray to lord above
May she find peace and happiness
While I fight through my sadness
Everything we did together had a story
The greatest love story in all its glory
Something happened along the way
It was a word that was never spoken
I am sure the sun will shine again
But I will tell you this it will never shine as brite without her and it will never Take away the pain
My sweet princess may the light shine on you always and forever and in my dreams we will always be together.

It is something that is deep within......I want to tell you but where do I begin
For when I was young I fell in love.... but at that time I didn't know she was sent from the lord above....she and I we both moved on...years went by about thirty three......who would have known it would be
We met each other once again and love was found........there was beautiful music what a wonderful sound
We laughed and we sang and danced.....night after night we romances......all of a sudden the music failed to play.........then in a single moment she went away
Now every night the tears fall like rain
I don't have a clue if she knows I am in so much pain
In a short time the music it will return....because of the lesson I did learn

All of this time love just out of reach....how did I know it was a lesson to teach
My mind was slipping for just a bit......but it grew stronger because of it
This thing they call love it is a mysterious thing......when you feel it I can swear you hear the birds sing
......the music you hear .....that feeling in your heart.......WhEn you lose it all that is the hardest part
As you drift off into another place.......that is when you feel lost in space

The words to that song it pulls on my heartstrings.........the lyrics and the beat and I love the joy it brings
It plays over in my head the perfect words and sweetest melodies......just one word and I will be yours to please
Just choose wisely my princess.....this was made just us and it's with our love that's why it's a big success
So when you hear it play look to the stars and I will be there......our love makes the world spin and with it you will never have to fear.

I lost it when she stole my soul......
The love have for her I could not control
We are connected in so many ways.....and will be together when the timing is right in the coming days
Our two souls are as one .......and one was stolen and will be undone
So when you see a shooting star...passing through a full moon......it has a meaning that we will be together soon.

I am sitting here at a loss for something to say.........but I am a Gemini and I never shut up.....but it's happening today
I have these thoughts deep in my head....If I keep stressing out .....I could be dead
But I love this woman just so much.......she has been upset with me for quite awhile......and it's been sometime since I've seen her smile
So if I somehow don't get her back......I swear I couldn't take it and have a heart attack
I know she loves me as I do her......but if it happens and things occur
I know in my heart I could never say goodbye.......I love her so much I wouldn't even try
The tears they will flow and fill the ocean......so maybe I will switch her tea for some love potion
If it turns out that I must let her go
If she says goodbye I will say no.....because I am always going to be here for her and that's one word I will never say
You see that word means forever .......and I will not say it just because we are not together
For this might be my last chance........to turn things around and get that dance
If I shall fail and I get rejected
She and I will always stay connected
So one way or another you can say I will never let her go
We are always going to be close just so you know
This love in my heart that I hold for her so deep.....if she cuts me off completely I would never sleep
So baby hear my voice ......if I end up letting you go.......keeping in touch is my only choice.
So my sweet princess open your eyes and see that I am real...........you are the love of my life and that's how I feel
You are in my dreams even when I am awake.........if we lose touch forever it would be too much to take
To let her go I could not do.......it would **** me inside you have no clue
So late at night look to that falling star....it's just me watching over you from afar

peanut butter was our thing ........it was certain candy that made us dance and sing
we laughed and joked till the morning light.........this feeling inside everything just seemed so right.........soon again i will be holding her tight

I remember the days when the rainbow dawned the blue skies.......Now they are always grey and all I can hear are the sound of my faded cries
My nights are filled with silence......while the days and the streets are filled with violence
How I wish that rainbow would grace the sky again.........I know how much better I would feel then

See the light and the darkness don't know which road to take.....right now I am blind but the love in my heart was never fake
When my sight returned she was no where to be found.....in order to stay on the path I am on.... I must have her back in my arms before I go in the ground.

There will be no more running away
If and when I come home I will be there to stay......if the rain continues to fall.....we will work on it so our love does not stall
So that when cold and the snow comes we will be content and begin to grow...more in love than we already are...the road we both must travel.....my mind is clear and my heart is ready.......so my love and I are keeping it steady......now When the rain finally stops....so when the stars are shining bright in the sky......we are in love and there is no better reason why...so baby with that sparkle in your eyes from this day forward there will be nothing but clear skies