Jaxton Tyler Redmond: Favorites

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

on the bridge with a bottle of wine

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

The Girl

on the bridge with a bottle of wine

You don't see the world
The way I do
You see stars
I see constellations.

Love

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

the girl you deserve

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

Gillan Frances

the girl you deserve

When loving someone, we sometimes get lost
I went from someone you wanted
To someone you resented
Because love has the power to change us

And now I realize that I miss my old self
The one you loved before becoming this empty shell
And now I realize I must become that self again
Change for the better so that I will keep sane

And now I realize that you miss that old self too
But you still love me like I love you
And that has made all the difference
That you kept holding my hand while I fixed myself
And become once again the girl you deserve

#love #relationships #self-esteem

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

Her

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

Chalsey Wilder

Her

"She kisses me like she's trying to **** the life out of me. Who'd have thought those are the moments I feel most free."

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

I want this

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

Emily

I want this

I'm trying to compensate
For the void in my mind
With other people
With other pastimes

Nothing is very satisfying
Especially after I've crossed the line
Now I really wish
That I could just rewind

I wouldn't take advantage
Of the moments we shared
The long nights together
When our eyes would stare

Into each other
I could see your soul
Now I am empty
With nowhere to go

I wish I hadn't given up
I wish I gave us a better chance
Everything seems ruined now
Slim odds of romance

I don't think we can come back
Not from this damage
It's all my fault, I've done it to us
It was too hard to manage

I'm sorry for how I've treated you
Nothing can take back the things I've said
I'm sorry for how I gave up on you
Nothing can take back the things I did

Despite my tragic flaws
You still treat me as if I'm the best
You love me unconditionally
Every day I am blessed

What did I ever do to deserve you
I ask myself why I don't try harder
Why I'm not on my knees begging
Why didn't I act smarter

All these questions
Swimming in my head
I know I want this to last
To clean up all I've bled

#fear #relationships #break #separation #girlfriend #confusion #ups

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

Wait, don't go

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

Keah Jones

Wait, don't go

Don't touch me
Wait, don't go
My mind has called the rebels and
I'm scared to be alone

Hold me
Quiet though
Wrapped in your shelter I feel like I'm home

#home

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

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Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

L

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Love is turning the lights on then off again.
Love is polishing the knives and forks and spoons.
Love is wishing you were there, not here.
Love is pushing doors open and gently closing them.
Love is friendship set to music.
Love is youthful springtime.
Love is ripped stockings and black lace.
Love is blue highlighter on your cheek.
Love is old comic books collecting dust.
Love is silent exhales.
Love is, love is, love is...

For lovers, friends, and lost friends

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Leigh

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

he writes boy on his leg

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

Skypath

he writes boy on his leg

He writes boy on his leg
Etching the letters the world won't understand
Wishing the felt tip pen could
Break the gravestones on his chest
And fill the valley between his legs

He writes boy on his leg
It's a word kept secret in fear
He's a mustang learning his legs
And the world is a pack of vicious wolves
They don't know what to call him
Only he does

He writes boy on his leg
Takes a picture and sends it to the one he knows understands
The flash against his pale skin stark and bright
Like sleepy eyes against fresh snow

He writes boy on his skin
Because he can't write it anywhere else

#sad #trans #transgender #ftm

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

I Am Who I Am

Nov 2015 Jaxton Tyler Redmond

Adriean New

I Am Who I Am

For years of feeling trapped.
For years in hiding.
For years of making everyone else happy.
I quit.

I'm breaking open.
I'm busting my shell to pieces.
I'm tearing the walls down for good.
For me.

I cut my hair.
I dressed how I wanted.
I am who I am.
For me.

But I'm still trapped.
But I'm still in hiding.
But I'm still not me.
I'm lost.

With these breast.
With this voice.
With this body.
I'm not me.

My *** won't define me.
My looks won't save me.
My voice will hurt me.
I need to change.

I'm forgetting society's idea of "normal."
I'm not a 'princess,' I'm a 'prince.'
I'm going to be happy.

Trans.

No more pain.
No more hiding.
No more being scared.

I'm human too. I belong too. I deserve to be happy,
just like everyone else

#pain #trans #transgender #lbgt #ftm