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Feb 2016 · 128
right now
Torin Feb 2016
I doesn't matter
If you go away
And I never see you again
All that matters
Is that I'm here for you
Right now

When you need me
Today
Let tomorrow bring
What it may
Feb 2016 · 269
When
Torin Feb 2016
When its wonderful
When its wicked
When the wild runs stark and naked
Through the attics of my empty mind
I live in a basement
I live on a hillside
I live in a broken down car
With an exquisite view of the stars

When the wonder    
When the worry
When the way is cluttered with debris
The train wreck pasts becoming me
I live in a jungle
I live in a cage
I live in an abandoned mine
Where the meadow meets the timberline

When the world
Is too much to take
I learn to really see
I learn to really be
I live
I accidentally deleted it, I liked it, so I rewrote as best as I could
Feb 2016 · 277
Best Things In Life
Torin Feb 2016
I love you
       And so
I wanted you
To have the best things
In life

And one of those best things
Is me
Feb 2016 · 146
Who I Am
Torin Feb 2016
The saddest thing is
I don't expect you
                   To ever really understand
Feb 2016 · 168
Cold [12W]
Torin Feb 2016
Its cold outside
I'm cold inside
Its something life
Does to you
Feb 2016 · 466
Suffer Begin (v2)
Torin Feb 2016
Voice in the sky
God forgive me
Stars in the sky
God forgive me

Calling my name
For the times when I was wrong
Guide my way home
Hands from the sky rip me open

Choices I've made
God have mercy
A place I belong
God have mercy

Prices I've paid
For the times I have sinned
I've been lost for far too long
Suffer begin

Hands from the sky
Stars in my eyes
Rip me open
Scars on my skin
Suffer begin
Suffer begin
Unfriendly end
Heaven let me in
Much thanks to The Ripper 1623

http://hellopoetry.com/poem/1561247/suffer-begin/

A good idea is
A good idea
Feb 2016 · 616
she speaks to me
Torin Feb 2016
She speaks to me
In a language of sadness
All her songs
Enchanting and beautiful
As ancient as emotions
I'm at peace that I can hear
I'm in turmoil
That I may never understand

She speaks to me
As a broken river
As the roots of a tree
As a waning moon
That once it sets
Won't rise again
Her words seem to say
The night will always be dark

She speaks to me
Through a veil
From a deserted carriage
Watching her horses run away
As powerful as connections
That last forever
As painful as watching
Something break

She speaks to me
In a language of sorrow
As a lonesome stranger
In a foreign land
When if I could find the words
Or I could find the way
I could ease the pain
She would speak of love again
Torin Feb 2016
How can someone be fake
At least in my own mind
Being anything less than real
Is impossible

Knowing this much about myself
Makes it impossible to forgive someone else
For pretending
For being a phony
Feb 2016 · 228
World Problems
Torin Feb 2016
This thing goes way deeper
This thinking it is merely coincidence
It never is
Everything happens for a reason

Its all been planned
Were jumping out of the frying pan
Into the fire
Our great escape thwarted by circumstance

So buy a new TV
Buy a new car
Buy a new cell phone, apple or android
Sell your soul
And forget about the problems in the world

And any time and every time
In systems and schemes
Meant as diversion
To keep the everyman blind

Its all been planned
Since the very beginning
Feb 2016 · 208
half truths
Torin Feb 2016
I may say half truths
But never complete lies
Feb 2016 · 196
River
Torin Feb 2016
Starlight bouncing of a river
A celestial stage
In a lovers auditorium
We see the reflection as a symbol
As a part of something bigger
We see the reflection as ourselves

And its love
Its a honeymoon
Its a fleeting feeling of forever
Its an illusion

But on the horizon
Storms are raging
Wind is blowing
In our direction
And we know before too long

Thunder and lightning

Lightning bouncing off a river
The cynic in me
Is unbound and free
Its not enough light to guide me home
And that river is perilous
And im tired of swimming

And its sink or swim
I can swim no more
Let me reach the shore
Before I drown

I turn around
And you aren't there
But I don't care
Maybe your on a different shore
Maybe your on the ocean floor

This river chewed you up and spit you out
Feb 2016 · 437
suffer begin
Torin Feb 2016
Voice in the sky
Calling my name
Choices I've made
Prices I've paid
Hands from the sky
Rip me open
Suffer begin
Unfriendly end

God forgive me
For the times when I was wrong
God have mercy
For the times when I have sinned

Stars in the sky
Guide my way home
A place to belong
I've been lost for far too long
Stars in my eyes
Scars on my skin
Suffer begin
Heaven let me in

God forgive me
Hands from the sky rip me open
God have mercy
Suffer begin
Feb 2016 · 367
suicide by cop
Torin Feb 2016
This is when it gets scary
My darker thoughts
I know what I want to be
Joy and peace
And peace and love
And love
And love
Love

But the world fights against me
My minds starts to slipping
Into a realm
Of fire and pain
And pain and loss
And loss
Of light
And hope

My dark thoughts
That I'm afraid to even admit to myself
For fear that admittance
Is acceptance

And I couldn't **** myself
But there is always suicide by cop
Just a random thought I had, seemed poetic, but maniacally dark.  I'm sure I'll write some love poems later tonight
Feb 2016 · 181
wisdom[8W]
Torin Feb 2016
Wise people
Are rarely thanked for their wisdom
Feb 2016 · 214
when it's all too much
Torin Feb 2016
When its all too much
My fingers strain with purpose
Just holding on
My next step and another
My shoe-laces break
Just moving on

When its so much to take
My mind is a race track
Cars crashing into walls
My head ache
Banging into walls
Just trying to push through

And how can I remain
When its all too much?
How can I stay sane
In this madness?
Feb 2016 · 198
Dumb
Torin Feb 2016
I like her
no I don't
Well
I like how she's so young
She confuses *** with love
how she's so young
That she is dumb


I may not really like her
But at least
I like parts of her
and that should be enough

It really is

*At least for now
Cynical take on girls, NOT WOMEN, girls. Warning to young girls, this is the secret way guys REALLY feel.
Torin Feb 2016
I'll never give up
On something I love
But I'm divided
Undecided
Perplexed
Just plain confused

I feel I should give up on humanity

I don't know that I can
Feb 2016 · 186
unacceptable
Torin Feb 2016
Seven billion people
And fewer poets
If you ask me why
My reply

Poetry makes a man think
And we simply can't have that
Feb 2016 · 221
Im afraid
Torin Feb 2016
I'm afraid
I know its not a manly thing to admit
Strong people shouldn't feel fear
And I am strong
I believe I am

Like all my memories as a child
I saw things others couldn't
I was so strong then
I bled until there was no blood left
And I am still live

And this curse I can't lift
This want that I can't purge
This ghost that follows me
This failure, this disease
This pain I can't forget

I'm afraid
That this oyster has no pearls
And I can fight against the tide
To look some more
And never find

Like all my memories of you
Feb 2016 · 173
this may send me to hell
Feb 2016 · 169
believe in love
Torin Feb 2016
I try not to believe
In love

But trying to not believe in something
Is pretty **** foolish

Belief is guided by more than reason
And there's more than a reason

I try not to believe in love
But I can't
Feb 2016 · 648
im not upset with you
Torin Feb 2016
These are the feelings
A whirlpool
In the ocean
Where I can only drown
The feeling that I've been wrong
I'm not upset with you
I'm angry with myself
That I could project such expectations

Because without wings
You came flying
But really I was so far beneath the surface
I saw you above me

When in reality

One man knows about god
And emulates
Another knows nothing
And it becomes apparent

And so you let me down
I never should have looked to you to lift me up
Feb 2016 · 188
good [12W]
Torin Feb 2016
Either I wasn't good enough
Or I was too good to believe
Feb 2016 · 384
revolution
Torin Feb 2016
I breed radical change
In this world
No burden to great
No pain too debilitating
No fear of the death I know is waiting for me
I bring the people together
Under a banner
I fly my flag high
With enemies nearby
Stealthy trained assassins

I breed radical change
In this world
A change we are waiting on
It's all my thoughts
It's just the way I think
Unique, yet similar so you can relate
And we are different
But we're the same
Let me show you what I mean
Let me help you believe

I breed radical change in the world
I bring the change that's needed
Feb 2016 · 261
Hello, I Am A Poet
Torin Feb 2016
We all have ideas
Ideals
Things we want to say
And wish we could

Now a thousand tons are weighing down
I starve
I have and I hold
Having only to lose
Trapped in something
I cannot understand
I cannot escape
I'll never master

We all have feelings
Joy and pain
Things we want to explain
And wish we could

I'm throwing darts in a darkened room
In every direction
And becoming angry
When I don't get a bulls-eye
I'm wishing on stars
And numbers
And gods
I'm throwing coins in a well

We all have dreams
We work to make true
Things we want to see
We want to be

I want to be heard
Nothing more
Hello,
I am a poet
Feb 2016 · 193
Bottle
Torin Feb 2016
Holding you
Kissing you
Whenever I think about it now
It only makes me want to
Hold the bottle a little bit tighter
And kiss it a little bit longer
Feb 2016 · 444
Rags
Torin Feb 2016
The finest clothes turn into rags
And she's cautious all day long
Any leak in the boat
Can be plugged with her tattered silk
Peril sneaking in
Be alert and prepare for crisis

Beautiful clothes becoming worn out
Beautiful clothes becoming rags
She is on guard all the day
-- she is in doubt about something.
symbolizing Water and Peril
--she will be cautious and prepare for evil

This silken gown is tattered and torn
The girl is wearing rags
There is a hole in the boat
The water seeping in
Peril sneaking in
What was thought to be secure

The semblance of brilliant attire
The lowliness of ripped apart rags
She is on guard all the day
-- she is in doubt about something.
symbolizing Water and Peril
--she will be cautious and prepare for evil
About when you suspect a relationship isn't what you thought it was
Feb 2016 · 186
complicated
Torin Feb 2016
Simply said
I'm sorry I'm so complicated
Too complicated
Too much for you

And maybe you couldn't understand my love
But I did love you

At least I tried to
Feb 2016 · 792
I Was A Child
Torin Feb 2016
I was a child
I was a raving maniac
A raging lunatic
A prophet
Who saw god in all the symbols
And the symbols in everything
I made connections to the plants and the soil
The moon and the stars
To the times I read your mind
Knew the deeper meaning
Or just what was implied

I was a child
A selfless lover
A bitter fool
A dreamer
Who looked forward to every new day
I didn't know
I couldn't grow wings and learn to fly
I knew I could
My heart was pure
My love was innocent

My world was a vibrant dream
Full of wonder and opportunity
And color
And love
I didn't want to believe in pain
I couldn't
I was a child
Feb 2016 · 894
celebration
Torin Feb 2016
And then the night sky was alive
I imagined the fourth of July
Fireworks
And forest fires
And unidentified flying objects

Sky alive
I'm alive
And I celebrate
Because a fire I started
Burns out of control
Jumping from page to page
From soul to soul

And then my mind was alive
Running to and fro
Finding friends
And starting trends
While honoring old ones

I celebrate
Because the dam I blew up
Was enough to innundate
This stupid city

And if most are drowning
Im still pretty sure
There are some strong swimmers
Yet left amongst the survivors
Who aren't merely treading water

Sky alive
I'm alive
It's a celebration
City's drowning
So am I
A happy devastation
Feb 2016 · 285
500
Torin Feb 2016
500
That feeling when you write 500 poems
In three months time

I think

Am I just writing because I want to be heard
Or do I really have something to say

Or both

Its probably both
Still doesn't mean I don't have something to say

Something that matters

Something to make you feel a certain way
Something that makes a sad man see he'll be okay

Something

That can mean anything
To anyone at all
Not as much a poem as an observation, I have only been on HP for a little over 3 months, but have posted over 500 new originals. I always have so many thoughts in my mind, but even that surprised me.
Feb 2016 · 255
better man [12W]
Torin Feb 2016
To change the person you are
Change the things that you do
Simple enough
Feb 2016 · 197
just a thought
Torin Feb 2016
Its just a thought
Manifesting
I know it will go wrong
I know I will fail
I know
I know I'll make it happen
Unwillingly

It's just a thought
But hasn't everything we know
Everything we see
Everything we feel
Everything
Started out that way
As just a thought

Or maybe this time
Just a dream

Because what I want
What I fantasize about
What I want
What I need
Is only love
Love and understanding
Happiness

Its just a thought
Feb 2016 · 274
What Matters
Torin Feb 2016
No one else matters
No one else could give a ****
So why should I?
Nothing else matters
Not sun spots
Or dipn dots
The ice cream of the future
No one else matters
Silver platters
Silver spoons and spoiled brats
Nothing else matters
Except the way you feel
And what you know to be real
Torin Feb 2016
I actually had to look up have to spell it

I spelled it right

But when I read it back
It seemed wrong

Maybe some kind of symbolism involved?
An example of how much money matters to me
Feb 2016 · 211
LOVE
Torin Feb 2016
Money
Power
Pleasure
Joy
Money, money, money, money
Fame
Success
Beauty
Bliss
Money, money, money, money

Love is the greatest of them all
And I would sacrifice everything
(Money, money, money, money)
For love alone
If that makes me crazy
Then I guess I'm crazy
Feb 2016 · 413
wham!
Torin Feb 2016
When George Michael sang
"Wake me up before you go-go"
I can't help but wonder
If he was referring to spiritually
In Buddhism called bodhi


Probably not though
Feb 2016 · 787
Just To Feel Better
Torin Feb 2016
Ruts in the road
And raging river rapids
And the mountain
So many, so much
Too great a love
Too much the doubt
Too big the obstacles
That I battle with the sky
Because of the clouds

Just to feel better
I let it all go
Only to find
I'm still holding on

Just to feel better I'm still holding on

The past is many days
Now the story is told
And lessons learned
So many, so much
Too great a power
Too bright a truth
Too much is in me
That I learn how to die
To cancel my scars

Just to feel better
I let it all go
Only to find
I'm still holding

Just to feel better I'm still holding on
A song, I feel its one of the better ones I've written recently
Feb 2016 · 861
Where Is God?
Torin Feb 2016
When people are searching for god
The very often look to the skies
They very seldom look inside their minds
Feb 2016 · 159
run
Torin Feb 2016
run
I've run the good race
My faith is running low
Running out of time
Also-ran but then forgotten

I guess I have nothing left to say
So I'll repeat what I've said before
So you can hear me anyways
I've run out of things to believe in
Feb 2016 · 314
Nothing Bad Happens
Torin Feb 2016
Take me down a peg
Or two
Kick me in the teeth
Knock me off a pedastle
Take my broken heart
You promised you would fix
And throw it on the floor
Breaking it some more

As I walk through a field
I see a flower on the hill
I admire its beauty
I forget it comes from a seed

Nothing bad happens
Its only illusory
If I keep a cherry blossom in my heart
The singing bird will come

Tell me what you will to make me feel
Unhappy
Subjagate me
Denigrate me
Make me believe in something
Just to take it away
And in my loss
Castigate me

Nothing bad happens
Unhappiness is a vital sign
That authenticity is growing inside
Discontentment is merely the hunger pang for change
Feb 2016 · 329
Long Day
Torin Feb 2016
It was a long day
In a short life
And I forgot to remember
That I should be glad
At least I remembered to forget
That I should be sad
It was a long day
In a short life
Warm up
Feb 2016 · 261
being right
Torin Feb 2016
How did I break you?
Something I predicted
Something I always knew
Something that I feared

It doesn't feel good to be right

It doesn't
It feels like I wasn't strong enough
To push the river
And change its course
How did I break you?
Only in the way I knew I would

It doesn't feel good to be right
Feb 2016 · 186
i want to be
Torin Feb 2016
It doesn't matter the things you've done
to me
You're still everything I want to be

It doesn't matter the things you've done

To me
Your everything I want to be
Feb 2016 · 179
The Answer
Torin Feb 2016
Outside of myself
But in my own mind
I can reach other galaxies
Cosmic libraries
Card cataloged

And its a color
That doesn't exist
Unless we want it to

Its a book
Without words
Containing all the answers
You'll only find
If you look for

It's a drug of our own design
To captivate the mind
And enhance the spirit

Meditate on the thought
Because the answer is there somewhere
Feb 2016 · 213
you and me(our history)
Torin Feb 2016
Beautiful
Flowing
Elegant
Peaceful
Tranquil
Loving
Changing
Tepid­
Stagnant
Habitual
Apathetic
Indifferent
Changing
Turbulent
Unsta­ble
Tumultuous
Tempestuous
Chaotic
Changing
Raging
Angry
Hateful
Hurtful
Painful
Feb 2016 · 142
IT
Torin Feb 2016
IT
Why is it so?
We always figure it out
When it doesn't matter any more
Feb 2016 · 239
I Drown
Torin Feb 2016
I died
I died inside
From the times when I was wrong
And you
Cannot
Forgive me
You shouldn't
I can not forgive myself

And the river
Meets the ocean
This is where I drown
Heavy
With the thought
I let you down

I died
I died
In the worse way
Drowning under the weight of my love
Feb 2016 · 202
Going To The Mountains
Torin Feb 2016
The road is breathing
I can feel the swell of a chest
As the cars make their way
Pavement and headlights
Were going to the mountains

Yes me
Who is nobody
And you
nobody as well
Going to the mountains

The songs we are singing
Become songs for the journey
And nobody is singing
Me and you
Going to the mountains

Yes me
Who has nothing
And you
With nothing too
Going to the mountains
Feb 2016 · 413
Malachi
Torin Feb 2016
Those unfaithful
Those desert jackals
The wicked and the sinful

I have loved you
I have loved you

Now we call the arrogant blessed
Certainly evil doers prosper
Even when they put god to the test
They get away with it

Those have defiled
Those who desecrate
The evil and the profane

I have loved you
I have loved you

Now we call the arrogant blessed
Certainly evil doers prosper
Even when they put god to the test
They get away with it
They get away with it

Heed my words Judah
Change your ways Ely
Find your homes you son's of Dan

I have loved you
I have loved you
I have loved you
I have loved you

Malachi show us the way
Sacred words to show us wisdom
That we may abandon our idols
And find the glory
Biblical
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