We live in cycles
Led by psychos
We suffer silently

I picture something broken
With something beautiful growing out of it
I don't know what's to come
Or what's to be
Or how to take it
But I know that I'll accept it
If its fated I expect that
No matter what it is
Its a part of who I'll be
I try to keep my strength
And my faith that I can make it
And even if I lose
Not lose the better part of me
I picture something broken
With something beautiful growing out of it

Forget the fame
Forget the stage
Forget the girls
Forget the money
I want people to hear my music
As an expression from my soul
A beautiful way to explain
My attempt to understand
And be understood
I want people to hear my music

And remember

How can you explain abstract concepts
To someone who hasn't yet grasped the basics?

I guess you can't
But that doesn't mean that I'll stop trying

I saw an eruption
It was cataclysmic
Bringing violent destruction
I saw an eruption
Come from my own mouth
And the words are ash on the victim

So what can I do to make this right?
What can I do?
When the lava still is flowing

I saw a nuclear bomb
Falling from the sky
Falling from my own self
And it feels the fallout is never ending

So what can I do to make this right?
What can I do?
Within this radiation

And where do I go from here?

From forest destruction
To cheating and arson
And willful injury of persons

I have to know
I have to show you
The past is the past
And I ****** up
But we still have a future
We still have a heartbeat
We still have a chance
To get it right

So where do we go from here?

It's in every choice we make

Its not a sword I want to hold
I'm caught between a sword and a mirror
Its not a part I want to play
I never asked to be the hero
If its a question when she looks at me
But answers they don't come for cheap
I can't seem to buy my way
I can't seem to find a way

Its all I ever want

I'll hold you in my arms
I'll whisper in your ear
I've waited all this life
Guinevere

Its not a war I want to wage
Me against the king
Life's blood for your love
Its not a part I want to play
I didn't ask to be the villain
I never want to be the villain
If its a question of faith
You know that I believe like angels sing to me

Heavenly decree

I would spend my life
In service to the queen
How much I love you
Guinevere

I'll hold you in my arms
I'll whisper in your ear
I've waited all this life
Guinevere

I would spend my life
In service to the queen
How much I love you
Guinevere

How much I love you
Guinivere

Now its valentines day
About a month ago I wouldn't have cared
But things change
And I suppose I do love her
So now I have to spend money I don't have
On a pointless hallmark holiday

I guess I'm just unlucky

I wonder how much would change
If we would take a moment to think?
To see from the other side
Not be led by selfish greed
I wonder
As a banquet is being served
To high faluting aristocrats
If they ever once considered
How I am starving?

I wonder

Am I in control
Of my thoughts and feelings?
Or are they controlling me?
Am I afraid to say
When my emotions stand in the way
Of what I want to be?

How do I change
So that I can be the same?
Be a polestar in the night
And always give you your direction

And the army enters
The empty city
With a wagon full of corpses
It was a war I could have won
I had the numbers
But the leadership was faulty

How can I change
So that I can be strong?
Be a polestar in the night
And show you the way home

Control my thoughts and feelings
Or the army suffers defeat

Step by step
This path goes up and down
Up and up ever higher
It leads to the tops of mountains
Sight by sight
I witness natures miracles
Dirt and leaves and flower pettles
Undergrowths of fern
  
Its not the destination
Its the journey
That leads me here again
I always find god in the mountains

Step by step
Its just a memory
It's been too long
The way the sun breaks through the clouds
And all the colors
A kaleidascope valley
The beauty of it all
I always find god in the mountains

Its the journey
Its not knowing what the next step brings
But always hoping
It leads me to myself

I always find god in the mountains

They're jumping
Off the Golden Gate Bridge
And in my mind
So am I

All I really want to feel is love
When its love that makes me hurt so much
All I really want to feel is peace
I reach for something I can never hold
I remember I told you
That my soul was a little uneasy
Just give me something I can believe
Come now baby, that is all I need

All I really have to give is nothing
Not something that your really wanting
All I really ever felt was empty
While I am dreaming of a fountain of plenty
I remember you told me
That you've given up on understanding
Don't understand, just believe
Come now, baby you are all I need

And the skies
The skies won't be empty
We can stare together
We can share the stars we see
Our lives
Our lives unfolding
Flowing like the rivers
We drink the water together

All I really want to be is perfect
My imperfections that's killing me
All I really want to feel is love
Can I ever be good enough?
I remember I told you
I'd do anything at all
Give me a chance so I can believe
Come now baby, that is all I need

All my focus elsewhere
Not in the present
Here and now
Energy cut off from the roots
And the follow through
Is there any other option

Tear itself apart from the inside
Or fall from its own weight

I'm burning my bridges
Both behind me

And in front of me

Is my heart so bitter?
Her skin
The salt of which I can still taste
In the lonely times
When I think about her
Is my heart broken?
I don't think so
Just going through some pain
A fall from all the joy
We had together

I will love again
This much I know
Again and still
I'm not quite over you

And I really wanted
That together
We would grow old
But instead
Seperation
Helps me to know

True love
Is that of one
Who keeps loving
After he's been hurt

And we could have grown old
And died together
But I never would have known

How much I really love you

And she told me
"You see
That's your problem
Your always trying to understand,"
So I replied
"Right now
I'm only trying to understand
Why even if I can't understand
I'll still want to be there for you."
And I think from the look in her eyes
The silence of her reply
She was trying to understand
Why I love her so much

Maybe this is not forever
But that doesn't mean it isn't love
Some things just aren't meant to last
But I promise one thing will
And that's the way that I feel
I'll keep on loving you
Even after your gone

Used to be a dream
Streets paved of gold
The fire of liberty
Land of opportunity
Used to be a dream
But scheme on scheme
Of madmen's design
Sticking to a party line

I watched that fire
As a child I watched that fire dying
Smouldering embers and ashes
From sea to shining sea

Used to be a dream
But changing constitutions
Loopholes for the wealthy
Wage slaves and poverty
Used to be a dream
When an eagle flying
Symbolized what could be good
In the world

I watched that eagle
As I child I watched that eagle starving
From amber waves of grain
To purple mountains majesty

Used to be a dream
But we were all asleep
And when we woke up
We found america

Divided and failing

How can I get back to earth
Only by falling
One minute gazing infinity
And then the next
I didn't reach to the skies
To touch the stars
I was only reaching
To place new ones
New worlds for you to see
Until you believe in me

Only by falling
That when I hit the ground
It craters around me
And I can't get out
I didn't reach for your hand
Because you would help me
I was only reaching
So that I could touch you
Because you're something I could feel
Something I knew was real

Carbon pollution
Greenhouse gases
The earth may be growing warmer
But the people are growing colder

It's a beautiful thing
When the idiot turns out to have been right all along
It's a miserable thing
An unbearable thing
When the fool was the only one who had any wisdom
It's a marvelous thing
When the loser is going to win in the end
It's a horrible thing
A terrible thing
When we find out what it is
But its too late to change the way it was

So this madman
Resorts to running though the night
With nothing in his hands
And no place to call home
And all he has
Is the thought

It's a beautiful thing

When I wake up
I want a smile on my face
I want to feel the way I should
I want to smile at the day
I used to smile all the time
When I woke up next to you
I don't smile anymore
Nothing left worth smiling for

When you wake up
You'll have a smile on your face
The smile that I see
Was the smile when you left
You used to smile all the time
Loved the way I made you smile
I don't smile anymore
You aren't smiling for me

I'll always miss you
Moving on
I'll always miss you moving on
I always wish you
Hadn't gone
I'll always let go
Holding on
I'll always

I'll always miss you, moving on

Pride doesn't matter
Ego
Fear of failure
Pain
If you love something
There is only one thing you can do

Keep on loving

Sort of like the days last cigarette
Its not something I need
I know it's killing me
But I'll enjoy it until its gone

If you love something
You'll love something
Until the very end
When the end is not in sight

And even the stones
That create a walkway to the garden
The stepping stones
Are left unturned
And even the strings
On my favourite guitar
The one I always play
Are left untuned
And even the words
I knew that I should say
The one's I needed when my feelings stood in the way
Are left unsaid

Still

I only know
The things you said to me
And the way you acted
And if you have forgotten
Than I suppose I know your truth
Even better than you do

Well brace yourself
Because the truth I'm about to say
Will make you feel upset
And be angry with me

But your truth is
You know what is right
And your to afraid to admit it
Because that would mean you've been wrong
The truth is
You're making big mistakes
And your only going to see
When its too late

She was a rose
Beautiful
Delicate but not without thorns
I am a feather
As an ornament
Falling ever so slowly from the heavens

And our love was porcelain
And the world a wrecking ball

Just because I've decided  
I should wake up in a mansion
With loyal servants
And a successful career
Doesn't mean that tomorrow
I will wake up in a mansion
With twenty rooms
And a swimming pool

It only means that today
I will do everything I can to make it happen

I seem happy
I've got a new joke to make
A new girl to love
A new day to make my way
I seem happy
Which is good
I wouldn't want anyone to know
What I am really going through
I seem happy


Semblance-the outward appearance or apparent form of something, especially when the reality is different.

Each night has grown colder
The bitter winter wind with no symbolence of summer
My body grown numb
Anxious and tired with the torn up pages
From a novel about a ghost and a wishing well
I wish you well
But this night is forever
The indeterminant darkness and my somnolence persisting
My mind, my weariness
Hopeless with the frozen color of loss
And the feeling of losses despair
What is lost beyond repair

If you love something
Let it go
If it comes back to you
You'll know
I loved you
And so I had to
I let you go
Knowing you were never coming back

I feed off of the blood
And now as a living dead
I can look in the mirror
But I can't see myself anymore
I howl at the moon
I roam through the night
With a knife in my chest
And the thought of a last goodbye

Haughty with the feeling of youth
Obstinate and uncouth
Succumbing to desire
A girl set on fire
Her body was a temple
Mistreated and abused
Impenitent and unashamed
I once knew a girl

And I only wanted better
I only want the best
I only want to show her
I only want too much

Supercilious with discovery
Lustful concupiscence
Yes she wants my love
A girl I set on fire
But love is more than touch
I only want too much
She couldn't understand
A girl that I once knew

I only wanted better
She thinks that she knows best
But striving for desire
Never lead to happiness

I knew a girl
I don't know her anymore
I knew a girl
But she never knew me

Isn't it true
That when love comes from the deepest, truest part of ourselves,
When we embrace it wholeheartedly
We give ourselves to it completely,
It can never be anything other than a blessing?
It is the pearl of great price,
Worth everything we have to give.

The sage will win hearts with wisdom,
The king will win hearts with justice,
Youth wins a lover's heart with persistence
Keeping still binds joy to the earth
So it doesn't get lost in excess
For it is the bound joy,
Not the untethered ecstasy,
Which works the magic of influence and attraction.

There is no day without night
Dark without light
Joy without pain
There is no love without hate
There is no love
Only bitter memories

There is no up without down
Silence and sound
Truth and whatever you said to me
There is no love anymore
There is no love
There never was

But I cant help but still believe

Sort of like a phantom limb
I can feel her
Even though I know she's gone

Sort of like the summer wind

Sort of like an old best friend
I haven't seen
In way too long

She's sort of like a phantom limb
The pain of loss
I deal with again and again

The pain of loss
Knowing I can never win

Now there's a world of distance
Between us
I can sing a song
Now there's a strange dream
Coming true
And you can sing along

I dreamt you were a stranger
And I didn't know
What you held in your hand
Or in you heart

Now it is three in the morning
And all that I can do
Is wonder

How this happened

I'm seeing too many shadows
I'm seeing too many ghost
I'm seeing too many demons
I'm not seeing enough hope

Is this really real?
I read it in the news
But it is not news
It doesn't, no, it shouldn't matter to anyone
Not anyone with any sense
And we're all going in one direction
Straight to hell  
A band breaking up
Happens all the time
A band where no one plays an instrument
Is not really a band
It's not really music
And we're all going in one direction
Straight to hell
And pillow talk
Tell the little girls what they want
Because they don't know,
But sell them sin and they will buy
Without knowing why
We're all going in one direction
Straight to hell

Poetry is emotion
Conveyed through the use of words
So as to be understood by others
Or misunderstood by others
I'm too emotional I guess

The flying cloud
Needs cold wind to produce rain
The masculine needs the feminine
To give birth
Everything in its way
Everything in its right place

Persistence bears the fruit

Desirous of a long continuance
If there is no good beginning
What will be in the end?
Pulling out hair
And punching walls
And picturing the worst
The jaws of hell to swallow us all

Isn't it something?
Knowing each step brings us closer
To being further apart
Breaking of chairs
Windows, lamps, oaths
Promises that would never be kept
The darkness to swallow us all

Each step brought it closer
Until it was closed
The chapter the last one in the book

A book I can't read again

I dug a hole
Inch by inch
Foot by foot
Becoming miles
I dug a hole
Aching back
And ***** hands
From how I got here

I look up
From the bottom of a pit
And know that I'm to blame
I dug a hole

I never really had control

I am an astronaut
Not because I trained for years
In high-tech NASA facilities
Not because I'm a peak physical specimen
Endurance tested
Intelligence too
I am an astronaut
And its a reason as simple as this
I made someone my world
And then she left me

I am an astronaut
And right now I'm drifting through space
I can see the stars
I just can't reach them

What will be
Will be
Acceptance is the thing
That leads to happiness

As a poet
Everything you do
Is poetry
Even the way you move

Its hard
To be vulnerable
But for real trust and love
Its necesarry

So swallow your pride
Show someone your weakness
So that they
Can show you their strength

Does it take a genius
To recognize genius?
It doesn't take a fool
To know one when he sees one
And all the losers at school
Know who is cool
And the wise man knows
None of this matters

I was born a poet
I became I poet
I laugh, and I joke
And I play, and I sing
And I work
       Work
   Work
And I worry about tomorrow
But all of that is secondary

If you want to know me
You already do
   Write
       Write
And I write
About the things I'm going through
And the world I know
I became a poet
I was born a poet

I'm drowning on the ocean floor
While I'm down here
I might as well look for seashells