I keep seeing a face
As the dancers move across the stage
Flickering flames
Faces and names
A candle with a scent
Of cinnamon
I see a face
In the wreckage of auto accidents
Ambulances glaring sirens
Red lights
And hospitals
And innocent victims

I can't forget a face
A Judas smile
Medusa hair
Othello eyes
The most beautiful face
And in her hands carrying Brutus's knife

E tu
E tu

I see a face
Even when I close my eyes

******* IT
I just keep moving
Trying my best to keep my head up
Seems like the world is only keeping me down
Seems like
The more that I try
The more happiness eludes me
Like I'm pushing as hard as its pulling away
Seems like
A kick in the teeth
Every time I try to smile
Seems like a cavity
When I never ate the candy

Seems to me
That I believe in a higher power
That really hates me
A fatalistic point of view
Seems to be
Its bitter pain and disappointment
Brittle skin and fragile mind
And fire

Luckily
This is only the way it seems
Its just a phase
I'm going through

I try my best
To become stronger
When entropy
Is a real thing

And everything in the beginning
Was as it should be
And here we are
The height of dissonance

Leaves on the tree
Dying and dead
Winter has come
But it all leads back to the root

In the end
All will be as it should

I get so *******
So angry
Only because what I say
Leaves you unaffected by its gravity
Its a not a moon
Not a world
Not galaxy
Its a black hole

And once you're in
You can never escape

And what kind of star
Brags about its brightness
What kind of world
Wants you to make it your home
When you'll only destroy it
Take it for what you see
Without spiritual connection
Like its not sacred

Don't I enjoy
Walking down the street
Even if my feet hurt
Even if my soles are worn
Just like my soul

And what would I say to you
If I had a million years to choose the right words
Nothing I wouldn't say right now

But the birds on the branch
In the tree in my backyard
Sing a different tune
The way the winds blew
The colors too

It's cold where you are
I know it
I breath fire and live in smoke
And seething passion of ancient hope
One million soldiers to fight a war
Two thousand years my history

Its cold where you are
Admit it
And I gave up all my strength
Under pretense I had made
Trying only just to save
An ice cube in the ocean

Its cold where you are
I'm sorry
That if there's someone to blame
You need only say my name
And all these haunting hurtful thoughts
And all these times when I was wrong

And all these times I wasn't strong enough

Internal rhymes
Alliteration
Meter
Metaphor

Its meaningless
Without the feeling behind it

And I give these things to you
All of my heart
All of my thoughts in structured verse
To symbolize

The meaning
Of the feeling behind it

Sometimes its a lesson learned
A lesson too late
I should have been what I can be
And not what I was
Sometimes we know the price
Only after we pay
I should have known what it meant to me
It was everything

I only learned
That I should be strong
When I bore the weight
Of the pain my weakness caused

Sometimes I sit and wonder what would be
But thats only wishful thinking

I can be your Lotus flower
The most beautiful sight
Despite, or rather in spite of
The murky muck of life
The most beautiful sight
Something which grants you the freedom to believe

Rising from the slime infested pond
The pond that is our world
The world of nightmare time
The time that is our life
The most beautiful sight
Something which is worth the pain of holding onto

I can be your lotus flower
Blooming before you
When the sun starts to rise
A symbol of god and purity
The most beautiful sight
And reaching downwards from the heavens

Sinking down into the mire
When the sun sets on my day
And this night becomes to me
A dark night of a soul
The most beautiful sight
But hidden until I can see your light again

I can be your lotus flower
And whenever the time is right
When your the sun to rise
I'm the flower to bloom for you
The most beautiful sight

May be young
But my minds set on
Where I want to be
Hard to know
As the day grows old
The way its going to be

Can you feel just like I do
Be something to help me through
Someone who is always true
And I'll give my all to you

May be young
But older in soul
And I know all that I should
Like the music
That came before
And is timeless when you hear

They **** you off
And then make clones
Identical blood
With different bones
And maybe someday
Our earthly home
Will be the same as us

Find a new home in the stars
Forget where we come from
Scientist to terraform
And Noah's godly spaceship

There's too much riding on that
Too much
Too much my love
And too much of of anything
Is a bad thing
This applies to water

And even love

This is a song
An original thought
I best jot down
Because it's a one time only
Once it goes its gone for good
This is a sale
Buyer be there
But buyer beware
Because when planning and scheming
Morals lose their meaning
This is a joke
That's still funny
But has lost its charm
A one line communication
And were waiting for the punchline
This it is
And nothing less
And something hidden
The longing, and wanting, and frustrating desire
And the chance to see through illusion

And find the meaning

I sit in a darkened room
Consumed by bitter memories
Of happier times
I sit in a darkened room
The candle you lit
It's not a light for me

Ultimately
I'm as free as I can be
While being a slave
To this reality
But not as free as I long to be

Basically
I'm as rich as I can be
While being broken, poor, and destitute
By any economical definitions
Struggling to stay alive

But knowing I'm one of the few
Who's really living

A knife and a treasure chest
Some great bird of the tropics
Where the man became an island
Well, well, the whale is beached
The ship is stranded on the reef
And the waters only recede
It's a last resort

I don't want to steal
But I'm happy having fun
And dying young
My piracy not confined to digital music
Its more or less defined
By blunderbuss and sea shanties
As being an outlaw
Or at last as being misunderstood

Walking the plank
Jumping into shark infested waters
Swimming with all my strength
So I can die marooned and alone

Just me, my gold, and my guns
And my ***
And my contempt

All of this
Only nonsense
Seems like were struggling just to try
And never getting anywhere

I took a thousand steps
And wound up
In the exact same spot I was before
Not a place I want to be

This may be
The last you hear of me
I'll be back again
I'll promise but I won't pretend
That I'm the same person I was before

Same place
Same face
Different man
All of this
Nonsense

It only serves to bring me down

Just glad
To be alive
What's really important?
I wanted to love
To be loved
But being love isn't happiness

Its all you ever are
Its the way noises
Can be joyful or sorrowful
And in that way
That the noises
Become our favorite songs

Whenever I hear this song
I think of you
I've never heard it before
Its new to me
But vaguely familiar
Its a memory I made being made

How can I salamander in a river
Can I salamander
Hanging with salamanders
At the **** based farm
Salamanders are crazy
Cardboard carborators
A salamander band
Playing bad great music
Satanic salamanders
Soup and blind melons
Salamanders

What the **** is wrong with people

I see it all
A world as it was meant to be
Maybe not forever
But right now
My hands
Her body
The best way to feel
I won't turn off the lights

I see it all
I want to see it all
She feels it all
Its heaven
Its everything that it should be
It's all my dreams

My music
Breaks the stage
Spilling blood
Giving faith
Its so beautiful
Its just a thought I have

The heartbeat
About to explode
That's the vibe
I'm going for
Its intensity
Its brutal truth

Take it back down
Give it a moment
Black and white
Orchestra of an album

Only image
To break a mold
Taking too much
And asking for more
Because its never enough
We can be soft together

And then we'll rise
Crescendo to a drop
That's the feeling
I want to have
How progressive
How primal

Take it in stride
Its a part of us all
Red and yellow
Orchestra of expression

Thirsty
Slice of water
Ice cubes
Cool dudes
New shoes
Salamander
Hungry
Well I guess
Whatever it takes
To hit the spot
Spiritually
And physically

I've lost my direction
I know my home is somewhere
Something that I made
Is gone
Something that I'll make
If only I had the strength
I'm lost in the wild
And creatures call to the moon
They watch me as I sleep
With glowing eyes

I feel no fear
Because I've lost all hope
And my greatest fear
Was I was hoping
When it was all for nothing

I've lost my direction
Lost all hope
Lost fear of the creatures
Found a star in the sky

Whoever you are
Would you be there?
Where ever it is
Can I find it?

I've lost all direction
I'm just a lonesome trubadour
Wandering aimlessly
Wondering how it could be this way
That somewhere I am not
Is where my happiness stays
I'm lost in the night
And losing faith
That the star I follow
Will shine brighter than that empty moon

Mind never stops
A rock tumbler filled with thoughts
Becoming polished jewels

Would I exchange all my love
To be ruler
Of an empty kingdom?

I used to think
The only way I would never see your smile again
Would be if I was blind

I'm in it
But with the realization
I'm really going through it

I'm straddling the borderline
Sitting on a fence of razor wire
A continental divide
A fault before an earthquake
One side is a steep climb
The other a cliff
Should I fall?

The mountain is too high
And I can't stand still anymore

And now its just a photograph
I'm planning to destroy
A bitter pill to swallow

The woman in the black dress
What a love we had
What a mess we made

First five syllables
And then another seven
Followed by five more

Home and a golden arrow
A garden where summers fruit
Rots in the shadows
To think I had just yesterday

Hope and a singing sparrow
A bridge where my old best friend
Jumped into water
I can't look up to the sky anymore

Holes in a perfect stranger
A smile that could only hide
And never heal
To think I used to know you

Sometimes there's a secret meaning
Sometimes there's a hidden meaning
Sometimes there's a deeper meaning
Sometimes there just is no meaning
So I'm wasting all my time
Looking when I'll never find

I didn't want to push too much
Push the envelope
Push you away
But by the time the night gets late
And I'm looking at the witching hour
Sweet dreams turned sour
I didn't want to push too much
But the only chance I've got
For change
To keep the water from being dammed
I have to push the river

The more I think about it
The more I realize
I was made in gods image

I gave you all my love
And watch as you forsake me

What a godly thing

I know
I see
And maybe you don't understand I do
I feel your pain

Problems
And mistakes
Seem to become ghosts that haunt and follow
Relentlessly

If you want to run away
I understand
If that's what you need to do
I never could stop you
If you need to run away
From the pain
Find a way to get away
And be at peace again

If you really know that here
There is nothing left
Just bitter memories
And places as time, and me

If you want to run away


I'll run with you

Straining my train of thought
Arranging the stains in a peculiar way
Gaining a new painting
With a same old frame
A new meaning with the old
Blood and gold
Good and bold
Deranged to the point I believe my pain
Is something that I need

I put on a new pair of shoes
In a familiar way
Tongue and soul
Untied shoe-laces
And walked to the nearest mystic
The mere thought of my dearest divinations
Being bought
Surrealist encantations
I took a familiar step
And look down again
To remind why its all the same
Yet somehow different.

When a stream is blocked
The water will find a different route
To meet the river
And become the ocean

A lesson we don't understand

A little bit of luck
Is all I need
A little bit of luck

And a lot of greed

I often am longing
To create a poem about nothing
So beautiful
The meaning is everything
But I'm here in a time
How can I be timeless?
Lost in a place
When I want to be everywhere

Its only foolish want
Foolish greed
Foolish desire
Foolishness
To have a world in your palm
And want the universe
To have a song in your head
And want it on the radio

I often dream
To write something so magnificent
That anyone in the world
Can understand
And the lines
Are always changing
To blend in with changing times
And changing demands

Its foolish want
Idiocy
Its lack of understanding
And maturity
To not realize
If I write something
That means something to someone else
Its the same as meaning something to everyone else

We all are one
If I reach you


I reach the world

I always hear
You never listen
And this life is just an illusion
This life is just a dream
Everybody's sleeping
And I would die to wake up

Someday you will die and something some how's going to steal your carbon

In a sand box
In a paradox
An egocentric predicament
When matter matters not
All I am is thought
And feelings

Some day you will die and someone's or something's will steal your carbon

So I turn on the radio
And turn it up
And let the music speak to me
Its just a band
No one understands
When I do

Some day something will die and
Somehow you'll figure out how
Often you will die somehow and
Something going to steal your carbon

I fear the worst
But know the best
Is waiting for me

How can I fear
When all I feel
Is hope and inspiration?

We all will be dust,
and when we are,
how much will any of this truly matter
The only thing that's real
is how you feel,
so do all you can to be happy

She had such eyes
A whole world
A spiral galaxy
A universe inside
She had such beautiful eyes
Peaceful lakes
Turbulent oceans
Reflecting pools at night
She had such poisonous eyes
I drink them in
Becoming addicted
And intoxicated
She had such smiling eyes
Like mirrors in the sun

To change this world
You're going to have to play
By its rules

A million rounds a minute
A million thoughts
A million bullets
A million times that I can miss my target

Why does it have to be?
Does it always have to be so?
There is no peace
Only shadowy deciet
And one would have thought
That in the arms of lovers
Holding one another
Sisters and brothers

You would have thought
Art is beautiful
But when you dig through the veneer
You find the wood that's rotten

Even the darkest of nights
Ends with dawn

God when I make it to the morning
It seems as though my worry
Has caused never ending night
Once I see that sunrise
I'll know about glory
Everything is gonna be alright
Let my hope become the morning
Let those first few drops of light
Reflect in your swimming pool eyes

No matter what I'm going through
I'll always be strong
To be strong for you

And I'll be strong
For you
If that is what you want for me to do
And I'll be strong
For you
Only if I know what you're going through

I pray for the flowers of spring
Its seems as though my sadness
Became a frozen barren forest
Once I see it thawing
I'll know about beauty
Everything is gonna be alright
Let my love become the spring
Let the warmth I have to give
Settle into your heart

No matter what I'm going through
I'll always be strong
To be strong for you