My brain is everywhere
Feelings are dancing around as they please
I wish happiness would take a seat and stay a while
And just keep me at peace
Anger gnaws at the walls,
Screaming and urging me to scream also
Sorrow wants to let the pain out
With incisions.
To let the sadness drip drop out of me.
Sorrow wants me to cry.
But my body can't. Won't.
My body is numb. Tears remain in a bottle, anger won't flow.
As the world is silent, I want to scream
Until my voice is gone.
Until someone comes and saves me
Until someone can let the tears out of the bottle
Until the anger can flow.
Until everything is okay.

I wanted to simply
Know all of something

I knew I could not
Except in something small

I found the answer
Realized my desire

I learned all about nothing

...

Is that possible?
Does that make it something?

beautiful soul trapped in a distant glass
unable to escape the torment of black smoke
poured into your casing
and with every breath you become a little tainted
your light ripped from the wick
dripping hot wax
pungent with the darkness
its tar filled mouth opens
widely
for a warped smile
darker than the night
this is the one who swallowed the night
as if it were a tease
to its ever growing hunger
fear consumes
and allows it to seep through your skin
caressing your soul
tugging at the strings surrounding you
all you can do to ebb away the pain
is close your eyes
silent
and beg for release
but it gets more painful
the more you resist
but you've seen her
the one who sits beside him
how cold and ruthless she appears
he took from her
purity
feeling
life
you refuse to ease the pain
instead you gouge a knife into your thigh
to awaken a new pain
and darkness
intent on your possession
tightens
you choke
but you continue to concentrate on the pain

do not let yourself be drowned
by the absent-filled memory of a lie
smile, like a blooming flower
inviting in the sun
as if every consuming lie
is erased by each ray of sunlight
as if every gust of wind
pulling at your petals does not destroy
but builds strength
as if the rain purifies your heart
and the earth beneath your feet
allows its roots to seep in
and pull the pieces of you back together

The tourists all jostle for a look at the falls
At the point where the water just drops
It goes over the edge, crashing down far below
And then it's all over, it just stops

But, further up river before the falls are in sight
Where the river's hypnotic, dull and oh, so boring
The dark voices are waiting, hiding and calling
This is the place that the powers are storing

Beware the dark voices
They come and they go
They infect your mind
You've heard them, you know
The dark voices are different
But, they always are there
Turn away from their callings
And as always....beware

A dark, gloomy bar on the wrong side of town
Where the waitresses all dance for their tips
A strip joint so defined, but really not so
This is where one's morality slips

A sniff of a perfume, so fragrant yet cheap
Blurs your connection to the ring on your hand
The dark voices are calling, telling you things
Get the waitress and prove you're a man

Beware the dark voices
They come and they go
They infect your mind
You've heard them, you know
The dark voices are different
But, they always are there
Turn away from their callings
And as always....beware

You've returned from  a movie, back to your home
You must now take the babysitter back
Your wife stays home waiting for your return
But, with the babysitter you kind of lose track

You see a young body, and a glimpse of her breast
She crosses her legs, but you don't look that far
You share idle chatter, as you flirt like a kid
And you take the girl to the back seat of the car

Beware the dark voices
They come and they go
They infect your mind
You've heard them, you know
The dark voices are different
But, they always are there
Turn away from their callings
And as always....beware

The voices keep coming, just block them out
They feed on your weakness and pain
You have to ignore their pleadings to break down
For nothing good comes of them, there's nothing to gain

Jump in the water, go over the falls
Go with the dancer, surrender your life
Lay down with the baby sitter
Feel the voices twist the knife

Beware the dark voices
They come and they go
They infect your mind
You've heard them, you know
The dark voices are different
But, they always are there
Turn away from their callings
And as always....beware

when i look and see that you are not there
i am reminded
and these thoughts lead me back to you
they make my chest ache, intensified beating
i am hot with grief
though i feel cold within
for you carried me away with you when you left
like you always did
every thought leads to you
for our paths were intertwined since the day i was yours
falling was so easy, fast
like i'd never be able to get up
you kept me grounded and alive
when i was terrified, you soothed me
you quelled my aching heart
but when you were ripped from the safety of my arms
i became broken again
everything that made me whole
was ****** into a never-ending black bit
filled with our blood
it's dark here
but i'm with you
for i buried my heart with you that day
and it is forever yours, for you and i are one
i am comforted
only by the thought that someday
you and i will run free together again
but until that day
i will carry on
stumbling and mislead
walking down an empty pathway
following your footprints
i will make it to you one day
for the trail you left is for me alone
i promise
i will not stray from you
for you will forever be immortalized in my memory