Theia: Poems

114 · Jan 2020

away

Theia Jan 2020

away

my
imperfection
& impatience

i expect
will drive you away

just trying
to speed it up

114 · Aug 2019

gone

Theia Aug 2019

gone

all of the possibilities
tied to that hope
floated away
with it

113 · Jul 2019

i know you

Theia Jul 2019

i know you

i know you
too well now
to pretend
that you're a stranger
my eyes tell
the whole truth

113 · Jul 2019

shake it

Theia Jul 2019

shake it

i need to shake this hate
so my children don't see it
in my eyes

113 · Nov 2020

why i have to

Theia Nov 2020

why i have to

this
immense love
burns only for you

is also
the reason why
i have to
say
goodbye

112 · Aug 2019

i need peace

Theia Aug 2019

i need peace

my questions
emerge
burn away
the fog

the mystery
of our future

beauty in uncertainty
but
peace
in understanding

112 · Feb 2019

my gems

Theia Feb 2019

my gems

my collection
gems
i have them hidden
i hold them dear

precious time

a kiss
your face
our laughs

overflowing
like
me

111 · Nov 2020

words

Theia Nov 2020

words

words
are
just
words

you aren't
here.

so

i don't
care.

111 · Nov 2020

beautiful you

Theia Nov 2020

beautiful you

your face
against mine
heart races
faster than my mind

beautiful you

an easy kiss
a hard goodbye

111 · Jan 2020

your look

Theia Jan 2020

your look

recently
you have been giving me
a look
that so deeply
resonates
and tells me
truly
that
i don't know you
anymore

111 · Jun 2020

visions

Theia Jun 2020

visions

closed eyes
my paradise

visions
come true

of

me
and
you

111 · Jun 2019

lonely

Theia Jun 2019

lonely

all of the people
buzzing
the loneliness
deafening

110 · Dec 2019

every day

Theia Dec 2019

every day

every
single
day

i looked for you

every morning

i sat in silence
waiting for a sign

110 · Feb 2019

words

Theia Feb 2019

words

you don't want to say it
but i do

an expression of me, of us
words that carry feeling
depth
importance

words that sing
from my heart to yours

#love

110 · Oct 2019

the road goes on

Theia Oct 2019

the road goes on

with so little
time left

and so many
stones left to turn

this journey
seems
to extend

beyond
my understanding

along
an infinite road

beneath
countless moons

loves
hates
deaths
fates

109 · Nov 2019

i don't know

Theia Nov 2019

i don't know

i don't know
what i want

but
i know
how i want to feel

109 · Mar 2020

realizing the fear

Theia Mar 2020

realizing the fear

i've now
realized the fear
of every newlywed

because

now i know
i married
the wrong person

108 · May 2019

our story

Theia May 2019

our story

my love
i know
we will meet in another life
as we have in the past
we will live out this love story
to its magnificent heights

i just wish
it had happened
in this life

108 · Jul 2019

us

Theia Jul 2019

us

our existence
right now
makes me whole
makes me free

108 · Jun 2019

echo love

Theia Jun 2019

echo love

echo love
fades
repeats
comforts
disappears

107 · May 2020

you three

Theia May 2020

you three

my three loves

you all indulge

my past
my present
and
my future

you each
fill
a different
piece of my heart

yet
you each
consume
all of
me

not the me
who
is no longer
me

i love you
all
equally

107 · Apr 2020

mine

Theia Apr 2020

mine

poisoned
by my own mind

i never even tried
to make you mine

107 · Aug 2019

lonely

Theia Aug 2019

lonely

you make me feel
lonely
even when i'm with you

107 · Aug 2019

your love

Theia Aug 2019

your love

your love
is my reset button

106 · Apr 2020

i will have you

Theia Apr 2020

i will have you

without your voice
i hear you

without your presence
i feel you

in dreams
i see you

and
one day
i will
have
you

105 · Nov 2020

i don't feel fucking special

Theia Nov 2020

i don't feel ******* special

should i feel special
because of your attention?

should i feel special
because you said you care?

should i feel special
because of your words?

because they are

words

and
nothing more

105 · Aug 2020

take my hate away

Theia Aug 2020

take my hate away

my heart,
now full
of hate,
needs somewhere
to release

because
even though
you
****
i don’t want
to hate you

and
i can’t
keep it
inside

like
i used to

105 · Aug 2019

escaping

Theia Aug 2019

escaping

everything i do
a calculated attempt
of an escape
from
pretty much
everything

105 · Apr 2020

vanishing man

Theia Apr 2020

vanishing man

reaching
for you

in focus
and out

your closeness
fleeting

hearts
bleeding

my
vanishing man

104 · Jul 2019

hope

Theia Jul 2019

hope

hope lost now
is strength
for the future

104 · Jul 2019

words

Theia Jul 2019

words

what are you going to say
when
she finds out?

103 · Jun 2019

songs

Theia Jun 2019

songs

songs and memories
entwined
old,
new again
you,
and me again

103 · Feb 2020

still

Theia Feb 2020

still

still want you
still waiting

maybe i should have
left you
alone

102 · Oct 2019

ruined

Theia Oct 2019

ruined

you ruined me
now i know what i'm missing

you ruined me
now i know real love

you ruined me
because i can't have you

but you're all that i want

102 · Jul 2020

drain

Theia Jul 2020

drain

i felt
full (filled)
until it
drained
out of me
slowly
peacefully
yet grimly

it's
colder
now

102 · Aug 2020

too fast

Theia Aug 2020

too fast

getting here
took
forever

but now
things are moving
too
fast

101 · Oct 2019

truth

Theia Oct 2019

truth

today
i feel the freshness of truth
on my lips
waiting to spill out

i want to live the truth

101 · Oct 2024

broken silence

Theia Oct 2024

broken silence

a simple,
sudden
shout

an interruption
i can't stop
thinking about

unexpected
and abrupt
and beautifully
uncorrupt

101 · Aug 2019

today is here

Theia Aug 2019

today is here

today
felt so far away
from where i stood
then

but now
here i am

100 · Aug 2019

regret

Theia Aug 2019

regret

does a dying mind
have worries of the past?

will regret
follow me
into the next life?

and if so
will it be
because i did
or did not?

100 · Jun 2019

power

Theia Jun 2019

power

you have
no power
over me now
or ever

#mantra

100 · Aug 2019

tell me

Theia Aug 2019

tell me

in your mind
how long
does this
go on?

100 · Nov 2019

me

Theia Nov 2019

me

a lonely dreamer
seems to be
me

a yearning heart
longing to be
free

100 · Jun 2019

i know

Theia Jun 2019

i know

i know why
you came back
you transparent
beautiful
stupid
boy

#dontworryitsnotaboutyou

100 · Oct 2019

tears

Theia Oct 2019

tears

those drops of water
sliding across the glass
feel like
the tears
i won't let myself cry

99 · Jun 2020

overflowing love

Theia Jun 2020

overflowing love

today
i am full
of love

i can feel
it
overflowing

let me
share
with you

99 · Jul 2019

tired

Theia Jul 2019

tired

i'm tired
of feeling guilt
for what comes naturally

99 · Apr 2020

did i

Theia Apr 2020

did i

did i
come to my senses
too late?

98 · Jun 2019

running

Theia Jun 2019

running

am i always
running away
or
towards
something?

98 · Aug 2019

into pieces

Theia Aug 2019

into pieces

i know
i'm doing this for me
but
after all of this
if i don't have you
i
  will
    fall
      apart