The howl wind, and the lash of rain
An eternal storm, of boundless pain
The long gray tendrils of cloud and fog
Darker than, the city's fog
The roar of thunder, and flash of light
Illuminates, this endless night
But despite this ever, ongoing storm
Inside one remains, both safe and warm

I remember holding your hand thinking "This is it",
happiness because together our hands would perfectly fit
But you let go, and now your hands not my to hold
The hand of the girl with whom I'd happily grow old

It's been a week since you last said the words
That my heart fly away like birds
Remember? You said "I love you"
And I replied "I love you too"
But a week has past and now you're gone
I'm still in love, and you've moved on,
But perhaps I could accept that this is it
That at least right now, we just don't fit
If you could stay and be my friend
Then I could accept, that all things end

The glass was always half empty, till she came along and filled it up.
Now the glass is half full, but she's not here to share it with me

I asked if you still still loved me, you said yeah
Then why do I feel, like you don't care?
What is that's happen? What is it that's changed?
And why has it got me oh so deranged?

Your replies they're now just one word
Which I almost wish, I hadn't heard
What happened to 'I wanna love you forever'?
You now only say things like, 'whatever'

A year has passed, and it hasn't changed,
no my favourite part, hasn't been exchanged.
More than any feeling, or touch, or kiss,
it's that look in your eyes, that I really miss.
That look of love, and need and lust,
of happiness, hope, and most of all trust.
I miss that look, that you once gave me,
I miss staring into your eyes, and that being all I see.

Even noble persuits like love and life
and often nought but instruments of strife
So the best field to be strong in
Is not the ways to always win
But knowing when giving up is best
For you will win some, but not the rest

I'm so forgetful,
Because I'm busy remembering the important things.
Like the voice of my angel,
Who lost her wings,
or the way she smelled,
or the way she walked,
or the way she hit me,
or the way she talked.

Yet away from me, these things do slip,
the important things, escaped my grip.

I want to write a poem
about why I love your eyes,
but I am having trouble thinking
and I don't want it to be lies.
I want to write a comparison
to help you understand,
why I think you're perfect
and my love for you's so grand.
I want to let you know
I have never felt this good,
but my poems seem so terrible
and I don't know if I should.
So here's a poem you'll never read
a rhyme you'll never see,
you're so very perfect
and I'm stuck here just being me.

If it's all the same,
I'd like my heart back

Oh what does it matter? There's "Nothing to say"
and if there was, there's no difference anyway.
So what if there's not, maybe I want to,
it's better than sitting here, writing of you.

But it doesn't matter, just forget my name,
then maybe one day, this won't hurt the same

This place may be harsh and cruel but it will make you strong
You're one of us now, a survivor, here's where you shall belong.
Just don't take this for grated,  because the world hates you
But here with us, you have a place, we know you can pull though.

Hidden deep inside your calm façade
Is a spirit to be awed.
'Cause you're one of us now brother
In this place, just like no other.

I feel in love with her in the dark, the grey, the rain,
but now I've a reason to enjoy sunlight again,
the sun never shined, on our happiest days,
alway her beauty, radiated through haze.

But the days spent with you, here in the sun,
are convincing me perhaps, you are the one,
I can't remember, ever smiling so hard,
as when your beauty in the sunlight, caught me of guard.

I used to make you laugh, and smile and blush
Now all I can do is make you cry
and I don't want to live that way
but I don't want to live without you either
so I guess I want to die.

I don't feel in love, I don't feel lust
But I feel something, I don't trust.
What if I act?, what if I care?
What if she noticed my envious stare?

But I feel great, I feel a crush
Our constant talking, makes me blush.
I've been caring for a while,
And I think she's noticed, my hidden smile

There no way to win, a war you're not waging,
so I'll channel this fire, that inside me is raging.
Yet I won't let it change me, my honour I'll uphold,
and let never be said, when my story is told,
that I did the wrong thing, to fulfill my desire,
even if saying I got it, would make me a liar.

Now I'm not a hundred percent sure
if you still love me any more.
But I know that this much is true
I will always be loving you.
He even doesn't deserve your time,
but in the end you're his not mine.
I love you more than you'll ever see,
but you love him, more than me.

The limelight dims, the curtains fall,
Unset the stage, we've seen it all.
The story's told, it's a such a shame,
The backdrop's new, the end's the same.
Why do we bother, to take our seat?
The play is sad, and all too fleet.
Through empty rows, his voice now leaps,
And into him, emptiness seeps.

80 days later and I can still feel her touch

A tear rolls down, my puffy red cheek
What I wouldn't give, to go back to last week
Back to that last, desperate kiss
And live forever, in the moment of bliss
Looking lovingly into, your perfect eyes
And be happy in that moment, where nobody dies
To spend forever, learning how your lips taste
and wrapping my arms, around your waist
and whispering the words "I love you"
Words that will always, always be true

It's hurts to know that you are gone,
and now every word I say is wrong,
I can't even be your friend,
I just wish that it would end.

Part of me wants to take my secrets back,
and let the blood bleed onto black,
but I promised I'd never do that to you,
so here I am. Trying not to.

If the universe is both infinite and expanding
Then every point's the center, even where I'm standing
But say the center had to be one place
Well then, in that case;
Wherever she is, and wherever she goes
Because she's the center I suppose

It's not that I don't want to sleep
I just don't want to wake up again
Because I might not find peace in sleep
But in waking I find only pain

Even dreams that should be nice
Where I am holding you hand and seeing you smile
Make me want to break down and cry
I don't have you any more and I haven't for a while

Oh sure the dreams can be pleasant
as we hang out and do the things that we do
but all dreams must end, all sleepers must wake
and I must remember that I lost you

Right now I would welcome nightmares
of monsters, death and unbearable pain
because every time I wake with a smile
reality hits me again...

Why do the words get stuck in my throat,
why can my fingers not type them out?
Why can't I say just how I feel,
why am I so full of doubt?

I'm but a fixer of broken things,
but there's nothing I can do.
I'm usually good, with things like words,
but not when they are for you.

Your eyes wide, staring up at me,
How perfect can, an angel be?
Your perfect face, lit up by a smile
You really are perfect, just in denial.
Excitement, fear, helplessness, lust
your eyes portray, the emotions they must.
You lie there helpless, your heart starts to race
Your hair falling perfectly, to frame your face.
That day was perfect, just you and me
with everything how it's supposed to be.

I go to bed each night, and cry myself to sleep
I wake up in the morning, and just continue to weep.
A physical reaction to the realization of fears
The total loss of everything, that's what causes these tears
Because I know it's stupid, but I'm in love
And you're still an angel, belonging above

**** me, please, it hurts to think,
as into darkness, I slowly sink.
The fire burns, and the cuts, they sting,
I wish I couldn't, feel a thing.
Please let me go, please let me die,
I'll be forgotten, before the blood's dry

What is it about him that left you wanting more?
What is it about his lips that made you kiss him back?
What is it about him, that you still adore?
What has he still got, that I somehow lack?

I gave you it all
Didn't that mean anything?
Did your guard just fall?
Or did we mean nothing?

Remember what he did?
You did that to me.
I know it's something he hid
But why didn't you see?

You, off all people, should know how it feels
But still your lips met his, like his lips met her
What you just did, I can't say it appeals
It's like you forgot, just how these things were.

When he cheated on you, and you came crying to me
Now you cheated on me I have to cry all alone.
You were my angel, yet he was all you could see.
You forgot all the long nights we'd spent on the phone.

He told you some lies, that you somehow believe
He wasn't cheating on you? Well good for him
I think he's telling you lies, he has tricks up his sleeve.
If he does that again, I'll tear him limb from limb

And you of all people should know what it's like

Every kiss we shared was so desperate,
‘cause we knew it could be our last
Every moment together,
Well now they’re just in the past.

But with him,
You kiss like you’ve got forever
Spend time like…
It’s ending never

You love him
Like you never even looked at me
and you look at him
Like he’s all you see

There's nothing in my power, to change this in any way
But I loved you when left and I love you to this day
Maybe you won't ignore me forever and one day we will talk
And I'll get my goodbye, one last kiss and that walk
Or perhaps I'll never again hear your sweet, sweet voice
and in the end I guess that's up to you, in the end it is your choice

Night falls and then it comes to pass
And under foot I feel the soft wet grass
But in this early morning air
I can't help but wish I was there
My arms around your sleeping form
My loving embrace keeping you warm
I want be with you forever more
You're the most perfect girl I ever saw

Why do I keep writing these day after day
if you're never going to read them anyway?

Because I'm still in love, with you my dear
and I can't accept that my worst fear
actually happened and you are gone
happy now, and fully moved on

I knew I lost you in advance
I can't say I didn't have a warning
We were sitting on the couch
Like it were just any other morning
And I was struggling with a task
Can't even remember what
I asked if you would help and your reply
Twisted my hear into a knot
Why would you do that indeed
Yet somehow you always did
Until loving me was difficult
and you were not prepared to make that bid.

Everything hurts, and I want to die,
I don’t understand, why we even try.
There is no point, no light, no hope,
Just this endless downhill *****,
From perfection to this untold pain,
Yet I always let it, it happen again

You love me more? Well I love you most
I'm writing you poems, not trying to boast
But I love you and it makes my heart soar
It makes me write, and I make you go 'aww'

You miss me most? Well I miss you more
Because you're the one thing, I truly adore
I love you each and every single day
I'll love you forever, in every single way

I've no idea what I'm doing but **** I do it well
If you don't approve, then guess I'll see you in hell.
Because I'm sick of just letting the days go by
counting down the hours till the day that I die.
So from now on all that matters is me,
and from now on I'll be happy, just you wait and see.

I think I write poetry too much 'cause I've too much on my mind
Like this girl I know, she's pretty and sweet and oh boy is she kind
She's on my mind all of the time and I fear I've got a crush
Her words give me butterflies and her smile makes me blush
but it's nothing, I don't like her, I swear
okay so maybe I do but she's so perfect it's just not fair

Months later I still wake up missing you
With your perfect voice and eyes so blue
After how long is not okay to cry?
After how long will I stop wanting to die?
Things change and feelings fade
You’ve forgotten our memories made.
You were everything you said you weren’t
Your fiery perfection got me burnt
I still remember every minute,
Your life goes on but I’m not in it.

Where went the days, when words were there?
When we'd talk all day, and I was allowed to care?
Now I can barley think, of words to type.
The one I want to say, I just don't have the right.

Why does it always end this way?
Knife in hand to take the pain away.
Every part of me just wants to die
Because yet again I've made her cry
I can't keep living without her
But things are no longer as they were
She has no time for me anymore
I no longer make her go 'aww'
Now tonight may be my last
I'm missing the days gone past
If she reads this then I'm sorry
I did not mean to make you worry
I just need to die.

Maybe one day, we'll meet again
Till then I promise, that's the last bloodstain
Until we next meet, I shall wait
Because perhaps there is, such thing as fate
And perhaps that we said can still come true
Perhaps there is a future for me and you
I don't think I'll ever stop being in love
But at your request I'll move on, sort of

I'm plagued by the memories of a smile
Times that be gone, I'm in denial
You're voice, smile, presence and touch, how can all that be lost?
But we had such good times, and I guess pain's the cost
But I'd gladly pay it, a million times more
To be again with the girl, I'll always adore

Well here it is, day number eight
and I know this poem's a bit late
but please don't forget what is true
Like the fact that I will always love you

Love's an endless wild sea
But I'm glad you're here, next to me
The beauty of your perfect smile
Is the sort of thing making life worthwhile
The feeling of each perfect kiss
Is something I hope, I've no chance to miss

Not romantic, not poetic, just a chance to not exist
Slowly drawing, a cold steel blade, across the neck that she once kissed
I won't be remembered, I'm forgotten even now
I managed to make it this far but I'm really not sure how.
So goodbye to everyone, who won't read this
Goodbye to everyone who will barely even notice
So this is it, goodbye, I hope
So this is it, I'll get the rope

I'll stand out in the wind and blow away as dust
I'll leave my body far behind a metal shell there left to rust
I don't want to live life any more, it's just not worth the pain
I don't want to be happy any more, I'll just get hurt again
So I'm leaving world, this is goodbye
Time to give death, another try.

Come on girl, open your eyes and see
yourself, the way you're seen by me.
A perfect little angel, of whom I always dream,
You're really just as perfect, as to me you seem.
I love you no matter what, you will always be mine
My perfect little angel, who is always so divine.

Love is giving someone the power to hurt you
Love is trusting that they won't
Love is crying when they hurt you anyway
Love is accepting when they say they're sorry
Love is giving them the power to hurt you yet again
Love is trusting that they won't even though they did last time
Love is stupid
Love is pointless
Love is painful
Love is disappointing
Love is the worst feeling in the world
Love is weakness
Love is what I've fallen in so far, that I never want to get out
Love is perfect...She's perfect

The entire world at my fingertips and I simply write your name
Countless people in this world, and I fall for one who can't feel the same.

Would he compare your eyes to the endless stormy seas?
Could he write you poems that are anything like these?
Would he lose sleep at night, looking for the right words,
to explain that your voice, is more beautiful than the song of birds?
Would he worry that his poems, aren't enough?
Would he even bother with any of this stuff?
I can, I do, I always will
Yet I'm unsure if you love me still