I would.
I'd see her in everything, that I adore
I'd scour the world for the right words and more.
Until this feeling's explained, I'll constantly stress,
Do everything possible, and not a thing less.
Rather than just feel it, I'll make her understand
Leave her something to remember, even when I'm not on hand.
Because what she says isn't always, what she feels,
You can't believe her words, just because it appeals.

And how little you'd do, became apparent in time,
I'd do so much more, and then I'd make it rhyme

We wanted a future, now I'm memories in your past.

-The worst thing in the world is when someone you saw a future with, is now just a memory.-

Why are you so perfect? it just isn't fair
Everything about you's beautiful, even the death stare
You gave me as I walked holding that hand
Of a girl I regret, of a girl you can't stand.

Your smile at New Years, just after our kiss
Was the prettiest sight, and one I will miss.

Oh and sunlight through your hair as your read your book.
Is beautiful and I'm glad of all the time I spent taking a look.

Oh and the look on your face as I asked you out
That look isn't some I can live without.

I'm sick of writing poems that I'm never gonna send,
Why can't I just give up and let all of this end.
Why have I got to keep feeling like I care,
When I very clearly shouldn't since my dear you are not there.

I looked at the water as I sat on the sand
There in the place where I once held your hand.
I thought about you, and I made my choice
And in my head I heard your voice
You spoke of the things that we once had
But now that you are gone I am going mad.
What happened to that future with you and me?
What happened to all the things we were meant to be?
What happened to the promises, the hopes, the dreams?
Now I sit alone trying to muffle my screams.
Because I had finally gone and chosen you
If only I had know you wouldn't choose me too.

Your beauty is something to which words can't compare
I love you more that anything, as I trust you're aware
You're more perfect than I could ever describe
I'll love you forever, this feeling won't subside
You're my perfect little angel, you
I'll love you no matter what you do.

Your number's deleted, your Facebook blocked
Just like you wanted, I've done as you've asked
My life feels so empty, and my heart has been locked
Now you can forget about me, at long last.

But I won't forget you, I swear on my life
Because I'm still in love, so I pick up my knife.

Do you stare too at the dot of green,
Wondering why, and what did it mean?

Are you out there unfazed, unfettered, unseen?
Or do you sit too, and curse what has been?
Mad you said things that you didn't mean?
Or is it just I who stares at my screen,
Driven insane by that dot of green?

Why do you make me feel this way?
Why do I smile with each word you say?
Why can't I get you out my head?
Why do I think of you as I lie here in bed?
Why is this happening again?
Why didn't I learn from the pain?
Why do I look forward to this so?
Why am I sad, when you have to go?

What a difference a week can make
You go from happiness to heartbreak.
The single best day of your life
To wanting to go and grab the knife.
From the happiest person you could be
When everything's perfect and you're filled with glee
To hating everything and wishing you'd die
Because life is now terrible, so why even try?
A lot can change in one week
Life goes from perfect, to ever so bleak.

I don't want you to fight my battles,
just to help me steady my sword,
and when my voice, begins to break,
teach me to roar in the face of the horde.

I can't believe you ******* left.
As I struggle for each ******* breath
I love you more than anyone could
You said you'd loved me, and I thought you would
But you're gone, I was a fool
I slit my wrists, and blood starts to pool.

It's what is best.
It still hurts though.
Now I'll sit here in pain,
with nowhere to go.
And you'll be sitting there,
thinking of him.
So I'll cut of my breathing,
till the world starts to go dim.
I'll break my knuckles,
I'll beat my fists,
and try to ignore,
this pain in my wrists.
Because nothing is better,
than helping you,
it might hurt a lot,
but it's the best thing to do.

But if I tell the truth, well I don't love you
and baby girl I know that you know that too
Yet despite this well, here I am
at your door, flowers in hand

I just love to come here, and I know why I do
Something 'bout the ocean, reminds me of you

I've been up here at sunrise, just once or twice
The sun may be beautiful, but your hair's just as nice

I sat up here one night, and saw every star
Sure they looked good, but you look better by far.

Poetry is meant to be words I've said, that I'd be happy to be remembered for.
And other peoples poetry, are words I've read, that I'm happy to remember.
But I've lost so many, so many of mine I haven't written down.
I've lost so many of the ones I read, but were deleted.
The thing is, nothing would make me happier than remembering yours,
yet they are slowly slipping from my memory.
I can't find most of them anywhere for me to reread,
but I don't want to lose them.
Because you are someone else's poetry now,
but those poems you wrote, perhaps at least they could still be mine.

Words falling onto a page
Knowledge beyond the poet's age
For what does a teenager know of life?
They've barely begun to experience strife.
But wisdom is tempered, not by ones years
But by the forming of smiles, and the falling tears.

You know; I only stayed, because you always came back.

Where have all the people gone?
Why did they go away?
This silence just got maddening,
why couldn't the people stay?

So where have all the people gone?
I hope they're somewhere nice
'Cause right now it ***** round here
The silence cold as ice.

How can I feel this way about someone I hate?
How come when I feel this way, it's over a year too late?
I didn't ask for any of this, but I guess I deserve it

I should be heartbroken, but really I'm not.
Because a heart's something I've no longer got
I gave it to you, not too long ago
I didn't expect for you to let go.
But you did my dear, and you let it fall
Just when I thought, that we had it all

With your eyes like stars, and beauty aglow
You are an angel, that much I know
I asked you out, you said I do
Now I plan on forever with you
I hope I never forget any of this
I also hope, we share many a'kiss

Well I managed one day, but I think I went mad
Not that you care, and that's what's making me sad
I dreamt of your touch, of your curves, of your voice
That now are all gone, since you've made your choice
In my dreams, you still loved me
And that's all I want, oh why can't you see?
That without I can't take joy in the warmth of the sun
Because nothing's as warm as your smile was, ***.
I just want to scream out, I love you
But you'll never be here for me to scream to

Before it happens, I always know
I've had only, one surprising blow,
But it doesn't matter, and neither do you,
she's gone, and now, you are too.

Another long night, another long week
For how many hours, will things look so bleak?
I'm sorry my love, I'm sorry my dear
I've done something wrong, at least so I fear
Don't talk to me, fine, but I'll miss you
Each and every second, whatever I do

I wish that night could have lasted forever
and that didn't have to end.
I wish we were still together
Rather than just being friends

I love you, and you love me
You know the only place I want to be
Is next to you, with you under my arm
lying there protecting you from harm

You gave up on me, and now you are back.
Even after knowing, how much I lack.
Though I must admit I liked being free.
Free to be the old, terrible me.
But I won't miss that not at all.
Because yet again, in love I fall...

Why is it when asked about love, our answers are never sweet?
Never stories of stolen kisses? Or intense and passionate heat?
No, our stories are always sorrowful, stories of such pain.
Complaints of the things we did, and warnings of 'never again'?

I look out, at the moonless night,
thinking about how you were right
I should be in your bed with you
Holding you close, it's just us two
But I can't be there, my arms round your hips
So I'll get some sleep, that last kiss on my lips.
It was so perfect last the time, that lips met
and I'm willing to bet, it made you wet.
A kiss so perfect, how could any compare?
To the soft, sweet lips, of an angel so fair.
So no one else shall have my kiss
Except for you, the girl I miss.
Good morning angel, this poem's for you
What I'm trying to say...Is I love you

I am only alive because my death would hurt you

I woke this morning with a smile
I think it'll be my last one, for a while.
I am drowning, not yet dead
It was all just in my head
Everything we ever were
Now my vision starts to blur
Because now I struggle for each breath
and I would gladly welcome death

The jealously stings when you say his name,
But you're in love, and I'm to blame
I gave you up, I let you go
I was too foolish to let you know
I love you, I need you, you know I do
But now it's his arms you crawl into.
I wonder do I even matter any more?
My name which once made your heart soar
Does it even make you smile?
Or have you not cared, for a while?
I guess my time is done
Off to his arms, you start to run
Staring dreamily into his eyes
You used to love me, or was that just lies?
It doesn't matter, you love him now
I want you back, but fate won't allow
Me to let you know, that I love you
And I will forever, no matter what you do

Writing has always, been my calling,
and writing is but the act of falling.
Falling in love, or falling apart,
curse my ever, falling heart.

Oh how would love to sit beneath this ever quiet moon
My arms around you my dear, I hope this happens soon.
Oh how I wish to just lie there and be with only you my dear
But that won't happen not any time soon, at least that's what I fear
Those perfect days, our fingers knit, where it is just us two
The difference between now them, is that today is missing you.

So I say hey, how have you been?
I tried to stay mad but that isn't my scene.
I always freak out about what to say to you,
But who is it that I am really lying to?
Cause we all know, what it is I mean,
When I say hey, how have you been?

Bloodied knuckles, and a bleeding wrist
Waves of a feeling, I haven't missed
I thought I was done with feeling this way
I thought I was over crying everyday
It's just as bad as it ever was
It never ends it just goes on pause
Hurts for the reason it does every time
Hurts in the way that makes me rhyme.

Now I know that I had a life before,
but exactly how, I am not sure.

Exactly how were my hours spent?
Because if I'm not thinking of you, I'm not content.

Exactly what did I do with my life?
What did I have, to keep me from strife?

Actually now I'm not so sure...
Did I really have a life before?

I didn't miss you most those first few hours
Nor when I listened to the song that's 'ours'
Although it gets worse, the longer you're away
I didn't miss you most, that very last day
Because the thing about missing you, it just isn't fair
Because I miss you the most, when I wish you were there
When I'm doing something, and I wish you could too
When I'm somewhere perfect, but I'm not there with you.

I feel empty, I feel cold
and now I've no one left to hold
But I would still do it again
because you worth all the pain
Because seeing you smile, it worth these tears
and I'll just live, here with my fears
Our relationship's not something I regret
and It's something I never will never forget

Oh my god, what have I done?
I just lost her... she was the one.
I love her, always have, always will.
Now there's a space, her love use to fill

Oh I'm so sorry, I regret it all
You are my everything, and I let you fall
But I want you back, I still love you.
Is there nothing I can do?
To win you back, to say that I'm sorry?
I love you, you're perfect and about you I worry.

Please come back, please be here with me
You're still my perfect little angel, why can't you see
That without you I'm dying.
You still might love me, but I think you're done trying

I don't write them the way
I did when I was young,
And these days I don't
Show them to no one.
They're not here to impress
To lie or to win
They're just here cause I
Don't know how else to begin.

So ***** the time scheme
And accept the forced rhyme
I don't even remember
When those rules felt like mine.
I'm just here to practice
Til one day I know
I've written something
That's ready to show.

How long has it been, since you really loved me?
Do you even care about what we used to be?
About the days spent, talking of tomorrows?
Before you left me, to drown in my sorrows...

I want you to know, that I still love you
But soon you'll hear my name, and just reply "Who?"
I'll fade from your memory, your hopes and your dreams
And that's what you want, or at least so it seems.

I know I mean nothing, to you any more
But I want you to know, it's still you I adore
I remember your smile, and your beautiful eyes
When you said that you love me, although those were lies.

Don't you have to know?
I still don't understand why you had to go.

Was it to soon, or was I too late?
Our love kept on spinning like the threads of fate
I've been here as long now as I was away
And our hearts were aching for that very day,
Until it had arrived and my feet touched the ground
Suddenly you darling, just were not around.

But what I don't understand is why you'd just go,
It all was for something...don't you have to know?

Right now my mind wanders to the words we once shared
To the days when I knew how, to let her know I cared
Maybe the words don't exist, that say how I'm feeling now
Because if the words do exist, then I really don't know how.
But she's still a perfect angel, so beautiful and smart
My stomach still feels twisted, from the times we had to part
But the message I want her to know, words cannot convey
But I still have to try, because this is something I need to say
So don't you dare forget Ade, the way you feel right now
You might not be able to say it yet, but one day you may know how.

This morning the sun's rays reminded me of you
The colour of your hair...The warmth of your voice too
Not that I'll be hearing you, not any time soon
I see that now, as I stare at the moon
Ah yes, my every day starts and ends the same
but in the middle, my anger's aflame
I hate who I am, I miss who I was
I miss my angel, who is without flaws
but hey, I'm fine, I'm really okay
At least on the outside anyway.

It's been over a year since I made you smile
and I won't do it again, for a long while
We never could promise that forever
but I'm starting to think it'll happen never.
And so I just sit here, hating love
because of the girl, I'm writing of

There's no longer any meaning
My heart won't be bleeding
Love had made me blind
But now I've had enough of your kind
So why not just leave me to die?
It's time to end this, I've at least got to try

Why do I write, what won't be read?
Why do I live, when I wish I was dead?
What is the point, in sitting here playing?
Why care about people, when they insist on not staying?

Maybe because, I don't have a choice,
and when speaking in person, I lose my voice.

I now know why I let you break my heart again and again the way you do
Because the only person who can put it back together again is you

Now you got every song, reminding me of you,
But I'm always gonna know that none of that was true.
Remembering your face on a day that was a lie,
But it means a little less with every year gone by.
'Cause everything has changed with everything I know,
Doesn't matter any more that 'cause that was just a show.
Can't believe I thought it would all come back to you,
Can't believe you did, what I thought you couldn't do.