When I look in the mirror of my reflection,
I see just another human being swallowed up in depression.
When you look in the mirror do you like what you see?
Is the self esteem absentee?
Are you only 5" 3'?
Have the bags under your eyes,
Caught you by Surprise.
Are you having a problem with you weight and size?
Is your extra skin saggy?
Or maybe your stomach is a tiny bit flabby.
Then I looked back at my daughter,
Thats when the tears came running down, and my spirit fought a little harder.
Then I spoke Encouragement to myself and said,
"Negativity and Self destruction, you are dead!"
Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.
That's what I told her.
Stop trying to let society mold her and control her. Simply love her and walk a little bolder.
Stop trying to recreate who God made you to be.
For he has Made you Beautiful and Wonderfully.
Your Reflection doesn't define you.
For your character and spirit do.
The true beauty lies embedded deep within.
Even with the pimples on your face and chin
Embrace and love the skin you're in.
Healing the disconnection
By viewing Reflections of My Imperfections.

The love for my Significant other use to be so grate.
I fell in love on the first date
My naive behind thought it was fate.
My heart use to long for Him 'til the dusk of day.
I use to Cry at the very thought of  Him being away,
Our love was as beautiful as the Day in the month of May.

Day and Night For Him I would pray,
That no harm would ever come his way.
And that our love never goes astray.
So they say,
Be careful what you wish for because it just might come true.
Cause now I'm stuck to you like glue
Even though I don't want to
I'm bitter, tired, and now I can't stand you.
For 5 longs years Its been Hell.
All we do is Scream and Yell.
Our business to our friends we tend to tell.
In this relationship we feel like we are both prisoners in jail. And we don't even have a cell, bond or bail. What an Epic fail!
Heated arguments for no reason at all.
Intense feelings, Emotions so Raw.
Shouting and saying things we both don't really mean.
Whatever happened to you being my King and Me your Queen?
We aren't even on the same team.
Someone wake me up from this bad dream.
The love and relationship Can we redeem?
Or are things really as bad as they seem?

When my spirit feels malnourished.
Something in me finds the strength and courage
To Read the word so I can help my spirit man flourish.
Medicine for the people of the oppressed.
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
From the book of Mathew Chapter 11 Verse 28

Father help me to walk upon this path of the narrow and straight.
And things I don't understand Teach me, Educate.
Though you know I feel inadequate You remind me to use the Tools you've bless me with.
The word of God cures the diseases that weaken our souls.
The Bible Proclaims these words in black ink typed So bold.

Pleasant words are as honeycombs,
sweet to the soul, and health to the bones.
Originating from the book of Proverbs Chapter 16 Verse 24

Lord that word was good but I'm Yearning for more.
My lover, my Savior
The one whom I adore.
As I sit here watching the rising of the Sun,
Praising Yah being forever grateful for all that He's done!

According to The book Of Isiah Chapter 25 Verse 1
O Lord, thou art my God; I will exalt thee, I will praise thy name; for thou hast done wonderful things; thy counsels of old are faithfulness and truth.

Help me Father Just as you did Naomi and Ruth.
Thank You for a foundation and a roof.
Your grace and your mercies I'm a living proof.

Is this love? Could this be true?
Why is it that you and only you
Have me feeling the way I do?
Like to you I'm transparent so you can see straight thru?
I must Construe,
that your love perceives as some type of voodoo or taboo.
It Amazes me how you have me seeing the world in a whole new view.
Out of the blue,
I get the sense of deja vu.
That warm fuzzy inkling of butterflies I get inside
Got me questioning, and  wonder, "Why?"
What's behind those beautiful big brown eyes?
Are you full of truth or just a bunch lies?
Before I began to sensitize
I must analyze and rationalize.
Can you and I actually Harmonized?
Become one and unify?
Can you love me beyond the hurt and pain?
Help me maintain and let love Reign?
Be Imperfect With absolute certainty?
More Importantly,
I need you to be like my Therapy.
With Absolute sincerity,
Love, Honor and Cherish me unconditionally,
For Eternity.
Baby are you feeling me feeling you?
Is This sensational notion just a sneak preview?
Is this love could it be true?

I see you as you're watching me
Catching every detail as you view so carefully.
Your eyes are glued to my every move as you observe so attentively.
Everything I do and say
you study it throughout the day.
You see Me when I cry
Even when you try not to pry.
When the tears begin fall and You're asking me, "WHY?
And mommy please don't lie.
There's something wrong and this you can't hide."
So this was my Reply,
"My life feels like a pigsty
no matter how hard I tried.
Times when to you I just try to advise and emphasize
not taking the time to understand how you feel inside.
That's why we didn't see Eye to eye and  I always ended up feeling like the bad guy.
Sweetie pie,
your behaviors I cannot justify
but there are Rules and regulations that we must abide by.
On me you must rely
No I don't have the answers to everything
But this much I can testify and bring
all I have is my heart and love as an offering.
I pray that You love me just as much as I love you.
There's so many things that I've gotten use to that you have seemed to outgrew.
There's things that I'd wish I could undo.
So many things I want to tell you.
Things we haven't even gotten to do.
Our love has been proven to be tride and true.
***, I Need a tissue
I think we just had a breakthrough.
Because the bond between you and I is better than Wi-Fi.
This much I can verify
That Mommy loves her little ones, all you littles wise guys.
I love being being a mother fervently
Because you guys bring out the best in me.
Personally,
I enjoy watching you watching me so
Observantly.

Father It's a cloud of Irritability followed by a wrath of hostility.
Help me because I don't want to walk in displeasure
For I know better.
That with you I can do all things and be such a beautiful Priceless treasure.
This thing just won't let me Be.
Father, your word says you make the lame to walk and the blind to see.
You open prison doors and set the captive free.
The Bitterness and brokenness I feel inside are fruits of the poisonous tree.
Oh, it's Devil I see.
Yah says that when two or three
are gather together in his name and  We agree
That Satan must flee!
So, Get thee behind me Adversary!
Meanwhile he is trying to get me to be provoked.
I pray and mediate on All biblical words you spoke.

James 1:19
Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath:

Help me to walk upon this path.

Ephesians 4:31
Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice

I gotta keep this in mind if I'm trying to make it into your Kingdom, Your Palace

Ephesians 4:26
Be ye angry, and sin not: let not the sun go down upon your wrath: Neither give place to the devil.

Remember we wrestle not physical but on a Spiritual level.

John 14:27
Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.

Thank you Father for the serenade. Now Let that Marinade.

Acts 3:19
Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord.

Forgive Me Father and within me Please Restore.
Repent and to sin no more.
But looking toward pure, Unconditional love and all that you have In store.
Now that I have confessed
All the anger has left the center of my chest along with the stress.
I Didn't realize I was such a mess.
Thank you Father! Yah bless!

Father,
As The conclusions of illusions scurry thu my mind,
All the misconception of oppression I leave behind.
The pulsating, throbbing strains viciously attacks my brain, 
Ugh Migraine.
I fall to my knees,
begging Yah, "Please,
heal me of this chest pain."
Let my cries and prayers be not in vain.
Father I need you to be like my Novocaine
and numb the pain,
help me maintain,
Father Be my Mid and Forebrain before I go insane!
Now I'm not one to sit here and ramble on.
Father I've tried reading the gospel according to John,
But the that passion, fire and desire that I once had is gone.
I miss that Spiritual atmospheric phenomenon.
It helped me to hold on and keep on keeping on.
Despite how many times I fall
Or when I get angry because I feel like you didn't answer my call
Here you are Loving me With my Imperfections, flaws and all.
Yes I have been beaten and battered and even my hopes and dreams have been shattered.
But that's the beautiful thing when it comes to the heart of matter.
From that staggered disaster
you gathered pieces of laughter splattered in a pattern
and created a masterpiece of a platter!
I'm trying to get an Understanding of why you love me the way you do.
All the persecutions, hardships, and suffering I experience in my life times two.
Even the times when I had thought about giving up and was lost without a clue.
You said, "Not so my child, For have not given up on you!
Remember I myself experienced those very same things you went thru.
My Word says, I will never leave you nor forsake you no matter what you do."
That's when the decision
hit me like a crash collision,
like a precisian
with exceptional Vision.
No longer will I be paralyzed
Or wallow in my fleshly demise.
But Yet will I get up and rise,
keep my focus on the prize
And walk in the counsel of the Wise.
After much concentration and heavy meditation,
Father our conversation led to Consolation.
I know I can no longer wait.
My flesh must I Eliminate.
My mental and Spiritual state I Shall evaluate and Rehabilitate.
Father for all you do, I value it much and appreciate,
Especially loving me at my worst state.