I want to believe as you earnestly promise it’ll never happen again.
I see the pain behind your eyes as you try to make sense of your actions.
Take the hurt, push it down, hug and move on.
Then I need you to help.
I need you to just this one time do what you’ve promised,
Please don’t argue.
Your brother is anxious, I see it.
He has a little comedy routine he uses to hide behind,
Distraction, smoke and mirrors, but the bald spot in his hair betrays him.
The pets too feel the tension. Each time we even speak,
They hide, trying to become invisible.
Always watching, always on edge.
I try to hide my frustration to protect them. And you.
Every time this happens, I feel you pull away more.
I don’t understand what has happened to us.
I will always love you, maybe that’s why feel safe to do this.
The problem is I don’t see a future anymore.
I don’t want to keep going around on this carousel.
I wake up going through the motions, waiting for the next battle.
I try to work but my mind is formulating tactics.
And I am so, so tired.
I wish I saw a light at the end of the tunnel.
I wish we could meet half way and just enjoy each other’s company like we used to.
Please come back, I’ll always wait for you.
