I love you,
most say these words are powerful.
Love is such a strong word,
to just be saying it.
I mean it,
I do not care if you look at me different.
I have BPD,
and sometimes my loyalty disgusts me.
When I feel betrayed,
I still would not try to unlove you.
I may push you off the pedestal,
but you are still good,
I cherish you.
If you need me,
I don't hesitate,
I love you!
I learned the way I love,
is the same love I be missing.
They say my love can be toxic,
I can become possessive.
I have worked ******* managing my love,
I love near and far.
Love is all I am made of,
Love is all I want to give you.
BPD and Love, it is such a complex duo if you ask me. The rollercoaster of emotions I have with my friendships & relationships eventually exhaust me. During my 20's I spent majority of the time searching for love. The struggles I faced were, I was loving the wrong person, or my possessiveness & jealousy would get in the way. This year I have entered my 30's & my goal is to redirect my love to myself. It will be hard, and you will struggle, but give yourself patience's. Learn how to really love yourself. Some advice for all of my BPD readers.