Hold me like Im still alive, and not the shell of the woman who died; a moment not yet condemned to memory. At least pretend, for the night, we're still in love; all is not lost.Hold me like a comma, like this is not the end of us. Hold me like there is tomorrow, the sunrise you look forward to. Hold me like the sea, deep, in your heart. Hold me like a piece of you was misssing before me, and will be, without me. Hold me like I hold you, like the air in my lungs, like you need me to breathe, and losing me would **** you, to breathe. Hold me like you're all in, you dont want to lose me. Hold me like an inescapable feeling, something you can't let go. Just. Hold. Me.

The only heaven I'll be sent to
is when I'm alone with you

angelic strength you give to me
even distance still it's you I seek

open wounds I leave to bleed
that's what your absence does to me

The energy from my soul dissipates
When the mind and heart communicates.
Saying I don’t love you when I do
No statement could ever be more true.
Yet the pain is there inside
Burning my heart till it is fried.
You don’t love me, but despise my being
What is it that you’re not seeing ?
I can’t move on to someone new
When the only person I’ve ever truly loved was you.

I could, write to you everyday.
I think you're so so so great.
You deserve more than just me,
To tell you that.
Everyone should be trying
To treat you like gold.
And cherish you, like diamonds.
I look into your eyes every now and then.
And, looking into them. just you.
Pull at my heartstrings.
I basically become a bit lovesick.
Your smile, wow your smile.
It's like the sun lighting up the sky.
So when I look at you,
I see everything I'll ever need.

I'm trapped in the web
Spun from dreamt up illusions
Victim to none other
Than my hopeless delusions
Lured in by the same temptations
Agony is unmet expectations
Like an insect entranced by the light
Trying to escape the depths of night
I was drawn in once again
Perhaps this time will be the end
Hope was a deadly misinterpretation
Lost amongst unspoken translation
And I knew this all along
As I traveled towards the sirens song
I can't break free although I try
you're a spider, and I'm a fly
It's your normal way to be
As chaos starts to strangle me
The pain I wish I could not feel
Consumed by fear, the struggle's real
It's almost over so I'll say goodbye
The dark creeps in and I'm ready to die
Just when I thought I was fading away
I realized it's just Valentine's Day.

You know, I thought I had an idea of love,
an idea of things I would do with my first proper girlfriend,
and it went like this:

Telling her she's beautiful everyday,
writing poems for her as often as I can and reciting them to her.
Pulling that studying line : where I tell her I need help studying, but all I want is to make out on my bed.
Trying to make her laugh as often as I can, just so I can see her smile.
Confiding in her.
Holding her close when she cries,
holding her hand and tightening my grip when she's staring at another guy.
Making out with her under the stars,
telling her my life story and my daily struggles.
Treating her like a queen without expecting a king-like treatment in return.
Telling her that I love her as often as I can,
spontaneously asking her for walks or dates, just because texting or skype doesn't cut it for me.
Teasing her,
tickling her,
hugging her,
pleasing her,
kissing her...

The list goes on... but now I realise that all this just proves I am a hopeless romantic and that relationships won't be as easy and flowery and romantic as I've always thought.