Dear friend, I know you're in so much sorrow and I know how you always try to fake a smile. But please, make it more authentic? I would know because you and I, have been a part of each other, inseparable, on the same rhythm.

Dear friend, it has been a year since we last spoke about our whereabouts, it has been a year since we forgot each other. You chose to be with people who have the capacity to not ask if things have been great for you, or not. But I chose to ask, because I choose you.

Dear friend, I was always wondering how life could be so mundane, more so that death itself doesn't feel as threatening as losing you. You kept the easy ones, but gave away your friend who has always been there during Saturday nights where you would cry your heart out over some one who treated you like *******.

Dear friend, I did everything to make you stay, convinced you to not go back from the hands that hurt you. You have been addicted to your own destruction. And you chose him, over me. And I am sorry, I am not him. I refuse to be someone I am not.

Dear friend, I hate seeing you go, but if you really must, please come back. Please come back with my heart. And please, when you come back, never take it again. *Because I refuse to be your pseudo lover, I refuse to be unnoticed. I refuse to be refused of love.

What is it that makes you tick?
You sligh fox, always talking so slick.
What is it that makes you so fine?
I spend all day thinking about how to make you mine.
What is it that draws me to you?
You make me feel so high, I can't function at this altitude.
What is it about you that makes me feel?
My illusion of you makes me think this could be real.
Maybe it's the way you aimlessly walk my way.
Maybe it's for the simple fact that your smile can make my day.
Maybe I'm just crazy to actually think,
that I too, can make your heart sink.
Maybe I'm in to deep,
and now I can't help but over think.
I over think your actions and words.
I just can't help it,
This unknown grey area is definatley getting on my nerves.

I noticed you at first day
But you didn't

First time we talked,
you thought that I was funny
We talked a lot from that day
And you recognized me as your friend
It was really a move,
because I started to liking you

You looked at me in the eyes,
with those brown iris.
You were sad that day,
and you said
that I am your best friend
Your sad eyes blinded me
I was drowning,
but you were too sad to see

Morning came
I realized your words
"best friend"
It was a sign
that I should stop my fight

When our knees touched
I didn't even know
to move my body or not.
Intoxicating,
and terrifying at the same time

It was December
We were close than ever
You wished me happy birthday
And I almost said
"I love you too"

I knew it from the start
this whole thing could really pained me
"you can't be friend with someone you love"
But still,
dumb girl, do the dumb things