The one I Iove so very much
Her mind excites me
Her beauty outshines
I didn't know love could be so divine.
So unique and magical
Fulfilling all my dreams
Holding her in my arms
I made her a promise
That I'd always take care
My love is undeniable
Yet i do her such harm
I don't do anything that will make her heart sing
I'm lost in myself
Destructive and misguided
I'm not the someone she needs
Not healthy or strong
She needs things that I no longer provide
She sees the destruction of my mind
I steal her childhood
Day by day
Stuck in my own selfish needs
I made her a promise
That I did not keep
This will forever be what she remembers
Please
Please!
Don't end up like me.

When you've fallen & broken with tears in your eyes                                  
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      and no words can be spoken to make it all right                                                            ­  
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When you're on the floor, bent down on your knees,                                                           ­ 
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confident & assured you're right where you should be                                                        
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When you beat yourself up just like you always do,                                                              ­  
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convincing yourself of that is what's killing you                                              
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Get up, take a deep breath & stop all of this                                                
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before you throw yourself down into the abyss                                  
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   You can choose who it is that you want to be,                                                          
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throw away all your fears & vanities                                                         ­         
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Don't invest in people who hold you down,                                              
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the clock is not just a ticking sound                                                            ­      
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Act, change, before it is too **** late                                                             ­ 
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  Reclaim your power, renew your faith                                                        
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  You are the master of your own destiny,                                                         ­   
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rise up & shine, set yourself free

You didn't confess when confronted with your lies,                                      
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how quickly I regret ever letting you in my life                                      
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  You think you were so smart, leading me along,                                            
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an actor playing a part, convincing me I'm wrong                                                          
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Making me think it's me being paranoid,                                            
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since then, I am done, it's you I now avoid                                                            ­                
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So now, you say that you are missing me,                                                    
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  like that will somehow change my mind,                                              
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I think it is time for you to see,                                                             ­ 
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these eyes of mine aren't blind                                                            ­                  
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You are telling all our friends,                                                         ­   
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you don't know what you did,                                                             ­               
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when will all your lying end?                                                             ­           
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You­ treated me like ****                                                             ­               
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  It isn't up to me to tell                                                             ­                           
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everyone my side                                                             ­                                     
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 You just wait, you'll see                                                              ­                          
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the truth you can't hide

A stranger who doesn’t fit anywhere on Earth
Something about her skin
Too dark to be white
Not dark enough to be her heritage.

A girl whose skin is too light
Her hair not black enough
A girl wearing American clothes
Living the American way.

Little mixed girl
Who doesn’t even speak the language
Of her grandfather

Fake little mixed girl
Who talks about being Indian
To actually feel connected
To her culture

Yet, she knows it’s a lie
She doesn’t celebrate Diwali.
She doesn’t know traditions

Little mixed girl
Who isn’t ethnic enough
To get offended over slurs

Fake little mixed girl
Who knows her ancestors
Look down upon her
Whitewashed self
And feel nothing but shame.

Fake little mixed girl
Pretending to be something she’s not.

I have heard broken glass before
I have heard the cracks and snaps
Echoing in an empty room
A deafening accident
But not even that
Can be as loud as a broken heart
Shattered on purpose

Use me—
whatever you need,
I’ll bend, I’ll bleed.
Take the best of me
and then the rest of me—
I won’t make a sound.

Be selfish,
be ruthless,
drain me drop by drop.
I won’t ask for kindness,
I won’t ask you to stop.

My heart is not a temple,
it’s a tool in your hand.
Worn and splintered—still,
I’ll try to understand.

You don’t owe me softness,
you don’t owe me grace.
Just don’t disappear.
Just don’t erase
me.

I don’t need love,
not even your name,
just let me exist
as a player in your game.

I’ll carry the weight,
I’ll silence the ache,
if you only let me
be something you take.

Don’t return a favor,
don’t pretend to care—
just keep me around,
just leave me there.

Use me,
bruise me,
I won’t mind.
I’d rather be broken
than left behind.

There's a long & winding road,                                                            ­
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 where for the price of your soul,                                                            ­            
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depression will give birth                                                            ­                                                 
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 It costs whatever you are worth                                                            ­                                                
   If you chose to reside,                                                          ­                              
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you better swallow your pride,                                                           ­         
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It'll take the strut from your stride,                                                          ­  
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possess you from the inside                                                           ­                   
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It lives to take your voice,                                                           ­               
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make you surrender your choice                                                           ­             
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To dry all of your tears,                                                           ­                         
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pain is music to its ears                                                             ­                   
                                                                ­                                                        It gathers it's strength,                                                        ­                            
                                                                ­                                                   
during your quick descent                                                          ­                                                                 ­                                     
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As you slowly wind down,                                                            ­                  
                                              ­                                                                 ­       
no solutions to be found                                                            ­                            
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The road is covered in vines,                                                           ­                   
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growing fast over time                                                             ­                     
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don't find your way there,                                                           ­                         
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  it's the road to despair