Not promised life
yet take from it
assigned to a station
and not far to get
all ponderance is infinite
as human I remain
seeking joy
and clarity of life
beyond my early stain.

The act of not believing;
not believing in one’s actions,
or participation,
in a world that preexists
the conflicted Self.

all bes good
as belief says it so

all bes not good
as belief says it so

all bes as is
as belief says it so

all bes more
as belief says it so

all bes
as belief says its not

Do not cling to me
and our past together
instead stand back to see
the me still to be
a flowing brook
with floating leaves
and other pieces of earth.

I believed in her like
She was the woman I loved
Who told me that she loved me
Or
The suit and tie
Telling me that they would contact me again
After that last job interview
Or
The manager who told me
I did a good job
And I was indispensable

What if God was a man, like mortal beings
He would be a man feared by kings
He would awe the world by doing unspeakable things,
The world will know of his name
Atheist would try but science can’t explain.

If God was a man,
He would seat on the throne of dilemma
Trying to answer the prayers of every man
The common man who prays for good health
For business sake, the coffin maker prays for death,
The common man who prays for peace in his place
The lawyer who prays for his case.

If God was a man,
One that I can touch this close
If man propose, how dare he dispose!
Isn’t he human like us?
Why does he find joy in our loss?

If God was a man,
Would he also fall in love?
Would that explain the birth of his son?
When he dies where will he go?
Would he tell us world secrets no one knows?

If God was a man,
Would we see him as God?
Would you believe if he performed miracles as God?
Or if he spoke in a heavenly voice?
Would you rather think
he is just a man seeking fame by force

you have to have some belief
in yourself
without arrogance
hold yourself against the hurricane of life
lean into it
but try to make it natural
when asked about your achievements
speak quietly succinctly
don’t waste your words
on mindless fantasies be honest
but at the same time be a little proud
mention the good points
leave out the embarrassing bits
talk about the struggle
they like that
to see you’ve suffered
earned it
be a voice in a room
not a face in the crowd
be remembered when you walk away
let the wind carry you
under your tiny wings

In the darkest of nights ,
In the prettiest of hells ,
I have nurtured myself,
Then what is it that stops me, now??
To my horrors ,I realise,
Non but myself is the culprit this time!!
What you do when you're trapped
in your own mind ????
and ,
I am actually trapped this time !!
I thought I am strong
Coz I fought the entire world for my beliefs
But what i do ,
If my beliefs start shaking
I've been feeling this earthquake recently,
  So what you do when you feel ,
  this earthquake in you ?
  I've been weighing each pro and con
  But I feel it entraps me evermore ..
  So what to do ??
  Maybe having a new belief system,
  Might help me
  But then what about my previous beliefs?
  Could all these belief systems ,
  go together I wonder ?
  I think they can
  So I'll  let you know
  What it feels to have,
  multiple belief systems altogether
  But for know I'll go
  Find another belief system for me

The flowing lava,
destroys,
burns,
hurts,
kills,
overwhelms,
turns my blood to molten magma,
and yet makes feel so alive.

                                                                             -storm-