Take.
Your.
****.
Memories.
Outta.
My.
Head.

I hit,
Scratch,
Cut

At all the imperfections that line my body.

There is a monster
Swimming around
Bumping into my organs
Scratching up my insides

It gets stronger every day
Wanting to get out

It points out the flaws
Makes me weak
Shreds up my hope

I'm weak.

I lay in bed at night
Pondering the thought of sleep
Deep, deep sleep

Thinking if I had the courage to,
I would be long gone by now

But something makes me hold on
I don't know what it is;

But some days,
I wish it would just let go.

-e.w.

With all these things that have happened
Why haven't you left me
Because you want to save me...help me
Please there is no turning back now
Once I have made up my mind that is the end of that
No changing
No nothing
I don't want to see you get hurt by my choices
Everything I say will happen
MY life is over
YOUR life is not done
I don't want to hurt anymore
I don't want to feel anything anymore
My feelings don't matter anymore
I don't matter
You have to live
Live for me
So I can have someone I trust to take care of my family and friends
You are the person I care about
But I have to end it here
No going back
So just leave me alone
Just go away

You try so hard to be like them
to have the perfect boyfriend.
the perfect grades, perfect everything
But that's not how it works sweetie.
You need to stop pushing.
You're losing everything.
I know what it's like.
I've forgotten what it feels like to be loved
You don't have to.
Everything will be okay.

Please just pack your ****, take the gifts back, and ******* leave.