i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i didnt mean to make you sad
oh god, im a bad friend

i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry
i didnt mean to talk too loud
i didnt mean to startle you
i didnt mean to take up too much space
i didnt mean
i didnt mean
i didnt mean
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry

I'm feeling empty without her depressed and I'm becoming more stressed with each un answered text I know I'm annoying and this is just toying with my emotions I'm glad she's happy without me I just wish she couldn't replace me.. But I'm replaceable and I'm never good enough, I never will be I'm destined to be with my anxiety throwing up unexpectedly... Just wishing I was acepted for me..

they don't teach you the hardest things in life, maybe that's what makes them so hard
they don't tell you how all it takes is one glance into someone's eyes and your whole world before that moment disintegrates
they don't tell you how when that person closes their eyes you're the one left blind
they don't tell you how when their lips part to speak your heart skips a thousand beats
with the impatient desire of hearing what they're about to say
they don't tell you how that person won't stay
they don't tell you because they think that nobody would want to grow up waiting for that to happen to them
but the truth is i would grow up a thousand times and experience the moments with that person
because it was worth being able to communicate with them
and ill tell you something they certainly don't tell you
i would **** for those bad feelings back
because at least then i actually felt something

here it is
i was trying to get better
for a while
but it never lasts
nothing lasts forever
were once words that comforted me
because it meant
that this ache in my chest
wouldnt last forever
but nothing lasts forever
i won't last forever
that ache in my chest
could be there my whole life
and still not last forever
now i find comfort
in the things that once scared me
like driving on the wrong side of the road
or tearing myself apart
once you start the timer on a bomb
you cant stop it
dont listen to the movies
you cant stop it
and you tried to stop it
but all you did was drown out the ticking
with your melodic voice
and i almost let you stay
but no matter how selfish i am
i know i don't deserve you
and i'm still self destructing
the bomb hasn't stopped ticking
nothing lasts forever, though
so one day the countdown will stop
but i could have that bomb
ticking down
strapped on my chest
for my whole life
and it still wouldn't last forever

I think about you,
I wish I didn't,
I hate myself for what happened,
You make me out to be the villain in your story,
But I’m not,
My heart is breaking,
The hardest thing is looking into your eyes,
And you just walking away,
Life caught up with you,
You stand so tall and mighty,
Yet inside you’re slowly dying,
The pain is unreal,
No one seems to care,
I’m supposed to act fine and **** it up,
But that is not fair,
I wanna be able to grieve,
I didn't just lose my boyfriend,
I lost my best friend,
People think I'm dramatic,
Why is it dramatic to be heartbroken,
I still hurt to this day,
My heart constantly throbs,
Tears stream from my eyes,
As I try not to cry.

That moment
     when you look into his eyes
  You see past the scars
          the hurts, the pains
      And all the lies
           through to their core
  feeling and knowing a love
         stronger
    than you've ever felt before
  finally realizing
        You found the one
you've been searching your whole life for
        blessed with their presence
   And doomed to love them forever
as they are the reason for your existence

            That moment
    in which you can feel
        your life change forever
  that you've finally reached
              the end
      of a long, tiring endeavor

     That moment
  does not hit everyone
            the same
but if you miss that chance
    it could mean a life filled with
           endless pain

Don't say you love me, unless
you have seen me dancing in the rain.
I know you won't mean it, until
you've also seen me struggling through pain.

"I easily fell in love with you,"* He said looking straight into her eyes, petrifying her. *"And you don't know how much it scares me."