what do i do when

the skin on my chest isn’t
real enough to be
opened?


what do i do when
the buttons of my blouse
don’t fasten so
you can’t pull them apart?


what do i do when
the heart inside my body isn’t
really beating at all and
everything is rotting away and dead?



what do i do when




there really isn’t anything wrong with my head?

babe,
i lied.
sometimes i wish that i
just died.

darling,
help me cry because
my usefulness is a lie.

baby,
get down because
i sure ain’t feeling up.

honey,
come closer, please—
can’t you see that i’m
falling apart at the seams?

my love, my life,


come near and don’t leave because






i am truly in need.

hey baby,
don’t get yourself down.
it’s okay because
nothing was wrong with me today.

hey darling,
i’m alright!
nothing ever happened to me
last night!

hey honey,
don’t get yourself down ‘cause
nothing ever went down with me.





i’m sorry,
babe it’s nothing,
really.

you’re so close—
i can feel you under my skin.


you’re permeating my bones,
my ever sweet rose.


you’re so close—
i love how i can grab you so easily,
and put you in an exotic comatose.


i love your scent—
your fresh scent of regret.


you’re so close—
if i could just have one more turn...


you lay on the floor,
appetizing and deluxe.


i just want
one bite.


you’re so close—
so close that i could just crumple you up,
my ever sweet rose.


you’re fine-tuned to a
fatal perfection,
my dying rose.


let my water sink into your pores and
permeate your cells.


i shall bring you back to life.


you’re so close—
so close i could just touch you and
rip your heart out,
my lifeless rose.


oh, rose,
don’t go.


you’re so far—
after all,
you’re dead.
a jumbled bouquet




hanging out of my arm.

i’m scared that




love can just



wash out like a stain




freshly imprinted

in the delicate fabric










of time.

tell me,



what is love?


is it just



empty words and


lost promises?




is it something they say to keep




their girls under control and





to keep them from




leaving?




is it something they say to get their




fill of *** or





is it something with meaning?






i would never show you this because






you’d probably break up with me.

darling,

i



finally feel comfortable with my naked body...








i truly would like you to see.