romance & love
   holding hands
wandering eyes
   stealing kisses
unanswered calls
laughing at unfunny jokes
canceled dates
smiling when you want to puke
hurtful words
cringing at a touch
crying alone
old photos moved to drawers
single
winking at the sun
free
   the end
     it feels good.

...i feel the solidness
of the day
holding me steady...

...until a strong wind
of memories
knocks me off
my feet.

now
you're a fleeting breeze
a swift sensation
gliding past my face
just out of touch
i can feel the softness
but the comforting warmth,
the protection you'd provided
is long gone
and i am left
with the memories
of what could have been.

the lies that hurt the most
are the ones you tell yourself

throwing myself
onto the wave of normalcy
being spit out
to ride the thunderstorm
of uniqueness...

a portal is lifted
allowing words to escape
from mind
         to paper

with the
            tumbling
                          of
                               text
   i am filled with a release

chains
   that have bound my thoughts,
are broken
and expressive prose
fills the pages

writers block
no longer suffocates me
and i am filled
with the sweet breath
of poetry.

feeling your breath
upon my neck
i urge my eyes to close
as i picture the you
i've imagined
in my dreams

as your breathing grows more intense
i'm lost in a fantasy
of pretend love;
picturing daisies
and blue skies
gentle rains
and swaying trees

and later, as you lie close to me
softly snoring
i imagine that happiness
fills my weary heart.