being filled with an emotion
so intense
it forces tears from my eyes
and envelopes me
in a soft thickness
of comfort...


...finally finding peace.

i don't want something
that rhymes
what i want is a few words
that cause goosebumps.

skip through me
and pass
don't offer me hope
with a willful glance
i won't reciprocate
i won't respond

the love i seek
is buried deep
within myself

and that is the hardest love to find.

you have a beauty
that i cannot grasp
me, with you,
isn't possible

uncomfortableness
fills me

when i imagine your arms
around me
and even though my body
craves your touch
my mind
isn't ready for it.

the days blur
into nights
and i'm still
me

assuming position
wanting assurance
hoping for flattery
that rarely comes

the mirror has betrayed me

the once bright eyes
that stared back
have turned into
criticizing
judgemental
globes of hypocrisy

i harbor a dislike

i cradle a disgust

the love, built over years,
has crumbled down
after just one glance
into the
familiar.

writing
gives my mind
a voice.

write me a word


          ...show me your heart.