i asked if you loved me
and you said yes
but i do not know
if yes is yes
or yes is no
because you wrote
your own dictionary
and it is not written
in any language
that my heart can
understand

Life is hard, sometimes all that we can do is crawl.
But after all that you been through still here you are.
An overcomer, because Christ Spirit dwells within you.
There are so many hurting people in this world right now.
Ready to fall, just stand still or crawl, ask God to reveal himself.
So that you may gain a Living Savior whom wants to rescue you.
Things might seem impossible right now , but Christ can change.
The situation that you are in change it from impossible to possible.
He can place the right people in your life whom can emotionally support you.
Or he can place the right people to help you a different way too.

As I lay on the floor
I think of you more
Listen to music
Our graduation pic
Your brother took
The school's year book
All these things come to mind
My heart just won't leave behind
The times we shared together
Our poem always & forever
I wondered why were you so quiet
Yours eye's spoke you can't deny it
Cuz I won't buy it & always hide it
I still remember your shoes
Under the cap & gown gold & blue
I wanted a picture with you
Only you kept a picture of me&you;
I lost my fam in the crowd
Everyone taking flicks outloud
I searched couldn't find you boo
I had my Pachuco Zuit Suit Traje
My hat, feather, & stacy adams
Tuxedos, bow & tie & the hat on
Everyone celebrating elevating
I was trying so hard to find you
In a blink of an eye I lost you
I hope you still have that picture
Middle school graduation picture
Me & you smiling at your brother
My sweet lover
I could just imagine your mother
When she was younger
Your idea of impressing
Was irrelevant & never stressing
Unique one of a kind
You shine I had to make you mine
Just waiting never caring
If your entertaining or ever dating
You had weird friends
Wit awesomeness that never ends
Real funny, outgoing, nerdy
Never did you wrong or *****
Good old times pizza loca
If only they gave out coca cola
Chocolate milk was good enough
Much fun though times got rough
I had a blast, and a crazy journey
To know you, a life meant for you

if you can hold her hand
without feeling torn at the idea that
one day, you may never feel its warmth again,
then you are not in love with her

do not keep muttering worn-out
i-love-you's
under your breath
just to fill the empty spaces in the air
even if they no longer beat with passion,
do not try to explain the thousands of reasons
why you love her
if you don't

because if you can live with the thought
of her name being engraved in
someone else's mind,
her fingers running through someone else's hair,
the thought of those beautiful words
whispered into lips that don't belong to you
then you have never loved her, even for a second

and the bitter fragments
of the love she gave away
were never worthy to
belong to you

It's done you won the war
You don't want me anymore
You kissed other guys
You fed me only lies
& all I did was give it another try
Show you why I would die
To be by your side to ride or die
Until the end but you chose him
I guess you let him win
Kissed him with sin
No love and no glove
That's fine stay with him
Playing hard to be mine
To him you made it easy
Faker acting all cheesy
Go ahead love him with lies
Cuz your heart knows where it lies
I'm done you won have fun
With the boy that means nothing
The girl that means nothing
Expect I won't die
Give your all to that other guy
I guess he's your lovers lullabie
Goodnight sleep tight