12/14/16

Wednesday, February 17, 2016
4:36 PM

Im short and chubby
My nails are short and stubby
I like to sing, country music,too
Learning gospels songs I do,
Wanna learn to play guitar, oh the sound
A sound like mine, cant be found
Keep your eyes wide open all the time
On a back road and you just might find
Fun n love and laughs on a back road

8-27-15

 I am random, unpredictable, kind, compassionate. caring, scared, brave, a walking contradiction. I love JESUS. I love so many. and care so deep yet all the time. I quietly weep. just on the inside. so I wont bother no one. I am happy and fine. mostly all the time. I love to talk in rhyme. seriously all the time. I make up stuff inside my mind. which is crazy cause its so hard to unwind. did you know first you catch and then you throw (tlc) people who know so much. are those w...** cannot seem to touch. the ground in time, we live so high above this world. not better than one. just saved by love. people talk , people walk, but people pull away. its too hard some times to do what others think is right, to just stay. im just making this up as I go. (writing in real time new poem, I spose.) my mind is always swayin to and fro...just cant sometimes make it stop...old, sad,bad memories always seem to pop. my heart is sick my heart is sore, it feels like I cant do this anymore. (wondered where this line would go) its just writing, just keep on fighting, look for solutions to all this mind pollution. (dang sometimes don't know where this all comes from.) thanks for reading if you read it all..its a brand new poem..just made it.. thank ya'll and good night

I changed my clothes brush my hair
Put on my make up to change my face
Play the part, play the role, it s not like they'll ever know

Pretend to be what they want you to be.
Please don’t look to close you might see the real me.
Is it really that hard. To like this face..

Now now don’t talk like that stay in your place
Do what is asked so nicely of you
Don’t say no, or they might not like you

GOD knows my struggle my pain is real
Oh come on how bad can it be, just deal
You don’t know my pain; is mine, not yours

Its not as easy or plain as you think
But when you are constantly told ..
Nevermind, just go on just blink, just breathe

The sun will come out tomorrow
Hold on pain ends
No one knows…no no now wait yes they do

Random words not much meaning
Unless you know how much it helps cleaning
When you can only make it go away when you
Wash, clean, wipe, scrub, wash, clean, wipe scrub, wash clean wipe scrub

Some may know not all do tho.
It’s a battle we fight on a daily.
Its not much to some but to us is crazy.

Now the flipside. No its not that
I like your face, but it looks nice with something
A touch of makeup …don’t cry about it geeze
It aint like im asking you to lose weight

Is it really that big a deal to do what is small in their mind
Even tho it’s a mountain in mine..
Try to help them see, make them understand

Yeah good luck there. You wont see them try ..
Wait wait hold on there  you know **** well
Its trying for them too. So why you go all off
I don’t know cause it makes me feel crazy inside
When my outside isnt good enough…
And I don’t wanna make it be attractable to anyone
For your reason or whatever I don’t want people to look at me
I don’t want them to see me I want to be and stay just invisible….
Just outta sight invisible. So no one might
Take a look at the damage and the scars
They are deep, they are not gone. They stay always

Don’t dwell move on don’t think, don’t breathe.
Just be still do the devils will
Bend fold break do what they drill in to you
Just blink, just breathe nothing else.
They might just see what all hiding behind your walls…

When JESUS COMES TO call those who suffer for HIS name
You will wish you were one of us by and by.
Thank you LORD
For your grace
Your love
Your mercy
Your help
Your strength
You are my all with out YOU I am nothing.

I have a friend she's seems like royalty,
I call her a queen,
Her beauty demands to be seen
Her love is sure, and true.
Through whatever, she'll never leave you.
Her eyes, are like amber, and smooth, and deep
When she takes you as a friend, you are hers to keep.
Her prayers are heard from our Father, above.
She is true, to Him, and the one He gave her to love.

NO WHERE NEAR, YET SO CLOSE
NOT SO FAR, BUT OUT OF REACH
PRAYED SO HARD, TO NO AVAIL
GOD PLEASE HELP US TO PREVAIL!!
THIS WORLD IS SO HARD
ITS NO LUCK, ITS NOT IN THE CARDS
YOU CHOOSE YOUR OWN PATH
THE GOOD OR THE BAD
GRANTED, OUT OF CONTROL
SO MUCH IS, WITH NO WAY TO CHANGE
WHAT IS OURS, WE DON’T REALIZE OUR POWER
OUR VOICE, WE CAN SAY NO.
OUR HEART, WHO WE LOVE.
OUR MIND, WHAT WE THINK
OUR ACTIONS, HOW TREAT OTHERS
OUR PLANS, WHEN WE DO WHAT WE CAN
OUR QUESTIONS, WHY WE NEVER STOP ASKING
NEVER STOP BELIEVING, NEVER STOP DREAMING
DON’T LET THIS COLD WORLD. PUT YOU DOWN.
YOU HAVE TO STAY ON TOP.
YOU HAVE SOME A LITTLE POWER TO STOP.
DO WHAT YOU CAN, IF YOU SEE HELP.
THEN HELP.
JUST TRY.

I AM A SINNER SAVED BY GRACE. JUST LIKE YOU.
NOT THAT I CAN DO
WHATEVER I WANT TO
I AM SUPPOSE TO BE
A LIGHT AND LOVE TO
SHOW NOT JUST YOU BUT ME
HOW MUCH GOD'S LOVE CAN LEAD
HE IS THERE BEFORE HE HAS THE PLAN
YOU KNOW WHY BECAUSE HE IS THE GREAT I AM

I CANNOT IMAGINE , THE ANGUISH YOU FEEL
I HAVE NO IDEA HOW YOU CAN DEAL
I DO NOT AND CANNOT UNDERSTAND
I KNOW ALL YOU CAN REALLY DO IS HOLD HIS HAND
THIS IS YOUR CHILD,
THINKING AWHILE .
I CANNOT IMAGINE, GOING THROUGH THIS FIGHT,
NOW HOW MANY SLEEPLESS NIGHTS
HOW MUCH TIME YOU SPENT ON YOUR KNEES
HOW MANY TIMES SAYING OH GOD PLEASE
I DO NOT UNDERSTAND , THERE IS NO REASON
NEVER , IS THIS GOOD. NO MATTER THE SEASON
ASKING FOR THIS MIRACLE, JUST  OPEN YOUR EYES
HEARING IGNORANCE, PEOPLE, HUMANS, THEIR LIES
THE TRUTH YOU KNOW, YOU WERE THE ONE WHO WAS THERE
THEY DO NOT KNOW THIS PAIN, THIS GUILT, THAT ONLY YOU CAN BEAR
THE WHAT IF 'S, THE COULD HAVE'S , THE WHY DIDN'T I'S
THE HOPE THAT LIES DEEP IN YOUR HEART, THE BURNING TEARS IN YOUR EYES
ENDLESS PRAYERS , AND HOPE S AND DREAMS
WILL THIS ENDLESS NIGHTMARE EVER END? IT SEEMS,
IT FEELS LIKE ETERNITY, JUST WAITING, HOPING,
COFFEE, MORE COFFEE, DEALING, COPING,
SLEEP, MY EYES, MY HEAD, GOD WHY
STAY AWAKE, KEEP PRAYING, KEEP HOPING
JUST BREATHE, JUST BREATHE, WHY
WHY , HIM, WHY THIS, WHY NOW
GOD, WHY, GOD WHY THIS, HOW??
WHAT CAN I DO? WHAT DO I DO?
PLEASE, PLEASE THIS IS MY LITTLE BOY!!
THERE IS NO DESCRIPTION, ITS NOT FEELING BLUE.
FEELING EMPTY, LOST, WANTING, TO
JUST SEE HIS SMILE, HEAR HIS LAUGH, SEE HIS EYES
JUST NEED A MIRACLE, GOD PLEASE
I CANNOT IMAGINE, I DON’T UNDERSTAND
I CANNOT IMAGINE, I'LL BE THERE I'LL HOLD YOUR HAND
DON’T GIVE UP, DON’T GIVE UP, JUST KEEP HOPING
THANK YOU FOR THE PEOPLE WHO ARE HERE , COPING
I CANNOT IMAGINE, BUT THESE ARE JUST WORDS
FORGIVE ME IF THEY HURT, I DO NOT MEAN TO
I JUST THOUGHT I COULD, TRY JUST WORDS OF
GOD PLEASE HEAR ME, LISTEN , LOOK DOWN FROM ABOVE
HELP HIM, OPEN HIS EYES, HEAL HIM, GOD PLEASE

GOD CAN YOU HEAR ME, GOD CAN YOU HEAR ME ?PLEASE??


I LOVE YOU MY DEAR. I AM STILL HOPING AND PRAYING.
LOVE ALWAYS, LOVE HOPE WEBB

Thursday, June 23, 2016
8:47 PM

I chose this one man over the other
The one loved me like no other
And it quietly tears me up inside
A large part of my heart and love has died
Another goes on. And tries so hard
To go on loving with a heart that is scarred

To live is risk, to lose is to gain
Some times love is more pain
If there were a quiet place to go
I would but no matter, I try, this other love must grow

To start again, to remember why
To not give up, to quit and cry
I need to move on and this for me is real hard
Im carrying on with a heart that is charred

I care so much and so deep
Its hard to get any good sleep
When I still at night
Give my thoughts to where there
Is no light

But the love that was ,
was what I thought was real
I have to give it up because
The other had to much for me to deal
With that , I say goodbye

Just in word not thought or heart
For in that other, is that part
Others didn’t get to see, but me
His love was entirely too much and it only consumed me.

Thursday, June 23, 2016
1:10 AM

NO WHERE NEAR, YET SO CLOSE
NOT SO FAR, BUT OUT OF REACH
PRAYED SO HARD, TO NO AVAIL
GOD PLEASE HELP US TO PREVAIL!!
THIS WORLD IS SO HARD
ITS NO LUCK, ITS NOT IN THE CARDS
YOU CHOOSE YOUR OWN PATH
THE GOOD OR THE BAD
GRANTED, OUT OF CONTROL
SO MUCH IS, WITH NO WAY TO CHANGE
WHAT IS OURS, WE DON’T REALIZE OUR POWER
OUR VOICE, WE CAN SAY NO.
OUR HEART, WHO WE LOVE.
OUR MIND, WHAT WE THINK
OUR ACTIONS, HOW TREAT OTHERS
OUR PLANS, WHEN WE DO WHAT WE CAN
OUR QUESTIONS, WHY WE NEVER STOP ASKING
NEVER STOP BELIEVING, NEVER STOP DREAMING
DON’T LET THIS COLD WORLD. PUT YOU DOWN.
YOU HAVE TO STAY ON TOP.
YOU HAVE SOME A LITTLE POWER TO STOP.
DO WHAT YOU CAN, IF YOU SEE,A NEED HELP.
THEN HELP.
JUST TRY.

6/28/16

Sin tastes good on my lips
Man is this where I lose it
Sweet is sin on my lips
Words that hurt
Smoke that burns
Sugar that coats
****** words
Drinks that despise
Thoughts that criticize
Why does sin taste so good on my lips
When it hurts
When it burns
When it coats
When it turns
When its ugly
When its mean
IT makes NO SENSE
Can anyone explain
Why we try to condense
Instead of commence
To being kind
Just living to unwind
Helping others when you see a need
Instead of kicking them n watching them bleed
Why does sin taste so good
Why do I feel so misunderstood
I cant take this
Inside my head
Some one help cant you hear
I just want some bliss
I don’t want to feel so dead
Do you see my silent tears
When my day is done
I don’t want at the set of sun
I would rather be not riled
Or to feel so ragged n wild
This ache and burn
Makes my stomach sick, and turn
Will I always feel this way
Don’t worry tomorrow is a new day