Lonely days and lonely nights, days and nights without you in them. My world is empty and incomplete I don't think I will ever be complete.  You walked out  on me without saying a word and you broke my heart  in two pieces and shook up my world. I gave you all I had to give but you were taker and not a giver. I needed an incurable romantic like me some one to share my private world with me.  I did not want high school *** with you oh no no slam, blam, thank you ma'am. I wanted a romantic make love and cuddling but all you thought was about yourself. It was in and out that was it. How more selfish can a man get.  You did not try to share my world with me  I don't understand why you even stuck with me.  You take off and never say a word like Patrick and Bobby said you were a coward to do so.
You call yourself a Christian but that is far from the truth. You cheated on me behind my back, womanized, and were a player and worse a **** Peter Pan.  My days are lonely and nights are too but one day I know I will find the right man again to share my private incurable romantic world with me too.

Looking for a home, nothing special but something I can call my own. Where I can write and be alone unless I invite my friends over and have a good time with them. Well I can have a pet cat once again, after he made me lose everything two and half years ago and never did anything to help to get back on his. All I want is my life and concentrate on my health. I am doing that once step at a time with the help of my therapist and psychiatrist and those friends who have not deserted me just  because I am mentally ill. I hated being homeless but he seems to think it is a joke going from one church to another from November 1 to March 31 of 2015  at the Room in  Inn and living off  $189.00 of food stamps. Maybe I will get lucky and I will get my own place by June because the weather cold and at least I am safe and off the streets now.
I am tired of being homeless I just want a small place of my own.

Looking for my soul-mate
oh where could he be,
I don't want another man that will cheat on me,
I don't want another who just thinks about ***,
I want my soul-mate to love for what I am.
I am far from perfect and I know I have many flaws
But I have a heart of gold and some call me an angel sent from down above,
I don' want a man who will use me for my money, I want a man who is incurable romantic. He loves romantic movies, and wants to travel back in time.  I want to feel that romantic love one last time.
I want a man with no attachments to him at all, I just want him and me and that is simply all.
I want my soul-mate to share my faith, and understand when I am out and down. He will understand my pain and I will be there for him not forsake him.
Looking for my soul-mate I doubt I will ever find my soul-mate.

Love Me For What I Am Lyrics
from Horizon

We fell in love
On the first night that we met
Together we've been happy
I have very few regrets

The ordinary problems
Have not been hard to face
But lately little changes
Have been slowly taking place

You're always finding
Something is wrong in what I do
But you can't rearrange my life
Because it pleases you

You've got to love me for what I am
For simply being me
Don't love me for what you intend
Or hope that I will be

And if you're only using me
To feed your fantasy
You're really not in love
So let me go, I must be free

If what you want
Isn't natural for me
I won't pretend to keep you
What I am, I have to be

The picture of perfection
Is only on your mind
For all your expectations
Love can never be designed

We either take each other
For everything we are
Or leave the life we've made behind
And make another start

You've got to love me for what I am
For simply being me
Don't love me for what you intend
Or hope that I will be

And if you're only using me
To feed your fantasy
You're really not in love
So let me go, I must be free

And if you're only using me
To feed your fantasy
You're really not in love
So let me go, I must be free

You're really not in love
So let me go, I must be fre

Man of my dreams where may you be? Are you an incurable romantic like me. Do you want to come and share my private world with me and live in the turn of the 20th century with me. Where we can take walks on warm summer nights and swing  on the swings in a city park, and in the winter cuddle   in front of the TV and watch an old fashion romantic show together. Where *** is not spoken until you ask me to marry you, and our marriage night with be magical. I have only found three such men now and never again they are with my Lord now. Until which time I can find my incurable romantic I am happy to remain as I am.

Missing is you is all I do. You were always there for me when I need someone you see. I could tell you what was on my mind and you would hold me in arms and let me cry.  You told me I would be all right, but I shook my head and sighed.  We are together for so many years since 1979.
We were supposed to be married and yet we decided it wasn't meant to be and we remained closed friends rather enemies.  I was your family and you were mine and it broke my heart the day you died. Today is the anniversary of your death and you left me alone but you entrusted me with Frank and he was the next one to died on me. Missing both of you - you see has broken my heart and spirit you see.  I cry and no one sees my tears that I want to join both of you now in heaven.
What have done to deserve this long life and I had away I would end it today.
My life has to come to end one day and then we will be together forever and day.  I love you both John and Frank.

I  am moving on without any closure from this relationship,
You will not admit you did any wrong but eventully you like the others you will want to see me again. I am moving on because I can' t take the pain that you made me suffer all this year.
The tears, the emotions,  and nervous breaksdowns and you had no regrets at all.
You haven' an ouch of humlity but you want into your church of Christ like you did no wrong. I am moving with a broken heart and I hope in time my heart will heal and tha I will be able to trust another man.  You were selfish, thoughtfuless, and uncaring too. I promise you I will suvive this too. Don't come looking for me in three years because I will turn you away. You will have wished that you bridged the gap between us before you decided to walk away.

My music is me and it tells a lot about me. Every song has a meaning  to me about my life and some phase of it. Every song tells about me and what I have gone through since I turned 18 years old.  Music and writing going together like bread and butter. You need the rhyme to make it right.    The songs I post reflect my pain, my sorrow, my loss, and the love of my life. My depression, my struggles, and eventually my victory. I like all kinds of music  from Bach to the Beatles to 1980's music including roaring 20's and especially the 70's the reflects my incurable romanticism in me.
Music and writing goes hand in hand and like music  poetry and music also goes hand in hand to me.

My soul does scream to be loved for me,
for someone who does not want to change me,
My soul does scream just love me for me,
I am who I am and I am happy as I can be,
I can love you for you for and never asked you
to change, but you asked me to change to much
can't you see.
You thought *** was the most important thing, and
not getting back on your feet. You thought being homeless
was a wonderful thing and living off the system was the easier thing.
My soul screamed out get a job and get us a home, but all you did
was go to the library and get on your Facebook and ****** dating sites.
You cheated on me behind my back and you broke my heart and almost left me to die. My soul does scream I want to be free and all I need now is my own place, two cats, my lap top, internet, and my poetry.

I chose to follow Jesus- He is my Savior and my Lord but not my religion.
Religion is man made and confining and there is no freedom there in . Religion means you are looking for Christ and Spirituality mean you have found Christ and never lost him at all. The only requirements Christ places on you is that you follow him and love your neighbor as yourself.
My faith is grounded in Jesus Christ and The Catholic Faith which is the most united church that I have ever joined. I need a set of rules to live by and based my life upon and I have found these rules within the One true Catholic Church. It is just not enough to go to church on Sunday and Wednesday night, and then do your own thing for the rest of the week.
Catholic Church has Mass every day and not just twice a week. Sunday and Wednesday nights, and they are faithful to their members unlike so many  Protestant Denominations are today.
Yes, I chose to follow Jesus - He is my Savior but not my Religion.

No more happy holidays since the day you died,
No more happy holidays all I do is cry
When I think of those 12 years we spent together
I wish I could go back in time
Bring you back to me and be happy again once again
because you were the best I ever had and my heart broke
in two when I took you off the life support it was to say good bye.
I stood by and watched you leave and my heart broke into I know you knew I loved you and I always will and still do.
I miss you Frank.

One more lonely Christime time becuse you are not by side,
I sit here on Chritmas Eve bu let no see me cry
My heart is broke, my spirit gone, How can Christmas be so glad
when I don't have you anymore.
Just another Christmas time I wish we were together
you are spending with the angels and I spending i alone
because I have not been called home. I hope it is soon because I want to be with your celestial  heaven.

I have met so many men that are Peter Pans, they simply refuse to grow up. They live off women and cheat behind their backs. These women are faithful but the men are not it seems so. They think it is alright to live off women and never to work again.

These men are Peter Pans because they are Mama's boys. They live at home at the age of  47 and never try to live on their own.
Peter Pans please grow up are one day you will experience homeless like me. It is not a pleasant experience I can assure you I promise you that.

There is a song by this name Please lock me away by Peter and Gordon. .  It tells about people that can't live in the world without love or being for for who and what they are. I feel the same way. People love with conditions on I will love you  because you have "money" because you are " beautiful" if you do this for me an that me. They simply can't love you for you and accept you for you  and all your imperfections. Money can be gone in a New York minute, beauty is diminishes in time, but what counts is what is in the person's heart and soul.  A loving touch, I will stick with you thick or thin, for better or for worse and sickness and in health, . You will not run away from that person because they
are sick and because they will not give you *** due to bad health. *** is a secondary need it is not a primary need. So many people don' t understand that.  Making love is not the same thing as high school ***.  If a man needs to take ****** then that is telling the man something his *** life is over and it is time for him to stop being an ***** monger, womanizer, cheater, and player. Please lock me I can't live in a world without true love.

PETER AND GORDON
"A World Without Love"
Play Music
Please lock me away
And don't allow the day
Here inside, where I hide with my loneliness
I don't care what they say, I won't stay
In a world without love
Birds sing out of tune
And rain clouds hide the moon
I'm OK, here I stay with my loneliness
I don't care what they say, I won't stay
In a world without love
So I wait, and in a while
I will see my true love smile
She may come, I know not when
When she does, I'll lose
So baby until then
Lock me away
And don't allow the day
Here inside, where I hide with my loneliness
I don't care what they say, I won't stay
In a world without love
(Please lock me away)
(And don't allow the day)
(Here inside, where I hide with my loneliness)
I don't care what they say, I won't stay
In a world without love
So I wait, and in a while
I will see my true love smile
She may come, I know not when
When she does, I'll lose
So baby until then
Lock me away
And don't allow the day
Here inside, where I hide with my loneliness
I don't care what they say, I won't stay
In a world without love
I don't care what they say, I won't stay
In a world without love

Season of change - that is what autumn and winter bring. No more flowers in bloom, only the leaves turning into autumn hues of golden yellows, reds, and greens. The next season we see is winter with is snow upon the ground and children building snow men and throwing snows ***** around. Thanksgiving is the first holiday giving thanks to the Lord for what he gave us for that year and after Thanksgiving comes Christmas the birth and Nativity of our dear Lord. Some people do not celebrate The Nativity of our Lord they say it is not biblical but that is their excuse.  Christmas is not about receiving of gifts but helping those in need, and remembering how Jesus helped all those in need. Season of change autumn and winter, but spring will come again and flowers will be back in bloom and summer will follow again.