Summer has gone, Autumn will soon pass and there is snow on the ground before Winter is here. Thanksgiving will soon be upon us and we will all be in good cheer but those who suffer mental illness are never in good cheer. They look at the snow fall through their windows because they are not remembered during the holiday season. Some never see their families again and fell that they have all been but abandon. Snow has fall in late November and Thanksgiving is nearly upon us.

JAKE HOLMES – SO CLOSE LYRICS
Where's that smile?
I hope you didn't lose it.
Every now and again,
And wear it once for me.

Sure, I know,
It's been some time between us,
But I had to stand out some,
To get the room to see.

But it's all right now,
Hold on tight now.
I'll be stayin',
I won't go.

Don't you cry now,
We can try now.
Just takes some distance to know...

So close,
We almost couldn't make it.
So close,
But it looks like we're alright.

So close,
I almost couldn't see you.
So close,
But it looks like we're alright.

What a day,
I remember it was even rainin',
And as soon as I'd say goodbye,
I didn't wanna leave.

One last look,
You could see my eyes were askin',
I could feel yours,
Pullin' at my sleeve.

But it's alright now!
Hold on tight now!
I'll be stayin'.
I won't go!

Don't you cry now.
We can try now!
Just takes some distance to know...

So close,
We almost couldn't make it.
So close,
But it looks like we're alright.

So close,
I almost couldn't see you.
So close,
But it looks like we're alright.

Alright!
Alright.

Some things were meant to be when I lost you. I thought I could love another man after  I lost you. I tried to carry on but my life ended when when  you died and my heart broke in two when I had to say good bye to you. I tried to love again, but I could not love again after you. He was to needy wanting to much affection from me . Affection I could not give and all he ever thought was about *** and he was not much of a gentleman. He was not a kind and loving as you and I could not love him true. My whole world fell apart the day I took you off life support and watch you died in front of very eyes. I still can not let you go and I  still can not say good bye because it hurts me so. He lied and cheated on me and left me to die by myself. Something you would never do.
Still can't go on without you but I am trying hard and praying hard that   we will be together in God's Kingdom together. I miss you so and all I can do is cry and remember all the good times we had together. I wish you could come back to me but I know you can't. I am waiting to come to you but everyone is trying to stop me from doing so. I am not same after I lost you. I love you too much still.

Some Things Are Meant To Be Lyrics

Jo: (spoken)
When you were first born, not an hour old, I told Marmee...

Beth: (spoken)
Beth is mine!

Jo: (spoken)
Everyone has someone special in the world, and I have you;
my sweet Beth. Give me a task to do.

Beth:
Let's pretend we're riding on a kite. Let's imagine we're flying through the air!

Jo:
We'll ascend until we're out of sight. Light as paper, we'll soar!

Beth:
Let's be wild, up high above the sand, feel the wind, the world at our command.
Let's enjoy the view, and never land.

Jo:
Floating far from the shore.

Beth:
Some things are meant to be, the clouds moving fast and free.

Jo:
The sun on a silver sea.

Both:
A sky that's bright and blue.

Beth:
And some things will never end.

Jo:
The thrill of our magic ride.

Beth:
The love that I feel inside for you.

Jo:
We'll climb high beyond the break of day.

Beth:
Sleep on stardust, and dine on bits of moon

Jo:
You and I will find the Milky Way. We'll be mad, and explore.
We'll recline a loft upon the breeze.
Dart about sail on with windy ease.
Pass the days doing only as we please, that's what living is for.

Beth:
We'll be mad, and explore. We'll recline a loft upon the breeze.
Dart about sail on wit with ease.
Pass the days doing only as we please, that's what living is for.
Some things are meant to be, the tide turning endlessly,
the way it takes hold of me, no matter what I do,
and some things will never die, the promise of who you are,
the memories when I am far from you.
All my life, I've lived for loving you; let me go now.

Soul-Mate, where are you? Are you out there looking for me
as I am looking for you.
I need a soul-mate that can be true. I need a soul-mate who is
incurable romantic like me, is there such a man please let know .
Soul-Mate can be talk through the night, can resolve our problems
by compromise and not by fight.
Can we agree on many things like making love, and health too.
Because my soul-mate I have my health problems too.
Can you be strong and stay by side rather run away like a chicken in flight.
Can you hold me when I need to be held, and tell me all will be well.
Soul-Mate will you share my faith and go to Mass with me as well.
Can be give and take equally and not use each other you see.
I will you my heart if you give my yours and we will spend the rest of our lives together until it is time to leave this earth.
Death do us part we will see each go and meet each other in a better world.
Soul-Mate I am looking for you or you looking for me. I hope you are looking just like me.

Sunday is such a solemn day. There is not much to do. Most people go to church and watch foot ball too. They put on their best faces and go to church and pray. But when Monday comes around that's when they really   change. They are not really Christians all week through. They are only Sunday Christians and not during the rest of the week.
They need to practice what they preach because if they did they would not be doing what they do.

Thanksgiving Poem of 2014 and here I sit alone. You took off in June and abandon me, and then you ask that I befriend you. I ask my friends they tell me no because you can't be trusted once again. You are still unemployed, chasing a pipe dream of becoming a musician which will never be.  You want to be friends but what did you do you changed your cell phone number on me and blocked me out of your face-book.  Homeless you are and take it as a joke when it is quite serious I can tell you that.
Thanksgiving 2014 was lonely indeed but Thanksgiving of 2015 will be quite different you see.  I am working on me now and then when I am through I hope to have my soul mate too. Someone who will love me for what I am and who I am and not change me into a woman I can't be.
They will love me for better or worse, sickness and in health, rich and poor, until death do we part.  Thanksgiving 2014 was different to me but I still thank God for everything he has done and will do for me.

Thanksgiving 2014 will be different for me. We are not together because you left me. You are in Nashville doing your  thing, and I am in Chicago where I need to be. You are homeless, I am not, I am a poet and writer, and not just a want to be one . You are a want to be musician trying to fulfill a pipe dream but I have real publishers who want to publish me.
I may not have family but I have friends and I know if I need them I can call them you see. Your Thanksgiving will be at mission in Nashville, Tennessee but I will have a Thanksgiving here where I am right now.
The library is closed on Thanksgiving Day and I have my lap to keep me company. There is no way to send you a Thanksgiving Day Card because you blocked me on your Facebook.  You will travel from one church to another if that is fun I think that is not funny. Thanksgiving Day 2014 will certainly be different to me.

The Girl I Mean To Be Lyrics
"The Girl I Mean To Be" was written by Levine Lucy Simon; Norman Marsha.
I need a place where I can go
Where I can whisper what I know
Where I can whisper who I like
And where I go to see them

I need a place where I can hide
Where no one sees my life inside
Where I can make my plans and write them down
So I can read them

A place where I can bid my heart be still
And it will mind me
A place where I can go when I am lost
And there I will find me

I need a place to spend the day
Where no one says to go or stay
Where I can take my pen and draw
The girl I mean to be

SONGWRITERS
LEVINE LUCY SIMON; NORMAN MARSHA

There is a lot say  in one of the songs you listen to if you listen to them all the way through. It may tell how you feel way back when or tell how you right now and every thing . It can tell you how you should feel and may be what you should do but every song has a meaning I am telling you.  I love Karen Carpenter - her songs tell a story about love and life, it tells about her struggles with mental health issues too.  Elton John has great  songs are also so true Don't Go Break My Heart is something everyone will do and Neil Diamond's I believe In Happy Ending tells what we wish but sometimes we don't always get what we wish.  Some of the songs in the Musical The Secret Garden tells you how I am feeling because the girl I mean to be is what I really want to be.  There is a lot to say in a song it can make us unhappy and crying, or make us happy and strong.

There is some one I love but he does not love me. I just wish he knew how I felt for him.  We met one or twice and we are now just friends but we are both incurable romantics and are poets as well.
We both believe we come from a different time and era. We believe the same way about our passion in writing.
He hurt me three times and the last time hurt me bad. I forgave him for that and the love is still there.
He calls me his angel, his best friend, and he values my opinion when he writes his poetry and short stories.  He is cute but vain, and he knows i very well. I just wish he felt the same way for me as well.
We are 12 years of age apart and he means the world to me but he does not feel the same way for me.
He lives with his mother and father you see and until he moves out he will never have a girl friend you see.
He works as a hospital transporter as work, and I am happy he is happy that he is able to work.
I encourage him to write because he has promise you see and I am his angel as I was meant to me.
He is the one I really love but it is not meant to be.

JIM CROCE LYRICS
Play Music
"Time In A Bottle"

If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that I'd like to do
Is to save every day till eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you

If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I'd save every day like a treasure and then
Again, I would spend them with you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do, once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
That you're the one I want to go through time with

If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty, except for the memory of how
They were answered by you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do, once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
That you're the one I want to go through time with

Trust is broke, Trust is gone,
My heart is broken and never sings a song
It goes on beating because it must, alone I live
in my room because I must.
He left me alone to die alone, and he has no regrets
no consciences what so ever what he has done.
He does not think cheating is wrong, he will not admit
he is wrong, and I hope he never hurts another woman
as long as he is a live.
He will use  them for their money and their *** he must have
but no $40.00 for his ****** tablet does he have.
He lives like a beggar, lives on the streets, trying to live the almost impossible dream.  I will be a phoenix bird and rise up for the ashes and he will fall by the way side in Nashville. He would not listen to his friends and he did exactly what he wanted do but I am still standing but will he be standing too. I am waiting.

It has been twelve years ago since you died and left me now. I miss you more than you will ever know. You stuck with me through thick and thin and held me when I needed it and assured me I was going to be alright and that I was going to make it.
We knew each other for 25 years and we planned to be married several times but in the end we knew we could not but we decided to remain friends and   close friends we remained. I was there for you and you were there for me and I know one day I will see you again in Heaven you see. You will have a brand new body one out of pain and suffering and I will have the same you see. When they called me and told me you  died I fell  apart I think I stopped loving and it broke my heart. I have loved after you and he too died on me and now I just won't try again because I can't love again you see. I have loved four men and all have died on me and you all four men are still special to me.  No, I will never love again and give another man my heart because when you died you took it with you.  I was blessed to know such four good men and one day we will all be together again.

THE CARPENTERS LYRICS
"When I Fall In Love"

Maybe I'm old fashioned feeling as I do.
Maybe I'm just living in the past,
But when I meet the right one, I know I'll be true.
My first love will be my last.

When I fall in love
It will be forever.
For I'll never fall in love
In a restless world like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun.

When I give my heart
It will be completely.
For I'll never give my heart.
And the moment I can fell that you fell that way too
Is when I fall in love with you.