we deconstruct
then reconstruct
we deconstruct
then reconstruct
we deconstruct
then reconstruct
we deconstruct
then reconstruct
and it's so hard to tell
if this is heaven or hell
if i am weaker or stronger
if time is shorter or longer
with every choice that I make
the choice then will make me
am i chained or am i free
do i live for you
or do i live for me

my love is cursed.
my heart is the worst.

a love so deep nobody could ever understand.
and a heart so big that I can barely stand.

and one day i know i'll be crushed by it all.
and one day i know it will be my downfall.

cause there's not enough room for anything els.
and it seems along the way i've forgotten myself.

swallowed up my need to constantly give.
cause in my head & my heart,
it's the reason i live.

i had you
but i lost you
i had you
but i tossed you
i had you
but i fought you
and for what
for what
tell me what's the point
if when you find something real
you don't know how to deal
your just scared of how you feel
so you run for you life
and miss out on the chance
to be with this person
in a whirlwind romance
and you'll always think back
to the one that got away
to your foolish mistake
it will keep you awake
if you only had the heart
if you only had the means
to follow your bliss
to pursue your dreams
but that ship has sailed
the anchors pulled in
and maybe one day
you'll cross paths again
and maybe the next time
you will have the guts
to just take the leap
no if's, and's or but's
and now your staring at him
with someone els in your head
he'll never be him
and you'd rather be dead
then to keep on living
a life that's a lie
but it's all your fault
your decisions are why
you're here in the first place
with the wrong man for you
when you once had the right one
and what did you do
you gave it all up
when the going got tough
and he was the only one
who made you feel like enough
just as you are
he saw what most don't see
he took it all in
he let it all bleed
he was my soul mate
he was my best friend
and nobody's come close
to ever understand
the way that i think
and the way that i feel
and i don't think i'll ever
find something so real
so all i can do
is stay here and deal
and just do my best
to move on and heal
i had you
but i lost you
i had you
but i tossed you
i had you
but i fought you
and for what
for what?!

see more.
breathe more.
take a leave more.
read more.
write more.
drop the strife more.
sing more.
dance more.
take a chance more.
do more.
play more.
seize the day more.
say more.
hear more.
hold someone near more.
love more.
give more.
cause we all gotta live more.

Crimson *****
You aren't of this world
With your purity and goodness
Backed with the passion & heart of a warrior
A warrior that dances to battle
That's dances to the sweet nothings that love whispers
That knows all the words to your favorite song
To our song
To the song of you
The one my ears we're formed to hear
& There you are
Illuminated
By the suns rays
Spotlighted
In the most beautiful of ways
& I can see all the colours of nature
Playing off your face
All the colours of beauty, in you
And I want to be painted by all of it
By all of you
So let's paint this whole town red
With glory and love
And they can all wake up to a city
Marked by a crimson *****
Touched by the hands of graceful passion
Of somebody who was burnt before
But bares no fear to be burned once more
Not when in the name of love
In the name of all things good
And real
And her
She would stand there flaming
And dancing still
Like the most tragically beautiful
Yet inspiring reckless thing you've ever seen
Lighting the way for me
For us all
I move closer
I need to feel her heat
I need to jump inside her fire
And let everything els just burn away
Until we are left there naked
No hands to hold
Just soul in soul
With everything anyone ever wanted
Realizing that you must let go of everything
In order to gain it all
& Now nothing can stop your flight of freedom
No flesh or bones
Could hold these spirits now

if your heart is hurting
give it to me
and i will carry it
with hands of love
and tenderness
until it is no longer sore

if your soul is lost
then let me find it
i will illuminate it
with my love
and the courage i have
to unceasingly give it

if your feet are tired
from running
rest here with me
and i will soothe you
with my love
and gentle kisses

if your mind is gone
from thinking
then let me fill it
with warm thoughts
and poetry
about the effects
of your ever-changing beauty

i will reach into the darkness
and pull you out
i'll make a home in your heart
and chase your demons out
i will sing you love songs
louder then the voices in your head
and you'll forget what it feels like
to wish you were dead

you look like the sunrise
salt water in your eyes
you move like ocean tides
rushing in and out of my mind
washing away
other thoughts in your wake
until i can see nothing
but your beautiful face
and here in your wake
i find myself a boundless child
dancing under an infinite sky
with sun in my dress
flowers in my hair
and sugar in my smile
i'm a flower grown wild
and bathed in love