please don't tell me
how to feel
I'm tryin my hardest
to keep it real
please don't tell me
who I can love
what gives you the notion
that you are above
let me love,
& let me live
let me give
all that I have to give
I wanna learn
all that there is
I wanna dance
in natures winds
If I don't fall fast
then I don't fall
I want a whirlwind of life
Or nothing at all
I don't wanna be bland
I wanna dress for the ball
Have a blast
Make things last
Wear my life proud and tall
And my heart on my sleeve
Always waiting to be taken
Because life's for takin chances
And here it is in the making

you knew that the heart
in this anxious chest
was made of glass
protected by a rib cage
that was made of twigs & sticks
but you still threw rocks at it
and now you are
the stained & shattered pieces
that was once my beating heart
and i hold on to you
even though you cut right through
even though i'm drowning
in my own blood
the blood of a **** fool
choking on my own tears
suffocated by my worst fears
& all i can taste is regret
and hate
and regret
and pain
and regret
it's all so bitter on my tounge
that is now crowded in my mouth
because i still haven't been able to swallow
the last words you yelled out
before you took your leave
that this wasn't meant to be
that i'm not what you need
i just can't choke them down
because a moment ago
i was your everything
i was the songs you sing
the one to wear your ring
and now you're telling me
that this pain i feel
isn't something that's real
that this heart break
that's making my head ache
was what was ment to be
was our real destiny
but how the **** can that be
somehow i gotta stop this pain
blackout these memories
cause they're all that remains
i gotta pick up the pieces
and get out my glue
put my heart back together
and get the hell over you

one day your gonna look at someone
and in one beautifully
breathtaking moment
all the other painful moments
moments of confusion
of heart break
of destruction
and unraveling
with everyone els
will suddenly make sense
will suddenly have reason
and you won't even see it coming
all those moments of defeat
and despair
were preparing you
were leading you
towards this day
and this face
staring back at me
like i'm the sun
because i'm the one
& all those moments
were just prolonging
the inevitable moment
where you i
finally collide
and lock eyes
and realize
that everyone els
was just a lesson
a detour
a stepping stone
to a real home
to a real adventure
to a real love
where we can live
in our prime light
bathed in lime light
as ever-changing
enigmas of love
and passion
and exploration
no fear is found
no judgments sound
it's just you and i
& the answers to life
living like gods
& loving unconditionally
with effortless simplicity
wrapped up in fate's mystery

why do you insist on breaking my heart...
i've been there for you, right from the start.
i did what i thought was best for you,
and this what you wanna put me through?
i changed alot, to be who you need.
but you had no interest in changing for me.
i tried so hard to give you my best.
but it wasn't enough, you put me to the test.
my love is something i don't wanna hide,
but you always made me keep it inside.
and all i wanted was to scream to the world,
that you were my guy, and i was your girl.
but i was made to feel like i was a shame,
and after a while, it felt like a game.
it felt like a game that i was loosing,
and through it all, my heart was bruising.
and when i asked for a little more,
you directed me towards the door.
so eventually i had to break,
cause there's only so much i can take.
and what els is there left for a girl to think,
except inevitably, we were going to sink.
and now your making me feel like ****,
well **** that noise, i'm done with this.

people arrive in our lives
like lightening bolts from the sky
striking us as they ride
shooting sparks up our spine
they're electrifying
make you feel like your flying
they're all that you want
but your so scared of trying
cause your hearts still in hiding
from the last time it stormed
it was left in cold
but it wants to be warm
and there's a light in his eyes
that just comes alive
when they meet up with mine
and i could probably just die
right where i am
right in his grace
and the last thing i'll see
is that magnificent face
and that would be okay
but it scares me to think
that i'm falling so fast
can you pour me a drink
now i know it may seem
i'm all over the place
but i can't process life
when my heart starts to race
and i can't dance my best
when my knees start to shake
but i want to impress you
cause your heart i must take
and i can't help but wonder
if you care just as much
do you get hot & bothered
at the feel of my touch
do you think it is risky
if i finish this whiskey
i might stay the whole night
tryin to get you to kiss me
do you know that i want
to give you the world
and all i ask in return
is that you make me your girl
as the hours do thin
my bravery does thicken
me palms become moist
my sentences quicken
i've been watching you now
for just long enough
to gather the courage
to show you my love
and i hope you don't run
cause i'm finally dry
from the last lightening storm
and the tears that i cried.

there will be someone
at some point
who's brought into your life
and in an instant
everything changes
there will be no time to think
to process or understand
the only thing you will know
is how you feel
and how you feel
will be fucken great
dangerously great
the kinda great that really hurts
when it's not there anymore
the kind great you would climb mountains for
just to see their breath-taking view
and the moment before you meet
everything will be whirl-winding
but once they're there
everything will fall into place
you will feel an irreplaceable feeling
of peace and tranquility
of being found
not knowing you were even lost
until the moment that they saw you
of being home
not knowing you had ever left
until the moment that you saw them
& it may happen outta no where
but there will be no denying it when it does
this person will take you the places you've never been
tell you all the things you wished to hear
know exactly what to do
to squash your doubts or fears
they will attract you
as if there were magnets
in both of your souls
that only attract to each other
and nobody els could see
or a language for our hearts
that nobody els could speak
whatever it may be
once you know they exist
your life as you know it
will cease to exist
suddenly, the only life you will see
is a life with them in it
and anytime their love is lacking
so will your life be
and it will be the worst and best thing
that you will ever come to know or feel
but knowing that something like that can exists
is what makes living so exciting & real

kiss me under the stars
we will hold tight
in the moon's light

kiss me under the sheets
in the morning time
bathed in sunrise

kiss me under the trees
as the leaves fall
and my breath stalls

kiss me under city lights
as the world cheers
we are born here