Her soul is lost,
love she yearn
Her mind is set,
but her soul burns
her journey is short,
but her fight is long
Love she wants,
but pain is her song
she lust for happiness,
but endure hurt
She needs a hand,
but to mine she will turn
She wants the truth ,
but knows only lies
she shows she strong,
and alone she cry's
she loves him yes,
but needs him not
she blames her past,
but admits shes lost
she prays to god,
but sin is easy
I am her brother,
but she doesn't need me

Or rather what she needs i cant give
and the comfort i give she doesn't want
I try to be guidance but she is to blind to see
The path she is traveling is just down stream

No I'm not the best person in the world
I wasn't born with a golden spoon
But god loves me too
No i don't sit behind no pulpit and scream god all day
Or walk up the street like i just worship and pray
But god loves me too
No I'm not saved at least not yet
but god loves me and that i bet
He loves me as much as he loves you
From the top of my head to my feet too
God loves me
Yes i curse every now and then
I fall short to peer pressure with my friends
But god loves me too
Yes i drink and talk about god
but that is because he is working on my life
Yes i smoke my cigarettes and drink my beer
And there are times that i don't care
Other times i act a fool
But god loves me too

Broken promises, thoughts, and dreams
What u thought or wanted i cant seem to be
Broken words fall from your lips
And **** how quickly you forget
Forget that you cursed me hell called me everything in the book
Your words,your disrespect,because your my parent i have overlooked

I am..........Broken
From my heart love for my parents, you my parents have stolen
along time ago may i add
Oh you cant figure well then do the math
You have crumbled me every time i tried to please
or even put ya mind to ease drama i squeezed to seize
But... you still say who i am is not good enough
you eat my dreams,and fantasy's for lunch
    So why should i care?.....
Why should i want u to be there
See i try to understand your method of life
And have grown to learn that it isn't right
You say your dreams for me i have stolen
Well who cares that the love i had for u my parents in my heart is broken

So many has laughed,clowned,disrespected,and screamed i would fell
But i grin the biggest grin with one thought "i found myself"
So many has degraded me and basically mocked
See i stress the new me as u mock
So continue please, ya hatred is just that I'm not as ****** up as u
I made it ,I came through i am the new
The new beginning the next generation
I am the seduction the new sensation
So you did all that but look at me with naked eyes
Probably wishing hoping, yearning,i would spread ya thighs
Your even being my paparazzi wanting to kno how i did it
How i took my problems and made them smaller than bacon bits
Or how i flushed drama like i do ****
You can say I'm quick to dismiss
Things that don't matter in my head never exist
I am the real the one you want to know
I am what u wished to be but that wish never came true
So here i come to fulfill it for you
So no more laughs,disrespect, or dumb glares
See where i been ya brain couldn't even try to go there
i am better then the rest my name has been put to the test
Softly Spoken but refuse to take your mess

If u believe in Jesus Christ and he died on the cross ya soul would be saved
Religious folks stress that everyday
"(Come as u are)" words that come out they mouth
But if your  not like them they single u out
"(No sin is greater then the next or to be speccific the rest)"
well lets put your faith to the test
I'm a sinner at least that is what u would say
But i believe he died for me" doesn't that make me saved?
I walk in the c Church with baggy jeans
And after service they say next time a dress please
My sin is a abomination in his sight
so you look at me  different, am i right?
You point at me look me up and down
Shake your head and say my soul wont be found
You don't even like me in your church
And question my being on Sunday when u see me on my porch
followed by u telling me i need th find the lord
And then behind my back cut me like a sword
But i believe he died for me so doesn't that make me saved?
at least that's what they say
but that's until they find out Im gay....

There's so much on my mind my brain is about to explode
No longer having nothing to lean on or keep me whole
I've been disowned by half of my family because of decisions I've made
All the debts I have in life I'm beginning to pay
So many problems begin to bottle up inside
I keep them in 'well' at least I try
Here is a brief of what I'm going through
Sit back relax and read a poem of a fool
I got caught up in a relationship i can hardly handle
My whole life seems to be a scandal
I dropped out of school my biggest mistake
So far away i don't want to go back and that i hate
I've got a little sister who I've hurt so bad
The pain she have for me makes me sad
I'm in love and don't think the person feel the same
Everyday i wake up my life is going to waist
Finally heard from my mother who im eager to see
But the love for a man is more important than me
My father lost faith he is back on drugs
Wanting to erase everything and bring it back like it was
My older sister is doing her own thing
And for everything I just wrote I seem to be the blame
It seem like its small nut you don't understand
All I want is a helping hand
I want to grow up but I'm scared
I cant handle things now what will I do then
There is so much on my mind my brain is about to explode
Even with those that care for me I still feel alone




     i wrote this when i was 16 yrs old

Dark clouds come and nights get gloomy
Sometimes I feel alone like no one hear me
The rain falls down and it gets me depressed
Every struggling moment is just a test
keep in your head 'every victory is mine'
No matter what happens the sun still shine
When nights get dark and days get cold
Even when goals never reached begin to get old
Keep your head up and keep in your mind
The sun still shines
The sun will shine when rainy days decide to come
Dark clouds come to override the sun
Life is just a test made for us
To conquer all should be your goal
The eagerness to accomplish should make you bold
It"s really easy once you understand and comprehend
Life is a battle made for us to win
Get through the rain and see clear sky s
you know **** well the sun still shine