Who can i run to?
when bad dreams take over my sleep
lonely days depress me forcing me not to eat
Who can i run to?
when tears fall and my heart overflow with broken promises
hatred preys on my soul waiting to demolish it
Who can i run to?
when i am alone with no one around
with not even a hand to help me off the ground
Who can i run to?
when the fool i play and i am looking for advice
but everywhere i turn there is more pain and strife
Who can i run to?
when I'm heart broken
or when my heart has been trampled and stolen
Who can i run to?      
Can i run to you?
As an escape away or out
or even direction to a exit route
Can i run to you?
will you free my soul;
make me whole
teach me a lesson i yet not know;
or will you just let me go
Will my cross be to much for you to bare?
Will you leave with not even a care?
Will you be true?
or make me the fool
will you do me as others has done you?
Alone I don't know what to do
so tell me when life is to much bare
when i give up and no longer care
when i become content with loneliness
because love i dismissed
when suicide sounds like it's the right thing to do
Tell me Who can i run to?????????

Ones train of thought is lost in the current
To regain it i would need some reassurance
Heart has stopped for a minute which seems like a life time
Looking around because i think i have lost my mind
Legs shaky, body seems to become weak
Soul is on fire, Do you feel the heat?
Head spinning as if i had drunk a whole bottle of gin
Feet planted to the ground no way to move
No way to talk my voice i begin to loose
Everything seems to get blurry to my eyes
Whatever emotions i had on the ground it lies
The question is how this all begin
A woman i called a friend
Invited me over for a glass of wine
For conversation and a good time
In the process of me leaving to head home
There was  pause at the door as our minds was stuck to roam
So to build up my courage i whispered a goodnight
An thank you, i had fun and to do it again would be right
She gave me a hug and caressed me slow
Something kept telling me to get out that door
She moved toward me my lips to her lips
Don't get me wrong i wanted it
Like a coroner she pronounced me dead at the scene
When asked the cause of death she replied it was me
Lock her up the police screamed strong and  steady
And book her for carrying a kiss so deadly

Looking in the mirror and the face that looks back i hate
All the pain and misery you put me through your a **** disgrace
Why are you staring at me with such evil eyes?
Every word that comes out your mouth is a lie
Tears running down my eyes and you look back overjoyed
I tried to go the right direction but my life you have destroyed
Relationship failing and its all because of you
You took all of my weakness and used it as a tool
I hate what i see because i feel like nothing
All the hurt in me you used it as a suction
And ****** all the good from my lips
So now what i speak cuts me like a whip
Staring at this person and just going off
******* its your fault we are lost
If only you would of told me to do right
I wouldn't be standing here with this gun tonight
It's over you destroyed me now it is time to destroy you
I looked in the mirror pulled the trigger and killed me too
As my spirit lifted from my body i realized the person i seen in the mirror was me
But because i was so lost the inner person within i didn't see
Now my soul wanders because i didn't mean to **** her
Now knowing it was me i that i destroyed in the mirror

Tears ran down my eyes for those i love
Even the one's i despise but they don't know

Yesterday i cried for my mother;
S he did me wrong but i still love her

Yesterday i cried for my dad;
I think the day his brother died is when he went mad

Yesterday i cried for my little sister;
She is lost in the world and there is no one to fix it

Yesterday i cried for my oldest sister Nichole;
It's a shame she might raise her sons on her own

Yesterday i even cried for you;
The things you go through people have no clue

Yesterday i cried, Yes i cried for me;
For what i deserved and those i really did need

Yesterday i cried, But i live for today;
So my tears for yesterday are my old way

I might think about it but i will not cry
See I'm one out of so many that have survived
A affect on me my past did have
But today I'm learning how to deal with that

Today, I will sleep better tonight when i lye
And that is because Yesterday I Cried

My legs have there own mind at this point;
From my hips to my knees really every joint;
Gone and i cant even stop;
Even if i wanted to I'm not;
Yes I'm tired, but not because I'm running;
Its the lies, the haters, and those who don't really want nothing;
For i have tried this love thing one to many times;
And in return i have been hurt time after time;
Head straight one foot after the other;
I'm covering my tracks there will not be another;
I refuse to go through the same thing all over again;
you know the one minute they love you and then its lets be friends;
Crazy maybe i am;
Or could it be i met to many who just didn't give a ****;
Fill your head up with so many dreams;
Of a better life, love, kids, school, marriage so many things
And when they got you those dreams begin to fade;
Followed by your tears, there excuse and the I'm sorry but we need to separate;
No looking back for me , NOPE i can say never;
I keep telling myself that and day by day it sounds more clever;
Don't tell me you love me because i don't care;
I guess you can say I'm running scared;
But after you been hurt so many times you no longer trust;
And you learn the difference of love and lust;
I'm passing trees like lightening in the sky;
Running as if some one behind me is trying to take my life;
When i say I'm running scared it is not literally;
I am not in a marathon trying to get to the next street;
My heart is blocked love i now run from;
I'm more protected then a bullet proof vest and you are holding a love gun;
that four letter word in my heart is not there;
Y well because with love I'm running scared

Put a persuasion of love in my thoughts
Make my eyes focus on your walk
****** me with words that fall from your lips
Then leave me and you i will miss
Make me need a touch from you
Hypnotize me to do what you want me to
Take me mind, body, and soul
Sexually tear me apart and begin to make me whole
Kiss me slowly bring my body to ease
Take your hand and caress every part of me
Steal me away from the world for a while
Exhaust me like i have ran 100 miles
Give me your body to feed
Show me things i have not yet seen
Remove stress off of me one by one
Take me from the moon and give me to the sun
****** my soul from death and give me life
In the bleary darkness be my light
Turn me into a tree and you be the wind to make me move
Whisper a melody of moans to keep me in the mood
Take me and embed me inside of you
Remove doubt from my mind and be come only truth
Relax me comfort is all i need
And in the process of all that -- *** ME!

Walking back and forth panting as i breath
I looked up and the problem i seen
I hate you, you unemotional freak!
Everything you do falls back on me
You are destroying my life piece by piece
All i want is happiness cant you see!
No one loves me and it is all your fault
I cant stand you! I hope you get caught
I despise the look of you right now as i speak!
One thought of you and i cant eat
Just leave get out of my way!
(I screamed go!) I no longer want to play
You have that evil smile and stupid glare
Your whole demeanor  is you don't care
Took me from something to nothing
I hate you! I hate you! cant you tell
I hope you have a ticket straight to hell
Then all of a sudden someone asked me whats wrong
I point, and say my life this fool has torn
Are you okay "someone replied"
I just want this evildoer to die
Don't stop me I'm going to  **** her
And softly someone replied" but I'm just your reflection in the mirror"