Roses are red
Violets are blue
*******
I love you
I miss you
I hate you
You hate me too

In my memories
You belong to me
And we belong to each other
It’s a sacred place

I hope my gaze
Is burned into your brain
So when you and her
And
Her and you
Are in that space
You hate yourself

I wish so badly,
To not know small things about you,
Give me something that makes me dislike you

Ive been exhausted
I’ve eat the dirt and
I’ve drowned before
I almost died
Maybe once or twice
But I’m still here
I’m still here I could appreciate
The sun, the moon, and the stars

Waiting for the day
I look back on my own words
With disdain
Instead of longing

So you think
You make me weak in the knees
But really
I’m just trying to
Carve as many names
As I can
Into this tree, I am
Wittle away at me

Are you as sad as I am without you
I won’t say that I’m without joy
Because I do find certain moments
But nothing
Nothing compares to how I feel
When you say hi to me

Today I miss you
Tomorrow I might not think of you again
It’s been on and off lately
Which is much better than always on
I love you
I miss you
I miss the way you were always there
Small moments are the ones I never reveled in enough
Even though I thought I was soaking them up
I find myself staring in the mirror
I hope we meet in another life Bryce
And I hope we get to do it right in that one
The love I have for you is enough to bring me to my knees when I close my eyes

Because I wake up in the morning
And start my day thinking about you
Somewhere between packing lunches
And taking Gabriel to school
Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night too
I think you must be somewhere there
Me on your mind as well
I will never be able to love anyone else the way that I love you
The worst part is being able to move on, knowing nothing will ever be good enough
Nothing will ever be the same
Nothing will ever matter as much
I have moved on to focusing on my sons life
To get him to his happy place
I wonder when I will look up and see my own wrinkled hands
Even then, I know I will miss you
That’s what breaks me, knowing we will go from old to young
It makes no sense, you are my soulmate you know
Even after all this time, even after all these years
It’s all the same, how I feel inside about you
All the dust you kicked up, has settled
And I know now that you see me there too
It’s why you can’t help yourself
Please call me
Call me call me call me
We can talk and be full

Nevermind
I take it all back

Thinking of you
Always thinking of you
When I close my eyes
I can feel you close yours too
And for a moment
We are together
Missing each other

It doesn’t matter if I can’t see you
hear you,
or even speak to you sometimes
It could be 8 years
Or 1 year
And I always feel the same
You bring me to my knees

I miss you today
I miss you every day
I love you and I say it out loud to myself sometimes
Growing up makes me want to put sticks in my eyes
Because it should all be easier than this
It should be easier for me to see you
And I wish we could go back
To the camper
Sitting outside
Talking for hours
But this time instead of being an idiot
I would go to the back with you
Lay down in the room
I really love you man and I miss you
And I miss you I miss you I miss you
The more I say it, I’m just trying to drill it in
I hope you can hear it

I miss you so much
I’m begging so badly I would pull my heart out if you need
Give me a chance
Let me talk to you
Call me please
I can not stop thinking about you

I open my eyes and
There you are in my mind
Can’t I please hold you again

And then
things go back to normal
regularly scheduled programming
Regular, every day
Mundane things
With the sharpness of a blade
I think about your hands
How big they are compared to mine
But these are seconds inside of
Large moments
-I will always miss you-

Breathe
Grit your teeth
Move on
Try to not listen
To the sound
Of the nails
On the chalkboard
Breathe

He’s lying next to her
While dreaming of me
And
My bed is cold

I keep trying to talk to you
Reach out to you
How long will it be this time
Another year
Maybe 5
I love you

Woman
Mother
Daughter
Wife

Pictures play
For each word
A box is created
Without hesitation

Jam yourself in it
Make them all smile

Just another day
Kick back
Wait six more months
And
We will be cool again

That’s usually this goes

You’re unhappy without me
I can feel it
So
Why don’t you just
Come home

And be thankful you are alive
Because
Without you
They would have never met at all
If it hadn’t been for you
He’d still be getting married
And they would just be coworkers

And in either scenario
You realize
With or without you
He’d have gone on
Life would have gone on

There isn’t at least one moment
Where I don’t think of you
On any day
Even when you are away

Call me
Call me and I’ll answer
Just like I always have
Call me

I wish I loved you less
And I loved
me
more
I wish I loved myself the way
I loved you
Or I loved anyone else
I wish I could
Do that

The sun rises
And you think of me

-this is a fact of life-

Do you come and go
Because it’s hard for you
Is it hard to talk to me
And think of everything we could be
Because I’d be with you
In anyway I could

I am trying not to change
In the way rocks remain forever
Only weathered
I am made of flesh, bone, and blood
But I am still finding pieces of myself
Blown away

The only time
Any man saw me
Was with
Eyes closed
Hands open

How dare the day keep going on
How rude
Don’t the sun and the moon
Know you died
Can’t the earth hear me cry
Why is it still spinning
Why does every day still
Go on

Have you ever been in love?
It eats you
It consumes your body
Toes to head
Wildfire takes over
And it burns you up
How did you exist without
That’s what you will ask yourself
Have you ever been in love?

You ask me how I’m doing.
Everyone asks how are you doing?
Can you smell death on me?
I skate over this, like an Olympic champion trained since 3.
I don’t answer.
I refuse to submit and say that I am fine anymore.
I am not fine.

I don’t write this poetry
For you
Because it’s cute
I write this
Because I
I am filled with passion
Brimming
Teeming
And the amount of things I
Hold inside myself
Have poured over enough
To make an ocean
For you to swim in

Boys don’t ride on horses
Or speak carefully
Boys break bones
And they
Bellow with rage
Guttural scream
Boys are not gentle
They do not smell
Of cream

You can hold something empty
But it’s still empty

I think if you just go
Things would be a lot better
For us both
If you just
Forgot about me
Forgot about this place
Not us
Because that
That never was

Give me one day of peace
One day where you don’t
Cross my mind

Have you ever
Laid in bed next to
someone you love

And prayed for
Your true love to
Fall out of the sky

We are
Just flesh and bone
But you
You are the sun on my skin

I was ready to be done now
And I never wanted to be ready again
Ready to be ready
And not done
I’m tired of them
Putting their hands
And words all over me
I’d rather be alone
They take up my time
To be free

Somedays I miss you so much
It feels like there is no one else in this world
To talk to
It’s been almost a year
I still think about you every day
I’ve forced my thoughts to be farther between
Because I know the amount of good
It does me
I wish I could stop putting you in the front
Of this in invisible line
I love you so much
Sometimes I close my eyes and I pretend
If I think it hard enough
You will feel that moment too

I can’t possibly understand how it could be anyone other than you
I thought maybe we finally had our chance
Our day beneath the honeysuckle
I miss you
Trying to figure out why you’d stop
Talking to me
I want to finally share that meal
So much time has passed and
I’m almost 30 now
Please call me
Please call me

Maybe she didn’t get her marriage
Maybe I ruined that
She successfully solidified her place in your life
She poured the cement around her feet next to you
She was able to put herself in all the places I wanted to be
And I guess I was okay with that
I had to be
But I missed you
And I missed you
And I missed you
And I will miss you for the rest of our lives
How can I feel that you aren’t happy?

I love you
And I miss you
And I love you
They are synonymous

All the decorations on his walls, were hung up by me.
I pushed the tacks in the wall, the ones you look at while you **** him.

Dillan, I can’t stop thinking about you
I just want to hear from you

“That’s life
Why would
It change now”
- still woozy

Though the setting may change

The background remains the same