I once had a dream
Of thousands of faces
All of me
Along the sea
Each one had an idea in her head
And a pure beat to her heart
But one by one they started falling into the sea
Whether push or jump I watched me
Drowning in forgotten love, almosts, and could have been
Melting away into the night at the worlds end
Many a book could have been wrote
Many a dollar could have been made
Many things lost in blue
Thrown in by family, lovers, liars, thieves, and friends
Cast aside by fakers acting as kin
Some just couldn't take it and tossed themselves in
Drowning in what could have or should have been
Then there was one
She was older now than the rest
She had walked many miles
Carried her heart heavy but strong in her chest
She had lived
And she had learned
What is right
And what is always wrong
She alone could withhold the sea from engulfing what was left of me
She came forward
She is as I was
She is what I will be
She is what I am
She is what I needed so desperately to see
No words were spoken but I understood what she meant
I see the woman she was and the woman I could be
She looked back as she headed forth into the sea
She didn't sink she didn't swim
Only floated away from me
And then I awoke and looked into the mirror
And the face in the glass wasn't the same as before
Green eyes, sparkling smile, creases, hair curly and beautiful.
Older and wiser
Young and ready
The strength in the woman I am within
My light that has always shown through
Even amidst the darkest of night
Will always be true
To me to them to you
That girl I used to be was innocent
She was beaten and used
Her voice was too weak
That girl is just a memory
The rebirth of a powerful woman
I am transforming from my cocoon
Raising my voice high
Spreading my wings as far as can be
There a little sore
But you can only know true love when you understand pain
I am happy
I am altruistic. And that's ok.
my dreams awakened the butterfly in me
Time has put the girl to rest
To drown in the sea
Future has awoken the woman
To capture the ocean
Set her soul free

Dark secrets beg mercy
again questions awakened
friends mistakes...disaster
days swiftly collide into nights
music rains gloriously in my ears
magic singing melodious transitions
seconds travels into time
art awakens tomorrows muse
summer celebrates brilliant life
yellow morning
bluest night
shivers speak loud vibes
as loves regrets scream and cry
today chaos
tomorrows tears
dangerous freedom
forever's years

I start to dig a hole.
                              Inch by inch,
Deeper into the dirt of my life.
      The hole is 5 feet 1 inches long.
It is 7 feet deep.
Deep enough, so I can't get myself out.
      You are standing above me.
                                                      Watching
       Telling me, you love me.
                              The dirt gets harder to dig
My arms start to ache
       You tell me you can make it easier.
I throw dirt at you,
                               just to see if you'd have a reaction for once.
All you do is smile,
                               Wipe the dirt from your face
"Start to serenade me with your words, please"
              I'm begging now.
Again, you tell me you love me.
The sunlight beats down at my back.
              I'm burning.
I can't help think, that I'm digging a hole to hell.
                                 And I'm almost there.
You tell me to stop
               Actually offer down your hand.
I wipe the sweat from my brow,
for a second consider getting out.
             Instead,
                          Order you to take the shovel.
                          Ignore your condescending gesture.
Lay down,
                   and watch as I'm buried in your good intentions.

sometimes i don’t feel like talking
all i want to do is sleep
but every time i lay my head
all i hear is you in my bed

you push me here
you force me there
you say you love
do you really care

i hide my darkest secret down inside
i set it so far deep
because you’d know i lied

you see my true colors
like none else could
thats why my secrets buried
so id never be misunderstood

do you really even know me
do you want to know the truth
because the heart in me
always brings me back to you

i wish i could erase time
and head back to that day
that day i felt alive
the only one in your mind

time works like light
it fades every hour
made you melt away
change all your colors

a piece of me is missing
because its in your eyes
nothing i could ever say
could make you truly see
that what has been blinding you
was killing the part of you and me

i love you like an old song
thats overplayed
they say things come and go
but i want you closer to me
there has to be some other meaning
for why things have been changing

but when you go
you always go so far
you're always running
but never into my arms

why can’t i say no
why can’t i just stay
why will you always be
that one spark
that ignites life in me

want to let you go
do you want me to stay
why is it so hard
to say what i want to say

i love you like a painting
thats fraying at the edges
the artists strokes of fate
that left us with no meaning
just unanswered questions
and a beautiful beginning

my gemini minds
got me wound up all the time
theres constellations glowing in my eyes
you can see them sparkling when i cry

my heart is beating
to a book you are reading
turn the pages of my life
to your surprise
all you'll see is sunny clear blue skies

my light is glowing
from my fingers its flowing
i must insist
even though you resist
don't be scared just trust me a bit

call me a white witch
serve cold on a white dish
you didn't see it coming
my spell is growing
transformation forming in the morning

i put a spell on you
white magic
white magic
yeah i put a spell on you